i guess i still have it...

 if you have been a long time reader of this blog, you know my ebbs and flows when it comes to my writing. and just how often where i fret that i have lost "it", whatever the fuck it is. but, with the 3 poems that got published today, there has been some very kind words that came with them. i want to thank everyone for those. they mean way more than you could even understand...

https://beatnikcowboy.com/2024/08/27/j-j-campbell-45/

https://madswirl.com/poetry/2024/08/it-takes-years-of-pain-to-become-oblivious/

the Yankees won last night at the Nationals, 5-2. hopefully, they will win again tonight.

Name That Tune was good last night.

Monday Night Raw was excellent last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NXT, Deadliest Catch and Hard Knocks.

i guess Manchester United finally got their man...

i had to go to Kroger today to pick up some prescriptions. it is fucking hot as hell today. i guess the heat index is somewhere around 100. it hasn't been this hot in August here in 20 years. joy.

i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.

until then kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Supongo que todavía lo tengo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Amadou & Mariam - Mogolu

Anna May - The Show

Tori Amos - Northern Lad

Guns N' Roses - Dust N' Bones

Don Henley - The Boys of Summer

"When you quiet your mind, you can enter a world of clarity, peace and understanding." 

                                                                                  - Alice Coltrane

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

one too many rabbit holes...

 so, i was up at 3 in the morning doing the dishes in the bathtub. i know there is a poem there somewhere. i really wanted to sleep in this morning. i was still up before 9. mom is just now getting out of bed. maybe i'll sleep more as i approach death.

well, let me start off where this left off yesterday.

Manchester United lost 3-0 yesterday at home to Bournemouth. the boys were absolutely pathetic. i don't have much hope for the match on Tuesday at home against Bayern Munich.

the Dayton Flyers won yesterday at home against Troy, 82-70.

i did watch a bit of the Army vs. Navy game yesterday.

the MLS final was excellent yesterday. the Columbus Crew won, 2-1, over defending champs LAFC.

NXT Deadline was awesome last night.

AEW Collision was good last night.

Saturday Night Live was fucking hilarious last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Last Week Tonight, Fellow Travelers, The Curse and Power Book III: Raising Kanan.

i did watch some of the finals of the NBA in-season tournament last night. the Lakers beat the Pacers, 123-109.

the New York Rangers lost last night at Washington, 4-0. they are back home tonight against the Kings.

i will probably go to the store later today. i am low on bread, etc. i can't wait until the fucking kitchen is done.

the New Orleans Saints are at home today against Carolina. the Saints are up currently, 7-0.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

i hope everyone had a great Saturday. i hope your Sunday will be even better.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

extraño a la musa

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Guns N' Roses - The General

Chris Stapleton - The Day I Die

nolo - Appetite

The Dollyrots - Last Christmas

Charlie Parker - White Christmas

"I dwell in possibility." - Emily Dickinson

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a date that will always be remembered...

 i remember growing up and i think it was Don Henley that said when Kennedy got assassinated, that was the day the innocence of America died. and i suppose in the grand scheme of things, he probably is right. hard to think that was 60 years ago. and hard to believe the government hasn't released all the shit they still have confidential. and they wonder why people have conspiracy theories. 

i didn't get to bed until 5:30 AM this morning. i swear, there aren't enough hours in the day for me to get done everything i need to do on certain days. by the time i got the poems typed up last night and got the dishes done, i barely had enough energy left to masturbate myself to sleep. thankfully, my shower this afternoon woke me the fuck up.

and i give Kroger credit. they had every checkout lane open and every lane had a bagger. even though it was crowded as fuck, it didn't take nearly as long as i was expecting.

NXT was very good last night.

Inside the NFL was good last night.

Name That Tune was a rerun last night.

The Voice was very good last night.

Hard Knocks last night was excellent.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite.

the New York Rangers play at Pittsburgh tonight. hopefully, they will find a way to win.

i'm sure i will watch some college basketball tonight as well.

if you are traveling, please be safe and patient. most of all, i hope everyone gets to enjoy their Thanksgiving tomorrow.

i should be on here tomorrow in the morning, before all the football games get going.

i need to go make dinner.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

una fecha para recordar

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Guns N' Roses - November Rain

Concrete Blonde - Tomorrow, Wendy

Marketa Irglova - Happy

Colin Bracewell - Julia

Autogramm - WannaBe

"I could tell my parents hated me. My bath toys were a toaster and a radio." - Rodney Dangerfield

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

the demon has gone quiet, for now...

 so, i'm not sure what i did or if i did anything to stop the fan from running on my computer, but around midnight last night it finally stopped. i was actually able to get some half decent sleep for a few hours.

the Yankees lost last night to Boston, 8-3. this weekend should be the nail in the Yankees coffin.

Smackdown and NXT Level Up were both really good last night.

AEW Rampage was good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be AEW Collision.

Manchester United plays at Tottenham this afternoon. 

the Leagues Cup final is tonight. i will be watching at least some of that. Inter Miami at Nashville.

i might try to go to Menards later this afternoon. and i am hoping Rite Aid will text me saying that my prescription is finally ready.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow. 

i hope everyone has a great Saturday.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

la tecnología no es mi amiga la mayoría de los días

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Guns N' Roses - Perhaps

Christy Costello - Uranium Baby

Alabaster DePlume w/Donna Thompson - Naked Like Water

RUB - Contentment

Dolly Parton w/Paul McCartney & Ringo Starr - Let It Be

"Happiness is having a scratch for every itch." - Ogden Nash

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yet another humid day...

 i had to go to Rite Aid this morning to pick up some prescriptions. it is really humid today. you know, the air you can wear type shit. so, i fully expect we'll have some thunderstorms this evening.

so, the USMNT lost last night to Panama on penalty kicks. the one thing that frustrates me the most about the USMNT is they are never clinical with the chances they create for themselves. they could have scored 20 seconds into the game last night. instead, it goes off the post. and honestly, it is those few inches where this whole program needs to get better. 

Panama will now play Mexico on Sunday for the Gold Cup.

AEW Dynamite was pretty damn good last night.

Mayans M.C. last night was excellent. the series finale is next week.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be two episodes of What We Do in the Shadows.

i will hopefully get some poems written while mom is in physical therapy today.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

i hope everyone has a great day.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

el ángel del caos llama una vez más

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Guns N' Roses - Dead Horse

Deer Tick - Forgiving Ties

Girl Ray - Everybody's Saying That

Chris Stapleton - Fire Away

Cody Jinks - Somewhere Between I Love You and I'm Leavin'

"Looking at faces of people, one gets the feeling there's a lot of work to be done." - Wole Soyinka

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

hard to believe the World Cup is starting soon...

 so much has been going on here recently that i nearly fucking forgot that the World Cup starts this weekend. not that i don't have a million other fucking things on my mind or anything. my mother is out of her fog and things seem to be getting under control. now, it is just a matter of getting her damn blood pressure back to something close to normal and managing her anxiety. i told her today whatever she decided she was comfortable with i would be fine with in regards of going to a nursing home for a bit. i haven't had to take any medicine today, so i am pretty happy about that. i will hopefully feel even better tomorrow and i can get out and actually get a COVID test and hopefully test negative.

Vice News Tonight had two great episodes this week.

NJPW was really good last night.

the New York Rangers lost in OT last night in Seattle, 3-2.

here are your NBA highlights from last night:

i didn't watch much of the Packers vs. Titans last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, AEW Rampage, Young Rock and Real Time with Bill Maher. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.

the New York Knicks play tonight at Golden State.

i am going to try to be on here tomorrow before the Dayton Flyers play in the afternoon. i'm not going to the game, but i will hopefully be able to watch it on ESPN+.

and i should be on here tomorrow before Ohio State plays at Maryland tomorrow.

i hope everyone has a great weekend. i hope i continue to feel better. and i really hope my mom continues to get better and actually starts to feel good again.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Esperemos que esté completamente sano pronto

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Kelela - Happy Ending

Plains - Hurricane

Trouble in the Streets - Dreaming of Forever

Lazerbeak - On the Sparrow

Guns N' Roses - Mother / Paradise City (Live)

"Don't leave home without your sword - your intellect." - Alan Moore

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and then it feels like another mountain appears...

 so, today has been one of those days that no matter how positive i try to keep my mind, i am fighting a losing battle. right as i think i am nearly symptom free, i'll start coughing. i know i am trending in the right direction, but the pace of it is frustrating the shit out of me. and then i got the news today that they want to send my mother to a nursing home for her rehab. and they have to find one that accepts patients with COVID. so now i am in the impossible situation of do i let them put her into a home for hopefully, only a few weeks. or, do i demand that she comes home and possibly dies in a few weeks. the last thing i want is for her to die at the same age my father died at. second, she has more life left in her. she does seem to be more out of the fog that she was in. so, i'm hoping the infection has cleared up and she will be beating COVID soon. i am hoping that i will be symptom free by the weekend. then, i will go get a test done to hopefully test negative and then do a little grocery shopping. 

the New York Knicks won last night in Denver, 106-103.

here are your NBA highlights from last night:

AEW Dynamite was really good last night.

The Masked Singer was crazy as usual last night. i did guess both eliminations correctly though.

Hard Knocks last night was pretty good.

the two episode finale of American Horror Story: NYC was great last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight and NJPW.

the New York Rangers play tonight in Seattle.

i might watch some of the NFL game tonight between the Packers and Titans.

i did get my laundry done last night. i plan on doing the dishes tonight and i will probably vacuum the house as well.

i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow. 

until then kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

no hay que temer a la muerte

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Guns N' Roses - Voodoo Child (Slight Return) / Civil War (Live)

Overcoats - Horsegirl

Half Dream - Roses

Deer Fellow - Unravel

Samia w/papa mbye - Mad At Me

"You can tell everything from the eyes." - Jeff Buckley

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not the morning i was hoping for...

 this is one of those mornings where i really could have gone without the punch to the dick. i turned off the Manchester United game when they were down 2-0. they would eventually lose to Manchester City, 6-3. in all honesty, i never expected them to win this game, i was just hoping the gulf between the teams wasn't going to be as large as it really is.

the New Orleans Saints were much better on offense today. the defense played well enough for them to win. but, as usual, two bullshit defensive penalties cost them today as well as two costly fucking turnovers. the Saints had over 100 yards in penalties today. that's not how you win games in this league. the Saints lost to the Vikings, 28-25. what would have been the game tying field goal hit the upright and the crossbar from 61 yards out. fuck me.

the Yankees won yesterday over the Orioles, 8-0. Judge is still at 61. he is a couple points behind now in batting average for the triple crown. the Yankees play their final home game of the regular season today.

Ohio State defeated Rutgers yesterday, 49-10. considering Rutgers got their 10 points from Ohio State turnovers, the game should have been a shutout. Ohio State will actually play on the road next week, first time this season.

i did watch some of the Columbus Crew game last night. what a fucking finish.

here are some more college football highlights from yesterday:

Yvonne Orji: A Whole Me was fucking hilarious last night.

The Caverns Sessions last night had Shooter Jennings on. one of my favorites...

Austin City Limits was amazing last night.

Saturday Night Live was pretty funny last night. i know the show is going to have a much different feel given all the cast changes this season. 

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Last Week Tonight, Power Book III: Raising Kanan and Nothing Compares.

i should be on here tomorrow after mom's doctor's appointment.

before that, i have to take some mail back and make a deposit at the bank. so, i will be busy right from when i wake up tomorrow.

i hope everyone had a great Saturday. i hope your Sunday will be even better.

a big thank you to everyone for checking out my latest published poems:

https://dumpsterfirepress.com/2022/10/02/voices-from-the-fire-j-j-campbell-3/

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

realmente odio perder

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Brandi Carlile - Space Oddity / Creep (Live)

Shooter Jennings - The Low Road

Guns N' Roses - Dust N' Bones

John Mayer - Slow Dancing in a Burning Room

Tom Waits - Gun Street Girl

"The secret of life is honesty and fair dealing. If you can fake that, you've got it made." - Groucho Marx

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what a night in the Bronx

 so, i was a little pissed last night when the Yankees entered the bottom of the 9th trailing the Pirates, 8-4. but, Judge hit his 60th HR to start off the inning. that sent a jolt of electricity through the entire crowd. Rizzo doubled; Torres walked; Donaldson got on with a bloop single. and then came up Stanton, who hasn't hit worth a shit for months now. sure enough, he lined a walk off grand slam to left field and the Yankees won over Pittsburgh, 9-8. you talk about one of the more improbable wins ever, holy shit. now, every at bat for Judge will be a chance at history. i would love if he got 61 and 62 out of the way tonight.

NXT was excellent last night.

Deadliest Catch was good last night. the season finale is next week.

The Voice was very good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, AEW Dynamite, Welcome to Wrexham and The Masked Singer.

the grocery shopping went pretty well today. it was hotter than shit, but i suppose that is how the last day of summer is supposed to be. there is supposed to be a massive cold front moving through tonight that will usher in temps in the 60's.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow. i might have to take mom somewhere tomorrow, but i'm not sure of that yet.

i'm really hoping the weather doesn't get too bad tonight. 

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

cada noche es una oportunidad en la historia

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Mystic - Here, Alive (Spirits High)

Aidan Noell w/Nancy Whang - Sharevari

Pioneer 11 - Destiny

Glassreel - Compromise

Guns N' Roses - You Could Be Mine (Live)

"I didn't want to write for pay. I wanted to be paid for what I write." - Leonard Cohen

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

nothing like doing laundry at 3 in the morning...

 there seems to be something that happens to me every couple of years. i'll meet someone that will seem amazing to me. we'll talk, get to know each other better, etc. etc. i'll share some links to my poetry and they will seem interested. and then the second that i think this could be legit or something more, they will vanish. into thin fucking air, like they never existed in the first place. now, what really sucks is when they ask you for help in getting published and you actually believe they are being honest. and of course, this last one was a dream woman. nearly every fucking thing i wish for in a woman and two days after really "connecting" on a genuine and honest level, gone...this is the kind of shit from the universe that makes me believe i will die old and alone. either that, or i am still being punished for some fucking thing i apparently have done. joy.

i got my laundry done and went to bed at 4:45 this morning. i was up at 7 to piss and then finally made it out of my massage chair at 9:15. i figure, i got my 4 hours, time to go.

the Yankees lost last night in Baltimore, 6-3. they couldn't get a hit with runners in scoring position to save their lives last night. hopefully, they will win this afternoon.

i did watch a few MLS games last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Big Brother, Westworld, Last Week Tonight, The Chi and Flatbush Misdemeanors. 

the TBT tournament gets the games at UD Arena going today. i know the Red Scare (mostly made up of Dayton alums) play this afternoon. i will hopefully be able to find that game somewhere.

i need to do mom's laundry at some point today and hopefully get a shower in as well.

it is supposed to storm here today. so, i know my arthritis will be fucking raging later on. good times.

i hope everyone had a great Saturday. i hope your Sunday will be even better.

i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

until then...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay socially distant.

get the fucking shot.

odio mi vida

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Catherine Wheel - Black Metallic

Guns N' Roses - Dust N' Bones

Radiohead - Creep

Mother Love Bone - Chloe Dancer / Crown of Thorns

Smashing Pumpkins - Mayonaise

"All human wisdom is summed up in two words; wait and hope." - Alexandre Dumas

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

bad times don't last, but bad guys do...

 i was absolutely gutted last night to learn of Scott Hall's death. i can remember him back in the AWA when i was a kid. i loved him as Razor Ramon in WWE. and honestly, the work he did in the NWO changed pro wrestling forever. Scott had one of the greatest minds for the business. he will be dearly missed. thanks for all the great memories.

Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night.

Better Things was very good last night.

i did write 3 poems yesterday, including my first war poem about Russia invading Ukraine. 

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Young Rock and NXT.

the New York Rangers play tonight at home against Anaheim.

the First Four starts tonight. first up will be Texas Southern vs. Texas A&M CC. after that, Wyoming will play Indiana. 

i need to get to the bank and Rite Aid before i take mom to the dermatologist's office today. 

Manchester United plays later today in the Champions League. they need to win today to advance.

i should be on here tomorrow after i do the grocery shopping.

until then kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck Putin.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay socially distant.

get the fucking shot.

mantenerte fuerte

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Neil Young - Rockin' in the Free World

Guns N' Roses - Paradise City

Aerosmith - Sweet Emotion

The Rolling Stones - Moonlight Mile

Metallica - Bleeding Me

"Censors tend to do what only psychotics do: they confuse reality with illusion." - David Cronenberg

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: