i'm running on fumes...

 i didn't get to sleep until 4:30 this morning. i was hoping i would wake up sometime around 9 and get my day going. but, in reality, i woke up at 7:45 and have been up since. this is clearly the recipe to make sure i will be dead in a few years. good times.

i did get everything on the grocery list. mom about shit when she saw i saved more than $50 at Kroger today.

The Voice was good last night.

NXT was excellent last night.

AEW was good last night.

Deadliest Catch was very good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Masked Singer, Inside the NFL, Abbott Elementary and two episodes of Grotesquerie.

the Yankees play Game 3 tonight at the Royals. i'm hoping the Yankees will win and go up 2-1 in the series.

the New York Rangers start their season tonight at Pittsburgh.

i should be on here tomorrow after i take mom to get some more bloodwork done.

i hope everyone has a good night.

i need to go make dinner.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Estoy funcionando con los vapores

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Chaparelle - Bleeding Hearts (Live)

Fruition - Scars

Fcukers - Tommy

Cat Power - Visions of Johanna (Live)

Bright Eyes - Waste of Paint

"Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans." - John Lennon

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a night to forget...

 so, last night was one to forget...

the Yankees lost at home to the Royals, 4-2. the series is now 1-1. Game 3 will be at the Royals.

the New Orleans Saints lost last night at the Chiefs, 26-13. Derek Carr injured his oblique last night and will be out for the next couple of weeks. neither of the Saints backups have much experience, so what i thought was going to be a great season now has turned to absolute shit.

The Voice was pretty good last night.

Monday Night Raw was good last night.

mom and i got our COVID vaccines today at Kroger. thankfully, i made the appointments online and that saved a ton of time. we were done before mom's appointment was supposed to start. joy.

i think i was so angry last night that i actually got close to 6 hours of sleep. 

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NXT, Deadliest Catch, The Voice and AEW Dynamite.

the NHL season is starting back up today. the Rangers play tomorrow night in Pittsburgh.

i will probably watch some of the baseball playoffs tonight as well.

i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.

until then kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Una noche para olvidar

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Flying Lotus - Garmonbozia

Allwax - Waves

Nell Smith & The Flaming Lips - Girl in Amber

The Band of Heathens - Hurricane

Beck - Loser

"Wealth is a tool of freedom, but the pursuit of wealth is the way to slavery." - George Herbert

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today was about errands, grocery shopping and pain...

 that was the line i used when i texted the muse back today as i missed her call. i just got back home from my second trip to Kroger today. thankfully, the new pills of Rybelsus didn't cost me anything. hopefully, they will fucking work.

i got up at 6:40 this morning. i wasn't happy, as i probably had just barely 4 hours of sleep. by 10 AM, my back was killing me, so i got some ice and went to my massage chair. i woke up a little after 1 PM. i'm not sure if i fell asleep or just passed the fuck out. i had to go to the bank and get all the grocery shopping done. they didn't have my pills ready at Kroger at 2 like they said they would. i think i got the text around 6:30 tonight. joy. between the grocery shopping and getting gas, amazingly, it was all under $200.

the New York Rangers won last night at home against the Devils, 5-4.

NXT was really good last night.

Deadliest Catch was excellent last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite, The Masked Singer and Grotesquerie.

i should be on here tomorrow after i take mom to her doctor's appointment.

of course, i might wait until after the Manchester United game to get on here tomorrow.

i have no damn clue what i am making for dinner.

i really need to go ice my back down again. fun times.

i did get a good laugh today when the Tigers eliminated the Astros in the playoffs.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Recados, compras y dolor

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Breathing Space - WASTING

Royel Otis - Velvet

Illiterate Light - Payphone

Ramiro Pinheiro & Rodrigo Balduino - Moon River

Katie Barbato - October Sea

"Man does not control his own fate. The women in his life do that for him." - Groucho Marx

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

stress is trying to break me...

 before i get into how today went, let me rewind to when i was finishing the blog yesterday. that was when i got the news of Pete Rose dying. i have a ton of Pete Rose memorabilia, baseball cards, autographs, etc. needless to say, the news of his death was like a punch to my dick. growing up in this area and loving baseball, i think nearly every father told their kid to play like Charlie Hustle. one thing the death did was make me feel old. it also reminded me of how much my father liked him. and the asshole in me quickly wondered how much that 1964 Kahn's baseball card could now be worth. 

i did take mom to her appointment with her dermatologist today. she was going back to see if the spots they treated before were gone. her lip was fine, she had one spot on her head that she scratched at (as usual). then, the doctor started to look at mom's arms and hands. they froze 7 spots that she called pre-cancerous. as if i needed more fucking stress in my life.

we then went to Kroger. mom wanted to go in and pay for her own pills. she admitted to me that she doesn't have the money to pay me back. fun times.

Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night.

The Voice was good last night.

i did watch a little of the NFL games last night.

the New York Rangers lost last night at New Jersey, 3-1. both teams play again tonight at MSG.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NXT and Deadliest Catch.

the baseball playoffs started today.

a big thank you to everyone that checked out my latest published poems:

https://synchchaos.com/poetry-from-j-j-campbell-114/

i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done. i also need to go to the bank tomorrow.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

El estrés está tratando de destruirme

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Stevie Nicks - The Lighthouse

Floor Cry - Happy Together

A Band Called Ma - Walker

Daniel Blake - Dreaming About It

The Kills - The Last Goodbye

"I'd walk through hell in a gasoline suit to play baseball." - Pete Rose

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well, just had a tornado the county over to my west...

 nothing like surfing YouTube, looking for videos for the blog and your phone goes nuts with tornado warnings. that tends to get my attention. i went out to the living room and mom had the news on. i looked at the radar and noticed it wasn't getting near us, so back to the computer. joy.

i just got back from Kroger. nothing like being in the middle of something and remembering something you forgot to do while your back was killing you this afternoon. now back to regularly scheduled programming...

Monday Night Raw was great last night. i am so happy for Jey Uso.

The Voice was very good last night. i won't be shocked if the winner actually comes from the first episode.

i did catch some of both NFL games last night.

a big thank you to everyone for checking out my latest published poem:

https://ryethewhiskeyreview.blogspot.com/2024/09/appreciated-some-nudity-by-jj-campbell.html

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NXT and Deadliest Catch.

the New York Yankees start a series tonight at home against Baltimore. the magic number to win the AL East is 1. i hope they will be partying later tonight.

the New York Rangers play the Islanders tonight in preseason hockey. 

i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.

i need to get started on dinner and getting the trash ready to go out.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

La temporada de tornados nunca termina

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Kolumbo - Spin the Bottle

YACHT - Wake Me Up

When Saints Go Machine - Chainsaw

Ray Charles - Let's Go Get Stoned (Live)

Ani DiFranco - Napoleon (Live)

"Show me a hero and I'll write you a tragedy." - F. Scott Fitzgerald

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

living or running out the clock?

 mom didn't get out bed yesterday until 5 PM. she asked me how do i look? i told her she didn't have bags under her eyes anymore. she was asleep for more than 14 hours. i barely sleep that long in a week. the way my back and left shoulder feel, i think the only way i am sleeping is the pain makes me sleep. and that's not good sleep. that's basically fighting death. and quite honestly, i have no interest in fighting death.

Manchester United won yesterday at home against Barnsley, 7-0. holy shit, that was beautiful to watch.

the Yankees won last night in Seattle, 11-2. the magic number to make the playoffs is 1. the magic number to clinch the division is 8. they have a 4 game lead over the Orioles in the AL East. i think they have a 1 1/2 game lead over Cleveland for the best record in the American League.

NXT was very good last night.

Deadliest Catch was good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite, Big Brother and Inside The NFL.

grocery shopping was difficult today. i iced my shoulder down before i went. that didn't last nearly as long as i hoped. and although i did save a good amount of money today, everything cost me over $200. fuck me.

i need to get started on dinner, so that's all for me today kids.

i should be on here tomorrow after i take mom to get some blood work done.

until then my friends...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

¿Vivir o quedarse sin tiempo?

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Melinda Sullivan & Larry Goldings - Do You Like

Charlie Parker - Summertime

Chuck Prophet - Wake The Dead

The Band - It Makes No Difference

My Morning Jacket - Aren't We One?

"Life would be so wonderful if we only knew what to do with it." - Greta Garbo

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

at least i made it to the bank...

 my back is feeling a little better today. i at least made it to the bank to deposit a check. i really thought i was going to get some good sleep last night. i took a shower and had ice ready for my shoulders and back. i fell asleep around 3 and woke up right at 7 this morning. fuck me.

Monday Night Raw was very good last night.

i did watch some of the Falcons vs. Eagles last night. i can't believe the Eagles choked that game away.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NXT and Deadliest Catch.

the New York Yankees play at Seattle tonight. the Yankees have a 3 game lead in the AL East with 12 games left.

Manchester United plays at home today against Barnsley in the League Cup.

the Champions League started back up today as well.

i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.

it is another hot and dry day here. the grass is just about dead. i imagine the 2 weeks of fall will be here soon.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Al menos llegué al banco

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Female Gallery - Simon Says

Father John Misty - Screamland

Leonard Cohen - Everybody Knows (Live)

Ted Hawkins - Long As I Can See The Light

Satchel - Suffering

"People think love is an emotion. Love is good sense." - Ken Kesey

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

much later than i was expecting...

 i just got the news that Frankie Beverly died. that hit me way harder than i was expecting. definitely feeling my age these days. 

and of course, with today being 9/11, i can't help but remember what happened 23 fucking years ago.

grocery shopping went well today, other than my left arm killing me all day long. at least i kept everything under $200.

the Yankees lost last night at home against the Royals, 5-0. of course, Baltimore won last night, so the lead in the division is down to 1/2 game.

NXT was amazing last night.

Deadliest Catch was very good last night.

the debate went how i expected last night. the prosecutor laid out the bait and the dumb fuck couldn't help himself. 

enjoy some music:

on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite and Big Brother.

the USMNT played a 1-1 draw against New Zealand last night. that is 4 games in a row on home soil without a win. they haven't been that bad in 14 years. but, at least they finally hired the right coach this time.

i need to go make dinner, so that's all for me today.

i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

until then...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Mucho más tarde de lo que esperaba

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Kelly Finnigan - Be Your Own Shelter

OK Cowgirl - Little Splinters

The Band of Heathens - Hurricane

St. Paul & The Broken Bones - Broken Bones and Pocket Change (Live)

Foo Fighters - Everlong

"Life is a traveling to the edge of knowledge, then a leap taken." - D.H. Lawrence

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well, here comes summer again...

 when it gets hot around this time of year, i always wonder which person around here will be the first to say fuck it and start a fire in their back yard. we have a no burn warning due to the drought and it never fails, some fucker will light something up. i really worried about it when i lived on the farm for those 18 years. the wind we would get out there... you can easily tell how a wildfire would move so damn fast. i did get some weeds pulled today and took care of the dying tomato plant. since the trash goes out tonight, perfect day to get that done.

the New York Yankees won last night at home against the Royals, 10-4. hopefully, they will win again tonight. Baltimore lost, so the lead in the AL East is now up to 1 1/2 games.

i did watch some of the 49ers vs. Jets game last night. between the two Jets fans i know, the muse and my mother, neither were really happy last night.

the season finale of Name That Tune was good last night.

Monday Night Raw was really good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NXT and Deadliest Catch.

the USMNT plays a friendly tonight against New Zealand.

i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.

i need to pick up the trash and get dinner going, so that's all for me today.

until tomorrow my friends...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Aquí viene el verano otra vez

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

BOO85 - Retrograde

Two Minutes to Late Night - Dancing in the Dark

Macy Gray - Sex-O-Matic Venus Freak

Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds - The Mercy Seat (Live)

49 Winchester & Maggie Antone - Leavin' This Holler

"Speech is a very important aspect of being human. A whisper doesn't cut it." 

                                                - James Earl Jones (January 17, 1931 - September 9, 2024)

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

the joy of living with pain...

 so, the pain isn't exactly coming from my left shoulder, more coming from the neck it seems. makes it pretty difficult to do certain things when it is really flaming. when i got home from the grocery store, i put ice right on where it felt like the pain was coming from. i think i got the ice right on a nerve. this is why ice only works for me. it was an instant sensation of my body shutting off. i fear, i'll need that more and more as i get older. i have a doctor's appointment later this month. that might get interesting. i see the eye doctor tomorrow. that could get interesting as well.

grocery shopping went ok today. it took me a little longer to bag my groceries at Kroger. the cashier certainly didn't seem interested in helping me. at least the lady behind me was very patient. i did appreciate that.

the Yankees lost last night at Texas, 7-4. nothing like Clay Holmes blowing another fucking save by giving up a walk off grand slam. now, the guy that hit that grand slam got the hit i needed to win a same game parlay on Draftkings. what a world. the loss also knocked the Yankees out of first place in the AL East.

NXT was really good last night.

Hard Knocks was good last night. time for another NFL season to start.

Deadliest Catch was very good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite and Big Brother.

so, i am a big believer in evolution. i try to explain it as why we see everything done by people younger and younger. today was the latest example as a 14 year old is the latest school shooter. i fucking hate it more than anything that this shit is fucking common in this country. i hate it even more that the response from the republicans is to arm the teachers and put more guns in the situation. as i told my mother today, maybe when a 8 year old kills his classmates, this country will finally realize the gun problem we have. it obviously is going to take something so fucking shocking to wake us the fuck up.

i should be on here tomorrow after i get done with my appointment at the eye doctor.

i need to pick up all the trash tonight and get that out. i love how people forget around here that trash gets picked up a day later when there is a holiday.

i have no clue what i'm making for dinner tonight.

i'm off to go ice my neck down again. joy.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

La alegría de vivir con el dolor

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Paul Thorn - It's a Great Day to Whup Somebody's Ass (Live)

Hayes Carll - She Left Me For Jesus

Todd Snider - Just Like Old Times (Live)

Old Crow Medicine Show - Methamphetamine (Live)

Jason Isbell and the 400 Unit - Last of My Kind (Live)

"Death comes not to the living soul, nor age to the loving heart." - Phoebe Cary

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

been a long day...

 for some damn reason, i was up at 6:30 this morning. i didn't want to be, i know that for sure. i had to get mom up at 9 so she would ready for her hair appointment this afternoon. i dropped her off there and went to the bank to make a deposit. after i did that, i went to Meijer to look for some baseball cards. my goal was to spend under $40. i got 4 packs and some NBA cards for $32. sadly, there wasn't much good in the packs. of course, that is the danger of buying retail. after that, i went back to where mom was getting her hair cut. she must have had around 6 inches cut off. i told her that should feel much better in this heat. once she paid, we went to Kroger, which is basically across the street. she had pills ready and so did i. i thought i was going to get a better discount on the Rybelsus. the first two times i got it, it was $74. this time, it was $237. as i told my mother, ah, capitalism. so, instead of $300 off like the first two times, this time was around $130. sadly, nothing surprises me anymore. this was mom's first time in Kroger since they had remodeled. i think she could tell i was being honest when i told her it would be sensory overload her first time in there. we went back home and i finally had some lunch; roughly 8 hours after i had breakfast. 

the Yankees won last night at Texas, 8-4. hopefully, they will do it again tonight.

Name That Tune was good last night.

Monday Night Raw was very good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NXT, Deadliest Catch and Hard Knocks.

i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.

a big thank you to everyone for checking out my latest published poem:

https://horrorsleazetrash.com/2024/09/03/j-j-campbell-89/

i have no clue what i'm going to do for dinner tonight.

i need to go ice my back down.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Ha sido un día largo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Gorillaz - Clint Eastwood

The Pharcyde - Passin' Me By

Parker Woodland - Ladder at Your Window

Joe Cocker - When the Night Comes

Leonard Cohen - I'm Your Man (Live)

"The visionary starts with a clean sheet of paper, and re-imagines the world." - Malcolm Gladwell

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

didn't expect to do laundry today...

 but, this is what happens when you have a bad back and you have to take a shit and you are on the other side of the house. not how i wanted to start off my day. spent easily 30 minutes in the bathroom using the bidet. good times. and then i had to ice my back down a good hour before i could go grocery shopping. of course, i also had to take mail to the neighbors since whoever the fuck delivers our mail can't fucking see worth a shit. i'm not sure how 57 looks like 51 when there are two boxes of the same thing over at 57. i really laugh when 45 ends up here at 51. and the postal service wonders why they lose money. grocery shopping went well today, for the most part. i had to bag my own groceries at Kroger. so, i will definitely be icing my back down again tonight. even better, we might have some thunderstorms tonight. the feels like temperature was 100 all afternoon. that was a joy to be out driving in that.

the Yankees lost last night at the Nationals, 4-2. hopefully, the Yankees will win tonight.

NXT was really good last night.

Hard Knocks was good last night.

Deadliest Catch was excellent last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite and Big Brother.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

i need to go figure out dinner, so that's all for me today kids.

until tomorrow...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

No esperaba lavar la ropa hoy

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Daniel Nunnelee - Do You?

Ellen Reid w/Shabaka Hutchings - Spiritual Sun

Oh He Dead - Strange Love

The Band - Up on Cripple Creek

Mumford & Sons - Little Lion Man

"Poetry is language at its most distilled and most powerful." - Rita Dove

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i guess i still have it...

 if you have been a long time reader of this blog, you know my ebbs and flows when it comes to my writing. and just how often where i fret that i have lost "it", whatever the fuck it is. but, with the 3 poems that got published today, there has been some very kind words that came with them. i want to thank everyone for those. they mean way more than you could even understand...

https://beatnikcowboy.com/2024/08/27/j-j-campbell-45/

https://madswirl.com/poetry/2024/08/it-takes-years-of-pain-to-become-oblivious/

the Yankees won last night at the Nationals, 5-2. hopefully, they will win again tonight.

Name That Tune was good last night.

Monday Night Raw was excellent last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NXT, Deadliest Catch and Hard Knocks.

i guess Manchester United finally got their man...

i had to go to Kroger today to pick up some prescriptions. it is fucking hot as hell today. i guess the heat index is somewhere around 100. it hasn't been this hot in August here in 20 years. joy.

i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.

until then kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Supongo que todavía lo tengo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Amadou & Mariam - Mogolu

Anna May - The Show

Tori Amos - Northern Lad

Guns N' Roses - Dust N' Bones

Don Henley - The Boys of Summer

"When you quiet your mind, you can enter a world of clarity, peace and understanding." 

                                                                                  - Alice Coltrane

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

another day talking about death...

 my mother isn't exactly aging gracefully. i can tell the fear she has on most days as her motor skills decline, becomes more forgetful, etc. i try to tell her to think of the positives, but that does nothing. she often talks about being afraid to die. i stress to her constantly that death is only the natural conclusion to life. it will happen to each and every one of us, whether we like it or not. i want her to enjoy what she has left, not be afraid of what is coming. as someone who has wanted to die since he was 8 years old, i believe i have some experience in saying fuck it, and just move on. but, i can't say i am fully prepared for my mother's death. part of me doesn't want to be overly prepared for it. i want to live in the urgency of now. also, i don't believe she will be dying anytime soon. the problem she is having is none of the drugs they are trying on her are working. so, now i think she has no choice but to go on insulin. and i'm not really looking forward to that. cause i know damn well i will be the one giving her shots before too long. joy.

the Yankees lost last night at home to Cleveland, 9-5 in 12 innings.

NXT was excellent last night.

Deadliest Catch was good last night.

Hard Knocks was really good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite and Big Brother.

i just put out some suet for the birds. i know at some point soon, i need to go to Menards to get a bunch of things, including more suet.

the grocery shopping went pretty good today. the weather was damn near perfect. if only i could say the same about the people.

i need to get started on dinner, so that's all for me kids...

until tomorrow...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Otro día hablando de la muerte

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Chappell Roan - My Kink Is Karma

Magdalena Bay - Image

Lenny Kravitz - Can't Get You Off My Mind

MGMT - Time to Pretend

JD McPherson - Sunshine Getaway

"The future is unwritten." - Joe Strummer

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: