i heard back from Skaja at Disturb the Universe Magazine on my poetry submission from last month. my poems "a new set of suckers", "over a decade ago" and "looking for you know who" have been accepted for publication.
evil delights
a delightful trip into the dark mind of an evil genius or simply the musings of an asshole
Saturday, October 12, 2024
Friday, October 11, 2024
a day of pain, of course...
my life has this uncanny ability to always swing the positive to negative and negative to even more negative with fucking ease. i'm not sure if it is because my inner child has to always be in pain. or, does my ego enjoy the suffering and rising above it. or maybe this is all i really know. happiness is fleeting. pain is real. loss is real. the sad thing is, i really want to be happy. have fun. enjoy what little life i have left. and no matter what i do to try to make sure these fairytales are possible, nothing works. this is why i have such a laid back fuck it view of life, etc. there is no point in me fucking it up more than i already have. i suppose this is my reasoning for just accepting the pain and learning how to live with it. joy.
the Yankees won last night at the Royals, 3-1, to clinch the series. they will play either Detroit or Cleveland in the ALCS.
Thursday, October 10, 2024
some weird dreams last night...
it involved a dog, a serial killer, two beautiful women, a mindless fast food worker and a poet just trying to get by. i woke up at 7:45 thinking, what the fuck was that. i guess this is what happens when i get more than 5 hours of sleep.
the Yankees won last night at the Royals, 3-2. they only had 4 hits, and Stanton had 3 of those. but, they are 1 win away from the ALCS. Gerrit Cole will be pitching tonight. hopefully, he gets the job done.
response from Synchronized Chaos...
i heard back from Cristina at Synchronized Chaos on my recent poetry submission. my poems "scribbling down some poems", "better when drinking", "hello is a better choice", "the better of me" and "the simmering rage" have been accepted for publication.
Wednesday, October 9, 2024
i'm running on fumes...
i didn't get to sleep until 4:30 this morning. i was hoping i would wake up sometime around 9 and get my day going. but, in reality, i woke up at 7:45 and have been up since. this is clearly the recipe to make sure i will be dead in a few years. good times.
i did get everything on the grocery list. mom about shit when she saw i saved more than $50 at Kroger today.
The Voice was good last night.
poetry update...
i just sent 5 poems to Synchronized Chaos. when i hear back from Cristina, i will pass along the verdict.
Tuesday, October 8, 2024
a night to forget...
so, last night was one to forget...
the Yankees lost at home to the Royals, 4-2. the series is now 1-1. Game 3 will be at the Royals.
Monday, October 7, 2024
rinse and repeat...
sometimes life gets to that point where all the days just bleed together and you can end up in a bad movie that just bores you to death. these nights of 3 hours of sleep have me spinning my wheels. the rest of the day is just catching naps when i can and trying to play catch up with the news, sports, etc. joy.
i did watch plenty of football yesterday. i won a little money, but not nearly as much as i was hoping to.
Sunday, October 6, 2024
well, it could have been worse...
i didn't get to sleep until after 4 AM this morning. i got up a little after 9. that was a few minutes after the Manchester United game started. they were playing at Aston Villa. the game finished 0-0. honestly, it could have been much worse. but, at least they got a point out of the game. still, it is the worst start they have had in the Premier League. ETH will find out this week if he will still have the head coaching job at United. my best guess is if they have the next coach already lined up, he will get fired. if not, they will keep him, at least until the summer.
Ohio State defeated Iowa yesterday, 35-7.
Saturday, October 5, 2024
a busy day ahead...
so, i did get that poem that was swimming in my head written last night. honestly, might be one of the best ones i have written in years. of course, time will tell.
today is going to have a little bit of everything going on. playoffs, wrestling, college football, etc.
Smackdown and NXT Level Up were both really good last night.
Friday, October 4, 2024
welcome to the weekend...
i have done my best to try to do nothing today. not exactly possible, but a fucker can dream right. i did have a few funny lines pop in my head for a poem, but i haven't been able to fully flush it out yet. so, i am looking forward to that. i didn't sleep well at all. mom for some fucking reason was talking loud as fuck to herself at 5:46 AM. that woke me up. i was able to get back to sleep until i woke up at 7:10. i might have got a hour or two watching the hockey game this afternoon. needless to say, i know i will get my best sleep when i die.
Big Brother was good last night. Kimo got evicted. Chelsie is the new HOH, so she will be in the final 3.
Thursday, October 3, 2024
another pissed off afternoon...
so, Manchester United pissed away a 2-0 lead today at Porto in the Europa League. add to that, Bruno got another red card for a high boot that made no fucking contact with a player, even though the Porto player acted like Bruno made him bleed. but, United tied the game at 3 in the 91st minute. still, a 3-3 draw isn't fucking good enough.
Wednesday, October 2, 2024
today was about errands, grocery shopping and pain...
that was the line i used when i texted the muse back today as i missed her call. i just got back home from my second trip to Kroger today. thankfully, the new pills of Rybelsus didn't cost me anything. hopefully, they will fucking work.
i got up at 6:40 this morning. i wasn't happy, as i probably had just barely 4 hours of sleep. by 10 AM, my back was killing me, so i got some ice and went to my massage chair. i woke up a little after 1 PM. i'm not sure if i fell asleep or just passed the fuck out. i had to go to the bank and get all the grocery shopping done. they didn't have my pills ready at Kroger at 2 like they said they would. i think i got the text around 6:30 tonight. joy. between the grocery shopping and getting gas, amazingly, it was all under $200.
the New York Rangers won last night at home against the Devils, 5-4.
Tuesday, October 1, 2024
stress is trying to break me...
before i get into how today went, let me rewind to when i was finishing the blog yesterday. that was when i got the news of Pete Rose dying. i have a ton of Pete Rose memorabilia, baseball cards, autographs, etc. needless to say, the news of his death was like a punch to my dick. growing up in this area and loving baseball, i think nearly every father told their kid to play like Charlie Hustle. one thing the death did was make me feel old. it also reminded me of how much my father liked him. and the asshole in me quickly wondered how much that 1964 Kahn's baseball card could now be worth.
my 5 poems at Synchronized Chaos...
my poems "your dead father must be proud", "a few years at least", "an overpass down by the river", "where even the animals" and "agony says i love you" have been published at Synchronized Chaos. you can read the poems by going here:
https://synchchaos.com/poetry-from-j-j-campbell-114/
Monday, September 30, 2024
not what i was hoping for...
so, i made it to the doctor's office for my appointment today. my A1C was up, which means the Rybelsus did absolutely nothing for me. the only numbers i really liked was my blood pressure. after the appointment was over, they sent me upstairs to get some x-rays done on my left shoulder and elbow. those came back normal. oh well. i did get my flu shot today.
i took a little nap after i got home. the guy that cuts our grass woke me up as he was blowing the leaves around. hopefully, this will be the last time he has to mow the grass.
well, Manchester United lost yesterday at home to Tottenham, 3-0. Bruno got a weak red card which really baffles me that VAR couldn't tell just how weak the red card was. fuck, even the commentators that dislike Manchester United said it was harsh. but, just more of the same. i'm not sure what the disconnect is between ETH and the team.
Sunday, September 29, 2024
talking myself to sleep...
so, i tried the weed gummy again last night. no luck. i talked myself to sleep a little after 4 in the morning. i woke up at 9. close to 5 hours isn't exactly what i was hoping for. oh well.
Ohio State won last night at Michigan State, 38-7.