so, as i was finishing up the blog yesterday, some kind of miracle was taking place. i wanted to wait to write about it as i knew i couldn't do it justice at the end of yesterday's blog.
Manchester United was trailing Manchester City 1-0 until the 88th minute. Amad got tackled in the box and it was an obvious penalty. Bruno stepped up and scored to make it 1-1. less than 2 minutes later, Amad made a great run behind and Lisandro Martinez made a great pass. a little flick from Amad to go around the keeper and some more foolish defending from City and it was 2-1 United. they held on win the derby and the town is now red again. given that the day started with Rashford and Garnacho being told to stay home, this will go down as the day Ruben Amorim truly made his marker as the next great Manchester United coach. i'm really hoping this will galvanize the club and the march up the table will now begin.
the New York Rangers lost at St. Louis last night, 3-2.
i did watch Joker: Folie a Deux last night. i thought it was better than what most people thought, but clearly a fever dream in an acid trip with some music. parts of it i really liked and parts of it i was basically falling asleep. let's just say, i didn't keep it on the DVR.
The Agency was excellent last night.
Dexter: Original Sin was good last night.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Monday Night Raw and the series finale of What We Do in the Shadows.
there are two NFL games tonight. i doubt i watch much of either.
i did make a trip to the bank today to make a deposit.
it has been raining all day it seems. i did get a nice long nap in this morning with some ice on my back.
the New Orleans Saints lost at home to Washington yesterday, 20-19. at least the Saints made it interesting late.
i hope everyone had a great weekend.
i'm still waiting on 2 gifts for my mother to show up. at least i know both are in the United States, so that's a good sign.
and i think the stuff i sent in the mail actually got to where it was supposed to go today.
i did get 3 Christmas cards in the mail today. that was unexpected.
i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.
until then kids...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay off the fucking streets.
get the fucking shot.
Manchester está rojo otra vez
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Fitz and The Tantrums - Santa Stole My Lady
Joe Bonamassa - Lonesome Christmas
Tori Amos - Christmastide
Nicole Atkins - Every Single Christmas
Ben Hinds - All I Want For Christmas (Is A Go Go Girl)
"Never believe that a few caring people can't change the world. For, indeed, that's all who ever have."
- Margaret Mead
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i think it rained most of the night. it has rained most of the morning as well. and i am miserable, and that was even before Manchester United lost this morning.
Manchester United lost at West Ham 2-0 this morning. that is 4 straight games United haven't scored a goal. fuck me.
the contractor was here on time, as usual. he had the new vent hood in and running in probably a hour. he cleaned up, took the old one with him and for the most part, the kitchen renovation is done. thank god.
the New York Rangers lost last night at home to Edmonton, 4-3. they play tonight at home against Buffalo.
here are your NBA highlights from last night:
Smackdown and NXT Level Up were both pretty good last night.
AEW Rampage was good last night as well.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be AEW Collision and Power Book III: Raising Kanan.
i will probably watch a ton of college and pro football today.
i do need to wrap my mother's gifts today. i will probably do that after i get this done.
and i suppose most of today, i will be in my massage chair, aching, hoping my bets are doing well, icing my back and deciding should i waste more money on Powerball tickets.
i hope everyone has a great Saturday. and i hope the weather is better wherever you are.
until tomorrow kids...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay off the fucking streets.
get the fucking shot.
Espero que el clima sea mejor donde estás.
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Louis Armstrong - 'Zat You, Santa Claus?
Girl Named Tom - No Snow for Christmas
The Dollyrots - I Saw Mommy Biting Santa Claus
Panthervision - Wish You Were Here (Baby it's Christmas)
Fitz and The Tantrums - Santa Stole My Lady
"It's an art to live with pain... mix the light into gray." - Eddie Vedder
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as i was taking a shower last night at 3:30 AM after shaving, i was trying to come up with something resembling a poem. and the more i tried, the more i realized i had nothing. this might be my first case of writer's block in years. i guess one of these nights it will be time for a little jack daniels and a trip down memory lane to rattle the cages once again.
today has been a busy one for me. i might have got almost 3 hours of sleep last night. i woke up this morning and made some coffee. after checking my emails, i started on breakfast. i told mom i was doing biscuits and gravy as i know she can only have so much of it to fit into her sodium restrictions. and i remembered how she told me about the cold biscuits and gravy she got at the nursing home. she told me after her first bite how much better this was than there. she just got delivered her food for her recovery. it was supposed to come yesterday. i'm happy that it did arrive. even happier i was able to fit the shit in the freezer. now, after i get this done, i need to vacuum the house, make dinner (pork chops, glazed apples and mashed potatoes) and then help mom pay her bills, on time this time.
the New York Rangers played like shit last night and lost at home to Chicago, 5-2. i'm not sure why they fucking suck at home this season.
Saturday Night Live was fucking hilarious last night.
i wasn't surprised when Ohio State made the college football playoffs. i figured once USC lost to Utah, the Buckeyes were going to get the #4 seed. they will take on Georgia in the playoffs.
today at the World Cup, France defeated Poland, 3-1. England beat Senegal, 3-0. France vs. England should be a classic when they face each other in the quarterfinals.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be The White Lotus, George & Tammy, Let The Right One In and Ziwe.
the New York Knicks play tonight at home against Cleveland.
here are your NBA highlights from last night:
i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.
i hope everyone had a great Saturday. i hope your Sunday is or will be even better.
until tomorrow kids...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay off the fucking streets.
get the fucking shot.
siempre puedes escribir sobre tu propia muerte
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Superfonicos - Primera Luz
Cold War Kids w/Bishop Briggs - Love On the Brain
Van Morrison - I Just Want to Make Love to You (Live)
Fitz and The Tantrums - Santa Stole My Lady
Ben Hinds - All I Want For Christmas (Is A Go Go Girl)
"Live like you're already dead, man. Have a good time. Do your best. Let it all come ripping right through you." - Jeff Bridges
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so, i was supposed to take mom to physical therapy today. after that, she was going to get her bloodwork done. i made that appointment late last night. while she was getting ready this morning, she started feeling sick. and then she had a hard time standing up, even with her walker. so, i had to cancel all the appointments and i gave her a cold washcloth and told her to go to sleep. i'm trying to figure out if it was her rushing this morning that got her sick or was it all she tried to do yesterday and that made her sick today. good times. and now throw in some medical shit with my sister and you can imagine my stress level today.
the Dayton Flyers defeated Virginia Tech yesterday, 62-57. i loved the way Dayton played defense yesterday and when they can actually make shots, they could compete with just about anyone in the country. that being said, they have already proven they can lose to anyone in the country as well. but, this was a huge victory for them.
the New Orleans Saints defeated the New York Jets yesterday, 30-9. i'm so happy that fucking losing streak is over now.
the New York Rangers lost to Nashville last night, 1-0. just one of those games where the goalie steals one.
Axios was good last night.
the season finale of Succession was amazing last night.
Insecure was very good last night. hard to believe there are only 2 episodes left.
Curb Your Enthusiasm was very funny last night.
Power Book II: Ghost was excellent last night.
Hightown was good last night.
VICE was good last night.
Dexter: New Blood was excellent last night.
Yellowjackets was great last night.
Desus & Mero was fucking hilarious last night.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Monday Night Raw and night one of The Voice season finale.
i did listen to episode 373 of Notsam Wrestling this morning. you can hear that by going here:
i'm going to try to get the blog done tomorrow in the morning. i have a doctor's appointment in the afternoon.
Manchester United was supposed to play tomorrow afternoon, but that game has been postponed since United are going through a COVID outbreak at the moment. i did see the Champions League fiasco this morning. United got the better draw the second time around.
i hope everyone had a great weekend.
i need to go figure out what i am making for dinner.
until tomorrow kids...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay socially distant.
get the fucking shot.
a veces desearía que mi vida fuera aburrida
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Drea D'Nur - Moongazing
Meat Loaf - Two out of Three Ain't Bad
The Beaumonts - Cocaine Christmas
Fitz and The Tantrums - Santa Stole My Lady
Alicia Keys - Best Of Me
"If people are making fun of you then you're probably doing something right." - Amy Lee
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so, i spent this Groundhog's Day going to the bank to make a deposit and then going to Big Lots to see if they had any baseball cards. i had a 20% off coupon.
i got 4 packs of baseball cards. i found 2 short prints in the 2020 Topps Heritage packs i got. those are worth what i paid for all 4 packs. so, that made me happy.
i guess the groundhog saw his shadow so we have six more weeks of winter. who gives a shit.
Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night.
The Investigation was awesome last night.
the New York Rangers came from behind last night and beat Pittsburgh, 3-1. addition by subtraction worked last night.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight.
the Dayton Flyers play tonight at Duquesne. i really hope Dayton wins and spoils the opening of Duquesne's updated arena.
here are your links for this day of Black History Month:
i should be on here tomorrow after i get all the grocery shopping done.
i got home today in time to watch Manchester United play. they absolutely destroyed Southampton today, 9-0. that was a joy to watch.
i got the trash and everything done while the sun was still out. our driveway is a mixture of ice and snow at the moment, so i wanted to actually be able to see what i was walking on.
that's all for me kids.
until tomorrow...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
wear your mask.
Supongo que el invierno llegó para quedarse
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Beyonce - BLACK PARADE
Fitz & The Tantrums - All The Feels
Marvin Gaye - Sexual Healing
Mayer Hawthorne - The Walk
Van Morrison - Bring It On Home To Me
"Mistakes are the portals of discovery." - James Joyce
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so, last night i got all my Christmas cards done. they got mailed out today. so, if you are one of the lucky ones, you should have something in your mailbox soon. i made a deposit at the bank today and had all the shopping done by 2 this afternoon.
i found some baseball cards at Rite-Aid today. it was the first time i had ever seen the 2020 Topps Update pack there. i got that and another box from Fairfield. the best card in the Fairfield box was a 1989 Donruss Craig Biggio rookie card. as for the Topps pack, there were a few rookies in there that are worth more than what i paid for the pack. so, i was pretty pleased with it.
the Dayton Flyers got off to hot starts in the first and second half against Eastern Illinois last night. sadly, when they went to their bench, all that momentum went away. thankfully, Dayton did win the game, 66-63. they will have to play much better to win this Saturday against SMU.
most of who i wanted to advance last night on The Voice did. sadly, once again, whenever America votes for the instant save, they usually get it wrong. and once again last night, they did. Payge absolutely should have moved on instead of Bailey Rae, but, the country mafia always gets its way.
so, i watched most of the Manchester United game today against PSG. i'm still shaking my head wondering how United fucked this up. they had tons of chances but were never clinical enough like you need to be in the Champions League. and why the fuck wasn't Fred, who already had a yellow card, not taken off at halftime? of course, you know he got his second yellow in the second half. United lost 3-1 and will now have to win their last game in the group stage to advance into the knockout rounds. fuck me.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, NXT, AEW and The Masked Singer.
i did watch a little of the Steelers vs. Ravens this afternoon. the Steelers won 19-14.
i should be on here in the afternoon tomorrow. i don't think i have anything planned. i know it's going to get hectic soon as my mother has all these damn doctor's appointments coming up. joy.
i need to get going and figure out what the fuck is for dinner.
until tomorrow kids...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
wear your mask.
no quiero morir solo
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Ndidi O. - Hands High
Durand Jones & The Indications - Is It Any Wonder?
Garbage - #1 Crush
Fitz and The Tantrums - Santa Stole My Lady
"Irony is just honesty with the volume cranked up." - George Saunders
and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:
night 2 of WrestleMania 36 was better than night 1 was. and as much as i loved the Boneyard match on night 1, The Firefly Fun House match between John Cena and Bray Wyatt was beyond fucking brilliant. for every wrestling fan around my age, if you weren't laughing from all the references and the shots taken at the business, please stop watching. kudos to WWE for pulling off an event that was way better than i think anyone ever thought they could do given the circumstances.
Atlanta's Missing and Murdered:The Lost Children was really good last night. i know a little about the story already, so i'm really hoping the documentary will fill in the blanks over the next few weeks.
Westworld was excellent last night.
Last Week Tonight was brilliant as usual.
VICE was really good last night.
Homeland was good last night.
Black Monday was pretty funny last night.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Desus & Mero, The Voice and The Plot Against America. i'll be watching Monday Night Raw for most of the evening.
i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow. i probably will release another SoundCloud recording in the morning most likely, so keep an eye out for that.
i hope everyone had a great weekend.
that's all for me kids. stay healthy...
until tomorrow...
incluso mi soledad es solitaria
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
The National - Pretty In Pink (Live)
Fitz & The Tantrums - Don't Gotta Work It Out (Live)
Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros - If I Were Free (Live)
The Barr Brothers - Lord, I Just Can't Keep From Crying (Live)
Ryan Bingham & The Dead Horses - Hallelujah (Live)
"There are more people who wish to be loved than there are who are willing to love."
- Nicolas Chamfort
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what little chance we had at a white Christmas is starting to melt away today. with temps getting up into the 50's in the next couple days, i doubt it will be anything but mud for Christmas this year.
i took mom out shopping this morning. she wanted to go to the drugstore to get some things. i think she found everything she was looking for.
Smackdown was very good last night.
205 Live showed some of the best matches from the show this year last night. next week will be more of the same.
the New York Rangers lost last night to Toronto, 6-3. that's 3 losses in a row now. i'm hoping another long skid isn't coming.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Saturday Night Live and ROH.
the Dayton Flyers play tonight in Chicago against Colorado. it's another chance for Dayton to get a big neutral court victory that will help them in March come tournament time. and it's a chance for a little revenge on the team that defeated them last season in the NIT.
i'll probably watch some other college basketball and football games, as well as the NFL games today.
i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow. i imagine it will be after Manchester United plays. here is a preview of that:
the Rangers and the New Orleans Saints play right around the same time tomorrow. if i'm not on here before they play, expect a blog way later in the afternoon than normal on the weekend.
i hope everyone enjoys their Saturday. call if you need bail money.
until tomorrow kids...
nunca me importó una navidad blanca de todos modos
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Butch Walker - Santa'Self (Fuck Your Christmas Party)
James Brown - Santa Claus Go Straight to the Ghetto
The Dollyrots - I Saw Mommy Biting Santa Claus
Fitz & The Tantrums - Santa Stole My Lady
"Without music to decorate it, time is just a bunch of boring production deadlines or dates by which bills must be paid." - Frank Zappa
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hard to believe June is almost over already. my mother said the same thing a few days ago. i joked that the fine line of adulthood is when life itself goes from a marathon to a sprint. and of course, death is the reward. good times.
i didn't get much sleep last night. for some fucking reason, i decided to run the latest Windows update last night. i guess you could say i'm a glutton for punishment.
both episodes of Lip Sync Battle were excellent last night.
the final two episodes of Life in Pieces were really good last night. hopefully, if the show ever comes back, it picks up right where it left off.
Baskets was hilarious last night.
Holey Moley was stupid funny once again last night.
Desus & Mero was great last night.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Real Time with Bill Maher and Los Espookys.
the USWNT face their toughest opponent of the Women's World Cup today, playing France in France. i have confidence the women will pull it out one way or another, but i know damn well it won't be easy.
i think mom is still compiling the grocery list as i'm writing this. joy.
i'm going to try to be on here tomorrow before the Yankees play the Red Sox over in London.
i hope everyone has a great weekend. hopefully it's not as hot as it is here wherever you happen to be.
adiós mis amigos
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Foy Vance - Be the Song
Fitz & The Tantrums - All the Feels
Dirty Heads - That's All I Need
"Tragedy is when I cut my finger. Comedy is when you fall into an open sewer and die."
- Mel Brooks
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yesterday was one of those days where i had such a wide swing of emotions that i was fucking spent before midnight. thank god the alcohol helped.
i'm not quite sure my sister understands how easily she pisses me off sometimes. i handed her my two broadsides yesterday and jokingly told her that will be $5. she looked at me and said, i'm trying to buy a house, i don't have $5 to spare. i said ok, just pay me whenever, it's cool. so, a couple hours later when i saw my sister left the broadsides behind, that was like a punch to the gut. i'm not exactly sure why i should have a positive outlook on life when even my own fucking family couldn't give two shits about what i do. that left me for most of the afternoon just sitting in the dark in my room, wondering why the fuck do i even bother?
the New York Yankees actually pulled a victory out of the jaws of defeat yesterday. 4-1 win in 16 fucking innings. this time, it was Boston's bullpen that shit the bed. the Yankees tied the game at 1 in the top of the 9th and then finally scored again in the top of the 16th. they play a doubleheader today. i can't imagine either team having much energy at all.
when team USA missed two penalty kicks last night, i was fucking furious. they needed to win by 3 goals over Nicaragua or they were going to finish second in the group and have to play Costa Rica in the quarterfinals. amazingly, they scored in the 88th minute to win the game 3-0. this team can't do anything easy to save its' fucking life.
Manchester United scored early and often last night in a victory over LA Galaxy 5-2. that's a good start for their preseason tour. they next play on Monday.
i only had 2 of the 3 victory drinks last night. figured i'd carry one over to today.
ROH was excellent last night.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Big Brother, Power, Twin Peaks, I'm Dying Up Here and The Strain.
i did a little poetry work this morning. i think the submission coming up this week will be 30 poems now. i guess that's the one good thing about constantly writing. when you find a new place to send to, you actually have fresh shit to send them.
we were actually able to open up the windows a little bit yesterday. i guess the humidity is returning today.
i hope everyone had a great Saturday. hopefully your Sunday will be even better.
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Fitz & The Tantrums - Tighter
Little Dragon - High
Smashing Pumpkins - Rhinoceros
The White Stripes - Jolene (Live)
"Aren't we all striving to be overpaid for what we do?" - Will Ferrell
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nearly all the teams ahead of Manchester United dropped points yesterday, so today was the day United could actually gain some ground with a big win. so, instead of playing with urgency right from the start, the boys took their sweet ass time to get going. i don't believe they had a shot on goal until 35 minutes into the game. now, the second half was a different story. United got robbed a few times with really good saves, got a little unlucky with the whistle, and honestly... anytime you play down to a team like Hull City, last in the fucking league, you probably get exactly what you deserve. instead of burying their damn chances, United is always more focused on doing something spectacular. too bad spectacular doesn't fucking win you games.
the New York Rangers missed some wide open chances last nights and before you knew it, Columbus was up 6-0. the Rangers scored 4 straight goals in the 3rd period to make the score look good, but it's not a good sign when they constantly dig themselves into these fucking holes.
thankfully, the Dayton Flyers had a pretty good second half last night and used their experience to win at Fordham 75-66. congrats to Kendall Pollard on making the 1,000 points club. Dayton next plays on Saturday at home against Duquesne.
i thought Smackdown was pretty good last night. i guess the plan is for Cena to lose the title in 2 weeks. as long as he never wins it again, i'm good with that.
205 Live was really good last night. i love that Akira Tozawa finally was on the show.
Taboo was great last night. really dark, really bloody, fucking insane... i loved it.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight. i'll watch NXT sometime tonight on WWE Network.
i think i might have to make a trip to the grocery store tomorrow. i'm not sure what kind of weather we're going to have the next few days. plus, i'm getting low on the test strips for my blood sugar. i have lost about 10 lbs., so i'm happy about that.
i also need to get the first batch of poems ready for the first submission of the month soon. i think i know the first 3 places on the list i'm going to send to.
that's all for me kids.
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Bright Eyes - Waste of Paint
The Black Crowes - Oh Josephine
Fitz & The Tantrums - We Don't Need Love Songs
Paul Thorn - Old Stray Dogs and Jesus
Charles Bradley - Where Do We Go from Here
"Hold fast to dreams, for if dreams die, life is a broken-winged bird that cannot fly." - Langston Hughes
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i really have no clue why it took my uncle's family so god damn long to get him into hospice. was it that they were too fucking naive about cancer and death? were they so fucking selfish that they had to have him at home? it never made any damn sense to me, but it was never my place to say anything. so my uncle went to hospice yesterday. they cleaned him up and 10 minutes later he was dead. i figured his goal was to make it to Christmas and since he achieved that, it shouldn't be too long... the service is on Wednesday. i'm not looking forward to it. my uncle died without ever knowing what one his daughters did to me. now, i put that on my mother since she chose to not tell anyone about it. so, there's an ocean of feelings for me going into this one. i respected my mother's wishes of not telling him myself, but now i get to spend a funeral where the cousin that molested me will be just a few feet away. the stages of grief, they are all fucked up for me. i went a quarter century not being around my uncle, always thinking that my mother and father had told him why. and then to think that we moved next door to him so he could live out his final days around his sister. i have no fucking clue if we are staying here or not now. i was thinking in the car today that there's probably only 5% of me that's left that doesn't want to die. i have no fucking clue how much longer i can live for that 5%. and i know damn well Wednesday is going to be a shit show where i'm supposed to have a brave face on and not embarrass anyone or make a scene. it's not easy for me to swallow everything that has happened to me and pretend it never fucking existed in the first place. it's even harder when you know the people that are supposed to love you simply don't give a shit. and to think all i ever really wanted was for someone to say i'm sorry. nearly 35 years later, i doubt sorry fucking cuts it now. and when i've exhausted the poems about it, where the fuck do i go from there? so yeah, the funeral will be on Wednesday. i'll be highly medicated. http://www.gilbert-fellers.com/notices/Donald-Holland
i thought The Golden Globes was pretty good last night. being a very liberal person, i enjoyed all the shots at the incoming king. i would say president, but i know better. i was really happy for Donald Glover. i thought Atlanta was a really amazing show. the two awards last night proved it.
The Affair was a bit of a holy fuck episode last night.
the football games went how i expected them to last night. next week's games should be better.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight. i'll be watching Monday Night Raw for most of the evening.
sure, i know Alabama is playing Clemson tonight for the national championship. if Ohio State was playing, i'd be watching. i suppose the football game will be on during commercials.
i did write 7 poems today, shocker. i certainly wasn't in the mood to type them up. maybe i'll do that later tonight.
i went to the grocery store this afternoon, mostly just to get out of the damn house. for most of the time i was in the store, i was sort of like a zombie. but then i happened to turn up an aisle and be behind this beautiful black woman wearing tight sweatpants. something about watching as ass shake that snaps you right out of being a zombie. yes, the poem is already written.
i will probably be on here tomorrow after Manchester United plays. and i will probably have some more poems written and all of them typed up (hopefully).
my mom is depressed, which i completely understand. as i wrote today, sometimes when we grow old we enter a perpetual state of grief. i'm only 40, so i don't know if there's any fucking way out of it yet.
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Fitz & The Tantrums - Songs for a Breakup: Volume 1 EP
St. Paul & The Broken Bones - Burning Rome
Red Wanting Blue - My Name Is Death (Live)
Tinsley Ellis - Kiss of Death
"I've never been an optimist." - Joan Baez
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