Tuesday, March 28, 2023

one of those days where the pain rides under the surface like a demon on a skateboard...

 i often wonder when i string these 4 hour sleep nights together if i am going slowly insane or i am simply riding that wave to a different plane of thought, belief, etc. my ego tends to get stronger as the candle gets closer to burning out. i'm pretty sure that is insanity. but, it also tends to be the moments where i am the most calm. that delicate dance i suppose.


i did sit in on mom's meeting with her financial advisor today. she is better off than she realized, which should help her mental state. it also opened my eyes to the investment opportunities that will be coming soon. after that meeting, i had to go to the next town over to get money out of mom's checking account. 30 minutes roundtrip. i drove by the old farm. it looks so much different now.


the New York Knicks won last night at home over Houston, 137-115.





here are your NBA highlights from last night:



Monday Night Raw was good last night.












The Voice was very good last night.







Perry Mason was excellent last night.


the USMNT won last night over El Salvador, 1-0.






enjoy some music:






and now some of this and that:









on the DVR tonight will be NXT, MLW, The Voice and That's My Jam.


the New York Rangers play tonight at home against Columbus. the Rangers qualified for the playoffs last night after Buffalo and Florida lost. now, it is time to find their groove to make a deep run.



i need to get going on dinner and get all the trash picked up tonight.


i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.


until then kids...


fight the power.


fuck racism.


fuck hatred.


fuck war.


fuck the police.


black lives matter.


stay healthy.


wash your fucking hands.


stay off the fucking streets.


get the fucking shot.


así que supongo que estamos bien con los tiroteos escolares ahora


be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.


peace and chicken grease...


music:


Caution - To Decide


Y La Bamba - Collapse


Evergreen - Step


Bon Iver - Skinny Love


Tracy Chapman - Fast Car


"I allow myself to fail. I allow myself to break. I'm not afraid of my flaws." - Lady Gaga


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Monday, March 27, 2023

oh yeah, it is also the start of WrestleMania week as well...

 if you are a pro wrestling fan, this week is basically like Christmas. i am really looking forward to everything this week, so, of course, there is a million other things i need to get done this week as well. mom got a call this morning that they moved up her appointment for physical therapy. so, this blog is going to be written as fast as i fucking can do it.


i absolutely love what the New York Yankees did yesterday.




the Final Four is now set. i will be slightly stunned if UCONN doesn't win it all.




here are your NBA highlights from yesterday:



Power Book II: Ghost was really good last night.



Succession was excellent last night. i get the feeling the final season is going to be great.




Yellowjackets was fucking crazy last night.



enjoy some music:







and now some of this and that:









on the DVR tonight will be Monday Night Raw, The Voice and Perry Mason.


the New York Knicks play tonight at home against Houston.


the USMNT play tonight in Orlando against El Salvador. i believe they advance out of the group if they get a draw or better tonight.



i do have an appointment this afternoon to get my bloodwork done. it is my annual 6 month checkup on my heart and everything else. yet another reason why the blog is being finished this morning.


at some point today, i do plan on listening to episode 440 of Notsam Wrestling.





i know tomorrow morning, mom and i have a video meeting with her financial advisor. i can't wait to see if mom is actually awake when the meeting is.


i hope everyone had a great weekend.


until tomorrow kids...


fight the power.


fuck racism.


fuck hatred.


fuck war.


fuck the police.


black lives matter.


stay healthy.


wash your fucking hands.


stay off the fucking streets.


get the fucking shot.


increíble lo que uno puede hacer con solo cuatro horas de sueño


be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.


peace and chicken grease...


music:


Garbage - #1 Crush


Matthew Logan Vasquez - Over It


Paris Jackson - just you


Ren w/Bibi - Crutch


Tori Amos - Cornflake Girl


"Never, never listen to anybody that try to discourage you." - Mariah Carey


and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:



response from Synchronized Chaos...

 i heard back from Cristina at Synchronized Chaos on my poetry submission from a couple of days ago. my poems "another sign of getting older", "on the lonely nights", "slowly creeping along", "welcome to this ugly world" and "waiting room chairs" have been accepted for publication.


response from Yellow Mama

 i heard back from Cindy at Yellow Mama on my poetry submission from a couple of days ago. my poems "in this digital society", "the lasting angst" and "the sock drawer" have been accepted for publication in issue #98, due out in June 2023.

Sunday, March 26, 2023

gearing up for a long ass week...

 now that mom is back into physical therapy, the weeks are going to be micro-managed to death. between her appointments and all the other shit i have to do, time to write this blog, poetry, etc. is going to have to be squeezed in where it can. so, don't be shocked if this blog has no set timetable for the next few weeks. i would love to get it done tomorrow in the morning as she has physical therapy in the afternoon and then i'm hoping to get an appointment to get my blood drawn. and of course, she wants to get her blood drawn at the same time. 


the New York Rangers won at Florida yesterday, 4-3. thankfully, the "kid line" saved them after getting down 2-0. the boys are now just 2 points from clinching a playoff spot.











i did watch some MLS games last night:











here are your NBA highlights from last night:



half of the Final Four is now set. should be interesting to see who gets the final two spots today.




AEW Rampage was pretty good last night.




enjoy some music:






and now some of this and that:









on the DVR tonight will be Power Book II: Ghost, Yellowjackets and Succession.


i'm sure i will watch some hockey today as well as college basketball.


the wind finally has moved out of the area. thankfully, our power never went out. i certainly don't miss the windy days on the farm, always worrying about which tree was going to clip which power line.


if all goes well, i will be on here in the morning tomorrow. if not, the blog will be much later in the afternoon.


i hope everyone had a great Saturday. i hope your Sunday will be even better.


until tomorrow kids...


fight the power.


fuck racism.


fuck hatred.


fuck war.


fuck the police.


black lives matter.


stay healthy.


wash your fucking hands.


stay off the fucking streets.


get the fucking shot.


solo una forma de subir desde abajo


be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.


peace and chicken grease...


music:


Lana Del Rey w/Father John Misty - Let The Light In


The Replacements - Here Comes A Regular


Kaleo - Way Down We Go


Lydia Loveless - Sorry


Sharon Van Etten w/Norah Jones - Seventeen


"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on." - Robert Frost


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Saturday, March 25, 2023

and now the wind...

 we got another 1.5 inches of rain yesterday. that means we've had 3 inches in the last 2 days. and now the wind is blowing like a motherfucker. good times.


i did send out 11 poems earlier today. 5 to Synchronized Chaos and 3 each to Yellow Mama and Cajun Mutt Press. when i hear back from these places, i will pass along the verdicts.


the USMNT whipped Grenada last night, 7-1. that was a beautiful thing to watch. they play at home on Monday against El Salvador.








the college basketball games last night were crazy once again. first time ever i believe there are no number 1 seeds still going and we're down to the Elite 8. 






Smackdown and NXT Level Up were both really good last night.









Real Time with Bill Maher was fucking hilarious last night.






Game Theory with Bomani Jones was very good last night.


here are your NBA highlights from last night.





enjoy some music:





and now some of this and that:









on the DVR tonight will be AEW Rampage.


the New York Rangers play tonight at Florida.


i'm sure i will probably watch some college basketball and MLS today.


i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.


i hope everyone has a great Saturday.


until tomorrow kids...


fight the power.


fuck racism.


fuck hatred.


fuck war.


fuck the police.


black lives matter.


stay healthy.


wash your fucking hands.


stay off the fucking streets.


get the fucking shot.


el viento esta loco hoy


be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.


peace and chicken grease...


music:


The Scarlet Goodbye - Rosary


Kx5 & SOFI TUKKER - Sacrifice


Pearl & the Oysters - Evening Sun (Live)


Hayes Carll - Magnolia Wind


Metallica - One


"We are tomorrow's past." - Mary Webb


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Friday, March 24, 2023

welcome to the weekend...

 we got 1.5 inches of rain last night. i don't think i have seen the sun in a couple of days. good times.


the New York Rangers won last night in Carolina, 2-1.









the New York Knicks lost last night in Orlando, 111-106.




here are your NBA highlights from last night:



the NCAA tournament games last night were crazy. hopefully, the games tonight will be as good.






Vice News Tonight had their 1,000th episode last night.


NJPW was really good last night.


enjoy some music:





and now some of this and that:








on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, Real Time with Bill Maher and Game Theory with Bomani Jones. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.


i had to take yet another package back to return for mom today. this time i had to take it to the Dollar General in town for FedEx to pick up tomorrow. i told her i'm getting tired of returning shit that she buys and then decides she doesn't want.


at some point tonight, i need to figure out which poems are going where. if i have any luck, i'll actually get my pain to subside for a bit to do that.


i need to go make dinner so that's all for me kids.


i hope everyone has a great weekend.


we had a cold front come through with the storms last night, so it feels like winter again here. joy.


i might watch some of the USMNT tonight against Grenada. hopefully, they will win that game easily, although i know damn well they don't do anything easily.




i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.


until then kids...


fight the power.


fuck racism.


fuck hatred.


fuck war.


fuck the police.


black lives matter.


stay healthy.


wash your fucking hands.


stay off the fucking streets.


get the fucking shot.


abraza tu oscuridad


be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.


peace and chicken grease...


music:


Seether w/Amy Lee - Broken


Nicole Atkins w/Mark Lanegan - November Rain


Missy Elliott - The Rain (Supa Dupa Fly)


Tina Turner - I Can't Stand The Rain


Beth Hart - Caught out in the Rain (Live)


"I would rather wake up in the middle of nowhere than in any city on earth." - Steve McQueen


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Thursday, March 23, 2023

well at least i got some poems written...

 so, i am running behind today. that is the joy of plenty of rain and a bad back deciding it wanted the day off. late last night, i did get two poems written. i figured between the pain and depression, that was a minor miracle. so, if i can get a few moments without pain this weekend, i'm going to try to get some poems ready for submission.


the New York Knicks lost last night at Miami, 127-120. they play at Orlando tonight.





here are your NBA highlights from last night.



AEW Dynamite was very good last night, especially the main event.




The Masked Singer was crazy as usual last night.



Snowfall was amazing last night.



enjoy some music:





and now some of this and that:









on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight and NJPW.


the New York Rangers play tonight at Carolina.



the NCAA tournament starts back up tonight. i will probably watch some of the games.


i was on a horrible run for gambling until i had a parlay come through for the Suns and Lakers last night. hopefully, i will actually have a few winners tonight.


i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.


at least it actually felt like spring today. i just wish it wouldn't be raining all the fucking time.


until tomorrow kids...


fight the power.


fuck racism.


fuck hatred.


fuck war.


fuck the police.


black lives matter.


stay healthy.


wash your fucking hands.


stay off the fucking streets.


get the fucking shot.


creo que necesito mejores drogas


be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.


peace and chicken grease...


music:


Geto Gala - Sumn' to Say (Live)


Girl Ultra - Llama (Live)


rum.gold w/Mereba - Water My Heart


Mic Flont & Khingz w/Larisa Marie, Abjo - Gucci


Alaska Reid - Back To This


"They had always told me that I wrote like a man." - Ama Ata Aidoo


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Wednesday, March 22, 2023

it has rained all day...

 so, i have determined the pain in my left shoulder is arthritis. the rain today made it really fucking clear to me what is going on. i'm at the point now where i am just trying to keep my mind occupied so the pain doesn't get a chance to run the show. of course, that doesn't work all the time. that is when shit gets really interesting.


the New York Rangers lost last night at home to Carolina, 3-2. hopefully they will do better when they play at Carolina tomorrow night.









here are your NBA highlights from last night:



NXT was very good last night.










MLW was good last night.


The Voice was excellent last night. the battles start next week.






That's My Jam was pretty funny last night.




enjoy some music:






and now some of this and that:









on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite, The Masked Singer and Snowfall.


the New York Knicks play tonight in Miami.


i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.


the grocery shopping went well today. i was able to get everything on the list. and thankfully, i had plenty of coupons.


until tomorrow kids...


fight the power.


fuck racism.


fuck hatred.


fuck war.


fuck the police.


black lives matter.


stay healthy.


wash your fucking hands.


stay off the fucking streets.


get the fucking shot.


hay vigilancia de inundación para los próximos días


music:


Kris Ulrich - Friends On The Internet


McKinley Dixon - Run, Run, Run


Son Rompe Pera - La Muerta Del Amor (Live)


Jackie Venson - Flying #evolution


Unknown Mortal Orchestra - Meshuggah


"Never get a mime talking. He won't stop." - Marcel Marceau


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Tuesday, March 21, 2023

hello depression, it's me again...

 so, yeah... my left shoulder is killing me, i think it might be a pinched nerve. my left elbow is killing me, i have no fucking clue what that is. my right knee is killing me, i believe that is all arthritis. and given all that pain and a bad back, today was one of those days spent in the massage chair hoping the ice freezes my spinal cord so the central nervous system no longer works. somedays i get really lucky and the ice does the trick. and then there are the days where nothing fucking works, even alcohol, and depression enters the room and sets up shop. now, don't worry, i'm not suicidal. i doubt that creeps in my mind anytime before my mother leaves this earth. i don't think i want her to be the one to find me whenever that (if ever) happens. what concerns me is my lack of wanting to be creative anymore when the darkness comes. it seems like all the water has been squeezed from the rock now. and tends to let me try to think about an unknown future. and as much as that should excite my imagination, the depression doesn't allow such nonsense. so yeah, welcome to Tuesday...


The Voice was good last night. i believe tonight is the end of the blinds.









Perry Mason was very good last night.


