actually saw some snow this morning...

 it was kind of funny this morning. i opened the garage door to go down and get the paper and there was the UPS driver walking up the driveway. i think we were both surprised to see each other.

it snowed a little this morning. nothing stuck but it was nice to see some flurries at least 8 days before Christmas.

Smackdown and NXT Level Up were both really good last night.

AEW Rampage was excellent last night.

Young Rock was pretty funny last night.

both episodes of Random Acts of Flyness were beautifully strange last night. next week is the season finale.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Saturday Night Live and WWE Tribute to the Troops.

the New York Knicks won last night in Chicago, 114-91.

here are your NBA highlights from last night:

the Dayton Flyers play Wyoming tonight in Chicago. i'm really hoping Dayton finds a way to win tonight.

the New York Rangers play tonight in Philadelphia. hopefully they will keep their winning streak going.

i was up in time to watch the 3rd place game today at the World Cup. Croatia defeated Morocco, 2-1.

i'm sure i will watch some of the NFL games today as well as some college basketball and football. and sometime today i will get my mother's Christmas gifts wrapped. and i need to vacuum the house. and i think i need to do my mother's laundry as well. so yeah, just another boring weekend.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday. be safe and if you are doing some shopping, feel free to get me something.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

tiempo para alguna disfunción de vacaciones

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

FenixDion - Sugar

Kennebec w/Hemlock Ernst and Sudan Archives - Tall Tales

Run-DMC - Christmas In Hollis

Logan Mize and Jill Martin - Wrapped

The Dollyrots - Because I'm Santa

"A great poet is the most precious jewel of a nation." - Ludwig van Beethoven

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

and of course, it had to start raining...

 so, i was all gung ho to get a haircut today and get the Christmas trees and decorations up around the house, etc. and of course, it just had to fucking rain today. and arthritis decided to put a sharp knife into my plans, so yeah. not good.

i did watch a good portion of that crazy game last night between the Chargers and Chiefs. 

NXT UK was really good last night.

mom's doctor's appointment went well yesterday, just was long as hell. it was over a hour long appointment. so afterwards, we went to Perkins to have lunch/early dinner. good times.

the season finale of Desus & Mero last night was fucking great.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, AEW Rampage and Chillin Island. i'll watch 205 Live sometime tonight on Peacock.

here are your NBA highlights from last night:

the New York Rangers play tonight at home against Las Vegas. i'm a little surprised they are playing given all the fucking cancellations in the sports world going on. hopefully, the Rangers will win and no one gets fucking COVID.

the New Orleans Saints coach tested positive today, so he's going to miss the Sunday night game at Tampa Bay now. joy.

i should be on here tomorrow before Dayton plays at Ole Miss tomorrow evening.

i need to take a shower and figure out what the fuck i am making for dinner tonight.

i hope everyone has a great weekend. i hope the weather is good for all the procrastinators that haven't started their Christmas shopping yet. 

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay socially distant.

get the fucking shot.

al menos mi nueva información de salud llegó hoy

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Moonchild w/Alex Isley - You Got One

Bartees Strange w/Armand Hammer - Free Kelly Rowland

Jewel - La Vie En Rose

Girl Named Tom - No Snow for Christmas

Joan Osborne - What Do Bad Girls Get?

"Music should strike fire from the heart of man, and bring tears from the eyes of woman." 

                                                                                                              - Ludwig van Beethoven

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

they tried their hardest to piss me off...

 so, Manchester United started like shit today against the worst team in the Premier League. thankfully, it seemed like they finally woke the fuck up and scored the next 3 goals. of course, it got nervy at the end when it became 3-2, but United held on, against a team they should fucking destroy, for the victory. they are now up to 6th in the league and play Leeds this weekend.

NXT was really good last night.

AEW was really good last night as well.

the finale of The Masked Singer was good last night. i did correctly guess the winner of the show, The Sun.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Young Sheldon, B Positive, The Unicorn, Cari & Jemele Won't Stick to Sports, Miz & Mrs and Total Bellas. i'll watch NXT UK sometime tonight on WWE Network.

i did some work on my baseball cards today and last night. i went through all the good ones and separated the rookies from the other cards. i'm really going to be pushing to sell the rookies when 2021 rolls around. 

i decided to put up my Christmas tree today. i figured the living room needed to be a touch livelier. 

i'm a little sad today. the guy who played Boba Fett passed away.

https://www.ign.com/articles/star-wars-boba-fett-jeremy-bulloch-actor-dies

if i get bored tonight, i guess i will watch a little football. the Raiders and Chargers play tonight.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

until then kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

wear your mask.

solo otra navidad solitaria

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Journey - Faithfully

Aerosmith - Angel

Shovels & Rope - St. Anne's Parade

LeAnn Rimes - I Still Believe in Santa Claus

"I will seize fate by the throat; it shall certainly never wholly overcome me." - Ludwig van Beethoven

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

trying to squeeze 24 hours into 5, such fun...

i feel like the little saying my mother used to always say when i was a child... i'm busier than 9 cats covering up shit in a windstorm. i'm literally doing 3 things at once, hoping i'll get everything done so i can go to the basketball game tonight.

i just put my last load of laundry in the dryer.

i took mom to get her injection today. the roads were much better than i thought they would be. we got more ice than snow last night. she's been feeling a little weird since she got her injection, so i have to be sure she's alright before i even think about going to the game tonight.

Monday Night Raw had some good moments last night.

the New York Rangers lost last night to Nashville, 5-2. if one shitty call by the officials gets called correctly, the outcome would have been different.

The Voice last night was excellent. i have no damn clue who is going to win tonight.

Moonlight Sonata: Deafness in Three Movements was great last night. a very interesting documentary that is worth your time.

the New Orleans Saints whipped the Colts last night, 34-7. Drew Brees set the NFL record for career touchdown passes and completed 29 of 30 passes last night, setting the record for completion percentage in a game. with a little help, they can still win the #1 seed in the NFC.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be the season finale of The Voice and WWE Backstage.

the Dayton Flyers, now ranked #13 in the country, their highest ranking since 1967, play North Texas at home tonight. i'm not sure if i'm going or not. if i don't, i will listen on the radio.

i will be on here tomorrow before mom has her physical therapy session. i'm hoping to also get to the bank in the morning.

that's all for me kids. i still have trash to pick up.

until tomorrow...

Una mejor vida con la química

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Beethoven - Moonlight Sonata
Ricky Duran - A Woman Like Her
Katie Kadan - All Better
DJ Shadow - Midnight In A Perfect World

"A great poet is the most precious jewel of a nation." - Ludwig van Beethoven

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

way too sunny for a day in December...

the poet in me needs my winter days fucking dark, gloomy, and a little moody. today there was a bright ass sunshine and a crisp wind. felt more like a cool day of Spring than anything. good thing climate change is a fucking hoax.

i noticed i didn't talk about Pete Holmes: Dirty Clean in the blog yesterday. it completely slipped my mind. i did watch the special. it was good, pretty funny. Pete is an acquired taste, but his take on dogs and cats should make anyone laugh. the shaken baby stuff might need a little sicker mind.

Ray Donovan was really good last night.

Escape at Dannemora was excellent last night.

WWE TLC was really good last night. i'm really happy with the title changes, mostly because it gives them a fresh direction to go in. and i can't wait to see what they are planning between Ronda Rousey, Charlotte Flair and Becky Lynch.

Manchester United lost to Liverpool yesterday 3-1. honestly, the game never felt that close for most of it. and to top off the misery, United drew PSG this morning in the Champions League draw. joy.

the New York Rangers lost to Las Vegas yesterday, 4-3 in OT. The King was the only damn reason they were able to get a point out of the game.

the Dayton Flyers lost another damn game yesterday they could have won. they lost 72-67 against Tulsa. they are now 5-5 on the season. once again, i'll never understand why the university decided to accept mediocrity. it's so fucking frustrated when you know the talent is there on the team but the coach isn't able to get it out of them.

to say i was a little pissed by the time wrestling started last night would be an understatement. that's why i was so damn happy that wrestling was good last night.

i did go to the bank this morning to make a deposit. i always get a laugh from the looks i get when i hold the door open for a black person. it's normally shock. that gives me a chuckle.

i did take mom to her appointment with her foot doctor today. after that, we went to lunch. tomorrow is her ear doctor i believe.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight and The Voice. i will be watching Monday Night Raw for most of the night.

the New Orleans Saints play tonight at Carolina. given that the Rams lost last night, a win tonight for the Saints will put home field advantage throughout the playoffs one step closer. plus, i just would love to see the Saints win another game on the road and prove they are a complete team.

at least the Sacramento Kings won yesterday.

i got a couple more Christmas cards in the mail today from my aunts.

i need to start wrapping gifts here soon. hard to believe Christmas will be here in 8 days.

i hope everyone had a great weekend.

¿Por qué solo los demonios quieren robar mi corazón?

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Cigarettes After Sex - Neon Moon
Lydia Loveless - Sorry
Gary Jules - Mad World
Antony - If It Be Your Will (Live)

"Don't only practice your art, but force your way into its secrets; art deserves that, for it and knowledge can raise man to the Divine." - Ludwig van Beethoven

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

a restless night, hand wringing in the morning...

i didn't sleep worth a shit last night. i had plenty of alcohol in me, so sleeping should have been easy. instead, i was trying to work out poems with crazy ass phrases and having no damn luck. and then it became my imagination trying to steal kisses from an alien. no luck there either. fuck it.

Manchester United went up 2-0 in the first half this morning. and then they tried to sit on that lead for the second half. that's how i wanted to start my day, pissed off. thankfully, they didn't piss all of the lead away, winning over West Brom 2-1. i'm sure i'll enjoy the alcohol tonight.

the Dayton Flyers won in OT last night over Georgia State 88-83. i laughed when the game went into overtime as i said to my mom before i left, i didn't know what time i might be home, the game could go into 3 overtimes. i guess that's what i get for opening my mouth. Josh Cunningham had a monster game last night, 29 points and 18 rebounds. i still don't like what little offense this team runs. it's like watching paint dry most of the time. they next play out in California on Tuesday against Saint Mary's. i'll be amazed if they don't have their asses handed to them out there.

Saturday Night Live was fucking hilarious last night.

ROH was excellent last night.

the New York Rangers won in OT yesterday against Boston, 3-2. i only got to see the highlights from the game. amazingly, they are only 2 points out of first place in the division right now.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Shameless and SMILF. i'll be watching WWE Clash of Champions for most of the evening.

i have been underwhelmed by most of the buildup for Clash of Champions tonight. so that usually means the show will be better than i thought it would be. i'm hoping that's the case tonight.

the New Orleans Saints play at home today against the New York Jets. my favorite team against my mother's favorite team. things could get ugly in this house today.

it got pretty warm for December yesterday. i think when i left for the game it was around 45 degrees outside. of course, all that means is people will get sick and there is a pretty good chance for rain today. i'm trying not to read much into the advanced forecast for Christmas Eve. but i'm not liking the chance of snow and me having to drive up to Columbus in it.

that's all for me kids. i hope everyone had a great Saturday. hopefully your Sunday will be even better.

Tú juegas para ganar el juego

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Temples - Shelter Song
Beth Hart & Joe Bonamassa - Black Coffee
Shrug - She's My Disease
Diane Coffee - Everyday
Tom Waits - Chocolate Jesus

"Music should strike fire from the heart of man, and bring tears from the eyes of woman." - Ludwig van Beethoven

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

nothing like starting off the weekend with a splitting headache

i think we got freezing rain all night long. that could explain my splitting headache when i woke up this morning. like a fucking ax right in the middle of my forehead.

so, since even a good breakfast didn't dull the pain, this will be a short one today.

Vice News Tonight had another great week of shows.

the 3 episodes of NJPW were really good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Saturday Night Live and ROH.

the New York Rangers play tonight in Nashville. hopefully they can get another win tonight.

the Dayton Flyers play Northwestern tonight in Chicago. hopefully the boys take full advantage of getting to play in a NBA arena and open some scouts eyes tonight. a victory would be nice as well.

Manchester United plays this afternoon at West Brom. it's more or less another MUST win game for United.

hopefully i will get to drink away the pain tonight. i'll be on here in the morning tomorrow, most likely.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday. if the ice actually melts here, i might have a decent one.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Ryan Bingham - The Weary Kind
Valerie June - Wanna Be On Your Mind
My Morning Jacket - Bermuda Highway (Live)
2CELLOS - With or Without You

"A great poet is the most precious jewel of a nation." - Ludwig van Beethoven

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

no sunshine in a land of rejection and dirty clothes

my last load of laundry is in the clothes dryer. today has been a day of agony. not because of anything happening, just life itself. no sunshine at all today. my back has been tight all damn day long. and i figured why not just totally fuck myself and do my laundry as well today. mom has been gone most of the day visiting my uncle at the nursing home. being home alone reminds me of how easy it is for me to slip into the darkness. play a couple sad songs and next thing you know i'm finishing off a bottle of vodka or scotch. good times.

i did watch the USA Women's soccer game last night. they tried so damn hard to make sure Abby Wambach scored that they forgot to actually just play the game and go win. so, China won 1-0 and it was the first time the women had lost at home in over a decade. it highlighted the one thought i have had since 2001. there is no such thing as a happy ending.

the DVR cut off American Horror Story before it ended last night. thankfully i didn't have to be up all damn night to see it. what a great fucking show. and now i have to wait until January to see what happens next. fuck me.

i heard back from Hiram Poetry Review on my poetry submission back in October. they once again have decided to pass on what i sent.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Big Bang Theory and Life in Pieces.

the New York Rangers play tonight in Minnesota. hopefully they can start stringing some wins together.

i am going to do my best to avoid the NFL game tonight. neither i nor my opponents have anyone playing in the game, so i have no need to watch it for fantasy football.

i am absolutely loving this new Butch Walker song:

be right back, i have clothes to fold.

now that i have that done, i suppose i can now think about taking a shower.

a big thank you to all of you that have sent Christmas cards so far. i really do appreciate it.

whenever we ever get done putting the decorations up (mom was going to start but other shit came up and lord knows she doesn't want me to do it) i'll start wrapping the gifts. i'm hoping i can find some brown paper bags for the bottles.

i hope everyone had a great day. hopefully the sun made an appearance where you live.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

David Bowie - Modern Love
Trampled by Turtles - Alone
Butch Walker - Santa'Self (Fuck Your Christmas Party)

"Nothing is more intolerable than to have to admit to yourself your own errors." - Ludwig van Beethoven

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

when stupid meets the real world

so today did not go exactly as planned for me. mom decided that she wanted to go to the store, so my day of gift wrapping is going to be a long night of one. we're celebrating Christmas this weekend as my sister is on call for her job over the holidays.

winter has set in here again. i could definitely tell when i was doing the dishes or when i was out feeding the cats and birds; my back has been killing me all damn day. good times.

so, on the way to the store i heard a news tease that two players got kicked off of the Dayton Flyers basketball team today. i found out who they were and when i got back from the store, i found out what they did. Devon Scott and Jalen Robinson, both juniors, got caught stealing from dorm rooms at 4 in the fucking morning over the weekend. the coach kicked them both off the team permanently. so, that leaves the team with only 8 scholarship players and none over 6 feet 6. to say i'm a bit pissed is an understatement, especially considering Scott was one of the fucking captains. to go from an elite 8 run to this shit. and what kills me is two fucking dumb asses pissing away a chance to play at a school i would have given part of my soul to be able to play at. Saturday's game is going to be real fucking interesting now. fuck me runnin'.

the New York Rangers won last night in Calgary 5-2. Rick Nash continued his great play this season with 2 more goals. this marked the first time in franchise history that they won all 3 games on the Vancouver/Edmonton/Calgary trip. here are some highlights to the game:

my sister sent me a picture of the tickets to the NHL All-Star game next month. looks like we have some fucking great seats for this. i might actually have to take my camera for this one.

