the end of 2018

it's rather appropriate that it has been raining all fucking day today. last i checked, we were at 1.7 inches of rain. i won't be shocked if there is another inch or so by the time i check again.

i'm not really going to miss 2018. while it was probably my best year for writing and getting published... i'll remember the year more for two of my best friends ever deciding they would rather be cunts than continue to be friends with me. that has brought on a little more of an introspective look at myself and my piss poor job at seeing these things coming. i do plan on some changes in 2019. more on that tomorrow.

Manchester United continued their great play under their new manager, defeating Bournemouth 4-1 yesterday. i absolutely love the way Paul Pogba is playing now.

the New Orleans Saints were rather uninspired yesterday and it showed. they lost to Carolina 33-14. now, the season they won the Super Bowl, they lost to Dallas, Tampa and Carolina that year. those are the same 3 teams they lost to this season as well. could just be a coincidence but i'd love for that to be a sign. the Saints are the 1 seed in the NFC and won't play again until Jan. 13th.

Ray Donovan was really good last night.

the finale of Escape at Dannemora was excellent last night. i do feel like the show is going to win some awards for sure.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

nothing on the DVR tonight. i will watch most or at least some of Monday Night Raw tonight.

the New York Rangers play tonight in St. Louis. maybe the boys will surprise me again tonight.

team USA plays Finland tonight at the World Juniors. i'll probably be watching that as the ball drops tonight. i'd love to see the USA win. i'll probably watch some of Canada vs. Russia before the USA game as well.

so mom had me go to the grocery store to get her pills today. i couldn't believe how fucking long the line was for prescriptions. and after standing in line for almost a hour, i couldn't believe i hadn't made it up to the counter. thankfully, all her pills were ready and i was able to get out of there before my blood sugar really dropped. of course, i also had to pick up lunch, so there's nothing like a late lunch around 4 PM.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow. it will probably be long before Ohio State plays in the Rose Bowl.

i hope everyone had a great weekend. if you are partying tonight, stay safe. i hope the weather is better wherever you are. and i wish all of you a healthy and happy 2019.

joder el mundo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Morcheeba - Trigger Hippie
Garbage - #1 Crush
Portishead - Sour Times (Live)
DJ Shadow - Midnight In A Perfect World

"Creativity takes courage." - Henri Matisse

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

i think i have seen it all now

when i saw Obi Toppin leaking out for a fast break yesterday in the Dayton Flyers game, i was expecting something special. i wasn't expecting him to pull off a dunk after taking the ball between his legs. easily, the craziest dunk i have seen in person in my life. Dayton won the game against Georgia Southern yesterday 94-90. thank god their non-conference schedule is now over. now they start the run of 18 A10 games. i think they are good enough to finish in the top 4 of the league, although i wouldn't be shocked if they don't, considering the coaching.

i got back home in time to watch Clemson finish off destroying Notre Dame. and then i watched Alabama manhandle Oklahoma for a quarter and then just play with them the rest of the game. i could have told you before the college football season started that Clemson and Alabama would be playing for the title. and that's exactly what will happen on January 7th.

the New York Rangers got a couple players back from injury last night and it made a world of difference. the Rangers got two third period goals and came from behind to win in Nashville, 4-3.

team USA lost to Sweden last night in OT, 5-4. considering Sweden was up 4-0 entering the 3rd period, the fact that the USA got anything out of that game is amazing.

ROH was pretty good last night. it was a recap of the women's wrestling in 2018 in ROH.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Ray Donovan and the finale of Escape at Dannemora.

Manchester United plays at home this morning against Bournemouth. i'm really hoping United can keep the string of good results going.

the New Orleans Saints play their regular season finale today at home against Carolina. i'm not expecting many of the starters to play, but i would love to see the Saints get their 14th victory of the season. they have never done that as a franchise in their history.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

i hope everyone had a great Saturday. hopefully, your Sunday will be even better.

jugar con fuego y esperar ser quemado mi amigo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Iggy Pop - Lust For Life
Lou Reed - Satellite of Love
David Bowie - Life On Mars? (Live)
The Rolling Stones - Shine A Light

"Words are, of course, the most powerful drug used by mankind." - Rudyard Kipling

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

a warm winter evening

my poem "a warm winter evening" has been published at Duane's PoeTree. you can find the poem by going here: http://duanespoetree.blogspot.com/2018/12/jj-campbell-writes.html

why else would i be up at 4 in the morning...

i couldn't fall asleep last night, and i mean i really couldn't. i had to basically talk myself to sleep. i did this by going back to elementary school and tracing back all the horrors of my childhood. and people wonder why i am a poet...

team USA beat Kazakhstan last night, 8-2 at the World Juniors. the USA plays Sweden tonight. that game will be much tougher.

i did watch some college football last night as well.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH.

the Dayton Flyers play at home this afternoon against Georgia Southern. this has trap game written all over it.

the New York Rangers play tonight at Nashville. i hope the Rangers find a way tonight, but i'm not holding my breath.

i do plan on watching most of the college football final 4 playoff games today. i'll miss some of Clemson vs. Notre Dame but i will get to see most of Alabama vs. Oklahoma.

i managed to get my laundry done and a nap in last night before dinner. i don't think the nap was the reason i was up until 4 in the morning. i think it was more to do about my inability to shut my damn brain off.

i will probably be on here tomorrow before Manchester United plays.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday. call if you need bail money.

cuenta todas las razones para morir y luego pregúntate por qué no lo has hecho ya

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Muddy Waters - Mannish Boy
Fantastic Negrito - Lost in a Crowd
Michael Burks - Cross Eyed Woman
Albert Collins - If Trouble Was Money (Live)

"Rebellion is the only thing that keeps you alive!" - Marianne Faithfull

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

eradicating negativity in my life...

about a week or so ago, i said something about wanting to eradicate the negativity in my life. well, yesterday, i believe i took two giant steps forward in that process. first up, this woman i had been talking to since August tried to rope me into this scam where i would set up a credit line for her to buy things on. excuse me. now, this was a woman i had thought i was really starting to connect with, but, she's like the rest of them. so, i blocked her. fast forward to last night. my former best friend, the most recent one, contacted me and started to vent about her job. i told her i understand, as a published poet, i've had plenty of shit said about me in social media circles. she took that as me making it about myself and just tore into me, like she normally does when a conversation isn't going the way she scripted it in her head. so, i've had more or less 15 years of this shit, so i told her to fuck off. i then blocked her on every social media platform i have. that felt fucking great to do. hard to believe at one point i wanted to marry that woman and build the rest of my life with her. now, i'm free to be whatever the fuck i want to be. and i honestly hope any success i have drives her fucking nuts. not less than ten minutes after that happened, this happened:

maybe the worm has turned my friends.

of course, earlier in the night, the New York Rangers pissed away another late lead and lost to Columbus in OT, 4-3.

they finally got the part they forgot for the front door on it this morning. honestly, the new doors are light years better than the ones that were here before. plus, mom got black storm doors for both doors. it really looks good.

the grocery store was a bit of a zoo today, but i didn't mind. now, standing in line at the UPS store before i went to the grocery store, that was a little pissy. mom had to return something, so the UPS driver was going to bring the label out and take the package. well, what happened was he came out, dropped the label off at the front door, never rang the doorbell and left. so, i went to the UPS store not far from where i do the grocery shopping. 10 minutes of standing in line, watching these old people not understand any of the fucking directions they were getting... the woman at the counter looked so relieved when she saw all she needed to do for me was scan it and give me a receipt with a tracking number. i had to get gas today and pick up two of my pills as well. all in all, thank god i went in the morning. i was back at the house before 2 in the afternoon.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

nothing on the DVR tonight. i might watch some college football or i might watch the DVD i got for Christmas.

team USA takes on Kazakhstan tonight at the World Juniors. i do plan on watching that.

i will probably be on here tomorrow in the morning. Dayton plays in the afternoon and the college football playoff semifinals are tomorrow as well.

i put my last load of clothes in the washer. i should be done with that before dinner tonight.

i hope everyone has a great weekend. it's the last weekend of 2018, might as well enjoy it.

Finalmente libre de la miseria de estar enamorado de una perra.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Dead Sara - Something Good
Dusty Springfield - Spooky
Portugal. The Man - Purple, Yellow, Red and Blue
The Band - It Makes No Difference
Motorhead - I Know How to Die

"I think I've never stopped feeling like a kid." - Stan Lee

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

staying busy in the rain...

i was in a bit of a mood last night. i got a couple lines in my head and i knew i had to get them out or i would be up all night. thankfully, i put on the right music (a mix of Morphine and Massive Attack) and i wrote 3 poems. i typed those up this morning and i really like them. i will probably have another batch of poems ready to go out in early 2019.

i did watch the USA defeat Slovakia last night, 2-1 in the World Juniors. that's the 12th straight year they have won their first game. they play Kazakhstan on Friday.

both episodes of NXT UK were really good yesterday.

205 Live was a best of 2018 show last night. that was a fun hour of television.

NXT was really good last night.

they are done putting the new doors in, other than the one part to the front door they forgot yesterday and again today. the doors look really good.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

nothing on the DVR tonight.

the New York Rangers play at home tonight against Columbus. hopefully, the Rangers will win.

i did listen to episode 218 of Notsam Wrestling today. you can find that by going here:
http://notsam.com/wrestlingpodcast/2018/12/27/notsam-wrestling-218-top-10-stories-of-2018

it's been raining for most of today. i did get to the bank today to deposit the Christmas money. that was good timing since i have a big check to write tonight to start paying off Christmas and everything else from the past month.

i will probably be on here tomorrow after i get back from the grocery store. i'll probably be doing my laundry tomorrow as well. joy.

see you tomorrow kids.

¿Por qué las mujeres piensan que soy un tonto?

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Morphine - You Look Like Rain
Massive Attack - Teardrop
Robyn - Dancing On My Own
Paul Thorn - Bull Mountain Bridge

"The average man is more interested in a woman who is interested in him than he is in a woman with beautiful legs." - Marlene Dietrich

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

my latest SoundCloud recording...

here is the link to my recording of my poem "the sweet sixteen kiss":
https://soundcloud.com/j-j-campbell/the-sweet-sixteen-kiss

the poem was first published in Chiron Review #112/113

light on the dysfunction this year...

when i woke up yesterday, it had just started to snow. it was just enough to coat the grass and sidewalks and was gone by 11 in the morning. we ended up having this really good breakfast that mom decided she wanted to try. i think it was like a baked french toast. it was excellent. then we opened presents. i think i really surprised mom with what i got her. i did have a good laugh when my sister realized she forgot one of my presents back at her house. so, i know one thing i will be getting for my birthday (Jan. 21 in case anyone wants to plan ahead). i got some notebooks to write in, some clothes, some music, a couple books and a movie. all in all, it was a good Christmas. my sister went back last night. mom loved that we didn't fight while she was here. oh yeah, here's a good story. so my mother loves the color purple. so, she put some streaks in her hair last night that were purple. it took my sister over 2 hours to even realize it. we are getting a new front and back door today and tomorrow. mom and i are wondering if my sister will even realize it when she comes back here for my birthday.

Smackdown was really good last night.

i did watch a ton of NBA games yesterday. i'm interested to see how long LeBron is going to be out with his groin injury.

the Manchester United game wasn't on television this morning. but, i did follow online and love that they ended up winning today, 3-1. hopefully they can get on a roll here and who knows, maybe they will surprise us all and do some great things this season.

i already did the trash today. it probably won't get picked up until tomorrow, but you never know with these fucks around here.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

nothing on the DVR tonight. i'll watch NXT, NXT UK and 205 Live sometime tonight on WWE Network.

the World Junior tournament starts today. the New York Rangers will have 4 players in the tournament, so i'm going to try to keep track of those players. also, i always try to watch the team USA games when i can. i believe they play Slovakia tonight.

i have no clue when i'll be on here tomorrow. i probably need to go to the bank and deposit some of the Christmas money. but, that all depends on how long they are here tomorrow finishing putting in the doors.

i hope everyone had a great Christmas. i hope your Boxing Day has gone well.

until tomorrow kids...

¿Alguien más necesita un trago ahora?

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Simon & Garfunkel - The Boxer
Diane Coffee - Everyday
Muse - Madness (Live)
Nick Cave And The Bad Seeds - Push the Sky Away

"What other people call dark and despairing, I call funny." - David Sedaris

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

my 6 poems in The Stray Branch (vol. 19 #22) Fall/Winter 2018

my poems "you see that empty field", "a boot across your neck", "enough years behind you", "for all the progress", "carve out a reality" and "finally knocking on your door" have been published in The Stray Branch (vol. 19 #22) Fall/Winter 2018. you can purchase the issue by going here:
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1727397649

Merry Christmas

everyone in this house is still asleep. i've been up for almost 2 hours now. it's almost been like this since i was a child. it's certainly a recipe to die young.

Merry Christmas to everyone. i hope you have a wonderful day and get things you actually want and will treasure and enjoy.

i had a pretty good and relaxing Christmas Eve.

i did watch a little bit of the game last night between Oakland and Denver. if that is the last game they play in Oakland, at least the fans went home happy.

Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown.

i'll probably watch a ton of NBA games today. that's my usual Christmas tradition.

i think my sister is going home sometime tonight. after she leaves, mom and i have to get the wreaths off the doors as they are coming tomorrow to put new doors on the house. this was basically mom's Christmas gift to herself.

i will probably be on here tomorrow in the afternoon most likely. probably after Manchester United plays on Boxing Day.

do the world a favor today, call someone who is alone and wish them a Merry Christmas.

i hope everyone has a great day.

Recicle todo ese papel y cartón por favor.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Pogues - Fairytale of New York
James Brown - Santa Claus Go Straight to the Ghetto
Darlene Love - Christmas (Baby Please Come Home)
Robert Earl Keen - Merry Christmas from the Family (Live)
William S. Burroughs - The Junky's Christmas

"The problem with the world is that everyone is a few drinks behind." - Humphrey Bogart

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

on the eve of something...

i had to run out to the store today to get some eggs for mom. i think nearly 3/4 of the town i live in was at the fucking grocery store. it's obvious i live in a area full of procrastinators. the drug store wasn't much better. the number of men doing their Christmas shopping there brought me a chuckle.

yesterday went pretty good for me. of course, i didn't sleep worth a shit, once again. nothing quite like feeling like you're being responsible by going to sleep before 1 in the morning and you see the clock then at 4, 5, and again at 6. eventually, i just gave up and got the fuck out of bed. i'm sure i'll pay for it tonight.

the New Orleans Saints won a crazy fucking game yesterday against Pittsburgh, 31-28. that gives the Saints home field advantage throughout the playoffs. if all goes well, they have 4 games left this season. 3 at home and a trip to Atlanta for the Super Bowl. my sister wasn't here for the game. that's probably for the best, as it was her favorite player that had the fumble that cost the Steelers the game. now, they most likely won't make the playoffs.

the New York Rangers lost to Philadelphia last night in the shootout, 3-2. well, at least they got a point out of the game.

Ray Donovan was really good last night.

Escape at Dannemora was excellent last night. the show filled in a ton of the back story last night. that should make the finale next week even better.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

nothing on the DVR tonight. i'll probably watch some of Monday Night Raw and a little of the football game tonight between Denver and Oakland. other than that, maybe some Christmas movies, but nothing really exciting.

i have no clue when i'll be on here tomorrow. it most likely will be before i open any Christmas gifts. hell, maybe even before i have any coffee.

i hope everyone had a great weekend. i hope you have an amazing Christmas Eve and an even better Christmas Day.

El blues navideño nunca deja de aparecer en el peor momento.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Jeff Buckley - Hallelujah
Cowboy Junkies - Sweet Jane
Jeffrey Gaines - In Your Eyes (Live)
My Morning Jacket - Tyrone
Pearl Jam - Fuckin' Up (Live)

"Every man has his price, or a guy like me couldn't exist." - Howard Hughes

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

sometimes, magic does happen...

i got a line stuck in my head last night that i thought could make an amazing poem. so there i was, 3:30 in the morning, pounding out some lines and not exactly drunk, but certainly with a good buzz. i typed the 2 page poem up this morning. it's really good. i'm hoping it won't be my last poem of 2018. but, if it is, it's a good way to finish off a crazy fucking year.

so i sent an email out last night at like 2 in the morning to my last former best friend. i'm really hoping it brings some fucking closure to all of this. i have 2 goals in 2019. write a fucking poem that finally gets me nominated for the Pushcart Prize. next, i want to eliminate all the toxic shit in my life; relationships, fear, anxiety, all of it.

i figure i can accomplish this by being as productive as possible. i'd like to think i started that in 2018, but i want to take it so many steps past what i have done this year... this is normally where i would wax poetic by saying god willing or some other bullshit. my goal is to push as much urgency as possible into my body so it bleeds out of me.

the Dayton Flyers won yesterday, 81-69. considering they were up by 28 at halftime, i wasn't exactly pleased with the final score. at some point this season, this team has to realize when you have your boot on another team's neck, you apply pressure, you don't let up. thankfully, it finally sounded like the coach was annoyed with it in the post game press conference. finally.

i got home and watched my recording of the Manchester United game. oh, what a breath of fresh fucking air. United won yesterday 5-1. that's the first time they have scored 5 goals in the Premier League since Sir Alex left. now, i know they won't play like that every game, but it was so fucking nice to see they know that kind of game still exists in their DNA.

i did watch a good portion of the NFL game last night between the Ravens and Chargers. i don't think anyone will want to play Baltimore in the playoffs this year.

i also watched some boxing last night and most of the New York Rangers game. the Rangers lost in Toronto 5-3. i think the game showed the talent gap between both teams. oh well. the Rangers play tonight at home against Philadelphia.

ROH was a recap of the best matches of 2018 last night. next week will be a recap of the women's matches. it was a fun hour of television.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Ray Donovan and Escape at Dannemora.

the New Orleans Saints play today at home against the Steelers. i'm really hoping the Saints win today as that will clinch just about everything in the NFC for them.

i'm guessing my sister will be here tonight. she spent last night at her friend's house.

i hope everyone had a great Saturday. hopefully, your Sunday will be even better.

Elimina el miedo a lo desconocido, el resto será fácil.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Kanye West - Power
flora cash - You're Somebody Else
Tom Waits - Small Change (Got Rained On With His Own .38)
Red Wanting Blue - My Name Is Death (Live)

"The best revenge is to live on and prove yourself." - Eddie Vedder

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

ever had a friend that just constantly takes?

i'm at the point of my life now where i am really pissed when any kindness i happen to show, even just the casual concern for a fellow human, is taken advantage of and twisted to be something more. my days of having friends that just constantly take are over. i hope the rest of the world figures this out before a few souls have to be eviscerated along the way. as you might imagine, i'm a little pissy after a phone call this morning. but, it isn't going to fuck with my day. this anger will be my fuel.

The Shop last night was excellent.

the season finale of Mike Judge Presents: Tales from the Tour Bus was about Betty Davis last night. it's a fucking crime that she was never as famous as she should have been. the show was excellent as always. i hope there will be a season 3 of this show, it's brilliant.

i did get all the gifts wrapped last night. took me almost 2 hours to get it all done. next year, i think i'll do it while drinking. that might ease the pain.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH.

Manchester United plays later today at Cardiff City. i'm going to record the game as i will be out at the basketball game while it is going on. i do hope that the new manager breathes a little life into the team and they play well and win today. that would be a nice start.

the Dayton Flyers play Presbyterian today. this is a game that Dayton should easily win, so i figure they will struggle and play down to their competition yet again.

the New York Rangers play tonight at Toronto. i'd love to see the Rangers find a way to get a win.

i think my sister is supposed to be dropping some stuff off this afternoon. i have no damn clue if she's actually staying here tonight or not. i know she asked me to record some stuff for her, so i'm guessing if she does stay here, it will be late.

i'll be on here tomorrow in the morning, long before the New Orleans Saints (my team) takes on the Pittsburgh Steelers (my sister's team).

i hope everyone has a great Saturday. call if you need bail money, unless you are a certain someone in Virginia who has burned that bridge beyond recognition by now.

ella no entiende lo que realmente significa ser amigo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Betty Davis - Anti Love Song
Tori Amos - Winter
Sade - The Big Unknown
Aretha Franklin - Dr. Feelgood (Live)

"Man thrives where angels would die of ecstasy and where pigs would die of disgust."
                                                                                            - Kenneth Rexroth

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

one of those days where every ounce of my patience was tested...

we have had over 2 inches of rain since it started a day or so ago. i'm pretty sure every joint in my body is fucking screaming at the moment. good times.

the grocery store today was a fucking zoo, both times i was there. so, i had a scroll the first time and i thought i did a pretty good job finding everything. of course, that changed once my mother saw what i bought. on top of that, they fucked up the price of her pills at the pharmacy once again. she was supposed to get these pills at 48 cents. the fucker charged me $30.49 for them. mom called up there and they thought she was fucking lying. so, i decided to get this shit taken care of now. so, back to the store and i think i waited in the line at the pharmacy for around 30 minutes. the pharmacist remembered the phone call from my mother and i got my refund, plus a gift card was waiting for me at customer service. so, i went there, stood in line again... the cashier knew i was coming but didn't know how much the gift card should be. she asked me if $15 would be okay? i said yes, mostly because i knew my fucking day was now shot. after i got the card, i went to go find the pork tenderloin mom wanted. apparently the one i got, that is really good but has actual spices on it, wasn't what she wanted. please understand i live with a woman that has to have her food be as bland as fuck to eat it. you can understand why every time i go out now, i get something spicy or just fucking different. she hasn't looked at what i got yet. if it isn't the right one, she's going to get the tough shit answer from me.

so yeah, i was hoping to already have this blog done and be in the process of wrapping Christmas gifts in the obituaries. good times.

Vice News Tonight had another great week. last night was their last show until 2019.

WWE Tribute to the Troops was pretty good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Shop and the season finale of Mike Judge Presents: Tales from the Tour Bus.

i am going to try to get all the gifts wrapped tonight. tomorrow is going to be crazy as fuck as there is a basketball game in the afternoon. that's why i will be on here in the morning tomorrow, hopefully.

i hope everyone has a great weekend. if you are doing some last minute shopping, have fun, have some patience and hopefully, get a good deal.

until tomorrow kids...

El primer día de invierno es un desastre lluvioso.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Revivalists - Wish I Knew You
Prince - Let's Go Crazy
Concrete Blonde - Tomorrow, Wendy
The Black Crowes - Bad Luck Blue Eyes Goodbye (Live)

"The best advice that was given to me was that I had to be 10 times smarter, braver and more polite to be equal. So I did." - Samuel L. Jackson

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

uncomfortable smile

my poem "uncomfortable smile" has been published at Red Eft Review. you can find the poem by going here: http://redeftreview.blogspot.com/2018/12/uncomfortable-smile-by-jj-campbell.html

tricking the brain into not realizing it should hurt...

it started to rain last night i think. when it did, i was busy destroying my brain by doing as many things as possible at the moment. i was watching wrestling, and porn, and going through poems to send out today. i'd like to think of that as a kind of dirtbag renaissance man, especially since i was also drinking at the time. by the time i fell asleep, my body didn't know it was supposed to be in pain from the rain coming down. of course, waking up this morning and the pain was fucking horrible. this is when i wish i was like a normal person and the rain would actually help me sleep better.

so yeah, i sent out 21 poems today. 3 each to Mad Swirl and Red Eft Review; 5 each to Otoliths, Misfit Magazine and Alien Buddha Press. when i hear back from these places i will pass along the verdicts.

NXT was really good last night.

both episodes of NXT UK were good last night.

205 Live was very good last night.

the Dayton Flyers won last night over Western Michigan, 85-72. Dayton should have won the game by 30 or more, but they refuse to just bury shitty teams. to me, that's on the coach being unable to instill that killer instinct into the team, most likely because the coach doesn't possess it either. it was good to see Josh Cunningham make some damn free throws and Obi Toppin was a ridiculous 11 for 11 from the field last night. the man is a dunking machine.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight and WWE Tribute to the Troops.

i did listen to episode 217 of Notsam Wrestling this morning. you can find that by going here:
http://notsam.com/wrestlingpodcast/2018/12/20/notsam-wrestling-217-jay-lethal

i will probably be on here tomorrow after a trip to the grocery store. i'm hoping i won't have a fucking scroll to take with me, but i probably will. and i'll probably have to make another trip since i'm going to just go ahead and assume something will be wrong with mom's pills. joy.

i guess i should start wrapping some gifts tonight. if my arthritis isn't winning the war, that will begin tonight. if not, there's always the weekend.

goodbye for now kids...

algunos días, incluso gritar no ayuda

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Fucked Up - Normal People
Houses - Fast Talk
Jack White - Connected By Love
Matt and Kim - Forever

"Being spokesman for a generation is the worst job I ever had." - Billy Bragg

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

so what do you do when your mother tells the doctor she's thinking of suicide?

for the last few months, i've been going into all of these doctor's appointments with my mother, mostly because her memory is shit anymore. so today, she was basically pissed off because she has to learn from the doctor who ordered the MRI what the results are, even though the doctor we were seeing today (the family doctor) knows the results. so mom vented about her frustration with the system and more than 3 times said why she has been thinking about killing herself. when the doctor left the room i told her you know he has to put that in his notes and keep it up and you'll be in the loony bin and there won't be a thing i can do for you. on the way home she started mentioning drugs she has stashed, just in case. and i'm supposed to be the crazy one in the family. joy.

thank fucking god that is the last doctor's appointment she has for the year. between her old employer not stopping her old insurance because they are fucking too lazy to do some paperwork and mom's total frustration with being unable to come to terms with her disabilities and forced retirement; add on to the fact that she is still in the grieving process for her husband that died in 2002, i've had about as much as i can fucking take with this shit at the moment.

the finale of The Voice last night reminded me just how racist this country still fucking is. as much as i knew Kirk and Kennedy were the best two, both are black, so the chances of them winning were slim. but the fact that they were 3rd and 4th is truly a fucking joke. i swear, i hope one year all 4 finalists are black. i guarantee the show will be ended when that happens.

Smackdown was really good last night.

the New York Rangers were losing 1-0 last night in the 3rd period. suddenly, Anaheim's legs got heavy and the Rangers took control. and holy shit, the Rangers ended up winning 3-1. i certainly did not expect that after the first two periods.

Manchester United found their caretaker manager...

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight and New Day's WWE 2018 Special. i'll watch NXT, NXT UK and 205 Live sometime tonight on WWE Network.

i'll be at the Dayton Flyers game tonight against Western Michigan. honestly, if Dayton doesn't win tonight, i will be beyond fucking pissed. mom isn't going to the game with me tonight. i think she has realized she can't really sit for a couple hours and actually feel comfortable.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow. i'd like to get some poetry work done in the morning. so, i'm shooting for the afternoon i guess.

best of luck to the last minute shoppers out there. your time is near.

un día alguien me amará

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Raconteurs - Sunday Driver / Now That You're Gone
Sister Sparrow - Gold
MGMT - Time to Pretend

"I think you have to pay for love with bitter tears." - Edith Piaf

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