Monday Night Raw was good last night. hard to believe WrestleMania is just over a week away.











the New York Knicks lost last night at home to Minnesota, 140-134.




here are your NBA highlights from last night:



enjoy some music:





and now some of this and that:









on the DVR tonight will be NXT, two episodes of MLW, The Voice and That's My Jam.


the New York Rangers have a huge game tonight at home against Carolina.




i just saw the news that Mustapha Amzil is transferring from Dayton. he will always be remembered for that shot against Kansas. hopefully, he lands in a good place and has plenty of success.



i need to get dinner going and get all the trash picked up tonight.


i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.


until then kids...


fight the power.


fuck racism.


fuck hatred.


fuck war.


fuck the police.


black lives matter.


stay healthy.


wash your fucking hands.


stay off the fucking streets.


get the fucking shot.


hay una cierta mujer que me puede hacer feliz


be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.


peace and chicken grease...


music:


Taylar Elizza Beth & WD4D - The Beast / Day 117


Alanis Morissette - Uninvited


Larkin Poe - Beach Blonde Bottle Blues


Miranda Lambert - Gunpowder & Lead


Ashley Monroe - Weed Instead of Roses


"My passion and energy get mistaken for anger." - Gary Oldman


and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:




Monday, March 20, 2023

welcome to spring...

 at least it fucking warmed up some today. and there was plenty of sunshine. 


i took mom to her new place where she is doing physical therapy. it has a pretty laid back vibe to it, which i think she likes. she's going to be going twice a week. the waiting room was decent. i wrote 3 poems while she had her session. i think all 3 are pretty good. after we got back home, i had to go to Kroger to get her prescriptions. 


the New York Rangers won last night at home against Nashville, 7-0. holy shit, that was a fun one to watch.











i did watch El Clasico yesterday. that game never disappoints.



Manchester United played poorly yesterday. thankfully, Fulham lost their minds after a hour of play and had 3 red cards issued in a just a couple of minutes. amazingly, all 3 of them were the right calls. United advanced to the semi-finals of the FA Cup, winning 3-1. they will play Brighton in the semi-finals.











here are your NBA highlights from last night:



the season finale of Your Honor was excellent last night.



Last Week Tonight was BRILLIANT as usual.



Power Book II: Ghost was fucking crazy. this should be another entertaining season.



enjoy some music:







and now some of this and that:








on the DVR tonight will be The Voice, Monday Night Raw and Perry Mason.


the New York Knicks play tonight at home against Minnesota.


i did really well gambling yesterday. i've been getting really lucky here lately with my hockey bets and most of my NBA bets.


i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.


i did listen to episode 439 of Notsam Wrestling today. you can listen to that by going here:




i hope everyone had a great weekend.


until tomorrow kids...


fight the power.


fuck racism.


fuck hatred.


fuck war.


fuck the police.


black lives matter.


stay healthy.


wash your fucking hands.


stay off the fucking streets.


get the fucking shot.


al menos no nevó el primer día de primavera


be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.


peace and chicken grease...


music:


Margo Price w/Jack White - Honey, We Can't Afford to Look This Cheap (Live)


Freya Ridings - You Mean the World to Me (Live)


Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Maps


The Tender Things - Carousel


The Bright Light Social Hour - Not New


"Never wear your best trousers when you go out to fight for freedom and truth." - Henrik Ibsen


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Sunday, March 19, 2023

a cold start to the day...

 when i got up this morning, it was 19 degrees outside. doesn't spring start tomorrow? fuck me.


the New York Rangers whipped the shit out of the Penguins last night, defeating them 6-0. hopefully the boys saved some for Nashville tonight.








well, my brackets are dead now. Kansas lost to Arkansas, 72-71. i don't think i have ever had my final two teams not make it out of the first weekend of the tournament. DAMN.








here are your NBA highlights from yesterday:



i did watch a few MLS games last night.







enjoy some music:





and now some of this and that:









on the DVR tonight will be the season finale of Your Honor, Last Week Tonight and Power Book II: Ghost.


Manchester United plays Fulham today in the FA Cup.



i'm sure i will watch some more college basketball today as well.


i hope everyone has a great Sunday.


until tomorrow kids...


fight the power.


fuck racism.


fuck hatred.


fuck war.


fuck the police.


black lives matter.


stay healthy.


wash your fucking hands.


stay off the fucking streets.


get the fucking shot.


hice el desayuno esta mañana para mi madre


be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.


peace and chicken grease...


music:


The Flaming Lips - In the Morning of the Magicians (Live)


Ren - Hi Ren


Lalalar - Yalniz Olu Baliklar Akintiyi Takip Eder


Lana Del Rey - The Grants


T-Pain - On Top of The Covers


"The road to hell is paved with works-in-progress." - Philip Roth


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