Thursday, August 17, 2017

such an ugly world

so, here i am yet again, starting a fucking blog off with another fucking terrorist attack. this is one thing i do agree with conservatives on. radical Islamic terrorism must be ended. but, unlike the conservatives, i don't think every fucking Muslim is a fucking terrorist. it's beyond obvious that the only way this government thinks they can beat Isis is through absolute force. how is that working out? i suppose you can't win a war for hearts and minds when your President doesn't have one. personally, i don't think there is much difference between Isis and the fucking Nazis. and i'm way too old and too fucking cynical now to believe love will ever win. i know that's the goal, but i'm a fucking realist. all i can do is treat people the way i would love for them to treat me. i would love to live in a peaceful world at least once before i die. i won't be holding my fucking breath. my thoughts are with Barcelona tonight. mucha fuerza mis amigos.

i see some of the GOP have found their nuts today. good job.


the New York Yankees won again last night, 5-3. Aaron Judge hit a mammoth home run last night. of course, he set a strikeout record as well. they will go for the sweep of the Mets tonight.

Big Brother was pretty funny last night. Cody will be the first one evicted tonight. i don't think the tv audience will get to see who wins the next HOH and the VETO competition and the next eviction until tomorrow night. hopefully there are some damn fireworks for a double eviction night.

Mr. Mercedes was fucking great last night.

Snowfall was fucking brilliant last night. easily, one of the best shows on television right now.

Lucha Underground was amazing last night. the matches were excellent and the brawl to end the show was fucking great. next week should be incredible.

NXT was very good last night. Takeover Brooklyn III should be great on Saturday night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Big Brother, Weekend Update and The Chris Gethard Show.

i did listen to the latest Sam Roberts Wrestling Podcast this morning. you can find that by going here:
https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/sam-roberts-wrestling-podcast/id934576040?mt=2

i wrote 3 poems this afternoon. i figured it was raining and i was in pain. so, i might as well try to squeeze a little creativity out of that. the first poem was a long ass one i had bottled up in me since the weekend. i'm not sure where i'll ever send that epic, but i'd love to see it get published somewhere. the other 2 were pretty good as well. i'm still on a good pace for the month. hopefully, i'll have another writing session and then another round of submissions in the next week or so.

Real Madrid thoroughly outplayed Barcelona yesterday to win 2-0 and win the Spanish Super Cup. given the players that weren't playing for Real Madrid, they are going to be a fucking scary team this year in the Champions League.

i didn't go to the grocery store today. i figure i will go tomorrow after mom's next eye appointment. i believe tomorrow is the measurement day to see what kind of new lens she can get for her eyes.

that's all for me today kids.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Guided by Voices - Just To Show You
Drive-By Truckers - What It Means
Lorde - Royals
Tom Waits - Make It Rain (Live)

"You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough." - Mae West

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

happy Elvis is dead day

i have never really been a big fan of Elvis. that is probably due to my father being a huge fan. most of the men in my family that i remember growing up were fans. hell, i remember one cousin dreamed of being an Elvis impersonator. it was probably then that i questioned if i was adopted or stolen from another family. thankfully, i'm not old enough to really recall 40 years ago today.

is anyone really surprised the President is racist? or is it just the typical old man no longer with a filter that actually thinks there is such a thing as a good Nazi? and the silence from the Jews in his inner circles is baffling to me. i guess money can buy every fucking thing in this country, including your fucking soul. enjoy the shit show ladies and gentlemen. you wanted it.

the New York Yankees held on to win last night, 5-4. i do like that Gary Sanchez is heating up. and Sonny Gray finally got some damn run support. but, it might be time to try someone else as closer. they play tonight at the Mets. oh joy, National League baseball.

Smackdown was sort of odd last night. i guess the company lost faith in Baron Corbin, having him cash in the Money in the Bank contract and then having Cena help him lose. i guess i know what that means for SummerSlam. all in all, it's kind of scary how much better Monday Night Raw is at the moment.

205 Live was pretty good last night.

Hard Knocks was pretty funny last night. i do love watching Tampa Bay lose.

Deadliest Catch was really good last night.

The Jim Jefferies Show was fucking fantastic last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Lucha Underground, Mr. Mercedes, Snowfall and Big Brother. i'll watch NXT sometime tonight on WWE Network.

i do plan on watching the second leg of the Spanish Super Cup today between Real Madrid and Barcelona. Barcelona will have to score some away goals today to make it interesting.

it is hotter than shit today. i think it is easily in the 90's. i never like these days. one, i sweat so easily it's ridiculous. two, the heat really fucks with mom's Meniere's disease.

i think it is supposed to storm tomorrow, so it figures that i'll probably have to go to the grocery store. i'll probably be on here after all of that.

i'm really hoping i won't be sitting on the computer at 4 in the morning again like i was 12 hours ago. nothing quite like drinking and then having insomnia.

that's all for me today kids.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Elvis Presley - Heartbreak Hotel
My Morning Jacket - Suspicious Minds (Live)
UB40 - Can't Help Falling in Love
Elvis Presley - In the Ghetto

"Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must live." - Charles Bukowski

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

always good for a laugh

i just watched a "news" conference with President dipshit and the dumb fuck decided to take questions and immediately went right back to his words from Saturday... violence on many sides. that pretty much proves what i said yesterday, his "new" remarks simply being a public relations clean up mess more than his heart, was actually true. he can't fully remove himself from the racists because he knows that eliminates so much of his damn support that he won't have much to stand on. so if he thinks the protests against him are bad now, just fucking wait. i always wondered what this country was like in 1968 with the threat of assassination constantly in the air. my gut tells me i'm going to see it firsthand. i almost feel sorry for the fucker at the White House who has to clean up this mess, again.

the New York Yankees came from behind last night to beat the Mets 4-2. solo home runs from Judge, Sanchez and Hicks did the job. for all of them, that was the 40th home run of their careers. that's kind of spooky. even better last night, the Red Sox lost, so the Yankees picked up a game in the division. hopefully they can win again tonight.

Monday Night Raw was very good last night. they certainly are going into SummerSlam with some good momentum.

I Hart Food is the new show on the Food Network from Hannah Hart (My Drunk Kitchen on YouTube). it was really good, as i thought it would be. it certainly provided a bit of a mental break from the fucking news, that's for sure.

Vice News Tonight last night was great. it was completely a behind the scenes look at what happened in Charlottesville over the weekend. i highly recommend it, especially since it shows you the fucking dumb fucks behind the rally to begin with.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Smackdown, Hard Knocks, The Jim Jefferies Show and Deadliest Catch. i'll watch 205 Live on WWE Network sometime tonight.

i did listen to the latest Jim Norton & Sam Roberts podcast this morning. you can find that by going here: https://soundcloud.com/jimandsamshow/ep-037-anthony-cumia

i think the alcohol worked last night as i got a good amount of sleep overnight. not as much as i probably needed as i probably need a damn coma to catch up quite honestly.

i do need to get the trash picked up here and next door, so that's all for me today kids.

i have no clue when i'll be on here tomorrow. everything has been sort of thrown out of whack now that mom is more or less finished with her physical therapy.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Caamp - Misty
Gary Jules - Mad World
Massive Attack - Mezzanine
Billy Paul - Me and Mrs. Jones

"In politics stupidity is not a handicap." - Napoleon Bonaparte

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:


with every step i take

my poem "with every step i take" has been published in the latest Sentinel Literary Quarterly (July - September 2017). you can read the issue by going here:
http://www.sentinelquarterly.com/july-september-2017.pdf

Monday, August 14, 2017

the epitome of a brutal loss

the New York Yankees were two outs away last night from an incredible win against one of the best pitchers in baseball and would have been just 3 1/2 games out of the division. instead, an unbelievable home run and some shitty managerial decisions took place and the Yankees lost 3-2 in 10 innings. an absolute brutal loss that has them 5 1/2 games out. thank god i have matured a bit. 10 years ago that would be the kind of loss that would have me up 2 days later still wondering about it. the Yankees start a series with the fucking Mets tonight. hopefully they start to fucking win consistently again.

Big Brother was pretty funny last night. the look on Cody's face when he couldn't even lose correctly was priceless.

Power was fucking great last night. another excellent ending.

Ballers was really good last night.

Insecure was fucking fantastic last night.

Last Week Tonight was absolutely hilarious.

The Strain was really good last night.

Ray Donovan was good last night.

Twin Peaks was yet another delicious mind fuck. loved the David Bowie flashback.

the season finale of I'm Dying Up Here was excellent last night.

i did watch the first leg of the Spanish Super Cup yesterday. CR7 had a very interesting few minutes. come on as a sub, score an amazing goal, get a yellow card for showing the crowd how many abs you have, get another yellow card (wrongly) for falling down in the box and then push the referee in the back when he shows you the red card. he ended up with a 5 game suspension for just about 20 minutes of action in the game. Real Madrid defeated Barcelona 3-1. the second leg is on Wednesday.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight and I Hart Food. i'll be watching Monday Night Raw for most of the evening.

my last load of laundry is in the dryer. the dishes are already done. so, now all i have to do is clean the toilets. joy.

i think i got almost 5 1/2 hours of sleep last night. sadly, i don't think i moved at all. so, waking up this morning, that felt like murder in my joints. hello arthritis, fuck you.

just imagine if the dipshit acting as President would have said what he said today on Saturday. i imagine a good number of people would actually think he was starting to understand what being President actually means. instead, today was simply cleaning up a public relations mess and nothing more. he looked so damn uncomfortable throwing the racists, his people, under the bus. i'm sure all you Trump voters must feel proud.

i hope everyone had a great weekend. i'm off to go fold clothes and get ready for dinner.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Buffalo Killers - The Path Before Me
Marilyn Manson - The Beautiful People
Street Sweeper Social Club - The New Fuck You

"You should always leave the party 10 minutes before you actually do." - Gary Larson

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

Sunday, August 13, 2017

better than the dreams

i don't think i could have dreamed of Manchester United getting off to a better start to this season. they played the best i have seen them play in years, probably since Sir Alex. and to get a 4-0 win over West Ham to start off the season will hopefully be a sign of things to come. 2 goals from Lukaku and a goal each from Martial and Pogba. i will certainly enjoy that drink this evening.

the New York Yankees got off to a good start yesterday and then the shit hit the fan. Boston whipped them 10-5 and honestly, it never felt that close. i would say hopefully they will win tonight, but i seriously doubt they will. they now have 2 starters on the disabled list and honestly, i could see them have to fight tooth and nail just to hang on to a wildcard spot for the playoffs.

ROH was really good last night.

i did get a good laugh from the President's inability to say the KKK or white nationalists or white supremacists in his bullshit comments on what happened yesterday in Charlottesville, Virginia. of course, when you have fucking racists whispering into your ear everyday from inside the White House, what should i expect. the hoods have been replaced with red hats. as one headline said today, Trump lit the flames of hatred, it's up to us to put them out. i urge all of you to check out this link and read the article and then really, really think about what fucking country you want to live in.
https://www.nytimes.com/2017/08/12/opinion/charlottesville-and-the-bigotocracy.html?smid=tw-nytimes&smtyp=cur

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Big Brother, Power, Ballers, Insecure, Last Week Tonight, The Strain, Ray Donovan, Twin Peaks and the season finale of I'm Dying up Here.

i do plan on watching the Spanish Super Cup this afternoon, which is getting ready to start now. this is the first leg between Real Madrid and Barcelona.

i had a heartbreaking phone call with my best friend this morning. when she told me her apartment has a gas leak but the landlord won't do anything to fix it, i was furious. but, since she told she's been fucked over by every social service there is in Arkansas, i told her the best advice i had for her is to either leave the state or die as quietly as she can. there certainly is a piece of me that thinks i might not hear from her again.

i have no clue when i'll be on here tomorrow. all i'm hoping is that my damn headache is gone by then.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Ramones - The KKK Took My Baby Away
Rage Against the Machine - Bulls on Parade (Live)
Sex Pistols - God Save the Queen
Prophets of Rage - Unfuck the World

"Revenge is sweet and not fattening." - Alfred Hitchcock

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:


in your shoes

my poem "in your shoes" has been published in Yellow Mama #63. you can find the poem by going here: http://blackpetalsks.tripod.com/yellowmama/id1691.html

Saturday, August 12, 2017

from out of nowhere...

the New York Yankees were more or less dead last night. and then, the bottom of the 8th happened. completely out of nowhere, the Yankees, trailing 3-0, scored 5 runs to take the lead. of course, this was happening as the storms were rolling through here, so the satellite was cutting in and out. then, the top of the 9th happened. the Yankees closer walked the bases loaded. how the fuck he got out of it with only giving up 1 run is a damn miracle. or, the gift of sloppy base running from Boston. the Yankees held on for the win, 5-4. they certainly needed that. hopefully they will win again this afternoon.

VICE was excellent last night. too bad so many on the right don't watch it. i suppose they would love to know there are no taxes in Somalia. perfect for venture capitalists.

Treehouse Masters was pretty good last night. i have to think the treehouse they built in New Jersey was easily over $100,000.

Real Time with Bill Maher was fucking hilarious last night.

Room 104 last night was kind of just cruising along and then HOLY SHIT, what an ending.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH.

hopefully all the storms are gone and this weekend will be a pleasant one.

i figure i'll spend most of today doing the dishes and hopefully, catching up on some sleep.

mom said my sister will be down here this afternoon. i figure this is all going to be about the home she's buying.

i will probably be on here tomorrow after Manchester United plays.

that's all for me kids. i hope everyone has a wonderful Saturday. call if you need bail money, unless you are one of those fuckers in Charlottesville. i'm all for free speech. but when that speech becomes throwing lit torches at other protesters, it is no longer free speech. that is called a crime. and hopefully people wake the fuck up that slavery isn't something in the past that you actually should be proud of. of course, with the racists in the White House these days, i can understand why you think you should be proud. stupid fucks.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Firm - Satisfaction Guaranteed
The Rolling Stones - Wild Horses
Urge Overkill - Girl, You'll Be a Woman Soon
Concrete Blonde - Tomorrow, Wendy

"Embrace your weirdness!" - Cara Delevingne

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

remember the glory

my poem "remember the glory" has been published at In Between Hangovers. you can find the poem by going here: https://inbetweenhangovers.wordpress.com/2017/08/12/remember-the-glory-by-j-j-campbell/

my 3 poems at Midnight Lane Boutique

my poems "steal your pleasure", "uncomfortable laughter" and "in a parking lot" have been published at Midnight Lane Boutique. you can find the poems by going here:
https://midnightlanegalleryii.wordpress.com/2017/08/12/feature-poet-j-j-campbell-2/

Friday, August 11, 2017

nothing like a headache and your blood sugar dropping while in a grocery store

i was going to title this blog post the kiss of death, but i was afraid too many of you would take it the wrong way. i was in the grocery store today and this black guy was looking at me. i quickly noticed it was one of the guys from the waiting room at the place where mom does her physical therapy. i wasn't exactly in the mood to talk, so i just kept moving. he crossed my path later in the meat section and stopped me by saying i saw you at physical therapy the other day, does your wife have therapy today? i said that's my mother actually and no. he apologized and i told him not to worry about it but it already confirmed all my fears. try being a single 41 year old male and the first thing anyone thinks when they see you out with your mother is that you are actually a married couple. at least this will make the suicide understandable to so many more people now.

i spent nearly $300 in the grocery store today. most of it was the pills and all the stuff my mother wanted me to buy for my sister's upcoming birthday (gift cards, alcohol, etc.). it's been threatening to rain nearly all day. thankfully, i got the grocery shopping done and the mail was here before any of it really started.

just as i feared, the New York Yankees left a small village on base last night and lost to Toronto 4-0. yet another losing road trip. they are back home tonight to start a series against Boston. they are 4 1/2 games behind them in the division. god willing, they won't be 7 1/2 by Monday.

Vice News Tonight had another great week of shows.

Big Brother went as i expected last night. Jessica was evicted and Alex is the new HOH, or how most people online are putting it, Paul is the HOH for the third week in a row. i did love how devastated Cody looked last night when he lost in the HOH competition. i'm rooting for whoever has the balls to actually get rid of Paul this season. if they wait any longer, he will win the show.

The Chris Gethard Show was beautifully absurd once again last night.

the New Orleans Saints did what they do best last night, lose a fucking preseason game. that's 10 in a row they have lost. thank god i didn't go to the game, which was in Cleveland.

Weekend Update last night was fucking hilarious.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be VICE, Treehouse Masters, Real Time with Bill Maher and Room 104.

the Premier League started back up today. Manchester United starts on Sunday against West Ham.

i believe my sister is coming down this weekend. of course, i have no clue when. since i don't have a cell phone, i'm not privy to those text messages between my sister and mother unless my mother remembers to tell me.

mom's physical therapy went well yesterday. of course, she doesn't believe she's done as good as she has, so they have her on a 3 week hold. my hope is once she gets her cataracts taken care of and can actually fucking see again, she'll actually start to realize the gains she has made in her therapy. i'm not holding my breath though.

i did write 5 more poems today. when you wake up and see that the asshole parading as President of this country is trying to out crazy another crazy fucker, i have a tendency to reach for pen and paper. i typed up the 5 poems this morning, most of which were not political in nature by the way. i did like a few of them. that puts me at 15 poems in 11 days for the month. i guess cutting out fantasy sports has allowed me to be more productive. i'm still making the same amount of money sadly, doing either.

that's all for me today kids. i hope everyone has an amazing weekend. take it easy and then take it again.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Beastie Boys - No Sleep Till Brooklyn
Digital Underground - The Humpty Dance
Kendrick Lamar - Bitch, Don't Kill My Vibe
Ice Cube - It Was a Good Day (Remix)
The Pharcyde - Passin' Me By

"Either you deal with what is the reality, or you can be sure that the reality is going to deal with you." - Alex Haley

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

Thursday, August 10, 2017

playing a losing game...

i have noticed on the nights i do get to drink, the alcohol in the glass is getting higher and higher. i know my father had the alcoholic gene, as did probably all of his fathers before him, so i know my future. i suppose i'm simply trying to fool myself into thinking i'm being responsible about it all. whatever. before long i'll be the drunk writing on my back porch, bitching about the kids to stay off my fucking lawn.

i did write a couple poems this morning. i typed up those two and the one from the other day this afternoon. i think they are pretty good. i'm thinking i might really go through the unpublished file again and try to find some hidden gems. i do plan another round of submissions before August ends.

the New York Yankees pounded out 17 hits last night and beat Toronto 11-5. hopefully they still have some more left in those bats and win the series tonight.

i got some great FREE music on NoiseTrade this morning. i highly recommend checking it out.
Lukas Nelson & Promise of the Real - Find Yourself EP

Big Brother was pretty good last night. Jessica will get evicted tonight and hopefully there will be fireworks. of course, i won't be able to see the show until 2 in the morning because of preseason football. so i guess i will be following online.

Mr. Mercedes was fucking awesome last night. i think i am really going to enjoy this show.

Snowfall was excellent last night.

Lucha Underground was really good last night.

NXT was a little light on wrestling but did an excellent job selling just how good Takeover: Brooklyn could be this year.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Big Brother, Weekend Update and The Chris Gethard Show.

the reason Big Brother will be on later here is the game between the Cleveland Browns and New Orleans Saints. hopefully the Saints win and don't have any injuries.

i believe today is mom's last physical therapy session for her hip. the hip has healed really good. the problem she has is her muscles in her right leg are so damn weak that she has problems doing the little things. i told her she might have to do a little electric stimulation on those muscles to help the process. but, what do i know...

i did listen to the latest Sam Roberts Wrestling Podcast today. you can check that out by going here:
https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/srw-146-joey-janela/id934576040?i=1000390868923&mt=2

it's supposed to rain tonight and tomorrow.. hit or miss back to Summer showers i suppose. at some point, i know i need to hit the grocery store. i have pills to pick up for myself and mom. that's probably $100 right there.

i guess i should actually check the mailbox sometime before i take mom to her session. i guess i have spent most of the day here in my room. hello depression, my name is...

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Lukas Nelson & Promise of the Real - Find Yourself EP
The Orwells - They Put a Body In the Bayou
Ryan Adams - Do You Still Love Me?

"Older men declare war. But it is the youth that must fight and die." - Herbert Hoover

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

response from Tuck Magazine

i heard back from Michael at Tuck Magazine on my recent poetry submission. my poems "the lucky spoon" and "aquarius" have been accepted for publication. they should appear in approximately in 12 weeks.

Wednesday, August 9, 2017

hello anger, it's me...

mix in arthritis with frustration and the inability of my fingers to hold a fucking computer mouse correctly anymore and you can understand why being a poet is some days as much of a fucking curse as it is a damn blessing. sending out the poems this morning was an adventure to say the least.

i sent out 12 poems, 2 to Tuck Magazine and 5 each to Easy Street and Synchronized Chaos (already accepted by the way). when i hear back from Michael and Cami, i'll pass on the verdicts.

i haven't typed up the poem i wrote yesterday. i'm hoping there are a few more coming. considering the pain i feel when typing, unless i'm drinking heavily, i'm not going to just type up one poem.

the New York Yankees left a small village on base yesterday, losing to Toronto 4-2. CC only pitched 3 innings because of a bad knee. that's just what this team needs... more injuries. hopefully they will get a win tonight. they are now 4 games behind Boston in the division.

Smackdown was pretty damn good last night.

205 Live was good last night as well.

the team this season on Hard Knocks is Tampa Bay. another team from the NFC South i can't stand, so i'll mostly be watching for shits and giggles.

Deadliest Catch was pretty good last night. i was reminded why i never felt any desire to work on a crab boat.

The Jim Jefferies Show last night was excellent.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Mr. Mercedes, Big Brother, Snowfall and Lucha Underground. i'll watch NXT sometime tonight on WWE Network.

i think i was so damn tired last night that when i fell asleep i ended up staying in one position most of the 5 hours i was asleep. let me just say that wasn't much fun getting out of bed with your whole body in pain.

it took me over a hour to get the dishes done last night. that probably helped me be so damn tired. hopefully mom decides a dishwasher would be a nice addition to the house soon. i certainly wouldn't mind.

i'll be on here tomorrow sometime before i take mom to her final physical therapy session for now. i guess i get to be the lucky one that makes sure she does her home exercises. joy.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

David Gray - This Years Love
4 Non Blondes - What's Up?
The Horrors - Still Life
Nine Inch Nails - The Day the World Went Away (Live)

"Deprivation is for me what daffodils were for Wordsworth." - Philip Larkin

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

response from Synchronized Chaos

i heard back from Cristina at Synchronized Chaos on my poetry submission from this morning. my poems "happy ever after", "something on the top shelf", "your distorted view", "a better world" and "just for a few dark seconds" have been accepted for publication. they will appear on September 1st.

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

when genius strikes

so you can just imagine the poem when i notice a woman with down syndrome picking her nose while an elderly couple is arguing and i'm thinking of killing myself. welcome to my afternoon in the waiting room at the doctor's office. of course, i got mom there early and nearly 20 minutes after the appointment was scheduled to start, she finally got called to the back. apparently her doctor's nurse was off today and the other dimwits in the office forgot that mom was there.

i missed probably the first 30 minutes of Manchester United vs. Real Madrid today in the UEFA Super Cup. United didn't look like they kicked into gear until they went down 2-0. sadly, they could never find the quality to score the equalizer and lost 2-1. oh well. hopefully they have another signing before the silly season ends and have a great campaign in the Premier League.

Monday Night Raw was excellent last night. i don't think i'll ever get tired of watching Braun Strowman beat up Roman Reigns. or Samoa Joe attacking Roman from behind. plus, i love the slow burn the writers are doing with a possible Shield reunion. brilliant stuff there. all in all, an excellent show last night.

Brillo Box (3 cents off) was really good last night. it was almost a little pop art education for anyone who only knows Andy Warhol from that scene and no one else.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Smackdown, Hard Knocks, Deadliest Catch and The Jim Jefferies Show. i'll watch 205 Live sometime tonight on WWE Network.

the New York Yankees start a series tonight at Toronto. hopefully they win as i would like to drink.

i figure i will send out some poems tomorrow morning. i will probably do the blog after that most likely.

i have plenty of trash to pick up and for some reason mom dirtied nearly every dish in the house on Sunday and just let them sit. so, you know who gets to do dishes this evening. let's just say the music will be loud and i will have every fucking cuss word on the tip of my motherfucking tongue.

i got a random email from my first girlfriend today. let's just say i hope beyond hope that leads to something.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Martha Wainwright - Bloody Mother Fucking Asshole
Alvvays - In Undertow
Sinead O'Connor - Trouble Will Soon Be Over
Deftones - Minerva

"A good review from the critics is just another stay of execution." - Dustin Hoffman

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

Monday, August 7, 2017

bleary eyed and loopy

i have been up since 5 this morning. it feels like i have spent the whole damn day driving mom around.

her first appointment went really well. her surgeon think her hip has healed rather nicely and she is due back to see him in 2 months.

after breakfast and finally getting a chance to check my emails, it was off to her appointment for her cataracts. the one in her right eye is worse than the one in her left eye, so the right eye gets operated on first. also in the right eye, her cornea is fucked up. that will be managed unless it gets worse and then she gets to have a transplant. she'll have her cataracts done later this month and early next month. hopefully that means she will be bandaged for my sister's 40th birthday.

that damn appointment was over 3 hours long. that gave us enough time to get home, shit, eat and then go right back to where we were this morning for her physical therapy.

that session was supposed to be 45 minutes long. it was over 60. at least the therapist thinks she is doing well. mom doesn't think so. and people wonder where i get my negativity.

i am fucking tired and probably on the verge of falling asleep during Monday Night Raw.

the New York Yankees got some great pitching yesterday. Luis Severino gave up a solo homer in the first inning. the next hit he gave up was in the 7th inning. the offense finally woke the fuck up and the Yankees earned the split with Cleveland by beating them 8-1. they start a series tomorrow night in Toronto.

Big Brother was pretty good last night. too bad Jessica's plan isn't going to work.

Twin Peaks was yet another delicious mind fuck last night.

Ray Donovan was excellent last night. always good to start a season off with a death.

I'm Dying Up Here was really good last night. i laughed when the guy got the car his father committed suicide in in the will. my father didn't leave me shit.

The Strain was fucking great last night.

Ballers was pretty good last night.

Insecure was great once again last night.

Power was fucking great once again last night.

Last Week Tonight was fucking hilarious as usual last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight and Brillo Box (3 cents off). i'll be watching Monday Night Raw for most of the evening.

i did do a little poetry work last night. i know where my next 12 poems are going to go.

i will probably be on here tomorrow after Manchester United plays in the UEFA Super Cup against Real Madrid.

of course, mom has a doctor's appointment the same time as the match, so i'm going to miss at least the first half or so.

that's all for me kids. i hope everyone had a great weekend. i'm off to go drink myself to sleep.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

2CELLOS - With or Without You
Florence + The Machine - Addicted to Love
My Morning Jacket - Tyrone

"If heavy metal bands ruled the world, we'd be a lot better off." - Bruce Dickinson

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Sunday, August 6, 2017

sometimes the blind squirrel does find the nut

when Chase Headley homered last night to give the New York Yankees a 2-1 lead over Cleveland, i started to laugh. i think it had been over 100 at bats since his last homer. sometimes the blind squirrel does find the nut. the Yankees got some great defense (what a concept) in the 9th to end their losing streak and win the game 2-1. hopefully they will get a split in the series this afternoon.

ROH was excellent last night.

i did watch a little of George Lopez's HBO special last night. pretty funny.

i also watched a good portion of the Pro Football Hall of Fame induction ceremony last night. i am so happy that Morten Andersen finally got in.

i wrote 4 poems last night. i typed them up this morning. i really, really like them. i figure at some point today, i'll go through my unpublished file and figure out what i'm going to send out next.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Big Brother, The Strain, Ballers, Insecure, Last Week Tonight, Twin Peaks, Ray Donovan, I'm Dying Up Here and Power.

i did watch a little bit of the Community Shield match between Arsenal and Chelsea this morning. i didn't give two shits who won, it was more just background noise.

i did watch most of the German Super Cup yesterday. it followed the usual script anytime Borussia Dortmund and Bayern Munich play. Bayern scored late and won on penalty kicks. shocker.

the trip to get ink for the printer yesterday was ho hum. i wasn't expecting to spend over $100 on ink, but at least i got some free paper with the purchase.

i have no clue when i'll be on here tomorrow. mom has 3 different appointments i have to take her to, including the first visit with the doctor for her cataracts. i guess i might try to squeeze one in the early afternoon, but don't be shocked if the blog is late as fuck tomorrow.

i hope everyone had a great Saturday. hopefully your Sunday will be even better.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Grant Lee Buffalo - Mockingbirds
Beastie Boys - Professor Booty
Coins - No Sleep Till Brooklyn (Daft Science Remix)
Placebo - Without You I'm Nothing

"An artist is somebody who produces things that people don't need to have." - Andy Warhol

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Saturday, August 5, 2017

since when did Puerto Rican women start invading my dreams?

for some damn reason, i woke up at 5 in the morning. looked at the damn clock and immediately tried to go back to sleep. i don't think i ever reached deep sleep (i probably haven't in years) as i started dreaming of Spanish Harlem for some reason. and then there was a Puerto Rican woman at a kitchen table telling me about her pussy and making jokes. two hours later i got out of bed to take a piss and tried to fucking figure out what the fuck that was all about.

my mother for some damn reason wanted McDonald's for breakfast this morning. nothing like rolling up there and both lines for the drive-thru are halfway around the building. this small town is going to break me one day, i can feel it.

the New York Yankees offense has slipped back into a fucking coma. they lost yet again last night 7-2. it's one thing when a good pitcher gets the better of you. it's another when a guy with an ERA over 5 shuts your down. hopefully the fucking losing streak will end tonight. i'm so damn happy i didn't have tickets to this series in Cleveland this year.

VICE was excellent last night. the medical advances with Autism are pretty amazing seeing where society was just a few years ago.

Treehouse Masters was pretty good last night. the treehouse in Norway was pretty cool, although i guess you're just supposed to piss off the balcony. the one in Texas was really fucking cool. that might have been one of my favorites.

Real Time with Bill Maher was fucking hilarious last night.

Room 104 was great last night. i loved the twist at the end. plus, perfect breasts never hurt.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH.

other than a trip to get ink for the printer, i think most of today will be spent writing, watching sports and probably figuring out where the next round of submissions will be going.

i actually was able to turn off the air conditioning and open some windows today. it certainly doesn't feel like August. that's a welcome change.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday. call if you need bail money.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Rolling Stones - Tumbling Dice
Cowboy Junkies - Sweet Jane
The Killers - All These Things That I've Done
Kendrick Lamar w/U2 - XXX.

"Mystery creates wonder and wonder is the basis of man's desire to understand." - Neil Armstrong

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Friday, August 4, 2017

sometimes you learn to hate the world a little more each day

i talked to my best friend for the first time in months today. if even 1/3 of what she told me is true, i hate the world more than i even thought was possible. hopefully she has found a little piece of freedom now and can get cracking on the book to put all of us to shame.

the New York Yankees had as many hits as errors last night. that pretty sums up why i didn't watch more than the first inning. not exactly the debut i wanted for Sonny Gray. the Yankees lost 5-1. hopefully they will do better tonight in Cleveland.

Big Brother went as i expected last night up until the new HOH. holy shit, Josh is the new HOH. this week should be interesting.

Vice News Tonight had another great week of shows.

The Chris Gethard Show last night was beautifully absurd. i highly recommend it.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice, Real Time with Bill Maher, Room 104 and Treehouse Masters.

i took mom to Menards this morning. this was sort of a test to see how well she would do in the car on that long of a drive. her goal is to be able to go to my sister's condo one more time before she sells it. mom did pretty good. thankfully, it didn't rain much. we found pretty much everything we were looking for.

i went to the grocery store this afternoon. mom's scroll wasn't as long as the one last week, so i had a better chance to keep it close to $100. after about $30 in coupons and discounts, the final total was around $109. not too bad considering what i was getting.

i need to go out tomorrow afternoon and get ink for our printer. i can't wait to see what that is going to cost.

i wouldn't be shocked if i don't have some poems creep into my head after the phone call i had this afternoon. thankfully, it looks like it's going to be a good weekend to write.

mom surprised me with some new clothes that came in the mail today. sometimes i just mark things in the magazines she gets for shits and giggles. so, now i'm the owner of some incredibly tacky camouflage shirts, shorts and pants. and not the green kind, think more like orange, blue and pink. this is where i enjoy being a member of the sophisticated white trash.

i hope everyone has a great weekend. to my friends in the Pacific Northwest, stay hydrated.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Chemical Brothers - Where Do I Begin
Fantastic Negrito - Lost in a Crowd
Bruce Springsteen - Dancing in the Dark
Led Zeppelin - When The Levee Breaks

"Musicians don't retire; they stop when there's no more music in them." - Louis Armstrong

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