The Voice shocked the shit out of me last night. i thought for sure Matt was going to win. so, when Craig from Team Blake won, i literally said holy shit. team Adam had the other 3 finalists. Matt still had the number one song on iTunes after the show was over. but, when i saw that Blake has 4 million more twitter followers than Adam, it started to make sense. i believe Craig is on The Tonight Show tonight, so i'll probably watch that while i'm wrapping gifts.

also tonight i'll be watching Lucha Underground and American Horror Story. that should be an interesting night of television.

that's all for me today. i hope everyone had a great day. thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Iron Maiden - The Trooper
Broken Bells - Holding on for Life
White Zombie - More Human Than Human
The Twilight Singers - Powder Burns
The Black Angels - Evil Things

"Nothing is more intolerable than to have to admit to yourself your own errors." - Ludwig van Beethoven

a night from hell

last night was a prime example of when you listen to your gut, you soon realize that your gut has shit for brains.

i had a good feeling about the New York Rangers. they lose 7-4. The King gets pulled, the team stages a comeback only to choke like a fucking dog in the end. Game 6 will be Thursday back at MSG. they better win it there as i want no part of a Game 7 in Montreal. i'm waiting to hear about any possible suspensions from last night. i'm willing to bet there will be at least one, perhaps two.

the Yankees only managed to get 5 hits and they lost 6-0. they need the injured players to get better SOON.

and team USA struggled for most of its match against Azerbaijan. they won 2-0 but when you struggle against the 85th best team in the world, how the fuck are you going to have any success in the group of death...(Ghana, Portugal, Germany)? easy answer, you won't. they have 2 more friendlies before the World Cup. i'm really hoping they play much, MUCH better in those 2 games.

i also realized last night that i totally missed the two episodes of Louie on Monday night. and i'm way too lazy and broke to find them online or pay for them, so i guess i'm going to have to pull a mini-marathon next Monday night. this is why i need a damn DVR.

i'm planning on watching The Normal Heart this evening. i'll end up missing a few innings of the Yankees game, but honestly, what am i really missing there.

i suppose i will also be watching some playoff basketball and hockey tonight as well.

it's supposed to storm here tonight. of course, it was supposed to do that the last few nights and we haven't got a drop. the crops need some damn rain. what little is coming up is all from the snow in the winter. i'd like to end this month with at least more than a few drops of rain.

i got my mother's birthday gift today on Amazon.com. hopefully she will love it. i got some shit for myself as well. had to get to $35 for the free shipping. thank god i love cheap music.

saw today that Maya Angelou died. as did Malcolm Glazer. he happens to own Manchester United. i can't even begin to fathom who will be the third member of the group.

that's all for me today. i've been listening to classical music for the last 17 hours (off and on). most people that know me know i only listen to classical music when i'm angry. congrats if you just connected the dots.

be well. be creative. be the asshole that lets your lawn die. if mother nature wanted it green, it would rain.

peace and chicken grease fuckers...

music:

Sibelius - The Best of Sibelius
Tchaikovsky - Greatest Hits
Beethoven - 25 Favorites

"Try to be a rainbow in someone's cloud." - Maya Angelou (April 4, 1928 - May 28, 2014)

quick hits

just got back in and done with lunch. i'm typing this as fast as i can so i don't miss any of the Saints game coming up.

the Dayton Flyers basically beat themselves today in a 67-59 loss to St. Louis. the good thing about them playing bad was it was easy for my anger to block out the pain in my neck/shoulder/arm. might be the worst home game i remember in years. pitiful.

went with my mother to Best Buy south of town so she could pick up her new laptop. i browsed around the store and came across the Manchester United game. much like i predicted, since i wasn't watching it, United won 2-0. figures. i'm happy they got the points though.

last night, the New York Rangers got a miracle goal from Rick Nash in the last 2 minutes to win 3-2. here are the highlights:

i know SNL is a rerun tonight so all i'll be watching is ROH. i believe Kevin Steen is wrestling Chris Hero tonight. i'm really looking forward to that.

as i was trying to find a comfortable spot to sleep in last night (i never did by the way), i did write 3 new poems. i will type them up sometime this weekend.

that's all for me. i'll be on here tomorrow in the morning after i get all the trash picked up. the weather is in a crazy stage at the moment. in the 50's with a strong breeze that makes it feel like the 30's. good times. glad i put the birdseed in the feeders this morning before i left. it's mostly on the ground now.

hope everyone is well. peace and chicken grease.

music:

Beethoven - Symphony No. 9

"I never expect to see a perfect work from an imperfect man." - Alexander Hamilton

and soon the snow will be a flood

let me start this out with the usual bullshit Ohio weather update. a quick blast of snow (right now) and then here comes the warm up. in 2 days it is supposed to be in the 50's and raining. and combine that with all the snow melting and the assholes on the local tv are talking about flooding. here's hoping it's biblical, considering the season and all.

just got done watching Sunderland upset Chelsea in Capital One Cup play, 2-1 in extra time. i absolutely love that Chelsea is gone from this competition. of course, Manchester United plays Stoke tomorrow on the road and my glee could very well be anger 24 hours from now.

i did end up winning my NFL.com fantasy game by over 40 points. my reward is to face the #1 overall seed, the same guy that has beat me twice already this season. one more win and i'll be in the championship game. as for the CBS league, i play the #3 seed in the finals. i beat him by over 40 points earlier in the season, not that that means anything at this stage. i'll be a little more hyper paranoid about injury reports and waivers, that's for sure. and the true tricky part is i will be at a basketball game for most of Sunday. more on that later in the week.

i did catch a good portion of The Voice last night. i think all 3 really did a great job. but, i'll still go with Tessanne winning it, seeing that she hit #1 on iTunes last night for her cover of a Whitney Houston song.

Monday Night Raw was really good right up to the bullshit finish of the main event. i really hate when a really great match is ended on a cheap DQ. it's just really lazy booking. almost as lazy as having a fucking run in to set up another angle. the highlight of the night was the exchange between HBK and CM Punk. i flipped out as #2 and #3 on my all time list of wrestlers were going back and forth in a classic verbal exchange.

tonight will be a night of putting groceries away whenever my mother gets home and watching the finale of The Voice. other than that, i don't see me doing much of anything. i've already cleaned the toilets today. i might start wrapping Christmas gifts. that day is sneaking up way faster than i want it to. i believe we're doing Christmas this weekend.

if we do get some epic rain this weekend, i will try to get pictures or video. at the very least, i could see a few poems popping out.

that's all for me. back to being in front of the heaters. the beauty of living in an old farmhouse is no one believed in insulation i think before the 1960's. and my stepfather, god love him, remodeled this on the cheap. that's why it is a holy shit moment anytime the power goes out here in the winter. it's one thing to get snowed in (i was for a week before out here), it's another to try to live out here with no power in the winter. unless you want to burn off a portion of the house, it's not going to be warm at all.

sorry for the random thought tangent. my mind tends to wander when i've got one eye on the screen and one on the window watching for cars.

look for me tomorrow sometime after the United game. hopefully with victory beer in hand.

music:

The Afghan Whigs - Gentlemen
Blakroc - Blakroc
Pearl Jam - Yield
Nirvana - Nevermind

"Nothing is more intolerable than to have to admit to yourself your own errors." - Ludwig van Beethoven

to my good friend pain

yesterday goes up there as one of the worst sporting days of my life. right up there with horrific Yankees losses in the playoffs, right up there with all the times Ohio State blew a perfect season against Michigan. thank god Saturday Night Live and ROH were excellent last night or i might have slipped off into the deep end this morning.

to summarize quickly...

Manchester United lost at home to a team that hadn't won there for 41 years.

the New York Rangers lost in overtime 4-3 after blowing a 2-0 lead. they get a chance to extend my misery tonight.

the Dayton Flyers decided they didn't want to be ranked any longer and lost by 6 on the road to Illinois State. honestly, the game wasn't that close. 18 fucking turnovers and way too many missed 3's. but, the students did storm the court afterwards, so maybe Dayton has made it after all.

Ohio State had its' 24 game win streak come to an end last night in the Big 10 Championship game. so fucking deflating after coming all the way back from down 17 to take the lead and then piss it away to lose by 10.

i told my mother last night that my Sunday will be excellent as i am at the bottom of the fucking barrel now.

the plan was to get up before the snow started and get the trash picked up and the animals fed. well, say hello to my first failure of the day.

i have some classical music on deciding how bad do i want this day to get. do i just say fuck it and blow up the entire weekend? decisions...

out of the 10 poems i typed up yesterday there are some winners. not sure if i'm going to do another submission before the end of the year or not. kind of funny, i wrote 13 poems all last month and turn around and write 10 in one day this month. what a moody prick genius i am.

the usual Sunday night shows are in order tonight unless my shit weekend continues and then i just might pull a Dylan Thomas.

have a good one. i need to get some breakfast and get the outside shit done before this snow changes over to freezing rain. on the good side though, that does mean it is warming up.

music:

Beethoven - 25 Favorites

"Some of the worst mistakes of my life have been haircuts." - Jim Morrison

Beethoven used to mean better things

i go to sleep every night with the radio on. what i listen to depends on whether the teams i follow are winning or not. if they aren't, the music changes until they are. yes, i'm a little fucking weird. but when i woke up to Beethoven this morning, i figured i was in store for a good day. fucking figures i was wrong.

i'll get to the Yankees in a bit...

what a choke job by Adam Scott. bogey the final four holes and lose by one stroke. with Tiger's old caddie. enjoy those nightmares.

the Yankees were in line to finally win a game on this road trip and then Rafael Soriano decided to throw nothing but sliders until he gave up the game tying home run. so, of course they lost in extra innings, the fourth fucking one run loss in a row. back to the old shit of not getting runners over, not getting timely hits, overusing pitchers and putting guys in spots where they can't succeed. what a fucking waste. off to Seattle and hopefully a fucking win.

some creative editing by CBS on Big Brother tonight. i always laugh when they take stuff that happened a week before and try to make people think it all happened in sequence. by the rate this cast is dropping out, the show will be over in mid august.

i'm really enjoying my Sunday night routine of The Newsroom, Weeds and Episodes. hopefully the shows continue to get better as the season goes on. The Newsroom might be one of the better shows i've seen in a long time.

music today:

John Mayer - Born and Raised

"All good writing is swimming under water and holding your breath." - F. Scott Fitzgerald

someone told me i'd be a lousy junkie

a rather odd day. not very warm, not very much sun, but not cold. just dreary enough that i can feel impending rain in my lower back and in my head. i'm going with either old or insane.

found a new kitten today. not sure where A Boy Named Sue was hiding that one, but oh well.

got plenty of feeders out for the birds now. so, i imagine the squirrel population will of course rise. damn thieves.

i'm in a very weird head space at the moment. content yet bordering on depression. not sure which side of the fence my fat ass will fall on. i'm not feeling very creative yet something is saying i should be doing something. i always wonder about my friends on the mind drugs. do i want to go down that road? would i enjoy it? could i convince myself that the "drugged" one is the real me? would they work at all? for the first 36 years i haven't really wanted to know the answer. perhaps a good bottle of wine and Beethoven will solve all the problems i have. that has worked in the past.

oh yeah, so i guess i did wake up to a world after all. that sucks. hopefully the Yankees get healthy and i might actually enjoy my summer. or, maybe my new book comes out and people like it and buy it. that would be a nice change of pace.

or perhaps these zines that have rejected me for years will finally give in and say yes. you know who you are. fuckers.

a nice odd mix of music today. kind of fitting if you ask me.

Radiohead - Kid A
Lou Reed - Rock N Roll Animal
Johnny Cash - Unchained
The Rolling Stones - Sticky Fingers
Guided By Voices - Bee Thousand
Nina Simone - Anthology

"A man begins cutting his wisdom teeth the first time he bites off more than he can chew." - Herb Caen