as a poet that likes to network and get my poetry out there the old fashioned way, word of mouth, actually engaging with humans, i have seen all sides of the ugliness of humanity. what really pisses me off is when someone starts off in a genuine way and then within 3 fucking days, is trying to scam you. part of that makes me laugh because all i have to my name is about $15,000 worth of debt. but still, why pieces of shit are still trying these fucking scams today is just mind blowing to me. of course, it is the holidays, why wouldn't someone be trying to steal pennies from me.
the grocery store went well today. between gas, prescriptions and groceries, i spent close to $400. fuck me.
i did watch team USA yesterday at the World Juniors. they defeated Germany, 10-4.
thank god i only watched about 2 minutes of the NFL game last night. Seattle beat Chicago, 6-3. of course, the spread was 4.
i did watch Nate Bargatze's new special on Netflix last night. that was fucking hilarious.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, Inside the NFL and the final episode of AEW Rampage. i'll watch the final episode of NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.
i believe we are having leftovers tonight. we had pizza last night, mostly because mom didn't want Christmas dinner two nights in a row. i can understand that.
i will probably be on here in the morning tomorrow.
i hope everyone has a great weekend. last weekend of 2024.
until tomorrow kids...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay off the fucking streets.
get the fucking shot.
Y la gente se pregunta por qué tengo problemas de confianza.
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Momma - Ohio All The Time
The Devil Makes Three - I Love Doing Drugs
Kendrick Lamar - Not Like Us
Goose - Hot Love & The Lazy Poet (Live)
Joe Bonamassa - Twenty-Four Hour Blues (Live)
"It's the friends you can call up at 4 a.m. that matter." - Marlene Dietrich
and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:
this is what my life has become. trying to sleep but only getting 25 to 35 minutes of it, and then waking up and wondering why? i said fuck it last night and actually wrote a poem instead of just trying to get some useless sleep. now, the poem was great, but it didn't help me sleep any. oh well.
grocery shopping went pretty good today. i got an earlier start than normal. i was all done by 1:45. hell, there are some Wednesdays i am only getting started by that time. between yesterday and today, i think i got everything we needed and kept it under $200.
so, when i was last on here Manchester United was losing at halftime at home to Aston Villa, 2-0. well, i don't know what ETH said at halftime, but they came out as a different fucking team and it showed. Garnacho scored 2 goals to tie the game and then Rasmus Hojlund scored his first Premier League goal and United won, 3-2. the kids are starting to play all the time now and i love when that happens.
NXT last night was pretty good.
Inside the NFL was very good last night.
Hard Knocks was great last night.
here are your NBA highlights from last night:
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite.
the New York Rangers play tonight at home against Washington.
i believe mom has physical therapy tomorrow afternoon. if so, i will be on here after we get back home.
i will hopefully have some poems to type up.
i need to get the trash picked up and get started on dinner.
that's all for me kids...
until tomorrow...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay off the fucking streets.
get the fucking shot.
sueño inconexo
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Graham Reynolds & Marta Del Grandi - Linger In Silence
Lukas Nelson and Promise of the Real - All Four Winds
Night Drive - Summerwaves (Winter Version)
Wasia Project - Remember When
Joseph Salazar - The Main Sequence
"It's the friends you can call up at 4 a.m. that matter." - Marlene Dietrich
and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:
so, it looks like it is going to be nearly 30 degrees warmer here in a couple of days. i know damn well all of this ice and snow will be melted by then. i swear, the weather in Ohio is meant to make sure everyone just stays sick. the guy that does our driveway did a pretty good job yesterday. and he charged mom less than he said he was going to, which was nice as well. mom called more pills in to Kroger, so i'm waiting to make sure all those are done before i go out and get them. hell, i might as well just wait until i do the grocery shopping tomorrow.
i did watch that Ric Flair documentary on Peacock last night. it was very good.
Monday Night Raw was good last night.
at the World Juniors yesterday, the USA defeated Latvia, 5-2.
i did listen to episode 427 of Notsam Wrestling last night. you can hear that by going here:
as much as i'd love to get this fucking year over with already, there still is shit to do. i have had a productive day so far. i've been to the bank and i got my pills at Kroger. i got my new coffee maker going this morning. first time i have ever done the K cups. and it was also the first time i ever had Death Wish Coffee. i was happy that i liked it. i think the stronger caffeine is better for me actually.
team USA defeated Slovakia last night, 3-2, at the World Juniors. i'm happy they won, but they need to play a complete 60 minutes if they are going to repeat as champions.
the series finale of Insecure was excellent last night. i am sad to see the series go, but it was a wonderful ride.
the season finale of Curb Your Enthusiasm was fucking hilarious last night.
the season finale of Hightown was really good last night. i do hope there will be a season 3.
the season finale of VICE was good last night.
Dexter: New Blood was really good last night.
Yellowjackets was fucking great last night.
here are your NBA highlights from last night:
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Monday Night Raw and Insecure: The End.
the New Orleans Saints play tonight at home against the Dolphins. the Saints have 24 players out tonight because of COVID, so a victory would be something like a Christmas miracle.
Manchester United plays at Newcastle in a little bit. i really hope United wins today.
i will probably be on here tomorrow after mom has her physical therapy session.
i do hope everyone had a wonderful weekend.
until tomorrow kids...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay socially distant.
get the fucking shot.
Puedo sentir que viene más lluvia
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
H.E.R. - Make It Rain (Live)
JJ Grey & Mofro - This Rver
Morphine - Cure for Pain
Lucero - I Woke Up In New Orleans
Pink Floyd - Comfortably Numb (Live)
"It's the friends you can call up at 4 a.m. that matter." - Marlene Dietrich
and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:
so, with the Saints already done for the week, i figured i would get some other shit done this Sunday. once mom finally got up (a little before noon), i went to Meijer to get some shit we had on the grocery list. i found just about everything i was looking for except for the Shout spray refill. i did pick up some pages for the baseball cards and a new binder to put them in. i also found some 2020 Leaf Draft cards there. i bought a box of those and i got some more 2020 Topps Update. between all the cards and pages, etc. i probably spent almost $60. i got some amazing cards in the 2020 Leaf box and some damn good cards in the 2020 Topps Update packs. i'm pretty sure i probably made back everything i spent plus some at what things are currently going for. that made me happy.
i did watch 1917 last night. i had wanted to see it since it came out and finally found the time. i'm really happy i did. as i told my sister, it's one of those movies that will stick with you for a long time.
ROH was pretty good last night.
the USA defeated Austria last night 11-0 at the World Juniors. that was a welcome sight after the loss to Russia. they next play the Czech Republic on Tuesday.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be The Masked Dancer, Power Book II: Ghost, Shameless and Your Honor.
i did catch a little of the early games today when i got home from Meijer. i still can't believe the Jets beat the Browns.
here are your NBA highlights from last night:
i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow. it will probably be between loads of laundry most likely.
i hope everyone had a great Saturday. i hope your Sunday is going even better.
until tomorrow kids...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
wear your mask.
cómo extraño el toque de una mujer
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Mary Lattimore - Til A Mermaid Drags You Under
Kelly Lee Owens w/John Cale - Corner of My Sky
Huntorprey - Chasing Butterflies
The Leonard Simpson Duo - Nobody
"Think twice before burdening a friend with a secret." - Marlene Dietrich
and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:
we're supposed to get a shitload of rain this weekend. apparently, my arthritis is already enjoying the anticipation of that rain. i have been miserable since i woke up this morning. exercise hasn't helped. the pain pills haven't helped. i'll have to ask my old friend alcohol for a helping hand this evening. joy.
i went to the bank this morning and one of the guys that works there took my deposit. he asked me if i knew i could deposit the checks at the ATM? i said yes. i chuckled on the inside, god forbid i come inside for some human interaction and you have to do some fucking work. the last guy that helped me there made me get my ID out. the women that work there never do. haters.
the grocery store was not as much chaos as before Christmas, but still a fucking zoo. 4 checkout lanes open on a Friday. fuck me. of course, once i got all my groceries out of my cart, 3 more lanes opened up. god hates me. i got everything on the scroll and with a little help from a gift my mother got, i kept it under $100.
on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown. i'll watch 205 Live sometime tonight on WWE Network.
i will probably watch some college football tonight as well.
the New York Rangers play tonight at home against Carolina. hopefully, the Rangers will get a victory.
i do plan on being on here tomorrow in the morning, hopefully. tomorrow is going to be a busy one. Manchester United plays in the afternoon and that will go right into the college football playoffs. more on all that tomorrow.
i hope everyone has a great weekend, the final weekend of the decade.
until tomorrow kids...
todo lo que quiero es que la reina de neón me ame algún día
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Lana Del Rey - Fuck it I love you
Lenny Kravitz - Can't Get You Off My Mind
Norah Jones - Don't Know Why
Otis Redding - I Love You More Than Words Can Say
"Without tenderness, a man is uninteresting." - Marlene Dietrich
and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:
i was in a bit of a mood last night. i got a couple lines in my head and i knew i had to get them out or i would be up all night. thankfully, i put on the right music (a mix of Morphine and Massive Attack) and i wrote 3 poems. i typed those up this morning and i really like them. i will probably have another batch of poems ready to go out in early 2019.
i did watch the USA defeat Slovakia last night, 2-1 in the World Juniors. that's the 12th straight year they have won their first game. they play Kazakhstan on Friday.
both episodes of NXT UK were really good yesterday.
205 Live was a best of 2018 show last night. that was a fun hour of television.
NXT was really good last night.
they are done putting the new doors in, other than the one part to the front door they forgot yesterday and again today. the doors look really good.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
nothing on the DVR tonight.
the New York Rangers play at home tonight against Columbus. hopefully, the Rangers will win.
it's been raining for most of today. i did get to the bank today to deposit the Christmas money. that was good timing since i have a big check to write tonight to start paying off Christmas and everything else from the past month.
i will probably be on here tomorrow after i get back from the grocery store. i'll probably be doing my laundry tomorrow as well. joy.
see you tomorrow kids.
¿Por qué las mujeres piensan que soy un tonto?
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Morphine - You Look Like Rain
Massive Attack - Teardrop
Robyn - Dancing On My Own
Paul Thorn - Bull Mountain Bridge
"The average man is more interested in a woman who is interested in him than he is in a woman with beautiful legs." - Marlene Dietrich
and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:
the one thing i always wonder about, as we move closer to a cashless and automated society, what the fuck happens when the internet goes out? well, today was my day to figure that out when i was at the grocery store. the internet kept going in and out and was slow as fuck. of course, i had no clue this was going on as i was filling my cart up with everything that was on the scroll for a grocery list. i think i was in line for over 20 minutes before i could even get the shit out of the cart. now mind you, my left leg starts throbbing in pain after about 2 minutes of just standing. by the time i had put my credit card in and waited like a good boy, i wanted someone to just take a saw and cut the damn leg off. joy.
and then i got home to a insurance crisis with my mother. i guess our doctor and his other doctors in their practice quit right before Christmas. i think they are going with a new medical group. and i have no damn clue if my insurance or my mother's insurance will be accepted by them. apparently mom got a hold off whoever is in that group now at the old place and they explained to mom the mess they are in the process of cleaning up. now the crisis part is my mom's doctor never sent in the fucking paperwork for her disability claim. she got a letter in the mail today that if they don't have that paperwork by Jan. 7th, her claim will be denied. and then she has no fucking money coming in and has to start drawing from her retirement two years before she wanted to. if the people cleaning up the mess can't find the paperwork, mom is basically fucked. not exactly how i wanted to spend my afternoon.
Smackdown was really good last night.
205 Live was pretty good last night.
Drop the Mic was good last night but easily the weakest episode of the season so far.
i did watch a good portion of the USA vs. Denmark game last night in the World Juniors tournament. the USA's defense of their gold medal from last year got off to a great start. they destroyed Denmark last night, 9-0. they will play Slovakia tomorrow night.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Treehouse Masters. i'll watch NXT sometime tonight on WWE Network.
the New York Rangers play at home tonight against Washington. it would be nice to see the Rangers win tonight.
last night when i was doing the trash, i somehow managed to cut my middle finger on my left hand really good. it's not quite deep enough for stitches. but it's right in the spot where i hit it every fucking time i use the finger to type. my 40's have turned into a test to see just how much i enjoy the pain. great.
i'll be on here sometime tomorrow after mom and i go to Menards. they have some really great deals on stuff we use all the time (toilet paper, napkins, etc.). so, we might as well stock up and get some money back in the rebate offer. i think she also has some prescriptions that should be ready at the grocery store tomorrow. i figured they would have called as i was on my way home from there today. that would have been the cherry on top of this fucking day.
as an old man told me years ago...
ne pas vieillir, mourir jeune
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
first, let me say that Every Brilliant Thing was amazing last night. i didn't know what it was about going into it, but i quickly knew it was about suicide once it started. i made the mistake of drinking while this was on. alcohol being a depressant already, oh boy, what a fucking ride. i absolutely love anything that can make me laugh and cry at the same time. for that alone, i highly urge you to check this out on HBO. now, while watching, i started to think about that i've had suicide in my head for 32 of the 40 years of my life. and part of me believes that's simply a byproduct of being inquisitive and a loner. another part of me thinks of how tragic that truly is. and when the guy talked about his mother's suicide last night, i started to think of the number of times i've been at that point. and why i haven't taken the next step? and then it was my mind racing to every time i think i take a step forward with my life, i'm suddenly dragged two steps back every fucking time. and part of me wonders how long i'll be able to keep this dance up before i've decided it's time. so, what usually happens is i end up in a really dark place mentally. last night was one of those times. now, sometimes amazing art comes from that dark place. sometimes i wake up in a pile of my own shit. and sometimes i wake up on the couch and the knives are under a bush outside (god i miss my 20's and tequila shots). last night, i ended up writing 3 poems in that dark place. i typed them up this morning and i really, really like them. i haven't decided where they will go, but i will certainly send them out sometime in 2017.
after i wrote those poems i actually got some sleep. damn near 6 hours, which is a fucking eternity for me.
team USA won in the World Juniors yesterday 6-1 over Latvia. thankfully, they got better as the game went on. they will next play Slovakia, which will be a tougher test.
i thought Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night, especially since it was the last show of 2016. i love that Braun Strowman is getting a push. he should absolutely be the next huge bad ass. plus, i'll never get tired of Jericho and Kevin Owens.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown. i'll watch 205 Live sometime tonight on WWE Network.
i will forever remember Carrie Fisher as Princess Leia. but, i'll remember her more for her books. she was a brilliant writer. rest in peace, you absolutely deserve it.
the New York Rangers play tonight at home against Ottawa. The King is out with the flu, so it's the backup goalie once again. hopefully the time off did the team some good and they can get back to winning.
a little advice for everyone out there. actually listen when in a conversation instead of simply waiting for your turn to talk. the world already has too many assholes in it. trust me, i'm one of them.
i have trash to do and my laundry to finish. my neck has been killing me all fucking day. and the weather can't make up its fucking mind what time of year it is.
good times.
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Lucero - I Woke Up In New Orleans
Elliott Smith - Twilight
Trent Reznor - Hurt (Live)
Daniel Johnston - Some Things Last a Long Time
"Darling, the legs aren't so beautiful, I just know what to do with them." - Marlene Dietrich
and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:
i know ONE thing i will not fucking miss when i move away from the farm... this shitty internet that Frontier Communications sells us. holy fucking shit. i've seen old people fuck faster than this today. thank god i haven't been trying to post anything important today. seriously, i would suggest you get AIDS rather than do business with this fucking company.
i bounced around the channels last night, eventually settling on some UFC and then Treehouse Masters. i also did the dishes, which fucking sucked. i could tell some rainy weather was coming. but, an ice pack and a victory beer helped calm that pain down.
the bank was a little slow today. mostly because of the woman wearing socks and sandals. she had no clue how to fill out a deposit slip. as i got back in the car, i told my mother i'm amazed that i haven't killed everyone in this town. as you might imagine, it's one of those days.
we went to the grocery store to get my mother's prescriptions and a few things. it turned into getting stuff for breakfast tomorrow, lunch today, and what we're going to make on New Year's Day. as i was walking around, i could feel myself getting depressed. all these beautiful women with rings on their fingers or worse yet, the beautiful ones that can't be even 15 years old yet. of course, my brain operates in poems now, so each face is quickly matched up with a few lines. if i manage to make it through life and not be diagnosed as insane, i'll be amazed.
there's plenty of sports on today i want to watch. Kentucky plays Louisville in college basketball here in a few minutes. i believe team USA plays in the 2015 World Juniors today. also in hockey, the Rangers play the Devils tonight. that's always fun (when the Rangers win). there's a few college football games today i want to check out. and tonight, i want to catch the Tag Team Wars episode of ROH. i imagine there will be eating and pooping breaks sometime in that time span. and i constantly need to check my emails or i end up with 100 out of nowhere. good times.
i will probably be on here tomorrow before Manchester United plays. it's also trash day and there is plenty of that to take down to the end of the lane. there's another fucking thing i won't miss.
i hope everyone is having a great weekend. if not, pour yourself something stronger to drink like i'm going to do. thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Daniel Avery - Drone Logic
Tinsley Ellis - Kiss of Death
Joshua James - Coal War
Brett Dennen - Queen of the Westside
Saliva - Ladies and Gentlemen
"If there is a supreme being, he's crazy." - Marlene Dietrich
we got around 9 to 10 inches of snow here yesterday. that was more than we got for the entire last winter. as the snow was falling yesterday, i had the pleasure/torture of watching Manchester United. never having the lead until the Mexican god Chicharito scores right on the 90th minute is not good for my heart i believe. a really entertaining 4-3 game, made all the better with Manchester City losing. lead is now 7 points. only bummer from yesterday, besides the usual shitty defense, was the injury news for Wayne Rooney. out at least 3 weeks with a knee injury. not good. hopefully more miracles are to come and Wazza comes back healthy and ready for the Champions League play.
shoveling this morning was not bad at all. to go with that 9+ inches yesterday was a 40 mph wind. the drifts happened to help me out partly. one sidewalk was basically clear. the other was a bitch to shovel, but not much ice at all to deal with. now, getting over to feed the cats was a bit more tricky. negotiating drifts of snow over a foot deep while still sleepy was a bit funny. saw all but one of the cats this morning. not sure if it's missing or was just hiding. not many of them have seen snow like that.
got done with all that to finally watch some meaningful hockey for the first time since the summer. team USA destroyed Germany in the World Juniors 8-0. was happy to see them play a great game, but the real test starts tomorrow. having to play Russia in Russia will be a huge step up. one piece of advice, stay out of the penalty box. if they get a point out of the game, i'll consider it a win. was also very nice to see Rangers draft pick JT Miller play well and score. hopefully he can keep that up.
my mother is sick so i'm doing my best to avoid that shit. so, i see myself spending the rest of the day in my room reading some books i got for Christmas.
music today:
Of Monsters And Men - My Head Is An Animal
"Think twice before burdening a friend with a secret." - Marlene Dietrich
