so, apparently gay men like me

to be fair to myself, i'm a fat guy that's hairy but not exactly god awful ugly. i have never thought of myself as attractive, but enough of the rest of humanity has at some point to make me believe i'm not ugly. that being said, i haven't had a girlfriend since i was 27. that's a painful way of saying that i lost at the process of elimination. but, since i am fat and hairy, i guess in the gay community that makes me a bear. i have noticed in the last few weeks plenty of men that are either attracted to bears or bears themselves looking at me, flirting with me or being kind for no reason at all with me. i think of all of this as god simply fucking with me. apparently i'm not allowed off the fucking cross until the end of my life.

here's a quick look at my day. i did the grocery shopping this afternoon and got pretty much everything we needed and kept it under $100. i was thrilled. i got back home and my mom was talking to her doctor's assistant. she finally decided to check the fucking paperwork she got on Monday today. so, mom needs to see a cardiologist before she has her hip replacement. something about her EKG i guess. i really wish they would have done this the day after they got the paperwork as then maybe mom would have an appointment before the one she has now, the day before her fucking surgery. and, they decided to finally fill the prescription mom should have got three fucking days ago. sure enough, i had to drive back to the grocery store to get that. thank god i got fucking gas today. to say i'm a bit pissy right now would be an understatement.

at least the physical therapist that came today approved mom doing her recovery from home. that's the good thing of living in a ranch house... no steps. i think the only thing i have to do is move mom's bed around so it will be easier for her to get into it after the hip replacement. neither one of us know if her surgery is going to get moved now because of the cardiologist appointment. good times.

Vice News Tonight had another great week of shows.

the season finale of Baskets was fucking great. i can't wait for season 3.

i did watch plenty of college basketball last night. it amazes me just how much i still fucking hate Xavier.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be VICE, NJPW and Real Time with Bill Maher.

i'll probably watch plenty of college basketball again tonight. if the games aren't as close as last night's games were, i might actually get some writing done.

late tonight, at least late for my old ass, i'll be watching the USA take on Honduras in World Cup Qualifying. this is a MUST WIN game for the USA. if they don't win, there's a more than likely chance they won't even qualify for 2018 in Russia. that would be a colossal embarrassment.

i hope everyone has a great weekend. i will be one here probably early tomorrow, hopefully still drunk from a USA victory.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Counting Crows - Raining in Baltimore
Broken Social Scene - Sweetest Kill
Tom Waits - John the Revelator
Kendrick Lamar - The Heart Part 4

"I would rather wake up in the middle of nowhere than in any city on earth." - Steve McQueen

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: