Sunday, November 30, 2014

to the other side of reality... in the rain of course

yesterday was very long. and while it was much better than the previous days were for me, i'm still fucking drained from everything.

i got up early enough to get some email work done before Manchester United came on. thankfully, United played an excellent game, winning 3-0. of course, seeing that this is the year of the injury for them, Di Maria left the game early with a hamstring injury. he's already been ruled out of the game on Tuesday. hopefully, that's all he misses, but i doubt it. it was nice to see Rooney and RVP score again in the same game. hopefully the team has turned the corner to a great season.

about 45 minutes before we were supposed to leave to go to the basketball game, my mother tells me that she doesn't want to go. so, before i could find someone else to go with, she asks my sister to go. my sister said yes, which surprised me after our blowout the day before. but, i figured i'd rather be interested in what happens than be at the game alone. we were very civil with each other and i think the tensions eased as the game went along. Dayton did their part, destroying UIC 75-41. below are the highlights:

we were going to go out to eat after the game but everywhere was fucking packed. so we just came home. back at home, i was able to see what happened in the games i missed while at the basketball game.

Ohio State beat the team i fucking hate, 42-28, but it came with a severe injury. their star QB, who set the BIG Ten record for touchdowns in a season earlier in the game, broke his ankle and is done for the year. now, Ohio State will have to use their 3rd string QB for the Big Ten title game against Wisconsin. not sure how they are going to pull that one off, but at least they kept the team i fucking hate from getting to a bowl game.

the New York Rangers swept the home and home with Philadelphia, winning 5-2. i got to see a quick replay of the game last night. i did enjoy the chants from the fans in the 3rd period of YOU CAN'T BEAT US. that made me laugh. and it was good to see some of the kids score yesterday. below are the highlights:

i really enjoyed those 4 victory beers yesterday. by the time i finished the fourth one, i was actually feeling pretty good.

ROH last night was excellent. i really enjoyed the match between Adam Cole and Matt Sydal. i thought the show did a pretty good job of setting up the next ppv.

i did watch some of the other college football games last night. that Alabama vs. Auburn game was fucking nuts.

my sister made it home last night. i think we are on pretty good terms at the moment. at the very least, i think we both have a better understanding of where each of us are in our lives. that's better than it was before.

today is going to be a day of trash removal, football, and hopefully some rest.

the New Orleans Saints play today at the Steelers (who happen to be my sister's favorite team). i don't like the Saints chances.

the only other thing on tonight that i'm really interested in is The Newsroom. the Showtime shows are off this week. so, that means i may actually get some sleep tonight.

i have a ton of trash to pick up and take down the lane. and of course, it is raining. this will be fun with my bad back.

hope everyone is having a great weekend. thanks again to all of you for letting me waste a few minutes of your time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


U2 - Bad (Live)
Metallica - Bleeding Me
My Morning Jacket - Rocket Man

"The fear of death follows the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time." - Mark Twain

Saturday, November 29, 2014

the fun in dysfunctional...

here's the rare right before i go to bed blog. i'm mostly writing this because i know i will be busy as fuck in a few hours and the last 12 hours of my life i need to get off my chest.

nothing says time with the family like my sister and i screaming at each other at the top of our lungs. add to it my mother screaming over both of us to shut the fuck up and you can clearly paint the picture of family fun. and to imagine it all started because i told my sister it was my mother's choice if she wanted to get rid of a handbag or not. that lead to the usual saying shit you didn't really mean until i had had enough and decided to unload on everyone. this took me to a pretty dark place as it all goes back to me being molested as a child and just completely feeling like no one in my family has ever given a shit about it. i still laugh at my sister asking me what she was supposed to do. she was dumbfounded when i walked up to her and said all you had to do was put your arm around me and tell me everything was going to be ok. i went to my room and more or less wrote my suicide note. now, before you get concerned and run to call the cops, i'm not close to doing anything crazy. i just figured since i was in the dark place i might as well try to get something out of it. and boy did i. i must say, it is probably the coldest ending to a poem i have EVER written. now, the crazy thing will be when i send out to possibly be published and it gets rejected. i'm not sure how i'm going to feel if that happens. anywho, later in the evening, before dinner, my mother asked me to come into the room and speak to my sister. i tried to be the adult and calmly let my sister know that she gives me the vibe that i'm nothing more than a piece of shit since i don't make money and contribute to the world like she does. she more or less said i am. then, she dug the hole that i'm using my mother and my stepfather's death as a crutch and not doing anything with my life. if i truly was the piece of shit she thinks i am, i would have punched her in the face after that one. but, i was playing the adult after all. so, long story short, i asked my sister to simply give me the illusion that she gives a shit and i will try to be a better brother. i think we both know, she's not capable of even doing that. so, i can't wait until Christmas.

thankfully, the New York Rangers were a bright spot to my day, beating the Flyers 3-0 in Philly. congrats to Marty St. Louis on getting his 1,000th point in the game. the teams play in New York later on Saturday. i will miss most of the game because of the basketball game i will be at, but hopefully it goes just like today's game. here are the highlights:

Saturday is shaping up to be a busy ass sports day for me. Manchester United plays in the morning. i took my shower tonight so i can watch the game. shortly after that is done, Ohio State plays the team i fucking hate. but, soon after that starts, mom and i will be leaving to go to the Dayton Flyers game against UIC. and while we're at UD Arena, i'll be checking on the football game and the Rangers hockey game. hopefully when we get back home, i can start enjoying some victory beers.

i did catch Sonic Highways earlier tonight on HBO. another excellent episode. it truly took me back to the 90's for sure. it was kind of eerie as a good chunk of the episode was about Kurt Cobain's suicide. and given the events of my day, that certainly hit me hard. next week is the series finale. the show will be about New York City. that should be awesome.

i'm pretty sure there is no new Saturday Night Live this week, so all i'll be watching late Saturday night is a new episode of ROH.

the high school i went to lost in the state playoffs earlier tonight. first senior class that hasn't made it to the finals in 5 years. i feel sorry for those guys as that will be on them for the rest of their lives.

that's all for me. maybe i'll actually get some sleep tonight. i'll be on here sometime on Sunday with the complete rundown of my crazy ass Saturday. i hope everyone has a great weekend. hopefully yours has a little less screaming in it.

thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


St. Paul & The Broken Bones - Broken Bones & Pocket Change
JJ Grey & Mofro - 99 Shades of Crazy
My Best Fiend - On the Shores of the Infinite

"I wake up some mornings hating me too." - Rahm Emanuel

Friday, November 28, 2014

and then reality sets in...

yesterday went pretty good, all things considered. i only got into it with my sister once. i benched the right players in fantasy football (except for you, you asshole Tony Romo). and, there was a ton of shit removed from the house to take to Goodwill. that should make the move a little easier.

my mother and sister are out and about at the moment. hopefully my mother remembers to take it easy and don't get stressed. being with my sister, i'm not sure that's possible.

i did get about 90% of my Christmas shopping done yesterday. hopefully it all gets here in one piece. with all the gift cards and codes, i think i spent around $100. not too bad. i'm thinking of what to come up with for my fans and friends. i'm toying with doing some watercolors and cutting them up into a puzzle. if i do anything, all that will be going out in early December.

i did hear back from The Kitchen Poet on my poetry submission from back in August. they decided to pass as they are too backlogged at the moment. so, now i really have a nice size batch of poems to go through for the next round of submissions.

i got 2 of the 3 football games wrong yesterday. thankfully, those games don't count in the one pick 'em i play for money.

the New York Rangers start a home and home against Philly this afternoon. the hot rumor at the moment is the Rangers will be getting their captain back today. if so, that will go a LONG way to solving their defensive problems. hopefully i'll be enjoying a victory beer this afternoon.

