Saturday, October 31, 2015

at least i don't have to rake leaves

sitting here in the kitchen, looking out at the trees in the yards behind me. thank god i don't believe in raking leaves. it was great at the farm as you could always count on a day of holy shit winds that would put the leaves and god knows what else into the fields. here in suburbia, i'm not counting on that wind. but i'm also not going to rake the leaves down to the street either. if someone else in this neighborhood of go-getters wants to do it, be my guest. i could probably go about 10 minutes before my back said fuck you and quit. good times.

i sat through a very frustrating Manchester United game this morning. i had no illusion that the game at Crystal Palace was going to be easy. but it is entirely too fucking frustrating watching a team more concerned with possession than actually scoring. i understand that probably every team would love to have the ball 70% of the game. but what fucking good does it do if everyone forgets that you need a good pass into the final third to actually fucking score? yet another game where they dropped points. 0-0 draws don't win you trophies. all they do is help you avoid relegation. United is now 4th in the table, 4 points behind the leaders. not exactly sure where the fuck they are going to make up those points the way they are playing now. fuck me.

last night was much better for me in the world of sports. the Sacramento Kings destroyed the Lakers last night. that certainly made me really fucking happy.

the New York Rangers defeated Toronto 3-1. my favorite troll got his first NHL hat trick.

NJPW was excellent last night. any match involving Shinsuke Nakamura is well worth your time.

The Knick was great last night. it had an ending that certainly caught me off guard. season 2 is turning out to be just as good as the first season was.

Undateable was fucking hilarious last night. i absolutely love the chemistry the cast has during live shows. and i love it more when you can obviously see they are trying to get someone to break. fucking great television.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH, the Saturday Night Live Halloween special and Austin City Limits. i believe this episode will have Gary Clark, Jr. and Courtney Barnett.

i will be spending most of today in the garage helping mom clean some shit out and i believe we're going to try to do something creative with my sports posters. they are mostly local teams that i think we are going to try to wallpaper the garage with. and then the plan is to hang up some crazy shit over that; like a deer head, some photos of my sister from college, glamour shots, etc, etc. i figure i will break out the whiskey and enjoy myself and the fumes.

you would think Halloween would be one of those days i would love. you'd be wrong. it mostly reminds me of not having many friends. plus, they really don't make cool costumes for fat people. this is the first time i have lived in a neighborhood in 18 years. i have no clue how much trick or treat traffic this cul-de-sac gets. i'm not going to find out either, as the lights will be out. hell, we'll still probably be in the garage.

for those of you handing out candy tonight, give out the good shit. no fruit, no kind messages, no tiny candy bars. you give out the real shit and you'd be amazed at how often your house doesn't get fucked with. for those of you going out partying tonight, enjoy it. be safe. scare the shit out of everyone. and enjoy a slutty nurse or two.

Ohio State is on a bye week this week. so naturally, the starting QB got arrested this morning for OVI. he's suspended for next week's game against Minnesota. fucking underage kids.

that's all for me today. i will be on here early tomorrow as there is yet another fucking football game in London tomorrow morning. and of course, i have players on my fantasy team playing in it.

i hope this finds everyone wearing something ridiculous or busy brewing something hideous.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


The Chemical Brothers - One Too Many Mornings
The Glitch Mob w/Swan - Between Two Points
Tricky - Aftermath

"The poetry of the earth is never dead." - John Keats

and your pro wrestling video of the day:

Friday, October 30, 2015

completely drained

when mom and i went to the grocery store today, i feared it was going to take hours. knowing that not only were we buying for ourselves, we were also buying for next door, i knew it was possible. when we walked out of the store 2 1/2 hours after we walked in, i was exhausted. i feel bad for my uncle. when i saw him today, you can definitely see that all of this shit is weighing on him. thankfully, the weather is supposed to get warmer next week. i think all he wants to do is sit on the back porch in the sun. and i said to my mother today, fuck it, why stop him. none of us are under any illusion that he's going to be here for another 10 years or so. the sad thing is my aunt is completely useless. i can't imagine she'll be around long after my uncle dies. or maybe that's just my wishful thinking.

saw a few people in the grocery store that got the creative juices running. but i chose to take a nap this afternoon instead of writing. i needed it.

thankfully, my opponents in fantasy football last night only had Miami Dolphins players, so i'm not trailing too bad going into Sunday. the Patriots killed them last night. i did pick the game right.

i also watched an incredible penalty shootout in the MLS last night.

DIRECTV pissed the living shit out of me last night. for some fucking reason our NHL package wasn't working. we were just watching it the day before. mom went online and it didn't even appear on our bill any longer. when she finally got a hold of an actual person, they couldn't explain it either. we have had so many god damn problems ever since AT&T took them over. just fucking perfect.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Undateable, NJPW and The Knick.

the New York Rangers play tonight against Toronto. i really hope the Rangers win as i could use a victory beer.

i believe the Sacramento Kings face the Lakers tonight. i suppose if i'm up late, i'll watch some of that late. my rule with NBA games is all you really need to watch is the last 5 minutes of any game, including playoffs.

i'm going the cheap way for Flashback Friday today. here's one of my YouTube videos:

i listened to Sam Roberts Wrestling Podcast last night. i highly recommend it.
you can find the podcast on iTunes, Stitcher, and on the right hand side of this blog.

i will be on here tomorrow, probably after the Manchester United game. hopefully i will be in a good mood.

i hope everyone has a great weekend. enjoy scaring the shit out of children or just eating candy.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Muddy Waters - Mannish Boy (Live)
Alabama Shakes - You Ain't Alone (Live)
Stevie Ray Vaughn & Double Trouble - Life Without You (Live)

"I have never known anyone worth a damn who wasn't irascible." - Ezra Pound

and your pro wrestling video of the day:

Thursday, October 29, 2015

taking advantage of the sun

there's a chilly sunshine today. i'm sure the birds were happy when i got out there and put some food out for them. plus, our cheap ass chimes in the front broke. so, to make the front yard even more sophisticated white trash, i got out the black duct tape and fixed it. then i had to make a trip to the post office.

i sent out 16 poems today. 6 to ZYX and 5 to Horror Sleaze Trash and Hiram Poetry Review. when i hear back from these places i will post the verdicts.

i was really disappointed with the Manchester United game yesterday. they fucking lost in penalty kicks to a team in the league beneath them. 3 United players missed penalties; Rooney, Carrick and Young. fuck me. not even to mention that the ref missed 2 obvious fucking handballs in the box. what truly pissed me off was this was another classic example of this United team playing down to its' competition. that fucking drives me insane. the sad thing is you could see the teenagers actually trying to do something positive. everyone else acted like they didn't want to be at home playing in front of 70,000 fans or so. needless to say i was livid after the game. mom got upset with me after the game. i laughed as i chose to actually shave and take a shower after the game. i guess i'm supposed to start drinking, break shit and then beat the ones i love like a good sports fan. and they think i'm the one that has gone crazy.

thankfully, NXT was excellent last night. the tag team match between Jason Jordan and Chad Gable vs. Johnny Gargano and Tommaso Ciampa was off the charts great. overall, the show was just what i needed after that shitty soccer game.
i also watched Culture Shock and Table for 3 after NXT. other than the feed fucking up from time to time, it was a good use of my time.

American Horror Story was great last night. each episode gets a little darker and more graphic. LOVE IT. You're The Worst was great as well.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

nothing on the DVR tonight so i will be flipping between the NFL game, some college football and some hockey. maybe even some NBA as well.

i did catch some of the Sacramento Kings loss to the Clippers last night. i do think the Kings will be better this season. i doubt they will make the playoffs out west, but i do think they will be close. hopefully.

that's all for me today. i think mom and i may go out later today. i know she said she wanted to get some things. if so, maybe something will spark my imagination for tomorrow. i'm not holding my breath.

i should be on here sometime in the afternoon tomorrow. not that you actually plan your day around this blog (like you should).

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Tori Amos - Total Eclipse Of The Heart (Live)
Jason Isbell - 24 Frames
Deep Purple - Perfect Strangers

"There are no mistakes, only happy accidents." - Bob Ross

and your pro wrestling video of the day:

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

the rain had to end sometime...

i could hear the rain last night over the fan i have in my room. and the fan is usually loud enough to drown out the music i always have playing at night. just hearing the rain last night made me ache even more. but, i amazingly did find a spot and got somewhere near 6 hours of sleep. of course, i paid for that when i woke up this morning and my whole body popped when i got out of bed. it was like i was cracking my knuckles and the rest of my body wanted in on the fun. good times.

i did do a little poetry work last night. i went through the poems and came up with 10 i will probably be sending out tomorrow. i guess i'll take a shower since i will have to go to the post office to send these poems out.

The Voice last night was pretty good. only one performance really blew me away:

The Muppets was pretty funny last night. i wonder how great the show could be if it was on HBO or Showtime.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be American Horror Story: Hotel and You're The Worst. i will be watching NXT on the WWE Network.

Manchester United plays Middlesbrough in the Capital One Cup today. with Chelsea and Arsenal losing yesterday, this is suddenly a trophy that United could actually win. i have no clue who LVG will play today as it is obvious that many players need a rest after this run of games. plus, you want to make sure the right guys are ready for the game on Saturday. hopefully, i will be drinking a victory beer this evening.

my sister landed in Cape Town today. hopefully she's having a great time.

did all my fantasy football shit this morning. nothing quite liking waking up early on a Wednesday morning trying to figure out what is going to happen 4 days in the future. i'm still shocked that all 3 of my teams are 6-1.

my fantasy hockey team has started slow this week. not the right week for that to happen.

i'm still in the kitchen. if it dries out in the next day or so, i will try to get some pictures of the trees behind the house and the changing colors of the leaves. of course, all of my cameras are loaded for the computer that is currently dead, so that could get interesting.

that's all for me today. i will be on here sometime tomorrow afternoon.

hope this finds everyone enjoying a stiff drink somewhere.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Dawes - All Your Favorite Bands
JJ Grey & Mofro - This River
Over the Rhine - Ohio

"The first responsibility of a leader is to define reality. The last is to say thank you. In between, the leader is a servant." - Max de Pree

and your pro wrestling video of the day:

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

the joys of constant pain

there has been a steady drizzle all day long here. strong enough that my arthritis is at the fuck the world stage. this is the kind of day that i expect i will one day overdose on heroin. the liquor doesn't help nor does the constant badgering of fuckers on Google+ trying to scam me out of money. one of these days i'll slip off into the void and just get off the internet for good. i suppose i should wait for everything to be paid off first.

my uncle is now back home. he came home today. he had another biopsy done yesterday. they can't tell if the cancer is malignant but the dumb fucks told him yesterday to treat it like it was stage 4 cancer. when my mother told me that i said i hope he quickly asked where the fuck my morphine drip is. if it is supposedly stage 4, he might as well get the good shit. it's painful to know that the doctors in this town are simply grasping at straws, hoping they have the right answer without really giving a shit if they do or not. this is the kind of medical system you get when you let the insurance companies run things. i watched it with my stepfather and sadly, it hasn't changed that much since 2002.

i won all 3 of my fantasy football matchups. i believe i was the underdog in all 3 of them. i also got the Monday Night Football game correct. i went 11-3 on picks, which is easily my best showing this season.

Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night. they had to send the shit in a different direction for the next ppv and i think they accomplished their goal.

The Voice was really good last night. three of the performances i thought were excellent:
i am simply amazed at how young some of these performers actually are. it completely reminds me just how bad my singing voice really is. 

Gotham was pretty close to perfect last night. yet another fantastic ending that will keep me coming back for more.

let's enjoy some more music kids:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Muppets and The Voice. the World Series starts tonight but thankfully, so does the NBA season. not that i'm going to watch much of either with hockey going on.

i need to get going. i have trash to pick up which should be really fucking fun with my back. plus, i might actually start looking at some poems and decide what i'm sending where in the next few days.

i will be on here tomorrow before Manchester United plays. hopefully they will do better than Chelsea is doing currently.

i got a wild hair up my ass for some music today. so the 3 songs you will see below all came from iTunes.

that's all for me. hopefully it will be a less rainy, miserable fucking day tomorrow. 

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Lucinda Williams - Change the Locks (Live)
Taj Mahal - That's How Strong My Love Is
Van Morrison - I Just Want to Make Love to You (Live)

"When one burns one's bridges, what a very nice fire it makes." - Dylan Thomas

and your pro wrestling video of the day:

Monday, October 26, 2015

somedays, there just has to be blood

my mother told me this morning that she had heard that they were sending my uncle home today from the hospital. she was pretty surprised as they still don't know what the fuck he really has. i told her i'd be willing to bet that they have reached the limit his insurance will pay for and they are sending him home instead of not getting paid to have him there. and it's now after 4 and he's still not home. mom went to the hospital about 30 minutes or so ago. i'm sure she'll come home bitching about something the dumb fucks at the hospital did. good times.

if you weren't a fan of either Manchester club yesterday, the Manchester derby was fucking boring as hell. as an avid supporter of Manchester United, it was fucking painful to watch. a 0-0 draw when a victory would have put United at the top of the league was brutal to watch. there was probably only a couple instances that i thought United might actually score. the most action was watching Wayne Rooney get staples in his head to stop some bleeding. they next play Middlesbrough in a couple of days in League Cup play.

the New York Rangers started off slow last night but once they got rolling, they were a snowball racing downhill. the first goal was a beauty:
and after that, the goals kept coming for a 4-1 win. that's a good way to get the shitty taste from Philly out of your mouth. they are off until Friday. here are the game highlights:

the New Orleans Saints built a 27-0 lead yesterday. i then watched them try to piss that lead away. thankfully, they did just enough to win, 27-21. at least that gets them out of last place in the division.

i am leading in all 3 of my fantasy football matchups. all of my opponents have players going tonight, as do i. my picks were finally really good. if Arizona wins tonight, i'll go 11-3 for this week. that's more like it.

wrestling last night was probably as good as i could have hoped for. i was stunned at the beginning of the show:
i was thrilled with how easy Alberto beat John Cena. now, i'm really hoping the rumors are true and Cena is taking a few months off. both Hell in a Cell matches were excellent. i enjoyed Roman Reigns vs. Bray Wyatt and thought it really did a good job of showing the potential that Roman really has:
the match between Brock Lesnar and The Undertaker felt like it was from an era sadly gone forever. blood everywhere, low blows, the ring ripped apart, tables and chairs, it was a fucking great way to end a long feud:
and it wouldn't be the WWE without the best thing going today, The New Day:

after Hell in a Cell they showed the first episode to Breaking Ground. i am definitely going to be a fan of this show. i love all the behind the scenes shit i can see.

Homeland was great last night. it had another holy shit ending that just added another level of mindfuck to this season. The Affair was excellent as always. i really appreciate the subtle differences in the storytelling. and next week certainly looks like it's going to be really good.

ok kids, enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

clusterfuck Monday brings us the crowded as hell DVR. on that tonight will be The Voice, The Big Bang Theory and Gotham. i will be flipping between Monday Night Raw and Monday Night Football.

i typed up the 4 poems i have written in the last few days. let me just say that fat fingers and a small keyboard don't go together really well. it was also my first interaction with a new version of Microsoft Word. not exactly the easiest thing to navigate without a mouse. it's also really weird to not have a printer right next to me. not sure how long this computer in the kitchen is going to last. as for the poems, 2 were pretty sad and 2 had some funny ass lines. not sure where i'm going to send them, but i do want to send out some poems this week.

that's all for me today. i have dishes to put away and i need to vacuum. i hope everyone had a great weekend. if not, figure out who to blame and take it out on them.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Bob Dylan - The Man In Me
Love and Rockets - So Alive
Steve Earle - Colorado Girl

"Old age is the most unexpected of all things that happen to a man." - Leon Trotsky

and your pro wrestling video of the day:

Sunday, October 25, 2015

derby day

nothing quite like waking up at the crack of dawn, fooling yourself that you're ready for the day... and 3 minutes later you're taking a shit so loud you wake up your mother. good times.

later this morning, Manchester United takes on Manchester Shitty. i really need United to win as i know the rest of my week will be shit if they lose. no pressure there.

The Red/Blue game yesterday at Dayton was pretty good. the women's team is young but love to shoot. the men's team looks like they will finally have some depth. of course, they would look even better if Dyshawn Pierre was playing with them.

the New York Rangers lost in a shootout last night in Philadelphia, 3-2. of course, the Rangers should have won by that score but the blind fucking refs said the Rangers third goal was goalie interference. they obviously believe Steve Mason is better than he really is. and since it was in Philadelphia, the usual cheap shots and stupid bullshit went uncalled as well. The King had 46 saves and certainly played good enough to get a win. oh well, the Rangers play again tonight against Calgary at home.

Ohio State finally looked like Ohio State again last night, destroying Rutgers 49-7. Rutgers didn't score until the final seconds of the game. and imagine that J.T. Barrett hasn't really found his groove yet either. they look like the scary team that won it all last year once again.

Austin City Limits was excellent last night. as soon as i heard the first chords to "Dirty Laundry" i knew i was going to like the episode. that's my favorite Don Henley song.

ROH was excellent last night as well. the main event was great once again.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Homeland and The Affair.

i will be watching Hell in a Cell on the WWE Network. i'm really hoping this ppv tonight is going to be good. it has everything to be good, but i don't trust WWE creative anymore. they could fuck up anything these days.

the New Orleans Saints play the Colts today. i have the Saints winning. not sure if that was my head or my heart picking that one. i guess we'll see later today.

the injury bug crept into my fantasy football teams without me looking. i will have to step away from the Manchester derby to check the inactives just to make sure i don't get caught with inactive players in my starting lineup. that's always fun.

i wanted to download some music just to see how it would work on this laptop i'm using. found something i wanted at NoiseTrade and amazingly, i figured out how to get the music where i wanted it and holy shit, maybe i will defeat technology yet one day. i'll put a link to the music down in the music section.

i wrote another poem last night. i really, REALLY like this one. i figure i may have a few others up my sleeves to write later tonight and will probably type them all up on Monday.

that's all for me today. i really hope today turns out to be a great one. if you see that the Manchester derby didn't go the way i wanted, you'll know it was just a shit day.

i hope everyone had a great Saturday. hopefully so great that you don't remember some of it.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Shovels & Rope - Swimmin' Time

"Good artists copy, great artists steal." - Pablo Picasso

and your pro wrestling video of the day:

Saturday, October 24, 2015

drizzle to start the day

i installed Windows 10 on the seldom used laptop i'm using now. i was hoping it was going to be done overnight. my dumb ass forgot to change the standby settings, so it was only halfway done. so most of this morning was getting that done. mom went to the hospital to go see her brother. she asked me when the Red-Blue game is today, so i'm at least assuming she's thinking about going to it.

i just heard from my mother. i guess the cancer is outside of my uncle's colon. it is rare, so rare that most of the doctors have no clue what the fuck it is. so i think my sister's thought to at least send the records to Columbus or Cleveland and their cancer centers is the correct route to go. not saying that i think an 80 year old man is going to beat this, but the cancer being on the outside is a bit of a game changer. or, this could all be just silly people trying to grasp at some ray of fucking hope. who knows.

Undateable last night was excellent. my only complaint is the show is so damn funny, it's too short.

NJPW last night was good. it's the same matches that i watched in January of this year, but that was at 3 in the morning, so i don't mind seeing these matches again.

The Knick was great. this season looks like it is going to be just as great as last season was.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH and Austin City Limits. i believe the artist tonight is Don Henley.

Ohio State plays tonight at Rutgers. i want to believe since they are finally starting the correct quarterback, the blowouts will now commence.

the New York Rangers play tonight at Philadelphia. that should be an interesting game.

since i now have Windows 10 on here, i may try to type up some poems just to get the feel of doing it on here and printing them out on a printer in another room. as you might imagine, technology and i have been at war for most of my life.

just found out that my sister has landed in South Africa. she told mom that if the wi-fi is good enough at the hotel, she will email. i'm hoping she takes some good pictures because i know damn well i'll never make it there in my lifetime.

i listened to Sam Roberts Wrestling Podcast late the other night. it is really worth a listen if you would like to hear Roman Reigns the way he should actually sound on television.
you can hear the podcast on iTunes, Stitcher, and on the right hand side of this blog.

that's all for me today. i hope everyone has a wonderful Saturday. take it easy and then take it again. have a good bottle of wine and eat like you are a god. and if you happen to feel like sending me some naughty photos of it all, you are more than welcome to do so.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Alex Clare - Too Close
John Prine - It's a Big Old Goofy World
Metallica - Enter Sandman (Live)

"You're meant to have an unhappy childhood to be a writer, but there's a lot to be said for a very happy one that just lets you get on with it." - Emma Donoghue

and your pro wrestling video of the day:

Friday, October 23, 2015

thoughts from the kitchen

i made sure to get some extra alcohol when mom and i were at the grocery store today. i get the feeling i'm going to need it with all the cancer talk going around and my sister getting ready to board a flight to South Africa. i caught myself checking out ring fingers today at the grocery store. i'm taking that as a sign that my loneliness is starting to get to me now.

for Flashback Friday today, i want to change it up a bit. i want to shine a light on one of my favorite zines EVER, Zygote In My Coffee. Brian was kind enough to publish me so many damn times. as a poet, you can never find those type of humans enough. go to the site: and check out the back issues. i'm in the first one and a ton of the others. but also check out all the other writers in the issues. and bookmark the site for when you need something to read. it's worth it.

WWE Smackdown was pretty good last night. i was very pleased with how Tyler Breeze made his debut:

the New York Rangers fell behind last night. unlike previous games, they stormed back and won 4-1. and a few of the guys got off the snide. plus, The King was The King once again.

i wrote another poem last night. i'm holding off on typing the newly written ones up as i feel i have a ton of shit right at the tip of my tongue.

i hardly watched any of the NFL game last night. from what i heard, i didn't miss much. i did pick the game right though.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

i'm hoping to go to the Red-Blue game tomorrow to see what the UD basketball teams look like. but, i have no clue if i will have a way there. mom is talking like she's going to go up to the hospital to see her brother and i have no fucking clue if she's going to be home in time for me to get to the arena. so, i may be trying to find shit on YouTube if i don't go.

on the DVR tonight will be Undateable, NJPW and The Knick. that should be an excellent night of television.

i have no clue when i'll be on here tomorrow. i imagine if i get a wild hair up my ass, i may try to bust a post out in the morning. but, with most of my sports not starting until the evening, it could be the rare morning i sleep in. ok, i laughed at that as well. that never fucking happens.

i'm sitting here watching hurricane coverage of what is approaching Mexico. i once had a girlfriend named Patricia. vaya con dios mis amigos. this storm looks fucking horrible on the radar.

that's all for me today kids. i hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. as always, call if you need bail money.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Paolo Nutini - Iron Sky
Jeff Buckley - Everybody Here Wants You
INXS - Not Enough Time

"Married men live longer than single men. But married men are a lot more willing to die." - Johnny Carson

and your pro wrestling video of the day:

Thursday, October 22, 2015

now the fun begins

well, i got the news on my uncle today. they believe it is colon cancer. and the cancer is so involved with the intestines and other shit, that they aren't going to do any surgery. so i suppose when he told my mother that he felt like he was going to die this year, he was probably prophetic in that statement. like this family doesn't hate the holidays enough... my mother is crushed by this news. she can't understand how the cancer never showed up of any scans or tests over the last year. i have no clue how my sister is taking this as she is much closer to my uncle than i am. i can't help but think that both my sister and i have colon cancer on both sides of our family now. talk about losing the genetic lottery. i have no clue what is going to happen next. i suppose hospice care at home is the most likely, which my mother has already told me i'm on shit duty. good times. as you might imagine, chalk today up as another one i'd love to forget.

Manchester United got a 1-1 draw yesterday against CSKA Moscow. any point on the road is a good one but i can't help but think if the two mistakes in the first half didn't happen, United leaves with all 3 points. i blame their goal more on Phil Jones than Anthony Martial. sure, the handball is inexcusable in the box but who the fuck falls asleep on a penalty kick. De Gea did his job making the save, Phil has to get to that ball first. Martial tied the game in the second half with a well placed header. hopefully they can put the game out of their heads quickly as they have the Manchester derby on Sunday.

NXT was interesting last night. the women, as always, were excellent. Asuka will be excellent in the company. the other matches were ok but nothing special. that should change in 2 weeks when Apollo Crews takes on Finn Balor.

our DIRECTV fucked up right at 10 PM last night. it was like everything was fucking frozen. 30 minutes later everything was back to working. i have no fucking clue what happened. all i know is the shit froze right as American Horror Story: Hotel was getting ready to record.

so my disjointed viewing of American Horror Story last night made it really interesting. the show was excellent once again. the cast this season is close to perfect. Lady Gaga has fit much better than i thought she would.

You're The Worst answered the big question that the show was teasing for weeks. i'm really interested to see how they handle clinical depression in a comedy show.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be WWE Smackdown, mostly so i can see the debut of Tyler Breeze. he's a guy that should have been up on the main roster a long time ago. he absolutely owns the Prince Pretty gimmick.

the New York Rangers face the Coyotes tonight, or as i 'm calling it the return of Anthony Duclair. i really hope he doesn't put on a show tonight. but, i fear that he would love to show us fans what we're missing.

i don't have anyone going in the NFL game tonight. i'll probably watch some of it as both Seattle and San Francisco hate each other. amazingly (knock on wood) i don't have many injury concerns this week in fantasy football. i can't believe all 3 of my teams are on 5 game winning streaks. that's bound to end sometime. hopefully not soon.

i'm still on my mother's rarely used laptop. i have set it up in the kitchen. mostly because i'm too lazy to take apart the old computer to make room for this in my room. it's interesting sitting here with just some slow music playing. we have 8 windows in the kitchen, so my imagination tends to start to go a little nuts at times. hopefully it makes for some interesting poems.

mom is talking to me right now about how my sister is adamant that my uncle gets a second opinion. after seeing what happened to my stepfather in this town with cancer, i'm with her. with the facilities in Columbus and Cleveland, it wouldn't hurt for him to get a second opinion. fuck, once again, cancer has taken over my fucking life.


that's all for me today. i have no fucking clue when i'll be on here tomorrow as mom is saying we might go to the hospital. good times.

as always, i hope this finds you in a much, MUCH better place than i am.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


U2 - Bad (Live)
Trent Reznor - Hurt (Live)
Gov't Mule - Presence of the Lord (Live)

"You're only as young as the last time you changed your mind." - Timothy Leary

and your pro wresting video of the day:

an odd looking smile

my poem "an odd looking smile" has been published at Your One Phone Call. you can find the poem by going here:

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

the waiting is the hardest part

no real update on my uncle yet. my mom got a text this morning that they are still waiting for the results from the scan yesterday. so i figure sometime while i'm watching Manchester United today i'll get the news. good times.

The Voice last night was interesting. my favorite battle was this one:

Amy is certainly one of the ones i think can win the whole thing. next week starts the knockouts.

Scream Queens was excellent last night. it's so campy at times that you can't help but laugh. but, it's also very graphic, which makes it close to perfect.

i actually got close to 6 hours of sleep last night. i was watching The Wall last night before i fell asleep. i remember when the high school baseball team used to come over on Friday nights to watch that movie and get drunk or stoned at the house. while watching it last night, the movie certainly took on a different tone to me now that my father is dead. some of those old war scenes took my mind to a completely different place. of course, i'm also 24 years older now.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be American Horror Story: Hotel and You're The Worst. I'll be watching NXT and some other shit on the WWE Network.

Manchester United plays at CSKA Moscow today in Champions League action. United is on a road losing streak in the Champions League so i really hope that ends today. everyone in the group is level on points, so a win today would be a big one.

before the game, i'm hoping to work in some writing and a shower. such is the glorious life of a poet.

my sister started her journey today. i guess by the weekend she'll be in South Africa. i imagine those are going to be some interesting pictures.

that's all for me today. i imagine tomorrow's blog is going to be an interesting one.

hope this finds everyone doing something interesting with their hands. (i know exactly what you dirty minded fuckers are thinking)

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Jack Johnson - Flake (Live)
My Morning Jacket - It Makes No Difference (Live)

"The most happy marriage I can picture or imagine to myself would be the union of a deaf man to a blind woman." - Samuel Taylor Coleridge

and your pro wrestling video of the day:

my 5 poems at Horror Sleaze Trash

my poems "a new hope for an old world", "the outline of the lord", "like butter", "that little boy" and "common on the evening news" have been published at Horror Sleaze Trash. you can find the poems by going here:

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

and the hits keep on coming...

my uncle was supposed to have gall bladder surgery today. he felt fine the last few days and none of us thought anything about it. and then my mother gets a text this afternoon that he didn't have the surgery, they found cancer when they opened him up. they believe it came from the colon, which, if true, would mean my sister and i now have colon cancer on both sides of our family. good times. my mother is a wreck right now as she certainly didn't move next door just to see her brother die. i'm pretending to hope for the best but i'm not a fucking fool. he's 80 years old. i figure in the next day or so we'll know more about all of this. needless to say, my computer dying has been shifted down the importance list.

i put iTunes on my mother's laptop that i'm using. after 30 minutes of trying to figure out how the fuck to allow this computer to play music i had downloaded to another computer, i figured it out. so, at the very least, i do have some music on here now.

the New York Rangers ended their losing streak with a masterful 4-0 win over San Jose last night. i do like that this team is excellent in the 2nd game of back to backs. plus, it was the first start for their backup goalie they got from Chicago. he's the first Ranger goalie to get a shutout in his debut with the team since 1957. that was a sweet tasting victory beer.

The Voice last night was really good. one battle was fucking amazing.

Gotham was awesome last night. the show just keeps getting better each week. The Big Bang Theory was pretty funny. Life in Pieces had me laughing as well. and Men in Blazers was hilarious.

i won all 3 of my fantasy football matchups, one by just 1 damn point. the Giants QB last night did just enough for me to win. my picks for the week though were 7-7. that's fucking horrible for me.

Monday Night Raw was good last night. you could see they were swinging for the fences bringing back so many past stars for the show. not sure if it worked or not, but i will certainly be watching Hell in a Cell this Sunday.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

i watched that Star Wars trailer at halftime of the football game last night and i was just waiting for someone on ESPN to say the nerds are winning. you could see they all wanted to.

on the DVR tonight will be The Voice and Scream Queens.

i will probably be on here tomorrow sometime before Manchester United plays in the Champions League.

i now have trash and recyclables to pick up here and next door.

i hope this finds everyone with a healthy sense of humor and a hard drink in their hands.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Thunderbitch - Closer
The White Stripes - Dead Leaves and the Dirty Ground

"Life is the farce which everyone has to perform." - Arthur Rimbaud

and your pro wrestling video of the day:

my 2 poems in Misfit Magazine #16

my poems "on these endless nights alone" and "when i was at that age" have been published in Misfit Magazine #16. you can find the poems by going here:

Monday, October 19, 2015

not the best day for my computer to fuck up

as i have grown older, i certainly understand that shit will happen regardless of whatever any of us have going on in our lives. so it makes perfect sense that in the middle of fantasy football season, in the middle of me sending poems, in the middle of me constantly checking emails and trying to make sure i keep up on the little social media i can stomach... it makes perfect fucking sense for my computer to just royally fuck up today. i can turn it on and then nothing else happens. i've tried every damn troubleshooting method i have found and nothing has worked. so i'm now using my mother's rarely used laptop that she bought a year or so ago but never learned how to use. thankfully, i'm a quick learner. not sure what we're going to do with the old computer. i know i would like to get all the shit that's on the hard drive off of it. just something i was completely unprepared for. fuck me.

so i have no clue how this blog is going to turn out. and i have no clue if i'm going to continue to blog each day.

in other news...

i got some crazy mail today from Nocturnal Productions. not everyday that i get some music and crazy shit in the mail. i'm sure the mailman was amused.

i did pretty good in fantasy football yesterday. pretty good could be great depending on what happens tonight. it all comes down to the Giants QB and kicker,

i tried to pull a fast one in fantasy hockey yesterday and that blew up in my face. good times.

the New York Rangers lost in OT yesterday 2-1. this fucking losing is getting old. plus, it was the first win of the season for New Jersey. yuck. the Rangers will hopefully end their losing streak tonight against San Jose.

the shows last night were excellent. Homeland had yet another HOLY FUCKING SHIT ending that was awesome. The Affair was great as well. and once again, Last Week Tonight hit another one out of the park:

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

tonight is yet another clusterfuck Monday. on the DVR tonight will be The Voice, Gotham, The Big Bang Theory and Life in Pieces. i will be flipping between hockey, football and Monday Night Raw. tonight's episode should be really good as they have a pay per view coming up on Sunday.

i may sneak in Men in Blazers tonight as i will probably need some laughs.

the truly shitty thing about my computer being fucked up is just how much music i have on there that i only have on there. i'm sure i looked crazy as hell today with all the tunes only playing in my head.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow. i may end spending the day trying to find the right person to fix the computer or just biting the damn bullet and getting a new one. as i told my mother today, i suppose Windows 10 is truly meant for computers made in 2015 and not the ones made earlier, like the two we use all the time.

if anyone has any tips for me on the computer and what could possible be wrong, feel free to email me at

i hope everyone had a great weekend. mine certainly could have been better.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


just some crazy beats running through my head

"I am not a politician... I only suffer the consequences." - Peter Tosh

and your pro wrestling video of the day: