i couldn't sleep for shit last night until i jerked off for the first time in weeks. and of course, being the asshole i am, i used the bad arm to do it as i sadly tend to enjoy the pain. that bought me at least 2 hours of sleep. so, i might have got 4 hours last night in total. the right amount if i was 23 or so. sadly, at 38, i'm living more like a guy who smokes pot and naps all day long. i wouldn't mind the pot part, but napping all day long isn't for me.
in between the naps today, i did manage to write 2 poems. i will hopefully type them up this weekend.
the New York Rangers lost 2-1 last night. they had so many chances to win last night but lost the game in the last 2 minutes of the 3rd period. that could end up being some huge lost points. of course, go out and beat Pittsburgh tonight and no one will remember last night.
i spent 45 minutes in the damn cold today feeding the cats and filling the bird feeders. thankfully, there was no wind and i'm smart enough to dress in layers. and i made damn sure to take some oxy before i went out to do that.
i do enjoy this dream/awake stage the pain pills put me in at times. takes me back to my youth and the glorious moments where i really expanded my brain. glory days.
i suppose tonight i'll be watching some of the opening ceremony in Russia for the Winter Olympics, but not that much. there are some hockey games i need to watch and some college hockey i need to watch as well. and that damn tree house show that has become a guilty pleasure to watch on Friday nights. i suppose because i never had one as a kid.
The Big Bang Theory was really good last night. it also reminded me that i haven't had a girlfriend at Valentine's Day in damn near 20 years. money saved i suppose but so much other shit i have missed out on. hello depression.
not sure when i'll be on here tomorrow. probably sometime before Dayton plays tomorrow. maybe i'll make it a morning post while i'm high on pain pills. i do know the women's hockey starts over in Russia in the middle of the night tonight. i know damn well what i'll be watching if i can't sleep tonight. and not in a sexual way you perverts.
that's all for me. be well and stay warm. continue with the good vibes as this is one tough motherfucker of pain i'm trying to beat. and in the words of Ice Cube, today was a good day.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Various Artists - Millennium Funk Party
TLC - CrazySexyCool
"If you have no critics you'll likely have no success." - Malcolm X
Showing posts with label drugs. Show all posts
Showing posts with label drugs. Show all posts
Friday, February 7, 2014
Thursday, February 6, 2014
degenerate
back from the doctor and under the influence...here's the story.
the x-rays showed that i am showing signs of degenerative discs in my neck. the doctor and i decided to continue on with the medicine for another 2 weeks to see if the pain subsides. if it doesn't, then we'll know for sure that it's onto the orthopedic route of injections, rehab, and possibly surgery. so, until that doom and gloom comes, i'm on some stronger pain meds and another round of steroids. hopefully this works.
the New York Rangers play here in a little bit against the Oilers. i'd love to see another win, especially since they play at Pittsburgh tomorrow.
the Dayton Flyers finally played the way they are capable of last night. a 84-67 victory over George Mason that really wasn't that close. the last 30 minutes of that game were a blowout. so happy they finally didn't play down to their competition. hopefully this is the start of something good.
i did watch the new episode of Duck Dynasty last night. it was ok. sleep would have been better for me.
so, after the doctor's appointment, mom took me to a sports bar to get drunk. well, not really since i can drink like a fish, but you know... these are the times where the alcoholic gene i have comes in real handy.
the weather is supposed to get colder than shit overnight. i think i saw it's going to be like -10 or so. this is truly becoming my winter from hell.
that's all for me my friends. at least if i'm having problems sleeping now, i'll have the Winter Olympics to watch. would be nice if the competitive juices can override the pain for a few hours at least.
hope everyone is well. and warm. and looking forward to the weekend.
peace.
music:
N.W.A. - The N.W.A. Legacy Volume 1 1988-1998
"One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain." - Bob Marley
the x-rays showed that i am showing signs of degenerative discs in my neck. the doctor and i decided to continue on with the medicine for another 2 weeks to see if the pain subsides. if it doesn't, then we'll know for sure that it's onto the orthopedic route of injections, rehab, and possibly surgery. so, until that doom and gloom comes, i'm on some stronger pain meds and another round of steroids. hopefully this works.
the New York Rangers play here in a little bit against the Oilers. i'd love to see another win, especially since they play at Pittsburgh tomorrow.
the Dayton Flyers finally played the way they are capable of last night. a 84-67 victory over George Mason that really wasn't that close. the last 30 minutes of that game were a blowout. so happy they finally didn't play down to their competition. hopefully this is the start of something good.
i did watch the new episode of Duck Dynasty last night. it was ok. sleep would have been better for me.
so, after the doctor's appointment, mom took me to a sports bar to get drunk. well, not really since i can drink like a fish, but you know... these are the times where the alcoholic gene i have comes in real handy.
the weather is supposed to get colder than shit overnight. i think i saw it's going to be like -10 or so. this is truly becoming my winter from hell.
that's all for me my friends. at least if i'm having problems sleeping now, i'll have the Winter Olympics to watch. would be nice if the competitive juices can override the pain for a few hours at least.
hope everyone is well. and warm. and looking forward to the weekend.
peace.
music:
N.W.A. - The N.W.A. Legacy Volume 1 1988-1998
"One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain." - Bob Marley
Friday, January 31, 2014
before the drugs kick in
here's a quick verdict from the doctor's visit today... he believes there is a 99% chance i have a pinched nerve somewhere in the neck/shoulder area. he prescribed 3 drugs, 1 for the pain, 1 for the nerve, and 1 steroid for the inflammation. i start that tomorrow. i've got a feeling that i'm going to be really fucked up when i'm taking all 3 at the same time. good times.
the rest of the details i believe will come out in some poems. i did have a couple rush to my mind while i was out from 9:30 this morning to 4 this afternoon.
last night, i did really enjoy The Big Bang Theory. the Saturday Night Live sports special brought back some good memories.
the Rangers play the Islanders here in a bit, so that's why this is so short. the victory beers may get a little tricky on these drugs.
i won't be going to the Dayton Flyers game tomorrow afternoon. since i don't really abuse prescription drugs like most of my friends and family, these things usually knock me on my ass.
i think the USA national soccer team plays tomorrow as well. and so does Manchester United. i guess i'll be back on here sometime when i'm awake and not watching sports.
that's all for me. wish me luck. i really do hope these drugs do the trick so i can actually sleep again and not be in constant pain. if they don't, i get to go the MRI route and then it will be cortisone shots and possible surgeries. thank god i have health insurance. not that it's really that good. i know damn well today alone is going to cost something with a number to the left of the comma. lovely.
hope everyone has a great weekend. the weather here has the sound of the apocalypse coming. hopefully i'll be too damn high to give a shit. be well. be creative. be nasty. be naughty. be late because you are having too good of a time to care anymore. be.
music:
Lou Reed - Rock n Roll Animal
"I'm not here for your amusement. You're here for mine." - John Lydon
the rest of the details i believe will come out in some poems. i did have a couple rush to my mind while i was out from 9:30 this morning to 4 this afternoon.
last night, i did really enjoy The Big Bang Theory. the Saturday Night Live sports special brought back some good memories.
the Rangers play the Islanders here in a bit, so that's why this is so short. the victory beers may get a little tricky on these drugs.
i won't be going to the Dayton Flyers game tomorrow afternoon. since i don't really abuse prescription drugs like most of my friends and family, these things usually knock me on my ass.
i think the USA national soccer team plays tomorrow as well. and so does Manchester United. i guess i'll be back on here sometime when i'm awake and not watching sports.
that's all for me. wish me luck. i really do hope these drugs do the trick so i can actually sleep again and not be in constant pain. if they don't, i get to go the MRI route and then it will be cortisone shots and possible surgeries. thank god i have health insurance. not that it's really that good. i know damn well today alone is going to cost something with a number to the left of the comma. lovely.
hope everyone has a great weekend. the weather here has the sound of the apocalypse coming. hopefully i'll be too damn high to give a shit. be well. be creative. be nasty. be naughty. be late because you are having too good of a time to care anymore. be.
music:
Lou Reed - Rock n Roll Animal
"I'm not here for your amusement. You're here for mine." - John Lydon
Saturday, June 2, 2012
someone told me i'd be a lousy junkie
a rather odd day. not very warm, not very much sun, but not cold. just dreary enough that i can feel impending rain in my lower back and in my head. i'm going with either old or insane.
found a new kitten today. not sure where A Boy Named Sue was hiding that one, but oh well.
got plenty of feeders out for the birds now. so, i imagine the squirrel population will of course rise. damn thieves.
i'm in a very weird head space at the moment. content yet bordering on depression. not sure which side of the fence my fat ass will fall on. i'm not feeling very creative yet something is saying i should be doing something. i always wonder about my friends on the mind drugs. do i want to go down that road? would i enjoy it? could i convince myself that the "drugged" one is the real me? would they work at all? for the first 36 years i haven't really wanted to know the answer. perhaps a good bottle of wine and Beethoven will solve all the problems i have. that has worked in the past.
oh yeah, so i guess i did wake up to a world after all. that sucks. hopefully the Yankees get healthy and i might actually enjoy my summer. or, maybe my new book comes out and people like it and buy it. that would be a nice change of pace.
or perhaps these zines that have rejected me for years will finally give in and say yes. you know who you are. fuckers.
a nice odd mix of music today. kind of fitting if you ask me.
Radiohead - Kid A
Lou Reed - Rock N Roll Animal
Johnny Cash - Unchained
The Rolling Stones - Sticky Fingers
Guided By Voices - Bee Thousand
Nina Simone - Anthology
"A man begins cutting his wisdom teeth the first time he bites off more than he can chew." - Herb Caen
found a new kitten today. not sure where A Boy Named Sue was hiding that one, but oh well.
got plenty of feeders out for the birds now. so, i imagine the squirrel population will of course rise. damn thieves.
i'm in a very weird head space at the moment. content yet bordering on depression. not sure which side of the fence my fat ass will fall on. i'm not feeling very creative yet something is saying i should be doing something. i always wonder about my friends on the mind drugs. do i want to go down that road? would i enjoy it? could i convince myself that the "drugged" one is the real me? would they work at all? for the first 36 years i haven't really wanted to know the answer. perhaps a good bottle of wine and Beethoven will solve all the problems i have. that has worked in the past.
oh yeah, so i guess i did wake up to a world after all. that sucks. hopefully the Yankees get healthy and i might actually enjoy my summer. or, maybe my new book comes out and people like it and buy it. that would be a nice change of pace.
or perhaps these zines that have rejected me for years will finally give in and say yes. you know who you are. fuckers.
a nice odd mix of music today. kind of fitting if you ask me.
Radiohead - Kid A
Lou Reed - Rock N Roll Animal
Johnny Cash - Unchained
The Rolling Stones - Sticky Fingers
Guided By Voices - Bee Thousand
Nina Simone - Anthology
"A man begins cutting his wisdom teeth the first time he bites off more than he can chew." - Herb Caen
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