i do plan on getting most of my poetry work done this afternoon as i will have no fucking time this weekend to do it.

sorry to cut this short, but i have a ton of trash to get out of the house, cats to feed, and a fantasy hockey roster to go check.

of course, i could go on bitching forever about the baseboard heaters that stopped working this morning in our great room.

by the way, i did FINALLY get to listen to the CM Punk interview yesterday with Colt Cabana. if the WWE's medical staff really did allow him to wrestle with a staph infection for 3 months, they all should be fired. and i'm really happy that Punk has found happiness and is free from the bullshit of the company. hopefully i get to see him in a ring one day again, but if it never happens, he left me with some great fucking memories. and honestly, i think he'll have more fun writing comic books than battling sloppy wrestlers.

ok, now i'm finished. thanks again to all 3 of you for allowing me to waste your precious time. i hope everyone has a great weekend.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Deftones - Minerva
Sneaker Pimps - 6 Underground
Kiss - War Machine
Grouplove - Ways To Go
Paul Thorn - Bull Mountain Bridge

"Art is the tree of life. Science is the try of death." - William Blake

if anyone would like to get me a gift for the holidays, my Wish List is public (find it using my email, and you are more than welcome to get me ANYTHING on the list.

Thursday, November 27, 2014

giving thanks

my back is killing me at the moment, my shitty internet is slower than my death at the moment, and the heater in this room smells like it's either going to catch on fire or is slowly leaking out poison.

happy thanksgiving.

the New York Rangers pissed away so many chances last night and kept giving one of the best power plays in the league chances to kill them. and that's what they did. and once AGAIN, it was the Rangers former captain, Ryan Callahan, that did most of the damage. maybe his former teammates think he's still on the team. Rangers lost 4-3.

at least Lucha Underground was excellent once again last night.

as for today, my sister was down here before i was even awake. amazingly, that was over 3 hours ago and we still haven't spoke. and you wonder why i don't like holidays. i do plan on watching a ton of football today and most likely getting my laundry done. and if today goes as planned, i will try to get most of my Christmas shopping done today. i do about 95% of it online.

i still have the cats to go feed, so i guess i should put on some pants.

thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken/turkey/ham grease...

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

the day before i ignore my family for hours...

ask anyone that knows me, i dislike holidays just about as much as anyone can. now, i can play the role of the polite guy, or friendly guy, or even pretend i'm happy to be here guy. i simply choose not to on most holidays. now, considering in a few months i will be moving next door to family... i certainly hope the door to my new room has a lock on it.

i did happen to write 3 poems last night before i went to bed. i typed them up this morning and i really like them. even the one i wrote about Bill Cosby is good. so, the fun task is now figuring out where i'm going to send them. i'll probably do that sometime in the next few days.

i was really shocked on who got voted off The Voice last night until i thought about it this morning. i remember how American Idol got ruined by women in their late 20's to late 40's voting for the guy they'd like to fuck rather than the person with the most talent. so, considering there is only one female left on The Voice this season, i think the same shit is happening again. but, it's probably the best thing that could happen to Reagan. she's too talented at 16 to not make it somewhere.

tonight, the New York Rangers are playing down in Tampa. it will be the first game back in Tampa for Marty St. Louis. it should be interesting. hopefully they win, but i won't have my hopes up. this trip is usually a fucking disaster.

also tonight, Lucha Underground will have a new episode on. i'm really looking forward to that.

had a nice long talk with my friend from California today. she's battling double pneumonia right now, but her spirits sounded good. hopefully she gets better soon.

my thoughts and prayers are with my friend Paul. his dad had another heart attack. he's a tough old fucker, so hopefully he battles back from it.

i imagine i will be on here in the morning tomorrow. my sister will be down to watch the parades, so i'll be on the computer switching from fantasy football to porn. we all have our Thanksgiving traditions i suppose.

thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


John Prine - That's the Way the World Goes Round (Live)
The Blackout City Kids - Wrong Turn
Little Green Cars - The John Wayne
DJ Shadow & Little Dragon - Scale It Back
Anders Osborne - 47

"I love mankind; it's people I can't stand." - Charles M. Schulz

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

one step closer to being blind

so i had an interesting time at the eye doctor today. i was getting my yearly checkup, being a good boy. well, it turns out my right eye has gotten significantly worse since last year. and, when they did the digital images of my eyes, there was a spot on my left eye. the doctor said it could be pigment, could be nothing, could be something, only time will tell. so, like the cynical asshole i am, i immediately add it to the list of things that will kill me; blood clots in my left leg and both lungs and now a spot on my left eye... good times. but, i do get new glasses and sunglasses out of all this. of course, my health insurance doesn't cover vision, so as mom told me when she wrote out the check for nearly $700, merry christmas. but, at least i'll see better (hopefully).

i was not expecting this kind of news today. so, you can take a guess what i'll be writing about tonight in my next writing session.

i spent a little time on NoiseTrade today getting some FREE music. i'll post the links below.

the New Orleans Saints disappointed the shit out of me last night, losing their third straight home game 34-27. but, thanks to being in the worst division i can EVER remember in the NFL, they still have a chance at making the playoffs. this is turning into an AWFUL season.

sure enough, my fantasy team did lose that lead last night and ended up losing by 20. funny thing is, if i would have played ANY other team in the league, i would have won. good times.

The Voice was pretty good last night. two performances blew me away...
and then, BY FAR, the BEST performance of the season...

i'll be watching tonight to see who makes the top 10. i think there are about 5 that are absolute locks...

Monday Night Raw was ok at best. i did love that Daniel Bryan was back on television. and i loved the match between Dean Ambrose and Luke Harper and then Bray Wyatt, but that was about it. to have that shitty of a show after a major ppv is sad. of course, this all means The Authority will come back to save us from ourselves and then we'll all understand that Survivor Series was mostly pointless.

Gotham was GREAT last night. i am truly loving this show. sadly, it doesn't come back on until January. but, that does free up by Monday nights a bit for the next few months.

Men in Blazers was pretty funny.

not sure when i'll be on here tomorrow. i may have to take my mother shopping for Thanksgiving shit. i'm guessing i'll be back on here in the afternoon after i hopefully type up a few fresh poems.

thanks to everyone for allowing me to waste some of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Dr. Dog - NoiseTrade Eastside Manor Sessions
Drew Holcomb and The Neighbors - Good Light

"Write to be understood, speak to be heard, read to grow." - Lawrence Clark Powell

Monday, November 24, 2014

a sucker punch from mother nature

so, this is how my morning started out. my back was killing me as the cold front was coming through. and then after seeing my mother off to her appointments for the day, this fucking shit happened out at the farm:

the beauty of all this is the wind is still fucking blowing, nearly 12 hours later. i have no clue how much this is going to cost to fix this, but i'm pretty sure there's going to be two numbers to the left of the comma. i can't wait to get rid of this place.

i haven't done much today other than try to sleep and forget about the morning. thankfully, my Sunday was much better.

my friend Paul came over to watch some of the early football games. for most of the time, we ended up watching some soccer from Italy. he doesn't have all the channels i do. that was a fun time.

he left before the Dayton Flyers took on Boston College. Dayton played pretty damn good, leading for nearly the entire game. i do like how they finished the game on a strong run. that's a great sign from a team playing their 3rd game in 4 days. here are some highlights from the 65-53 win.

after that, the New York Rangers destroyed Montreal 5-0. easily, the most complete game the Rangers have played all season. here are the highlights:

the Sunday night shows were excellent. The Newsroom was great. Homeland was holy fucking shit great. and The Affair was great as well. i could have watched all 3 of those shows all night long, that's how good they were.

tonight is my usual clusterfuck on television. i'll be bouncing between two football games (including the Saints at home against the Ravens. MUST FUCKING WIN TIME BOYS), Monday Night Raw, The Voice, and Gotham. i'll probably watch wrestling since they are coming off a very newsworthy ppv. of course, that means i'll be using YouTube late tonight to see what i missed on the other shows. also tonight, i'm going to try to squeeze in the Men in Blazers show on NBCSN.

my fantasy football teams did pretty good yesterday. i'm still convinced that the 3-8 team that has a 19 point lead going into tonight is going to find a way to blow it. but, i have won the other game by 49 points. that team is now 9-3.

that's all for me today. i'll be on here tomorrow after my appointment at the eye doctor. i'm interested to see just how fucking blind i am these days.

hope everyone had a great weekend. if not, blame it on Bill Cosby. i have a poem swimming in my head about him that could be fucking great.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Shovels & Rope - Bad Luck
Grant Lee Buffalo - Fuzzy
Little Big Town - Boondocks
Sturgill Simpson - Turtles All the Way Down
Black Sabbath - Heaven and Hell

"Success is getting what you want. Happiness is wanting what you get." - Dale Carnegie

Sunday, November 23, 2014

the great melt...

you wouldn't know if had snowed here and we just had a week of fuck it's cold temps. there is only one spot on the farm that still has a little snow on it. i slept like shit last night, of course, it's not great sleeping weather when it's 50 degrees at 2 in the morning. not when you've got used to it being 20 or less at that time.

i did get everything i wanted to get done done yesterday. i'm paying for it today. my back is hurting like a motherfucker. i still have to pick up the trash and feed the cats today. needless to say, i'll be taking my sweet ass time.

Manchester United got a HUGE road win yesterday, beating Arsenal 2-1. first road win of the season. it also stops Arsenal's 23 game home unbeaten streak. i really hope this is the moment where this team starts to take off. given all the damn injuries, the sky is the limit if/when the others players come back healthy. the win yesterday put them back in the top 4. now, they need to finish there.

Ohio State got off to a great start yesterday and then struggled. struggled so much that they were trailing at one point. thankfully, they woke the fuck up to win 42-27. they play the school i fucking hate next week. if they win that game, the school i fucking hate won't qualify for a bowl game this year. i will be fucking jacked for that one. with the win yesterday, Ohio State has clinched a spot in the Big 10 title game.

i did type up the 4 poems yesterday. all 4 are good. i REALLY like 2 of them. i think i'm going to try to squeeze in another writing session this month and then send out some poems early next month.

i bounced between some college football and hockey last night. and then after a much needed shower, i settled in for Saturday Night Live and ROH. i thought SNL was pretty good in spots. this one skit had me fucking laughing my ass off:
and then this one:
the rest of the show was mostly hit and miss for me.

as for ROH, another excellent episode. the match between AJ Styles and Hanson was awesome.

the Saints don't play until Monday night, so i'll be basically bouncing between games today. mostly, just following my fantasy players most likely.

later today the Dayton Flyers take on Boston College in the 3rd place game down in Puerto Rico. that will basically go right into the New York Rangers taking on Montreal tonight. hopefully i'll be enjoying two victory beers later this evening.

tonight i'll be watching The Newsroom, Homeland, and The Affair. hopefully all three of those episodes will be good.

and then, hopefully some good sleep.

i'll be on here tomorrow sometime in the afternoon. we're supposed to get some rain tonight and tomorrow. that should make the mud even more interesting.

hope everyone is having a great weekend. thanks again for allowing me to waste some of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


The Hush Now - Sitting on a Slow Clock
Rancid - Ruby Soho
Drive-By Truckers - Grand Canyon

"People think you can't be clever if you have breasts." - Kelly Brook

Saturday, November 22, 2014

freezing rain, back pain, words going down the drain...

i woke up this morning and as soon as i rolled over in bed, i knew it was raining outside. my back felt like two elephants decided to fuck on it all night long. but not typical elephant style, but more like some twisted kama sutra type shit. thankfully? the temps are supposed to rise today so the rain won't be freezing for very long. of course, this also means the snow and ice will melt. so, the farm will be a joyous pit of mud before too long.

i did watch Sonic Highways last night on HBO. another great episode. i think the reason i have never been to New Orleans is the simple fact that i KNOW i would never leave. it's almost earned some like mythical stature in my head actually. perhaps i'll go there sometime before my poor ass dies. as for the Foo Fighters song at the end, i wish it would've had some horns or some tribute to jazz in it.

today is going to be a busy ass day for me. besides all the sports, i have a ton of dishes to do (i'm lazy), two toilets to clean (still lazy), 4 poems to type up (the words finally came out last night), and finally start the process of deciding what the fuck i'm going to take with me when we move. i have a feeling i might try to sell some shit. or, i'm going to be investing in some of those good plastic storage tubs as we'll have a ton of storage out in the attached garage at the new house. i haven't lived anywhere with an attached garage since i was 21. to think that i won't have to walk over ice and snow and mud and shit and dead animals to start a vehicle is pretty much foreign to me now.

Ohio State plays at home this afternoon against Indiana. they are 34 point favorites. hopefully, the game is never close, because at the same time...

Manchester United is playing at Arsenal. United has so many injuries right now that i have no clue who is even going to play for them. hopefully, i'll be enjoying two victory beers later in the afternoon.

also tonight, i'm hoping to watch Saturday Night Live and ROH. sometime before that, i have to squeeze in a shower. this is one of those days where i'm going to test just how much i can get done in 24 hours while dealing with a bad back.maybe i should go lay naked in a snow pile before it melts.

enjoy that visual.

that's all for me now. i have to get the trash out and get something done before the games come on at noon. plus, i guess the cats would like to eat.

hopefully the fucking newspaper is in plastic this morning.

i do hope everyone has a great weekend. may all your sports teams do well, or may you get to see your favorite play or movie or concert, or maybe she/he will fuck you for free this time.

thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Love and Rockets - So Alive
Marilyn Manson - Third Day Of A Seven Day Binge
Drivin' N' Cryin' - Straight to Hell
Michael Burks - Cross Eyed Woman
Barbarian Overlords - The Harvester

"When I was a kid my parents moved a lot, but I always found them." - Rodney Dangerfield

Friday, November 21, 2014

i think i figured out how i will die one day...

ask anyone that knows me, and one of the first things they will say about me is my passion for sports. it's rather uncommon for some guy who also writes poems, dabbles in photography and watercolors. you should see the looks i get when i talk about my love of Tori Amos in the same breath as Slayer. so, as i was screaming at the television this afternoon about some HORRIFIC officiating, i believe i have figured out how i will die. screaming at some blind fuck for an obvious bad call. now, what i don't know is if this will happen at home or at a game. i'm thinking the poems and the art may sell better if it happens in public. of course, knowing my luck, some fucker there will know CPR and save my life and i'll get to be in poverty forever. good times.

as you might imagine, Dayton lost today to UConn 75-64. the game was pretty damn close for 36 minutes. then, the refs decided Dayton was getting too close to Jesus Boatright, UConn's best player. now, his first name isn't Jesus, but don't tell that to the officials. of course, it doesn't help that Dayton went ice cold in the second half as well. oh well, they play again on Sunday against the loser of Boston College vs. West Virginia. as much as i would like to play WV (their best player used to play at Dayton) i don't see it happening.

last night, The Big Bang Theory was good. i'm a little surprised the show can still make me laugh after all these years.

i picked the football game wrong last night but my fantasy player did pretty good. i have a 10 point lead in the game that i give a shit about. i figure i'll start winning in the other league now that i don't care.

tonight, since the Rangers game isn't happening because of the end of the world type snow in Buffalo, it will be some channel hopping until Sonic Highways comes on. i believe this episode is about the visit to New Orleans. i'm really looking forward to this one.

i spent some time on NoiseTrade this morning. decided i needed some "new" music to listen. i found 3 great albums that i will post links to below. nothing beats FREE music.

i've got some words swimming in my head. i was floating some around last night before i eventually fell asleep. that usually means i've got some poems coming. and hopefully they come tonight.

i'll be on here tomorrow in the morning. seeing that Manchester United and Ohio State play at the same time tomorrow, i'll be fucking crazy most of the day. so you'll get the calm before the storm.

hope everyone has a great weekend. thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


JD McPherson - The Rounder Records Collection
Creature In The Woods - Creature In The Woods EP
Various Artists - Alligator Records: 21st Century Blues & Roots

"One great use of words is to hide our thoughts." - Voltaire

Thursday, November 20, 2014

the hawk is out tonight

so, how do i sum up my busy ass day in less than 15 minutes. not sure...

last night was a good one. the New York Rangers finally played like the team i know them to be. a crisp 2-0 win over the Flyers. that was a sweet victory beer.

Lucha Underground was very good once again. i wish other "indies" would copy what they are doing.

American Horror Story was excellent last night. sadly, the show will not be seen again until December. damn holidays.

Metallica gave a GREAT performance last night on The Late Late Show...

i got up this morning feeling good. a few hours later, the Dayton Flyers made me feel better. the game was bowling shoe ugly. but, thankfully, Dayton is now full of guys that know how to win ugly. a nice 55-53 win over Texas A&M. they advance down in Puerto Rico to play UCONN tomorrow afternoon. that should be a good one. if they can pull off the upset in that, they'll be in the championship game. highlights below:

mom and i went out this afternoon to get all the shopping done. she's found out that with her disease, changes in temperatures really fuck with her. and since it's going to go from the single digits to the 50's this weekend, i figured we better get all the shopping done today. amazingly, we did. it didn't take long, mostly because i didn't allow my mother to stray from the plan. get in. get out. good times.

tonight i'm hoping to watch The Big Bang Theory and some football. i have a RB going in the game for my good fantasy team.

was saddened to see that Mike Nichols died. if you don't know who i'm talking about, please go educate yourself.

that's all for me today. i'll be on tomorrow after the Dayton game. the heating and air guy comes tomorrow to service the furnace. of course it would be the day after a night in the single digits.

hope everyone is warm. thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


The Heavy - How You Like Me Now
The Glitch Mob - Can't Kill Us
Jeffrey Gaines - In Your Eyes (Live)
Sharon Van Etten - Taking Chances
Powerman 5000 - Bombshell

"The only safe thing is to take a chance." - Mike Nichols (Nov. 6, 1931 - Nov. 19, 2014)

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

the winter blues before Thanksgiving...

i knew i was trapped in the middle of the winter blues when i nearly blew a gasket when i found the morning paper was wet. i have a very short fuse at times, and a wet newspaper is amazingly high on that list. but, a little nap, a little porn, and some music usually does the trick. not that i suddenly become happy, just more back to my mellow self. of course, that will change as soon as the hockey game starts tonight.

no dead cats today, at least from what i saw, so i don't think it got as cold last night. of course, it's supposed to get down to the single digits again tonight i think. the problem i have when it is cold out is the days just start to bleed together. the life cycle becomes just a repeat of days, of hours, of moments before. the more i think about it, the more i truly believe i'm not going to miss living out here. even if i do end up with shitty neighbors.

i did watch a good amount of college basketball last night. that Kentucky team is fucking scary. if they actually learn how to play together as a team, i'm not sure who can beat them.

i had no problem with the two that got voted off The Voice last night. they did nothing for me. now, the problem is only a few of the ten that are left are "good" to my ears. i do like the twist where they are bringing back everyone voted off from the top 12 for one more performance and one of them will become the fourth finalist. that could be interesting.

tonight is a bit of a clusterfuck for me on television. the New York Rangers play at home against Philadelphia tonight. at the same time, Lucha Underground is on. the way the Rangers are playing here lately, i might go with wrestling. then, tonight at 10 is American Horror Story. that should be a good way to finish off my night.

just found out that Jimmy Ruffin has died. he did one of my favorite songs ever...

the Dayton Flyers play tomorrow morning down in Puerto Rico. i'll most likely be on here sometime after that game with Texas A&M.

this story made me laugh today. just imagine what that show could be if the producers actually knew music.

that's all for me today. hope this finds you warm, thinking of my face somewhere between your thighs. no, not you Janne. i'm speaking to the one or two women that may stumble upon this and actually make it to the end.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


The Horrors - Still Life
Paolo Nutini - Iron Sky
Los Lonely Boys - 16 Monkeys
Soft Cell - Tainted Love/Where Did Our Love Go
Mastodon - The Motherload

"As long as people will accept crap, it will be financially profitable to dispense it." - Dick Cavett

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

snow covered roads, a dead cat, and the many things i think about while walking on ice...

when i got up this morning, thankfully the sun was out. it was almost 10 degrees outside. i'm pretty sure it got close to zero last night... i know the wind chill certainly was. an old house can tell you that in a heartbeat. we made it to 21 degrees today as the high. i'm glad we have skipped over 2 months of weather and just went right into January. fuck me running.

i went out to feed the cats today and one of the young ones was dead. this is why i don't name them before they survive a winter out here. i will be very thankful when i no longer have any pets to care for. i didn't like it as a child and i can't say my thoughts have changed as an adult. of course, i'll have to find something else to write poems about. i guess i'll have to start talking to people again. god help me.

the New York Rangers had their asses handed to them last night, 5-1. what a god awful game to watch. Tampa Bay outplayed them for 60 fucking minutes. thankfully, i had other things to watch. the Rangers play again tomorrow night against the Flyers. hopefully, they will decide to put forth a little effort, unlike last night.

Monday Night Raw was a clusterfuck. i thought a couple of the matches were good but the booking right before a major ppv was shitty, and that's being kind. if Ryback is supposed to be the man once again, then why is Cena putting HHH through a table? it's the little things that this creative staff just pisses away and they can't understand why it makes a difference. the ppv on Sunday is FREE and i'm still not watching it. and what truly sucks is the company has the talent to have some of the greatest shows on Earth. a damn shame.

Gotham was great last night. a nice little twist at the end that made me smile. that should make for some great television for the fall finale next week.

i caught bits and pieces of The Voice last night and this morning on YouTube. nothing truly blew me away so i'm not sure who's going to make the top 10 tonight.

i did enjoy The Roots and Jimmy Fallon filling in for U2 last night. hopefully they do something cool like that each night.

and i managed to stay up late enough to catch Metallica as they begin their week long residency on Craig Ferguson's show.
that was fun to fall asleep to.

tonight i'll be watching The Voice and maybe some college basketball. i suppose i'll try to catch some hockey as well as my fantasy team tries to dig out of the hole that came from last night.

this afternoon i watched Ireland's B team absolutely destroy the USA 4-1. what a fucking waste of an afternoon. that was certainly not how i wanted 2014 to end for them. hopefully the World Cup hangover doesn't last for most of 2015 as well.

we're supposed to get some snow again tomorrow. so i'll probably try to get into town early so i don't have to deal with that shit. they didn't do much at all to the roads out here in the sticks. of course, when i got into town to go to the post office, it was like driving on freshly paved roads. that's certainly one thing i will enjoy moving away from the farm. you know you've been on one too many country roads in your life when the first thing you think when you see snow is turn into the skid.

that's all for me today. hope you are warm wherever you may be. all 3 of you. thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Nightwish - Ghost Love Score (Live)
Grant Lee Buffalo - Fuzzy
The Twilight Singers - Candy Cane Crawl
Metallica - Bleeding Me
JJ Grey & Mofro  - The Sun Is Shining Down

"Everyone has a side to them that's kind of unexplained and feels misunderstood." - Kirk Hammett

Monday, November 17, 2014

misery, my old friend...

we got about 3 1/2 inches of snow overnight and this morning. it was a wet, heavy snow. easy to shovel, if you don't have a bad back. let's just say, i'm feeling it right now. mom and i made it to the house inspection without any problems. just a few minor electrical problems (switching old shit to new shit basically) that need to be fixed and the house will be one step closer to being ours. of course, my sister wants us to move as soon as we can. that made me laugh. she should know after her 37 years in this family, we are a bunch of fucking procrastinators. if we're all moved in by Spring, i'll be fucking shocked.

sadly, they hadn't picked up all the trash by the time we got home from the inspection. so, i had to go back out into this shit to get that. that is certainly one thing i will not miss about this place. taking the trash down 1/4 mile lane in the winter fucking blows.

the Bengals whipped the Saints yesterday, 27-10. i'm still at a loss for words at how badly the Saints played yesterday. first time they have lost 2 games in a row at home in 5 years. i have no clue what they are going to do for the rest of the season. so much for them being my guaranteed win yesterday.

my one fantasy team, favored by 18 points is currently losing by 23 points. i have quit giving a shit about that team as they have been eliminated from having any chance to make the playoffs. but, my other team is currently winning by 60 points going into the game tonight. that team is in first place and i am certainly hoping to make another deep playoff run.

the shows last night were great. The Newsroom was awesome. i love the pace of that show. Homeland had me on the edge of my seat last night. there was almost a holy fucking shit moment. The Affair peeled another layer off the onion last night. i'm certainly interested to seeing where it goes next week.

tonight is a huge clusterfuck on television for me. first off, the New York Rangers play at home against Tampa Bay. that marks the first time 3 ex-Rangers will be back at MSG. that includes the former captain and one of my favorite all-time Rangers, Ryan Callahan. so, it should be a crazy, emotional night. hopefully i'll be enjoying a victory beer by the end of it.

also tonight, all at the same time mind you, i'll be trying to watch The Voice, Gotham, and Monday Night Raw. i do have a player playing tonight in the football game, but i'll follow that online. i suppose i'll watch most of Gotham and use YouTube to help me with the other two.

all i know is i'm going to spend most of tonight working on getting the pain out of my back. so it's going to be some ice and probably some Jameson Irish Whiskey. that should get the job done.

not sure when i'll be on here tomorrow. i know that team USA takes on Ireland in another soccer friendly. maybe i'll get on after that one. of course, if it's a long morning (it's supposed to get down to the single digits tonight) i might be typing to stay warm in the morning. that's another thing i won't miss. living in an old house in the winter is not fun. as much as i love looking at the trees in the snow, having to add a third blanket to the bed in hopes to stay warm is nuts. that shouldn't be a problem in the new house. of course, the furnace is the oldest thing there, so i'm sure we'll be replacing that within the first five years there. everything else is relatively new (5 years old or less).

hope everyone had a great weekend. thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Deep Purple - Perfect Strangers
Gov't Mule - Soulshine (Live)
Neal McCoy - Wink
Austin Lounge Lizards - Last Words
Bulletboys - Smooth Up in Ya

"The most audacious thing I could possibly state in this day and age is that life is worth living. It's worth being bashed against. It's worth getting scarred by. It's worth pouring yourself over every one of its coals." - Jeff Buckley

Sunday, November 16, 2014

frustration unleashes the demons... again

this morning has been something close to a clusterfuck for me. we had the chili i made for dinner last night, so you can imagine where i have spent most of the morning. and then between bending over to clean out a litter box and lifting over 100 lbs. of trash and recyclables, i think most of this afternoon will be with ice on my back. just fucking lovely.

Ohio State beat Minnesota yesterday 31-24. it wouldn't have been that close if Ohio State wouldn't of had 3 turnovers. that should be their last tough game until the Big 10 Championship game.

the New York Rangers lost in a shootout last night 3-2. i didn't have a problem with the NHL getting the call right on Dan Boyle's shootout goal that wasn't. i did have a problem with how long it took them to figure it out. i did have a problem with Cindy Crosby whining and complaining to the refs ALL game long. if he ever wonders why no players in the league respect him, all he has to do is watch last night's game again. and how in the fuck does Malkin get to charge Girardi and he basically gets nothing for it. oh, that's right, everyone who works for the league is a bunch of ex-Rangers that hated their time in New York. i have to remind myself that from time to time when every fucking call goes against the Rangers. at least they got a point out of the game.

Saturday Night Live was really good last night.

ROH was great last night. the match between ACH and Jay Lethal was awesome.

today, the New Orleans Saints play the Bengals. hopefully, i'm drinking a victory beer around 4:30 this afternoon. the Saints are my guaranteed win of the week, so i really hope they win.

tonight will be the usual Sunday night shows; The Newsroom, Homeland, and The Affair. all 3 episodes look to be good.

i'll watch those and probably some of the Sunday night NFL game as well.

i still have to enter my fantasy teams into my DIRECTV receiver, so i'm a bit pissy this morning. i've only been trying for the last 3 hours.

both of my fantasy teams are favored to win this week. i doubt that happens.

and to top off everything today, we are under a Winter Weather Advisory. it's supposed to start really snowing tonight and won't stop until tomorrow afternoon. they are saying maybe 4 inches or more. and of course, mom and i have to be over at the new home for the house inspection tomorrow morning.

these are the days where i wish i had a needle and a gun.

hopefully your Saturday and Sunday are going much better than mine. and if they are not, drink a cold one and go piss on your neighbor's porch.

thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


AFI - Silver and Cold
Florence + the Machine - Dog Days Are Over
Grouplove - Let Me In
Lamb of God - Redneck
XTC - Dear God

"It's okay to be a freak." - Lisa Bonet

Saturday, November 15, 2014

the hard freeze

i came down the stairs this morning and it was 16 degrees outside. before getting on the computer, i did the dishes. figured it was best to get some hot water going through these old pipes. that's definitely one of things i won't miss when we move from here.

now, back to where we left off...

the USA lost to Colombia yesterday 2-1. it was yet another game where they gave up a goal late. as much as i want them to be able to compete with the big boys of the soccer world, you have to be able to take advantage of your chances to do so. i would love to see how the complete team would do against Colombia, although i'm fooling myself into thinking it would be different.

i almost got hit 3 different times yesterday on my way to and from the bank. i just love elderly drivers.

mom did go to the basketball game with me last night. she was struggling but made it through. sadly, she's realized that her hearing is mostly gone in her left ear. that has heightened her sense of smell and just her luck, the guy next to her had mustard with his pretzel. i'm amazed she didn't puke on me. as for the game, Dayton won 76-52. they were lead in scoring by a freshman out of Detroit, Darrell Davis. that kid has the second coming of Brian Roberts (currently playing with the Charlotte Hornets in the NBA) written all over him. they next play down in Puerto Rico over Thanksgiving. highlights from the game are below:

we went to Waffle House after the game. mom believes her pills made her food taste like shit. i reminded her it was Waffle House. we got back home in time to watch Sonic Highways on HBO. another great episode.

today is yet another busy sports day. Ohio State plays at noon on the road in Minnesota. hopefully i'll be enjoying a victory beer this afternoon with the chili i made this morning. there are a few other college football games i'm looking forward to today. later tonight, the New York Rangers play in Pittsburgh.

also tonight, i do believe Saturday Night Live is new as is ROH. so, yet another late night.

mom is out driving, running errands right now. she felt good enough to try to drive alone again. i've waited by the phone, just in case. hopefully, everything goes well.

i need to get going. i have cats to feed and some other shit i'd like to get done before Ohio State comes on.

hope everyone has a great weekend. thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Muddy Waters - Mannish Boy
Jeremy Pinnell - The Way Country Sounds
The Coasters - Down in Mexico
Pantera - I'm Broken
Joe Ely - The Road Goes On Forever (Live)

"I hate flowers - I paint them because they're cheaper than models and they don't move." - Georgia O'Keeffe

mom just called. she's made it to the hairdresser. at least that's one worry i can't wipe away so far today...

Friday, November 14, 2014

just my luck

so i got to bed at my usual 2 AM or so last night. so, imagine my surprise when i'm wide awake and rushing to the toilet at 6:30 AM. 22 damn degrees outside and i'm rushing down the stairs hoping i won't have to clean shit off of the floor. i made it, but now, 4 some hours later, i've spent most of the morning on the toilet. i'm really hoping the pills i took start kicking in soon as i don't have any intention of missing the basketball game tonight. so, right now it's water and dry toast. good times.

the New York Rangers lost last night 4-3 in a shootout to a team that have no business losing to. i could tell early in the first period they were having the classic letdown game. they had a strong second period but pissed that away in the third. at least they got a point out of the game. they play tomorrow night in Pittsburgh. that should be a wild one.

The Big Bang Theory was really good last night.

i picked the NFL game right last night and my opponent's fantasy player didn't do much. that's hopefully a good sign for the games on Sunday.

i've got to go to the bank early this afternoon to make a deposit. i'm planning on doing that while i'm out getting the paper and mail. hopefully this sunshine we have right now continues. and hopefully the pills work so i don't have a whole new set of poems to have to write later tonight.

i'm hoping to get home from doing all that in time to watch the USA take on Colombia in a friendly over in London. that should be a great test for them. if they can actually win, i'll be pleasantly thrilled with the thought of them actually competing one day on the elite level of world soccer powers. as you might imagine, i don't think they have much of a chance.

i guess mom is planning to try to go to the basketball game tonight with me. that should be an interesting trip. the Dayton Flyers take on Alabama A&M tonight. hopefully they kick off this season with a win. i have no clue if this team will be as good as last year, but i do think they can make the NCAA Tournament once again. if they make it back to the Elite 8, i'll start to wonder if i'm actually dead and this is all a dream.

after we get home from that, i'm hoping to watch Sonic Highways on HBO. i believe the setting is in L.A. for this one.

i got some great music on NoiseTrade this morning. i was a little surprised to see that the band is from Toledo, Ohio. the link will be below for some great FREE music.

i'll probably be on here in the morning tomorrow. Ohio State plays at noon and i think my mother wants to try to drive again tomorrow. so, yeah, i'm going to be a wreck tomorrow. can't tell if the shits are from impending stress tomorrow or the stir fry from last night. but, i've gone enough that i'm starting to bleed. enjoy that visual as you start your weekend.

thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.


Arcade Fire - Wake Up
Nathan Roberts & The New Birds - Nathan Roberts & The New Birds
St. Vincent - Digital Witness
Wolfmother - Woman

"Color is my day-long obsession, joy and torment." - Claude Monet

Thursday, November 13, 2014

first snowflakes of the season

i went out to feed the cats this afternoon and by the time i got done, it was snowing. nothing more than a light dusting at best, but just to see the flakes in the air made me feel even colder than i was. of course, i was in a flannel coat and shorts...i know winter is basically here now; all the cats were present by my second whistle for the food today. that might make it easier to round them up before we move.

not sure when the big move is going to happen, but i can't imagine this farm will be up for sale for long. and hopefully the buyer is thinking the same thing i'm thinking... this place is worth at least $400,000. if that could happen, my mother and i will be as happy as pigs in shit.

now, given my luck, that light snow was still going on when i had to go into town to get water. thankfully, it wasn't too bad.

i was a little surprised by The Voice last night. not necessarily by whom America voted to keep, but whom the judges saved. i was wrong all 4 times. i suppose that will make the next live shows interesting.

Lucha Underground was really good. the triple threat match was top notch. i really like what i'm seeing with this show.

American Horror Story was great once again.

tonight, the New York Rangers take on Colorado at home. they get back another healthy player, Dan Boyle. he went to college with my sister. hopefully i will be drinking a victory beer later tonight.

also tonight i plan on watching The Big Bang Theory. i'm not planning on watching much of the NFL game tonight. i don't have anyone playing and my opponents only have one guy going.

i finished my "homework" assignment from Janne Karlsson this morning. i sent it on to him and he really liked it. let's just say if this one gets published, i will be grinning ear to ear. my dirty mind had some fun with this one.

i'll probably be on here early tomorrow. i need to go to the bank tomorrow and team USA has their friendly with Colombia tomorrow afternoon.that should be an interesting one.

my mother was really better today. i can tell she's walking better and is talking better as well. hopefully that means she'll be able to go to the basketball game tomorrow.

that's all for me. thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


John Prine - It's a Big Old Goofy World
Nicki Bluhm & The Gramblers - Little Too Late
Dr. Dog - Shadow People
Barbarian Overlords - The Harvester
The Orwells - Let It Burn (Live)

"Sooner or later everyone sits down to a banquet of consequences." - Robert Louis Stevenson

middle school blues

my poem "middle school blues" has been published at The Camel Saloon. you can find the poem by going here:

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

hurry up and wait

today was one of those days that frustrate the living shit out of me. for most people, it's called life. but, for me, it's simply another twist of the screw that's driving me insane. mostly, it's a matter of i like to get shit done in a prompt and direct kind of way and the rest of the world likes to takes its fucking time. and with it looking more likely that i'm going to be moving into suburbia here soon, as you might imagine, insanity is going to become a close friend.

i do believe there is an agreement in principle over the new house. i don't know all the particulars, but my mother seems to be happy. and honestly, that's good enough for me. i'm a writer, so i expect to be fucked in this deal somehow, mostly because i need something to write about.

i had to take mom to the store today. today became the evening pretty quickly. she is walking better, which makes me very happy. as i told her, she's trending in the right direction. we got a ton of food at the store as eating out is going to become a luxury very soon. so, looks like i'm going to be making my killer chili this weekend. and given this fucking weather, it's going to be needed. it almost made it out of the 30's today. lovely.

the New York Rangers shocked the shit out of me last night and whipped the Penguins 5-0. it was a glorious sight to see, especially considering my buddy Paul is a Penguins fan. i didn't call to rub it in, but i'll certainly mention it the next time he calls. of course, these teams meet again over the weekend. so i might keep the trash talk to myself. the Rangers play again tomorrow. here is the second of the 3 first period goals scored last night by the Rangers.
and the game recap:

The Voice was good last night but certainly not great. i'll be curious to see who is going home tonight.

The Concert For Valor was excellent. i love how people were outraged that some people actually fucking curse when on HBO. welcome to the real world you clueless assholes.

other than The Voice tonight, i plan on watching Lucha Underground and American Horror Story. that should be a fun evening.

i suppose i need to start figuring out what i'm going to try to sell as i certainly need to downsize before we move. if anyone knows anyone that might be interested in 40,000 baseball cards, send me an email.

that's all for me today. i'll hopefully be on here earlier tomorrow. thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

stay warm.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Walk The Moon - Shut Up and Dance
The Crystal Method - Busy Child
The Right Now - Half As Much
Gary Jules - Mad World
Grace Potter - I Shall Be Released (Live)

"Pain is real when you get other people to believe in it. If no one believes in it but you, your pain is madness or hysteria." - Naomi Wolf

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

and here comes winter...

about two hours ago, i felt my back tightening up. i figured that was the cold front starting to move through. good thing i closed up the barns as best as i could earlier in the day. the young cats looked at me like i was crazy for doing it. of course, the older ones were busy eating and getting prepared for the next few days.

my sister didn't exactly like the counter offer she got on the house. i'm not sure what's going to come out of all of this, but i think there is no chance my sister goes through with the deal if she thinks she's not the one winning in the end. as much as i love her to death, she's the type of person that will die with every single penny she has ever earned clinched in her fists as they drop her in the ground. this is always where i know she secretly can't stand me as i don't give two shits about money. if i have it, great. if i don't, oh well.

i got to see most of what i wanted to last night. Gotham was great once again. there were two performances that really blew me away on The Voice last night...
Monday Night Raw was pretty good. i like the way the teams for Survivor Series are shaping up. i watched some of the MLS playoffs last night and then fell asleep right after Men in Blazers. i might have enjoyed that more if i wasn't dead tired.

i had to drive my mother around this afternoon. she's still not comfortable driving, so i'm going to be doing that for god knows how long. the way she is right now, i have no clue if she's going to be able to go to the basketball game on Friday.

after we got home and ate some lunch, i hopped on the computer to watch Video Game High School. one of my guilty pleasures.

tonight will be another interesting night of television for me. the Concert for Valor is on HBO tonight. The Voice has another night of live performances. and then, the New York Rangers play at home against the Penguins. this could be a brutal hockey game as the Rangers stink on defense right now and the Penguins would like some revenge for the playoffs last season. needless to say, i'm going to be busy bouncing between those three things tonight.

i finished 10-3 on my NFL picks for the second straight week. my two fantasy teams are headed in different directions. one has lost 6 in a row while the other has won 6 in a row. well, at least i might get one team in the playoffs.

that's all for me today. hope everyone had a great Veteran's Day here in the USA or a great Metal Day in the rest of the world. turn it to 11 brothers. thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


The Twilight Singers - Powder Burns
Butch Walker - Battle vs. The War
American Aquarium - Lonely Ain't Easy
Kiss - War Machine
Powerman 5000 - Bombshell

"I couldn't wait for success, so I went ahead without it." - Jonathan Winters

popping treats

my latest collaboration with Swedish artist Janne Karlsson, "popping treats" has been published at Dead Snakes. you can find this mix of art and poetry by going here:

Monday, November 10, 2014

change or at least the possibility of it happening

so, i went to check out the house yesterday with my sister and mother. of course, within 2 minutes of getting these my uncle was out on his scooter (for the elderly, not hipsters) to talk to us. the realtor was running late. once she got there, we went inside. the outside looked nice and looks pretty easy to maintain. the inside was pretty nice as well. a ton of storage which would be good for all the shit we have. what would be my bedroom is a good size. not sure about the bathrooms, but that would be an issue for a later date. after talking to my mother and sister, my sister decided to make an offer for the house. we should find out tomorrow if we're getting it or not. while i'm not thrilled with living next to family, it certainly will make the poetry interesting. and any writer will tell you interesting is never a bad thing.

after that, i came back home to watch the New Orleans Saints lose a heart breaker in OT, 27-24. the loss drops them back under .500. of course, having been a fan of this team on and off since the 1980's, i'm sort of numb to these types of losses. making the playoffs will be that much harder now.

the New York Rangers played like shit last night, except for the goalie who did his best to keep them in a game they had no interest in playing. a 3-1 loss to Edmonton when you get outplayed for 60 minutes is fucking unacceptable. they made some minor roster moves this evening, but i doubt they will be much help with the Penguins coming up tomorrow.

one of my fantasy football teams comes into tonight down by 67 points. needless to say, i don't think i have a fucking chance in that one. as for the other one, i'm up by 3 points and still have 3 players to go tonight. i feel good about that one.

the Sunday night shows were excellent last night. The Newsroom was fucking great. i love how well written the show is week after week. Last Week Tonight was hilarious as always. Homeland was a mind fuck last night. The Affair peeled a little more of the onion last night and the ending definitely set my mind racing where the show goes next.

as for tonight, a bit of a clusterfuck, but not too bad. i have no plans on watching the football game. and Monday Night Raw is over in England, so there's a good chance i will simply find out what happens and then only watch what the live reports said were good. so, that leaves me bouncing between Gotham and the first live shows for this season of The Voice. i should be able to manage that pretty good.

i've got to get the farm ready for the winter blast coming our way in a few days. mostly closing up barns and taking account of what is broken. i'm going to be interested to see how the cats handle a few days in a row of it being cold. i don't think some of the young ones are cut out for it.

i got some great music on NoiseTrade today. if you are a fan of Springsteen or Tom Waits, you'll definitely want to check out this FREE music. the link will be below.

that's pretty much all for me. i think i may try to do some writing tonight. i've got a few words swimming up in my head. i do hope everyone had a great weekend. thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Grouplove - Ways To Go
Shovels & Rope - Bad Luck
JJ Grey & Mofro - This River
Korn - Freak on a Leash
Steve Earle - Colorado Girl
The Westies - Hell's Kitchen

"If I don't offend somebody, then I'm probably not funny." - Tracy Morgan

Sunday, November 9, 2014

bitter realities...

as i was sitting alone at the Dayton Flyers game, and by alone, i mean i was the only fucking person sitting in the row 3 minutes before the game was getting ready to start, i quickly had a realization that this is exactly how my future is going to be. not a pretty sight, but a realistic one. with that being said, the guy who almost let me get up before he walked in front of me and the kid constantly kicking my seat from behind me is god openly laughing at me. it all makes sense now.

as for the game, it was a sloppy foul fest that resulted in Dayton beating Southern Indiana 96-66. hopefully that's a sign they won't play down to their competition this season. but, i'd love to see the defense get much, much better. they play their first game of the regular season on Friday.

let's get the poetry news out of the way. in the past 12 hours i have heard back from Nerve Cowboy, Pyrokinection and Napalm and Novocain on my poetry submissions from April (NC) and October. all 11 poems have been passed on. i suppose there is my rotten cherry to top off this weekend. well, i suddenly have a new batch of poems to send out.

the New York Rangers lost last night 5-4 to Toronto. thankfully, i didn't see any of the game. they play again tonight against Edmonton at home.

i did get home in time to watch most of the second half of the Ohio State game. to say i was surprised would be a mild understatement. Ohio State whipped Michigan State on the ROAD 49-37. maybe the Buckeyes are ready for the big time once again. i truly enjoyed that victory beer.

i did watch some boxing last night. it was more like watching the elderly get beat for 12 rounds. plus, i stayed up and watched an excellent new episode of ROH. i would love to see them get a big tv deal and really get the exposure they deserve.

Manchester United won 1-0 yesterday against Crystal Palace. Juan Mata scored the winner in the second half. i'd love to say the boys played great but they didn't. of course, with all the damn injuries they have i'm just pleased they got the 3 points for the win.

today is my usual clusterfuck. the New Orleans Saints play in about 45 minutes against the 49ers. i picked against them once again hoping they will win. it's worked the last 2 times. after the first quarter or so, i have to go with my mother and sister to look at houses. needless to say, i'm not happy about that. luckily we're driving separately so you can take a wild guess who will be leaving early. the Rangers play around 6 tonight so i'll get to watch most of that before the Sunday night shows start. The Newsroom starts its final season tonight on HBO. i love that show. also tonight, i believe the season finale of Last Week Tonight airs. over on Showtime i'll be watching Homeland and The Affair. yet another late night for me.

on top of all that, i'm going to try to keep track of my fantasy football and hockey teams. good times. hockey is going pretty good for me this week. as for football, at least i don't have many injuries to worry about this week.

i have fed the cats and the trash is picked up. of course, my back is killing me from cleaning the kitty litter. could that be the excuse that gets me out of looking at houses today? find out tomorrow...

hope everyone is having a good weekend. my mother is improving, thanks for asking. thanks for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Lovelife - Nova
Buffalo Killers - The Path Before Me
Nightwish - Ghost Love Score (Live)
Trampled By Turtles - Alone
CocoRosie - Werewolf

"Live or die, but don't poison everything." - Anne Sexton

my 5 poems at Midnight Lane Boutique

my poems "our women are easy", "the buddy system", "at a reasonable rate mind you", "domestic violence rule #1", and "how soon until i blow it" have been published at the Midnight Lane Boutique. you can find the poems by going here:

Saturday, November 8, 2014

surviving with hardly any sleep

if anyone wants to know why i'll probably die a good 30 years before i was "supposed" to, i can't help but think it's going to be due to a lack of sleep. and this is not a recent problem for me. i can remember my mother catching me awake at 4 in the morning when i was a child. of course, i watching dirty movies, mostly Cinemax. hell, anytime i see Shannon Tweed i get a hard on to this day.

i survived the stores yesterday. i got everything we needed and managed to keep it all under $100. not too bad.

mom is feeling better this morning. she seems to be talking better and walking better as well. that relieves my mind a great deal.

i did watch Sonic Highways last night. another good episode. i loved seeing all the old footage from Austin City Limits.

Manchester United plays Crystal Palace in a few minutes. hopefully they can start my day off right with a win.

after that, i need to get all my shit done. a shower, the cats, trash, etc.

tonight is going to be a clusterfuck. the Dayton Flyers play their exhibition game tonight at UD Arena. chances are i'm going to go by myself. mom isn't interested. so, i might have to make some calls. also tonight, the New York Rangers are up in Toronto. tonight marks the season debut for Derek Stepan. that should go a long way to getting the lines back in order. also tonight, Ohio State plays at Michigan State in basically an elimination game. on top of all that, i also want to watch some boxing and the new episode of ROH. thankfully, i believe SNL is a rerun. of course, it's the episode i missed so i'll probably end up watching it. gee, i wonder why i never sleep.

i have no clue when i'll be on here tomorrow. i suppose it will be before mom makes me go look at the house next to her brother's. mom and i sort of got into it yesterday about it. she wants a 3 bedroom house and of course this one only has 2. so, i sort of bluntly asked her why is she still settling at the age of 61. she feels bad that my sister wouldn't have a bedroom. i told her i wouldn't feel bad that my sister would have to sleep on a couch when i would have to listen to you bitch seven days a week about how you should have got a house with 3 bedrooms. and then i hammered it home asking why she has given the impression to everyone that she is interested in the house to begin with and already has my sister figuring out how to pay for it. not sure a child should ever have to give their parent a pep talk, but i seem to have to every other week anymore. it's hard for me not to come off as the asshole in these "talks". good thing for me that i don't care about that kind of shit. so, yeah, that Monday blog could be one for the ages.

that's all for me for now. i do hope all 3 of you that read this have a great weekend. thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


The Killers - When You Were Young
Tinsley Ellis - Kiss of Death
Low - Stay
Brandi Carlile - Creep (Live)
Soul Coughing - Super Bon Bon

"Despair has its own calms." - Bram Stoker

Friday, November 7, 2014

testing my sanity

i didn't sleep much last night. i didn't have any weird dreams or anything, it was more of a restlessness that comes with the unknown. this is my mother's second bad reaction to the last two medical procedures done to her. it's rather easy for me to think the worst is coming soon. now, while that probably isn't going to happen, i'm the type of asshole that has to be prepared for such events. so, this will be a quicker blog than usual as i have to go shopping. and for someone who hates people as much as i do, i kind of have to get my mind in the right place to go out in the world. so, think of yourself as my therapy.

the NFL game last night was pretty damn boring. i picked the game wrong and my fantasy player didn't do much. thankfully, neither did my opponents. of course, i did have Cleveland's defense sitting on my bench. that will probably come back to haunt me.

The Big Bang Theory was pretty good last night. it did make me think of the 3 school dances i went to in my life. nothing quite like being the awkward white guy with the beautiful black girlfriend. if i only would have learned to dance...

after i get back from the store, i will hopefully get to watch Sonic Highways tonight. i believe the Foo Fighters will be in Austin, Texas for this episode. that should be a good one.

i figure i'll probably watch some hockey and pro basketball tonight as well. my buddy Paul asked me if i wanted to see the local hockey team play tonight. i passed as i really don't want to leave mom alone for long while she's feeling like this.

at least the room has stopped spinning for her.

i got some great music on NoiseTrade today. i'll post the links below.

that's really all for me for now. if something crazy happens at the store, you might see another post from me this evening. chances are that won't happen. i will be back on here before Manchester United plays in the morning.

hope everyone has a great weekend. thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Arcade Fire - Wake Up
My Goodness - Pyre
Sia - Breathe Me
The Native Sibling - Letters Kept To Ourselves

"Nothing is more despicable than respect based on fear." - Albert Camus

Thursday, November 6, 2014

being the good son...

i knew something was up with my mother when i came downstairs this morning. it was nearly 9 AM and she was still in bed. and then i noticed she had the trash can near her bed. the trash can that is normally in the bathroom. great... she's been dizzy nearly the whole day. i've let her sleep for the most part, checking on her every 30 minutes or so. i did get my laundry done after i went to the store for her. i joked that she owes me since i got stuck in a conversation with my aunt's sister at the store. hopefully this is only a temporary thing. the doctor did say that some people do react like this to the procedure she had on Tuesday. fingers are crossed...

while doing my laundry i listened to the second episode of the Sam Roberts Wrestling Podcast. i highly recommend it. the interview he did with Chris Jericho was great.

i actually saw all the cats today. i guess that means there really is a storm coming this weekend.

Lucha Underground was good last night. i definitely think this promotion is off to a good start.

American Horror Story was brilliant last night. this season is definitely fucking creepy.

the New York Rangers won in OT last night, 4-3. i could see how a viewer that wasn't a fan of either team would love the game last night. it had a bit of everything. speed, hitting, penalties, a penalty shot, power plays, a little nastiness, some great goals, etc etc. i'll gladly take the 2 points. and they are getting a little healthier. they sent down a guy today which i have to believe means that Derek Stepan will be returning this weekend. here are some highlights from last night:

tonight i'll be watching The Big Bang Theory and then the NFL game between the Bengals and Browns. The battle of Ohio. i do have one player playing tonight. i believe one of my opponents does as well. i picked the Bengals to win.

i'm still getting used to it getting so damn dark here early now. this doesn't help me being a night person. hell, i didn't get to sleep last night until almost 4 in the morning. i'd hate to see the madness if i lived by myself.

that's all for today. i need to go fix dinner for my mother. i don't have a clue what she feels like eating, so this could get interesting.

hope everyone is doing good. thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...


Broken Bells - Holding on for Life
The Verve - Drugs Don't Work
Mastodon - The Motherload
Dinosaur Jr. - Feel the Pain
Lucinda Williams - Real Live Bleeding Fingers and Broken Guitar Strings

"Just because I don't have a college degree doesn't mean I am not smart!" - Emma Stone