another day talking about death...

 my mother isn't exactly aging gracefully. i can tell the fear she has on most days as her motor skills decline, becomes more forgetful, etc. i try to tell her to think of the positives, but that does nothing. she often talks about being afraid to die. i stress to her constantly that death is only the natural conclusion to life. it will happen to each and every one of us, whether we like it or not. i want her to enjoy what she has left, not be afraid of what is coming. as someone who has wanted to die since he was 8 years old, i believe i have some experience in saying fuck it, and just move on. but, i can't say i am fully prepared for my mother's death. part of me doesn't want to be overly prepared for it. i want to live in the urgency of now. also, i don't believe she will be dying anytime soon. the problem she is having is none of the drugs they are trying on her are working. so, now i think she has no choice but to go on insulin. and i'm not really looking forward to that. cause i know damn well i will be the one giving her shots before too long. joy.

the Yankees lost last night at home to Cleveland, 9-5 in 12 innings.

NXT was excellent last night.

Deadliest Catch was good last night.

Hard Knocks was really good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite and Big Brother.

i just put out some suet for the birds. i know at some point soon, i need to go to Menards to get a bunch of things, including more suet.

the grocery shopping went pretty good today. the weather was damn near perfect. if only i could say the same about the people.

i need to get started on dinner, so that's all for me kids...

until tomorrow...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Otro día hablando de la muerte

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Chappell Roan - My Kink Is Karma

Magdalena Bay - Image

Lenny Kravitz - Can't Get You Off My Mind

MGMT - Time to Pretend

JD McPherson - Sunshine Getaway

"The future is unwritten." - Joe Strummer

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: