lost souls trapped in a ball of chaos

i tend to look at people in the eyes when i'm out by myself. perhaps it's hoping for magic, perhaps it's the tragedy of being a poet, but the windows to the souls are usually a good, haunting place to start. i saw this woman at Menards yesterday that had some tragic fucking green eyes. even in just a few seconds, i could see pain, hardship, whatever fucking cliche you would like to use for getting the short end of a long stick. the more i am out in public, the more i feel like a kindred spirit with the damaged. who knows what my life would be like if i wouldn't have spent basically a decade sheltered from the world.

the New York Yankees won yesterday 6-3. they finally got a few hits when they needed them. hopefully they can win the series against Seattle this afternoon. they also picked up a game on Boston in the division.

Manchester United was dominant from start to finish yesterday in a 2-0 win over Leicester City. always good when all 3 substitutes contribute to the goals. plus, i'm absolutely thrilled with another clean sheet to start the season.

i don't want to get ahead of myself, but the New Orleans Saints might actually have a defense this year. they defeated Houston last night 13-0. if they could just have a decent defense to go with their usual offense, they could be deadly once again this season.

ROH was excellent last night.

i did watch a little of AAA's TripleMania last night over the internet. it was the 25th anniversary of the event. and god knows, i love a good mask vs. mask match. i never thought Dr. Wagner Jr. would lose though.

Jackie was a pretty sad movie last night. it did remind though of why i have loved Natalie Portman since the first time i ever saw her act. she is fucking amazing.

enjoy some music:

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on the DVR tonight will be Big Brother, Ballers, Insecure, The Strain, Ray Donovan, Twin Peaks and Episodes.

i imagine if i was 20 years younger, i might actually give a shit that the MTV Music Awards are on tonight.

i did find everything i was looking for at Menards yesterday. they had their Halloween shit out, so i had some fun finding a few creepy things. i have become a big fan of skulls as i have grown older. i found one yesterday that is purple and the red eyes light up. at $2.99, i couldn't resist.

mom started the eye drops for her right eye today. she has the surgery on that eye on Tuesday. she seems to be looking forward to it. i suppose time will tell.

it's hard to imagine all that fucking rain that is falling in Texas. and i don't think they are anywhere close to being done with it yet.

and finally, a few words for my best friend. take the agony, take the guilt, take all the fucking pain, and use it. don't wallow, but you are allowed to grieve however you see fit. embrace the light and squeeze whatever love out of it you can. there are a handful of souls on this earth that do love you. NEVER forget that.

i have no idea when i'll be on here tomorrow. i hope everyone had a great Saturday. and i hope your Sunday is even better.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Jim Carroll - People Who Died
Morphine - Murder for the Money
The Verve - Drugs Don't Work

"You aren't learning anything when you're talking." - Lyndon B. Johnson

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

nothing like 3 hours of sleep

i couldn't fall asleep for anything last night. masturbation didn't help. alcohol didn't help. boring ass infomercials didn't help either. i guess between the hurricane coverage and exhaustion, my body finally tapped out. for a whole 3 fucking hours. fuck me.

the New York Yankees left a small village on base last night (they left the bases loaded 3 different times) and eventually lost to Seattle, 2-1 in 11 innings. so much for the fight bringing them together. hopefully they actually get some hits this afternoon and win. they pissed away a chance to gain ground on Boston last night.

VICE was excellent last night. the situation in Venezuela is fucking horrible.

NJPW was great last night. Kenny Omega is another wrestler i could watch forever and never get bored.

Treehouse Masters was good last night.

Room 104 was great last night. being a writer and sometimes wishing i was adopted, i totally understood the episode.

Whitney: Can I Be Me was pretty damn sad last night. it was pretty obvious that eventually she wasn't doing the drugs, the drugs were doing her. such a talent gone way too fucking soon.

Real Time with Bill Maher was pretty fucking funny last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH and Jackie.

i guess there's some big fight in Las Vegas tonight. i really couldn't give two shits about it.

Manchester United plays Leicester City this afternoon. hopefully they can continue their great start to the season.

i'm not sure if the New Orleans Saints game is going to happen tonight or not. if they do play, they are playing against the Texans.

i am planning on making a trip to Menards today. a few odds and ends for the house and the birds, plus it's the last day of their 11% rebate on everything sale.

i suppose i should try to sneak in a nap before i make that drive.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday. i hope the floods in Texas aren't as bad as feared.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Band of Heathens - Hurricane
Vic Chesnutt - Gravity Of The Situation
Slayer - Raining Blood

"Peace begins with a smile." - Mother Teresa

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