burning the candle at both ends...

 so, it was another one of those nights where i didn't get to bed until 5 in the morning. life gets exhausting sometimes, and i am certainly in that fucking rut. trying to manage my pain and my mother's pain, such a fucking joy.

here are your links for this day of Black History Month:

https://blackfacts.com/fact/u-of-alabama-first-black-student

https://blackfacts.com/fact/negro-baseball-league-founded

the New York Rangers won last night at home against Las Vegas, 4-2. Jonathan Quick became the first American born goalie to win 400 games. 

the Grammy Awards last night were good. amazingly, i knew most of the musical acts.

Dexter Original Sin was very good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Voice. i'll watch Monday Night Raw sometime tonight on Netflix.

i did get to finally vacuum the house today. mom tends to always go to sleep when i want to do it. she pulled that passive/aggressive bullshit today and i just went ahead and did it anyway. i can take so much shit, to a point. as i have told her, just like she grilled into me as a child... choices and consequences.

i'm hoping to get some poems written tonight. i know i need to send another round of submissions out soon.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

i hope everyone had a great weekend.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

quemando la vela por ambos extremos

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Alicia Keys - Fallin'

Beyonce - TEXAS HOLD 'EM

Chappell Roan - My Kink Is Karma

The Weeknd - Blinding Lights

Kendrick Lamar - Not Like Us

"Fame is a vapor; popularity an accident; riches take wings; the only earthly certainty is oblivion." 

                                                                                 - Horace Greeley

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

another day talking about death...

 my mother isn't exactly aging gracefully. i can tell the fear she has on most days as her motor skills decline, becomes more forgetful, etc. i try to tell her to think of the positives, but that does nothing. she often talks about being afraid to die. i stress to her constantly that death is only the natural conclusion to life. it will happen to each and every one of us, whether we like it or not. i want her to enjoy what she has left, not be afraid of what is coming. as someone who has wanted to die since he was 8 years old, i believe i have some experience in saying fuck it, and just move on. but, i can't say i am fully prepared for my mother's death. part of me doesn't want to be overly prepared for it. i want to live in the urgency of now. also, i don't believe she will be dying anytime soon. the problem she is having is none of the drugs they are trying on her are working. so, now i think she has no choice but to go on insulin. and i'm not really looking forward to that. cause i know damn well i will be the one giving her shots before too long. joy.

the Yankees lost last night at home to Cleveland, 9-5 in 12 innings.

NXT was excellent last night.

Deadliest Catch was good last night.

Hard Knocks was really good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite and Big Brother.

i just put out some suet for the birds. i know at some point soon, i need to go to Menards to get a bunch of things, including more suet.

the grocery shopping went pretty good today. the weather was damn near perfect. if only i could say the same about the people.

i need to get started on dinner, so that's all for me kids...

until tomorrow...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Otro día hablando de la muerte

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Chappell Roan - My Kink Is Karma

Magdalena Bay - Image

Lenny Kravitz - Can't Get You Off My Mind

MGMT - Time to Pretend

JD McPherson - Sunshine Getaway

"The future is unwritten." - Joe Strummer

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: