Showing posts with label hippo campus. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hippo campus. Show all posts

Saturday, June 1, 2024

do or die

 today has already been fucking nuts. joy. so, i didn't get much sleep last night (big shocker). after i did my blood sugar and put the dishes away, i found out i had 6 poems published today. so, i got those two blogs done and then headed to the bank. the Chase bank i normally go to was closed for some reason. thankfully, i remembered there was a Chase bank the next town over. mind you, the one i normally go to is like 20 minutes away. now, i'm 30 minutes away from home. thankfully, this branch was open. the old lady that took my deposit said to me, do you remember those Calgon take me away commercials? i said yes. she then said, i could so use that right now. i sort of chuckled and mentioned i was at the Englewood branch and it was closed. she then said something about one of the workers had died and the manager is on vacation, so they can't open it up. i said oh, on the website it said that it was open. she said that is part of the reason why it has been so crazy here. i just love old women, they get to being chatting and will tell you everything. i made my deposit and then started to drive back home. got stuck behind some pretentious fuck in a BMW going 40 in a 55. it took everything i had not to run that fucker off the bridge we were on. i made it back home to have breakfast at noon. joy.


a big thank you to everyone that has checked out the new poems that have been published:

https://synchchaos.com/poetry-from-j-j-campbell-106/


https://horrorsleazetrash.com/2024/06/01/j-j-campbell-87/


the New York Yankees won last night at San Francisco, 6-2. hopefully, they will win again tonight.







here are your highlights from the NHL playoffs last night:


Smackdown and NXT Level Up were both really good last night.











AEW Rampage was good last night.







Real Time with Bill Maher was hilarious last night.



enjoy some music:





and now some of this and that:









on the DVR tonight will be AEW Collision.


the New York Rangers play Game 6 down in Florida tonight. this is a MUST WIN if they want to force Game 7 at home on Monday night.



i will probably watch some of the Champions League final today between Real Madrid and Borussia Dortmund.



the USWNT plays a friendly today against South Korea.




i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.


i hope everyone has a great weekend.


until tomorrow kids...


fight the power.


fuck racism.


fuck hatred.


fuck war.


fuck the police.


black lives matter.


stay healthy.


wash your fucking hands.


stay off the fucking streets.


get the fucking shot.


Haz o muere


be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.


peace and chicken grease...


music:


Yam Haus - First To Try


Hippo Campus - Everything At Once


Villagers - I Want What I Don't Need


Action Bronson - Nourish a Thug


Eminem - Houdini


"We all should start to live before we get too old." - Marilyn Monroe


and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:





Friday, March 31, 2023

and here comes the storm...

 from what it looks like on the radar, we might have some oh shit weather coming tonight. there is nothing worse than tornadoes at night. hell, i don't think this area has exactly recovered since the last one hit here. so yeah, that will be in the back of my mind tonight while i'm watching whatever i have on. of course, if it gets really bad, the satellite will go out anyway. good times.


the New York Yankees won yesterday against San Francisco, 5-0. first time the Yankees had a shutout on Opening Day since 1988. hopefully, they will win the rest of the series this weekend.










the New York Rangers lost last night at New Jersey, 2-1. they play tonight at Buffalo.






Vice News Tonight was pretty good last night.



Young Sheldon was pretty funny last night.


NJPW was really good last night.


here are your NBA highlights from last night:



enjoy some music:






and now some of this and that:









on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, AEW Rampage, Real Time with Bill Maher and Game Theory with Bomani Jones. i'll watch the WWE Hall of Fame ceremony tonight on Peacock.


the New York Knicks play tonight at Cleveland.


i should be on here tomorrow in the morning. by afternoon, i will be in full blown WrestleMania mode so, it will have to be the morning. more on all that tomorrow.


i hope everyone has a great weekend.


i need to get going on dinner.


until tomorrow kids...


fight the power.


fuck racism.


fuck hatred.


fuck war.


fuck the police.


black lives matter.


stay healthy.


wash your fucking hands.


stay off the fucking streets.


get the fucking shot.


vienen cielos oscuros


be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.


peace and chicken grease...


music:


Phoebe Bridgers - Day After Tomorrow


TV Star - In-Between


Hippo Campus - Yippie Ki Yay


Lew Apollo - NEED YOUR LOVIN


Jason Isbell and the 400 Unit - Middle of the Morning


"It is not enough to have a good mind; the main thing is to use it well." - Rene Descartes


and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:


Tuesday, March 7, 2023

getting closer to being done...

 the bathroom that is being remolded should be done by the end of the week. i'm really happy how it looks so far. i picked out the look for the shower and it goes really well with the floor i picked and the color of paint mom picked for the walls. so, it will be really nice when it gets done.


i won both of my Champions League bets today, so i'm really happy about that.






Monday Night Raw was very good last night.








The Voice was good last night. hopefully it will be again tonight as well.








Perry Mason was really good last night. it looks like season 2 should be a good one.




here are your NBA highlights from last night:



enjoy some music:






and now some of this and that:









on the DVR tonight will be NXT, two episodes of MLW, The Voice and That's My Jam.


the New York Knicks play tonight at home against Charlotte.


i've got to go make the pasta and alfredo sauce for dinner tonight. we made the chicken last night as it finally thawed out.


i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.


hopefully, i will remember to get the trash picked up and out before i pass out from being so fucking tired. getting less than 4 hours of sleep isn't doing me any favors here lately.


until tomorrow kids...


fight the power.


fuck racism.


fuck hatred.


fuck war.


fuck the police.


black lives matter.


stay healthy.


wash your fucking hands.


stay off the fucking streets.


get the fucking shot.


si la vida es un circulo por que me siento como un cuadrado


be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.


peace and chicken grease...


music:


Hippo Campus - Kick In The Teeth 


Cat Clyde - Mystic Light


Lavarr the Starr & Shabazz Palaces - Glass Top Roof (The One)


H.C. McEntire - Soft Crook


Coy O Te - Never Enough


"Poetry has never been the language of barriers, it's always been the language of bridges." 
                                                                      - Amanda Gorman


and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:


Saturday, August 7, 2021

welcome to the weekend...

 so, mom was in some pain last night. her left leg has been killing her. i think it is probably because her back is fucked up and most likely pinching a nerve and it is running down her leg. so, she told me to make her a drink that was strong. i gave her a shot of Kraken and Disaronno that set her mouth on fire. then, i went to my go to for something strong, Wild Turkey 101 with some Coke Zero. she said she slept pretty good though she did have to shit in the middle of the night. i told her welcome to the life of an alcoholic. good times.


the Yankees won a crazy game last night, 3-2 in 11 innings over Seattle. the Yankees didn't have a starter for the game so they became the first team in MLB history to win an extra inning game without having 1 pitcher go more than 2 innings in the game. so, of course, that means their bullpen will be short today. great. hopefully, they will find a way to win again.




Smackdown was pretty good last night. i didn't get to watch 205 Live last night since i watched the gold medal game instead. i have no damn clue why they don't archive those episodes immediately like they do other things for WWE on Peacock. of course, given the releases last night from NXT, i could see 205 Live going away soon.







the USA men's basketball team won the gold last night by defeating France, 87-82. 





Real Time with Bill Maher was pretty funny last night.




enjoy some music:






and now some of this and that:









on the DVR tonight will be ROH.


i'm sure i will watch some of the Olympics today and maybe some MLS as well.


i got to see the highlights from the Manchester United friendly this morning against Everton. it's always good to win 4-0 in your last tune up for the regular season.



my sister is coming down here this afternoon. hopefully, she will take some of these tomatoes back home with her.


i should be on here in the morning tomorrow.


i hope everyone has a great Saturday.


until tomorrow kids...


fight the power.


fuck racism.


fuck hatred.


fuck the police.


black lives matter.


stay healthy.


wash your fucking hands.


stay socially distant.


get the shot.


puedo sentir un poco de lluvia que viene pronto


be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.


peace and chicken grease...


music:


Holly Miranda - Bees


The Weeknd - Take My Breath


Hippo Campus - Suicide Saturday


INXS - Not Enough Time


Nicole Atkins - A Night of Serious Drinking


"Life is too short to do the things you don't love doing." - Bruce Dickinson


and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:


Saturday, November 21, 2020

of course, it has to be raining...

 so, i bit the bullet last night and got ESPN+. i figure since i highly doubt i'll be able to go to any Dayton Flyers games this season, ESPN+ would be my best chance to get to see most of their games, especially the ones not on national television. $49.99 for a year, if i end up using it as much as i think i will, isn't a bad deal.


Smackdown and 205 Live were both pretty good last night.







the season finale of Real Time with Bill Maher was excellent last night.





enjoy some music:




and now some of this and that:







on the DVR tonight will be ROH, Austin City Limits and Between The World And Me.


it started raining last night. just enough of a drizzle to make my body ache. joy.


Ohio State plays at home today against Indiana. they have won 25 straight against Indiana. but, this will be the best Indiana team they have played in those 25 meetings. hopefully, Ohio State plays four quarters today.


Manchester United plays today at home against West Brom. hopefully it will be United's first win at home this season.



i'm sure i'll watch a few other college football games today between vacuuming the house and helping mom do some shit.


i'll probably be on here in the morning tomorrow before the New Orleans Saints play.


i hope everyone has a great Saturday.


until tomorrow kids...


fight the power.


fuck racism.


fuck hatred.


fuck the police.


black lives matter.


stay healthy.


wash your fucking hands.


wear your mask.


mis huesos doloridos odian la lluvia


be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.


peace and chicken grease...


music:


Hippo Campus - Suicide Saturday


Chicano Batman - Black Lipstick


Diane Coffee - Everyday


Lord Huron - Fool for Love


"To hold a pen is to be at war." - Voltaire


and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:



Saturday, August 15, 2020

so, of course, today i had Filipino food...

my sister came down this afternoon and brought with her some Filipino food. i haven't had any of that in a long time. my sister's best friend from college is this amazing woman that is Filipino. so, i used to have it all the time, but that's over 20 years now. so, that was a welcome spice this afternoon. of course, i can't wait to see what my shit looks like after yesterday and today. joy.

the Yankees whipped the Red Sox last night, 10-3. hopefully, they do the same thing tonight.

Smackdown and 205 Live were both pretty good last night.

Real Time with Bill Maher was very good last night.

Room 104 was pretty funny last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH.

i imagine i will watch some hockey tonight as well.

the other part of my order from Amazon.com showed up today. i think i know how much more i need to buy to have everything i want to be in individual sleeves. once i get what i have done the last 2 days in order, i'll start posting some pics and prices.

i did go to the grocery store this afternoon and pick up mom's medications and my test strips for my blood sugar. i've lost some weight and i have my blood sugar pretty consistent now. i'd just like to get the number under 115 and closer to 100.

i should be on here tomorrow before Manchester United plays in the Europa League semifinals. in case i'm not, here is a preview:

i hope everyone has a great Saturday.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

wear your mask.

seguro que me vendría bien una siesta

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Hippo Campus - Suicide Saturday
Chicano Batman - Black Lipstick
Diane Coffee - Everyday
The Revivalists - Wish I Knew You

"Life itself is the proper binge." - Julia Child

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

Saturday, June 8, 2019

welcome to the weekend...

i'm hoping this weekend is a calm one. one with no storms, not a ton of humidity and one where the windows can be open and let a breeze in. i know that's too much to ask for in June, but a guy can dream.

i did watch WWE Super Showdown yesterday. oh god, that was fucking awful. it was easy to tell the heat at ringside was getting to everyone. of course, when the money is more important than the health of your performers, it was easy to see this clusterfuck coming. it was over 100 degrees at 9 in the evening over in Saudi Arabia in case you were wondering.

i did listen to episode 241 of Notsam Wrestling after the show. you can find that by going here:
http://notsam.com/wrestlingpodcast/2019/6/6/notsam-wrestling-241-montez-ford

here are your highlights from Game 4 of the NBA Finals last night.

NJPW was excellent last night.

Real Time with Bill Maher was hilarious last night.

the season finale of Wyatt Cenac's Problem Areas was great last night.

Vice News Tonight had another great week of shows.

the New York Yankees lost last night in Cleveland, 5-2. the boys are hitting a rough patch at the wrong fucking time. hopefully, that will change later today.


enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH.

the U-20 USA Men's team takes on Ecuador today in the U-20 World Cup quarterfinals. i do plan on watching that.

the Belmont stakes are later today. i'll probably watch that as well.

if the weather does stay nice today, i'll probably try to get out for a little bit.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday. call if you need bail money.

i'll be on here tomorrow morning, most likely.

until then...

No lo veas como la muerte, es más como una siesta de la vida.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Hippo Campus - Suicide Saturday
The Cure - Fascination Street
The Airborne Toxic Event - Sometime Around Midnight
David Bowie - Modern Love

"There's nothing more dangerous than a resourceful idiot." - Scott Adams

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

Saturday, August 13, 2016

the youth movement begins today

i was happy that A-Rod got to have "his" night last night. the ceremony was the clusterfuck that more or less his career has been, so that was fitting. he got a RBI double in the first inning and actually contributed for the first time in ages. he also got to play 3rd base for the first time in over a year for one batter. the best part of it all was the Yankees won their 3rd in a row, 6-3. now today, the youth movement finally begins. the Yankees called up Tyler Austin and Aaron Judge for today's game. i'm fucking thrilled to finally see some of the prospects play in the majors. and hopefully they do well enough that the relics they are replacing are never heard from again. they are also honoring the 1996 team today. hopefully some of that magic rubs off on the kids.

the Cypress Hill concert i watched last night certainly brought back some memories from my youth. it also reminded me how much i miss smoking weed.

the Premier League started off this morning with a nice shock. first time ever the champions from the previous season lost their first game of the next season. so hopefully that means Leicester City truly was just a fucking fluke.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH.

mom and i went to the grocery store yesterday. we wanted to make sure we got everything done just in case we do get some holy shit rain today. i believe i found my latest muse while i was there. i was getting my lemonade that i love and turned around and nearly walked right into a beautiful black woman. it took nearly everything i had to stop myself from trying to bury my face in her ass. needless to say, there will be poems.

team USA men's basketball team won again yesterday on just talent and no chemistry. to beat Serbia by only 3 points, 94-91, is a bit of a head scratcher. they next play against France on Sunday. i believe Paul George said it best yesterday, they are simply too easy to guard at the moment. i can't stand watching a team that just stands around on offense. it drives me fucking nuts. and as my mother would say, it's a short drive.

i'll be on here sometime after Manchester United plays tomorrow morning.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday. call if you need bail money.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Amos Lee - Vaporize
Cypress Hill - I Wanna Get High (Live)
Traffic - Dear Mr. Fantasy
Hippo Campus - Suicide Saturday

"I have a perfect cure for a sore throat: cut it." - Alfred Hitchcock

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

Saturday, April 9, 2016

let the drinking begin

so i woke up this morning and was going to go out and get the paper. i opened the front door and holy shit, it fucking snowed overnight. and of course it had to be on the morning when i knew i had to go 4 or 5 different places. good times.

for National Poetry Month, i give you:

the New York Yankees lost yesterday 4-0. thankfully, they made up for it today winning 8-4. they can win the series with Detroit tomorrow night on ESPN.

much to my amazement, the New York Rangers defeated Detroit today 3-2. now, i wouldn't put it past the Islanders to lose both games so the Rangers have to face Pittsburgh in the playoffs. if the Islanders get 3 points or more out of their last 2 games, the Rangers will face Florida in the playoffs. Detroit backed into the playoffs because of that dumpster fire of a team up in Boston. hard to believe, but the playoffs are just a few days away.

mom and i decided not to go to the game up in Columbus tonight. between my arthritis and her exhaustion, i knew we would be miserable up there. plus, my sister is sick. thankfully she had a friend that could use the tickets.

mom and i took 5 boxes of shit to get shredded today. that gets 5 boxes out of the garage. eventually we might even have a second vehicle to put in there. after that, i had to take her to work. after that we got some lunch and then went to the grocery store. i might have a few poems about that, although they will probably be about holding a piss in the entire time in the store. good times.

NJPW was excellent last night. i'm really enjoying listening to Jim Ross call pro wrestling again.

VICE was very disturbing last night. the segment about women's rights in Afghanistan was very informing as much as it was maddening. i wonder what the world would be like if the Quran had a New Testament? it's painfully obvious that the only way the Middle East will ever change is if the youth decide to overthrow the governments and the religious zealots running things. and then comes the never ending task of changing the made up minds of millions of people. imagine a world where everyone was equal. talk about a fucking dream.

and on that cheery note, enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Saturday Night Live and ROH.

i really enjoyed listening to the interview on Sam Roberts' Show with Jamey Jasta,
you can listen to it here: http://notsam.com/srshow/2016/4/8/srshow-jamey-jasta

well, that's all for me today. i'll be on here sometime after Manchester United plays tomorrow. hopefully i'll be in a good mood. now, it's time to go enjoy a couple victory beers.

i hope everyone has a wonderful Saturday night. call if you need bail money.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

D'Angelo - Brown Sugar
Portishead - Glory Box
Vintage Trouble - Another Man's Words
Hippo Campus - Suicide Saturday

"To handle a language skillfully is to practice a kind of evocative sorcery." - Charles Baudelaire

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

Sunday, December 6, 2015

what a long ass day

so, i'm typing this from my new computer. i've been up for god knows how long. i didn't sleep well at all. i was hoping a little hard liquor was going to do the trick. sadly i was wrong. but before i get into my long ass Saturday, i need to wrap up my Friday.

Undateable was brilliant once again. NJPW was pretty good. and The Knick was spectacular.

i typed up the 5 poems i wrote the other day on the new computer. i wanted to make sure i had the printer set up correctly and wanted to get used to typing on a regular keyboard once again. shit, it feels weird using a mouse again. but, i won't miss the touch screen at all. as for the poems, i really like them. i have a monster batch of poems ready to unleash on the world. i plan on doing that sometime in the next week. a nice final blast for 2015.

i watched the Manchester United game this morning. i took a shower at halftime, hoping they would do something since i wasn't watching. of course, that didn't happen. yet another 0-0 draw. if i wasn't such a fucking fanatic, i would have given up on this team.
hopefully they know, they HAVE to win their next game in the Champions League.

after that. mom came home with some groceries. i helped put those away and then it was off to see the Dayton Flyers play. Dayton was facing one of the best 3 point shooting teams in the country and Dayton has struggled defending the 3. so i was fearing the worst today. thankfully, the boys got going and kept their foot on the neck of the opponent. Dayton beat North Florida 86-71. and for most of the game, it didn't feel that close.
they next play at Vanderbilt. that will be a tough one for sure.

after the game, we went straight to Best Buy to get the new computer. mom had them put the business version of Office on here. and for the first time, she had them put it in my name. so, i have a Microsoft account now. not that i'll use it or anything. the dude that helped us was pretty cool. that was shocking as most of the Geek Squad there absolutely fucking suck. after that, it was time to eat.

not sure why after not eating for over 8 hours i chose to go to Waffle House. i guess mom really wanted it and i am a glutton for punishment.

once we got home it was plenty of cleaning and then setting up the new computer. it's been a while since i have been on a Dell. but, i think this one should work pretty good.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:


i've been writing this while watching/listening to Saturday Night Live and now ROH. i believe i also recorded Austin City Limits tonight as well. i'll probably be up for a few more hours so i'll check those out.

i didn't bother to watch any of the college football games today. i figured it would take a miracle for Ohio State to make it back into the playoffs.

the New Orleans Saints play Carolina tomorrow/later today. i fear how bad the Saints are going to lose.

the New York Rangers will try to end another losing streak when they play Ottawa Sunday night. i'm hoping to be enjoying a victory beer later in the evening.

on the DVR Sunday night will be Homeland and The Affair.

sorry, i have to stop typing, Dalton Castle is on ROH right now.

not sure how my fantasy football teams are going to do tomorrow. if all 3 win, i believe i will be in the playoffs in all 3 leagues. i have never done that before, so i'm really hoping it happens.

i suppose i should actually go read the paper now, or maybe my mail. thankfully, all the Christmas gifts i ordered have made it here. now it's just the small shit i need to do and find the right obituary pages to wrap the gifts in.

i hope everyone had a wonderful Saturday. i hope your Sunday is even better. i will be back on here sometime Monday.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Hippo Campus - Suicide Saturday
Slayer - Seasons in the Abyss
Nine Inch Nails - Lights in the Sky

"They say the universe is expanding. That should help with the traffic." - Steven Wright

and your whatever the fuck i want you to see video of the day:

Friday, June 12, 2015

waking up in a sweat

maybe it was the heat. maybe it was the underlying sentiments from my mother and sister. maybe it was death. maybe it was a sense that i'm entering a new chapter of my life. but waking up in a pool of your own sweat while the air conditioner and a fan is on overnight is a bit unsettling. of course, 45 minutes after waking up, i'm swallowing 2 pills of Imodium. good times.

the Cavs went cold last night and ran out of gas and Golden State finally realized they were playing in the finals. a recipe for disaster if you want Cleveland to win. Golden State won by 21 last night. the game really never felt that close. next game is on Sunday.

The Comedians last night was hilarious. i really think the show has found its legs now.

the Dayton Flyers got a good transfer from Bradley yesterday. best thing, he'll have 3 years left at UD. and he knows how to rebound. i have to love a kid who got 21 rebounds as a freshman. welcome to Dayton, Josh Cunningham. he chose Dayton over Illinois.

mom and i went to Waffle House for dinner last night. that could explain my morning.

enjoy some music while i think of something to say:

not that i actually watched anything late last night, but here's some funny shit anyways:

i have a busier than shit day ahead of me. before noon, i'd like to get to the bank and post office. after my chair arrives this afternoon, mom and i are going to the grocery store. we have the chance to get some heavy storms today on top of everything. tonight, i'm hoping to enjoy watching the USA women take on Sweden in the Women's World Cup.

on the DVR tonight will be NJPW and VICE.

if i get a chance tonight, i'd like to get some writing done. i'd like to get enough poems to have some submissions to go for the next week.

that's all for me today. i need to get going. i hope everyone has a great weekend. if not, look in the mirror.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Arcade Fire - Wake Up
Leon Bridges - River
Hippo Campus - Suicide Saturday
Shinedown - Sound of Madness
Led Zeppelin - When The Levee Breaks

"Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy." - Anne Frank

and your pro wrestling video of the day:

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

and now he's nothing but a ghost

i had a hard time falling asleep last night, which i was prepared for. i took a shower late and did everything i could to get my body at ease. when i woke up at 8 in the morning, i guess the trick worked. of course, it was only 3 hours of sleep, but 3 more than i thought i was going to get. i wasn't exactly sure what to expect today. but, i figure it's not everyday you get to see your father in a casket, so i might as well wear a shirt with a collar. i met a couple of his step-children. i saw his oldest sister for the first time in 25 years. at 10 AM sharp, we took the drive deep into the VA facility for the service. when i was asked to be a pallbearer i was a little stunned, but i agreed figuring this would help this feel real to me. after that was over, the service began. my father was in the Air Force, so they had to do the whole flag and taps ceremony. both of those always get me to cry. those tears lasted right until they handed the flag to his wife's daughter. not that i'm the oldest next of kin or anything. then there were some prayers and then the reverend from the church my father went to spoke. i'm not sure who the fuck he was talking about when he spoke about a kind and generous man that loved church. as i told my sister when the service ended, i'm still thinking about that kind and generous man having his hands around my neck trying to kill me.

since my sister and i weren't given the opportunity to speak at the service, my sister wanted to pass on what she was going to say. it doesn't have all the colorful language that i was going to use, but the sentiment is the right one:

The man I have heard described today and for the last 2 weeks is not the man my brother nor I had the luxury of knowing. I will never get answers to the many questions I have. In order to close the chapter and move on from today I have to take from this, that my father's inability to ever say 'i love u' or 'i'm proud of u' to my brother or i and his 19 year absence from my life is proof that humans are capable of changing. I take solace that he didn't die alone and unloved and as awful as the treatment that my brother and I received, that treatment was probably part of his transformation into a human being capable of giving love to those that loved him.

that was much kinder than i would have been. as for anything i would have said, i'm sure that will come out in the forms of poems over the next few years.

i did find out today that my father retired from the post office in 2009. i suppose he had no choice when he got the diagnosis of dementia. that means he worked at the post office for 37 years. no wonder he died at 68. i suppose the next shoe to drop will be the reading of the will. that will probably get really fucking interesting, especially if the fucker was dumb enough to not list me or my sister in it.

i didn't go to the church afterwards to listen to more bullshit. i ended up going out to lunch with my mother, sister and two of her friends. after a few drinks and some food, it was back to being just another fucking day in my life.

time for a quick musical break and hopefully a few laughs:

the New York Yankees lost last night 3-1. to be honest, i didn't watch any of the game.

the New York Rangers lost 1-0 last night to fall behind in the series 2-1. sadly, i watched more of that game than i should have. fucking frustrating beyond belief. and of course i will probably miss some of Game 4 because of the farm auction.

Gotham was fucking brilliant. that was an amazing first season. i can't wait for the next one.

Monday Night Raw was actually really good last night. it figures, since there was so much else on last night. here's a few of the highlights:
and the image that will make me smile for weeks to come:

to be honest i didn't watch much of The Voice last night and didn't vote at all. so i have no clue who is getting voted off tonight. regardless, i'm pretty sure that Sawyer will end up winning this season.

the Kurt Cobain documentary on HBO last night was brilliant. so many memories that brought back. and considering that was right around the time my parent's got divorced... you could say that moments of that last night were truly a mind fuck.

i didn't get to watch any of the David Letterman special from last night. but, i do have it on the DVR so i will hopefully watch it sometime this week.

as for tv tonight, the Yankees play up in Toronto again. there's a WWE special on ESPN that i will have on the DVR. after i watch The Voice, i believe Undateable is live tonight. so, that should make for some interesting viewing. and at some point i will fit in Deadliest Catch. other than that, i think i'm just going to try to stay cool. the weather is a bit balmy today.

that's all for me today. i hope everyone enjoyed their Cinco de Mayo. hopefully the drinks didn't get the better of you.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Johnny Cash - Bitter Tears: Ballads of The American Indian
Hippo Campus - Suicide Saturday (* FREE on iTunes)
Superheaven - I've Been Bored (* FREE on iTunes)
The Iguanas - Mexican Candy
Shinedown - Sound of Madness
Nirvana - Where Did You Sleep Last Night? (Live)

"Religion is the impotence of the human mind to deal with occurrences it cannot understand." - Karl Marx

and now your pro wrestling video of the day: