my mother isn't exactly aging gracefully. i can tell the fear she has on most days as her motor skills decline, becomes more forgetful, etc. i try to tell her to think of the positives, but that does nothing. she often talks about being afraid to die. i stress to her constantly that death is only the natural conclusion to life. it will happen to each and every one of us, whether we like it or not. i want her to enjoy what she has left, not be afraid of what is coming. as someone who has wanted to die since he was 8 years old, i believe i have some experience in saying fuck it, and just move on. but, i can't say i am fully prepared for my mother's death. part of me doesn't want to be overly prepared for it. i want to live in the urgency of now. also, i don't believe she will be dying anytime soon. the problem she is having is none of the drugs they are trying on her are working. so, now i think she has no choice but to go on insulin. and i'm not really looking forward to that. cause i know damn well i will be the one giving her shots before too long. joy.
the Yankees lost last night at home to Cleveland, 9-5 in 12 innings.
NXT was excellent last night.
Deadliest Catch was good last night.
Hard Knocks was really good last night.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite and Big Brother.
i just put out some suet for the birds. i know at some point soon, i need to go to Menards to get a bunch of things, including more suet.
the grocery shopping went pretty good today. the weather was damn near perfect. if only i could say the same about the people.
i need to get started on dinner, so that's all for me kids...
until tomorrow...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay off the fucking streets.
get the fucking shot.
Otro día hablando de la muerte
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Chappell Roan - My Kink Is Karma
Magdalena Bay - Image
Lenny Kravitz - Can't Get You Off My Mind
MGMT - Time to Pretend
JD McPherson - Sunshine Getaway
"The future is unwritten." - Joe Strummer
and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:
i took a shower last night, trying to relax after a very frustrating Rangers loss. what the shower actually did was focus my anger. so, of course, i didn't sleep much at all last night. i might have got 3 hours in my massage chair. thank god i drink strong ass coffee. i'm beyond frustrated right now, between sports, my Trulicity once again being unable to get from the manufacturer to the pharmacy, to whatever the fuck else that is annoying the shit out of me. these are the days i wish i was out at the farm and i'd go out to the bank barn and hope the gun doesn't jam.
the New York Rangers lost last night at home to Florida, 3-2. Florida is now up in the series 3-2., if i am counting on the nostalgia of 1994, this is exactly what happened in the Eastern Conference finals against the Devils. Messier guaranteed a win in Game 6 (which he scored a natural hat trick in) and then they won Game 7 at home in double overtime. the only problem with this scenario is there is no Mark Messier on this team. do i think they can win Game 6 down in Florida? yes. do i think they will? maybe? it wouldn't shock me if i am shaving late Saturday night.
the New York Yankees won last night at Anaheim, 8-3. they start a series tonight at San Francisco.
here are your highlights from the NBA playoffs last night:
the NBA Finals are now set. Dallas vs. Boston.
I Can See Your Voice was good last night.
Don't Forget the Lyrics was pretty funny last night.
Welcome to Wrexham was excellent last night.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be AEW Rampage, Smackdown and Real Time with Bill Maher. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.
i'm sure i will watch some of Game 5 between Dallas and Edmonton tonight.
i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow.
i did write 2 poems today while mom was in physical therapy. i think they are pretty good.
hard to believe tomorrow is the first of June.
a big thank you to everyone for checking out my latest published poem:
so, as i was taking my mother to her doctor's appointment today, the check engine light came on in the Highlander. again. now, i have learned over time, if the light stays solid and doesn't blink, the vehicle is fine to drive. so, i have to call the dealership in the morning and see when i can bring it up there to see what the fuck is wrong now.
as for my mother's doctor's appointment, she got all the questions she had answered. hopefully, given the new pills, she'll finally get some relief from the pain.
here are your three videos for this day of National Poetry Month:
AEW Dynamite was very good last night.
The Masked Singer was crazy last night.
Snowfall was awesome last night. just two episodes left in the season.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be How We Roll, Atlanta, NJPW and Desus & Mero. i did watch NXT UK on Peacock this afternoon. it was excellent.
the New York Rangers play at home tonight against the Penguins. hopefully, the boys will get a win.
i think i have to take mom to her accountant tomorrow. i'm not sure what time. i know i have some shit to get at Rite Aid tomorrow as well.
given that the New York Yankees home opener is tomorrow against the Red Sox, i will probably try to have the blog done in the morning.
a huge thank you to everyone for checking out my latest SoundCloud recording:
