nothing like doing laundry at 3 in the morning...

 there seems to be something that happens to me every couple of years. i'll meet someone that will seem amazing to me. we'll talk, get to know each other better, etc. etc. i'll share some links to my poetry and they will seem interested. and then the second that i think this could be legit or something more, they will vanish. into thin fucking air, like they never existed in the first place. now, what really sucks is when they ask you for help in getting published and you actually believe they are being honest. and of course, this last one was a dream woman. nearly every fucking thing i wish for in a woman and two days after really "connecting" on a genuine and honest level, gone...this is the kind of shit from the universe that makes me believe i will die old and alone. either that, or i am still being punished for some fucking thing i apparently have done. joy.

i got my laundry done and went to bed at 4:45 this morning. i was up at 7 to piss and then finally made it out of my massage chair at 9:15. i figure, i got my 4 hours, time to go.

the Yankees lost last night in Baltimore, 6-3. they couldn't get a hit with runners in scoring position to save their lives last night. hopefully, they will win this afternoon.

i did watch a few MLS games last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Big Brother, Westworld, Last Week Tonight, The Chi and Flatbush Misdemeanors. 

the TBT tournament gets the games at UD Arena going today. i know the Red Scare (mostly made up of Dayton alums) play this afternoon. i will hopefully be able to find that game somewhere.

i need to do mom's laundry at some point today and hopefully get a shower in as well.

it is supposed to storm here today. so, i know my arthritis will be fucking raging later on. good times.

i hope everyone had a great Saturday. i hope your Sunday will be even better.

i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

until then...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay socially distant.

get the fucking shot.

odio mi vida

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Catherine Wheel - Black Metallic

Guns N' Roses - Dust N' Bones

Radiohead - Creep

Mother Love Bone - Chloe Dancer / Crown of Thorns

Smashing Pumpkins - Mayonaise

"All human wisdom is summed up in two words; wait and hope." - Alexandre Dumas

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

sometimes it feels like banging your head against a ton of bricks...

 my day was actually going pretty good. i found plenty of baseball cards today (more on that in a bit), got all the grocery shopping done in time to get home to see Manchester United play. and then everything went to shit.

let's get this shit out of the way. Manchester United was playing the worst team in the Premier League today, knowing they needed a victory to go back into first place. so, of course, they play down to their competition and fucking lost, 2-1. kill me now.

i picked up a box of 2020 Topps Heritage High Numbers today at Meijer. got some new sheets for the cards while i was there as well. the Rite-Aid where i live had no cards at all. so, i went to the Rite-Aid where the grocery store i use is at and holy fuck, i got 2 Fairfield boxes of baseball cards and 1 Fairfield box of football cards. now, both of the baseball card boxes had relics in them. the football box had some really good cards in it. and the Topps Heritage box had some really good rookie cards in it and one short print. so, all in all, i think i got my money's worth today. 

the New York Rangers lost last night to Buffalo, 3-2. i'm hoping one of these nights they actually just stop thinking and start playing and let their talent come through.

the Dayton Flyers lead from start to finish yesterday against Saint Louis. they won 76-71. it was Dayton's first win against a ranked opponent since 2015. 

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, The Masked Dancer, Name That Tune, NXT and AEW.

amazingly, they got the trash and recycling picked up before 11 AM this morning. they never have that done that early. i was pleasantly shocked.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow. i'm guessing it will be before the Rangers play tomorrow night.

i'm pretty happy with what the Yankees have done this offseason. if the new pitchers actually have something left in the tank, i think they will definitely have a chance to win it all this season, while being below the salary cap. 

that's all for me kids. i have a dinner to go help make.

until tomorrow...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

wear your mask.

Sé que no tengo suerte, así que probablemente ella busque algo más que amor.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Kings of Leon - Cold Desert

Lenny Kravitz - Can't Get You Off My Mind

Nine Inch Nails - Closer (Live)

Mother Love Bone - Chloe Dancer / Crown of Thorns

"If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there." - Lewis Carroll

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

welcome to September...

i was hoping to get to bed at a decent hour last night. i'm slowly realizing hope has no place in my life anymore. so, on 3 hours of sleep, i got up this morning around 8 and started my day.

i went to the bank to make a deposit. thankfully, the bank i normally go to is open again. after that, i went to get some baseball cards. the local drugstore is the only place where i live where i can find any cards. of course, what i was looking for they didn't have. so, i picked up some football cards and some baseball cards from Fairfield. these are usually hit or miss, but since i knew i was getting a discount on both of them, i decided fuck it. both boxes came up to under $10.

the football cards were ok for the most part, nothing really "holy shit" great. that came with the baseball cards. the box i bought actually had a hit in it. i found a 2016 Topps Chrome Autographed Blake Snell rookie card in it. that card usually goes for around $30. so, i think i made a nice little investment today. hopefully, i'll be able to sell that card soon and make a little profit.

Axios was really good last night.

Monday Night Raw was good, but not nearly as good as it should have been.

here are your NBA highlights from last night:

here are your NHL highlights from last night:

the Yankees lost to Tampa last night, 5-3. i thought for awhile they were going to get no-hit last night. thankfully, that didn't happen. the Yankees are just too depleted to pose as much of a challenge to Tampa right now. and i doubt the Yankees will get healthy enough to really mount a fight for the division title.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, NXT, Deadliest Catch and Hard Knocks.

i'm sure i will probably watch some of the NHL and NBA playoffs tonight as well.

i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.

thanks to everyone for the kind words on my poems that got published today...
http://synchchaos.com/poetry-from-j-j-campbell-41/

i have trash to go pick up here and next door, so that's all for me kids...

until tomorrow...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

wear your mask.

alguien por favor compre mis tarjetas de béisbol

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Mother Love Bone - Chloe Dancer / Crown of Thorns
Morphine - You Look Like Rain
Cults - Trials
Catherine Wheel - Black Metallic
Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends

"I personally think we developed language because of our deep need to complain." - Lily Tomlin

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

high school kids, the elderly and a 4 way stop... recipe for disaster

i think i sat at that 4 way stop for almost 25 fucking minutes. if i didn't have the ability to laugh at the absurd, i'd be dead by now. the damn lady at the pharmacy rung up the wrong pills for my mother. thankfully she caught it before i paid for anything. it's like the sun is out here, it's nice out, and assholes are losing their minds. fuck me.

Monday Night Raw was good last night, up until the main event. they teased a title vs. title match between Seth Rollins and Kofi Kingston and as soon as they mentioned it, i knew there was going to be shenanigans. true enough, Cesaro and Sheamus showed up and fucked up the main event. the crowd went ape shit. i don't blame them.

The Voice was pretty good last night. i think tonight is the last night of the battle rounds.

the New York Yankees pissed away a lead late and lost at Houston last night, 4-3.

i did watch a good portion of the national championship game last night. i wasn't surprised Virginia won over Texas Tech, 85-77 in OT.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Smackdown, The Voice, The Jim Jefferies Show, Miz & Mrs. and Deadliest Catch. i'll watch 205 Live sometime tonight on WWE Network.

here are your videos for this day of National Poetry Month

i will probably be on here tomorrow after Manchester United plays Barcelona in the Champions League. hopefully, i will be in a good mood.

hope everyone is doing well. i have trash to go pick up, so that's all for me kids.

until tomorrow...

Uno de estos días, voy a tener que suicidarme.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Tom Waits - Come On Up To The House
David Bowie - Modern Love
Mother Love Bone - Stardog Champion
The Rolling Stones - Ruby Tuesday

"The poet enjoys the incomparable privilege of being able to be himself and others, as he wishes."
                                                                                                  - Charles Baudelaire

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

so i guess winter is staying this time...

it was probably in the teens this morning when i went out to get the paper. just a little dusting of snow on the ground. of course, i'm out there in shorts. i'm sure my neighbors think i'm crazy. they'd be correct.

if you told me years ago i would spend my afternoons talking to lonely beautiful women on the internet, i would have thought you are crazy. now, at least i believe they are women. hopefully i will know more in the coming days. my luck, both are fucking men working on scam on me. but, if the worm has turned, maybe so has my luck with this shit.

i turned on the Dayton Flyers game last night on the radio. they got off to an awful start against George Washington, a team they haven't defeated on the road in 10 damn years. when Dayton got down by 22, i turned the damn game off. i started to watch television and decided i would simply check on the score. Dayton cut it to 10 by halftime. apparently, in the second half, Jordan Davis decided to take the game over. he scored 20 of his 25 in the second half as Dayton came all the way back to defeat GW 72-66. that's 5 straight wins for Dayton as well. hopefully they will make it 6 on Sunday at home against UMass.

The Masked Singer was crazy once again last night.

You're The Worst was hilarious last night.

both episodes of NXT UK yesterday were really good. i can't wait for the first NXT UK Takeover this Saturday from Blackpool. it should be awesome.

NXT was really good last night.

205 Live was really good last night as well.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, The Big Bang Theory, Young Sheldon and Gotham.

i did listen to episode 220 of Notsam Wrestling this morning. you can find that by going here:
http://notsam.com/wrestlingpodcast/2019/1/10/notsam-wrestling-220-karl-anderson

the New York Rangers play tonight at home against the Islanders. i doubt i watch much of the game.

i will probably be on here tomorrow after a trip to the grocery store.

so, the one beautiful woman is a beautiful one, but was using the pictures of a black pornstar. you aren't going to trick me with those. lol. but, i'm not going to blow up her spot. who knows where this goes.

i hope everyone is warm and well.

Ojos que podrían quemar tu alma.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Tears For Fears w/Oleta Adams - Woman in Chains
Mother Love Bone - Stargazer
Sturgill Simpson - Brace for Impact (Live a Little)
Macy Gray - I Try

"For sure I once thought of myself as the poet who would save the ordinary from oblivion."
                                                                                             - Philip Levine

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

thoughts on a rainy Monday afternoon...

the New Orleans Saints started off rather poorly yesterday. it certainly felt like they thought they could waltz right into Green Bay and win since Aaron Rodgers wasn't playing for the Packers. thankfully, the team got their asses in gear in the second half and won 26-17. considering they only allowed the Packers to score 3 points in the second half, i was pretty pleased with the win. next up for the first place Saints (man, that felt weird to type) will be a home game against Chicago.

Ray Donovan was excellent last night. the season finale next week looks like it should be amazing.

The Deuce was really good last night. i believe that season finale is next week as well.

Vice Principals was pretty fucking funny last night.

Curb Your Enthusiasm was fucking hilarious last night.

WWE TLC was either really good or what the fuck was that last night. i loved that Asuka is now on the main roster. the AJ Stlyes vs. Finn Balor match was great. hopefully that match will happen again at Survivor Series. the main event of the evening was overbooked but, if you weren't expecting much, was really fucking crazy good. i was totally expecting the Kurt Angle gets taken to the back and then makes a return 15 or 20 minutes later. i wasn't expecting Kurt to get the victory for The Shield. i also wasn't expecting The Miz, Cesaro, Sheamus and Kane to turn on Braun Strowman either. so, i guess that means Braun will be a babyface now and just destroy whomever he fucking feels like. works for me. Monday Night Raw should be interesting tonight.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, The Voice and The Big Bang Theory. i'll be watching Monday Night Raw for most of the evening.

the New York Rangers play at home tonight against San Jose. it would be nice to see the Rangers actually win 2 games in a row.

i listened to an interview with my good friend, Janne Karlsson this afternoon. he was kind enough to read my poem "a little voice" in the interview. you can find that interview by going here:
http://lawrencehits.com/wp/blog/podcast/janne-karlsson-artist-writer-publisher/

the rain that was supposed to be here last night didn't arrive until late this morning. that made it real fun to drive my mother to her appointment. as i told her on the drive home, it won't be insanity that makes me kill everyone, it will be my fucking arthritis.

her hip is doing really good. everyone is hoping that her next injection in her back helps the bursitis she's dealing with at the moment. if not, she'll have to get a cortisone injection in that to help ease that pain. but, she should be able to go back on her medicine for her arthritis now instead of slowly killing her liver with Tylenol.

i'll be on here tomorrow sometime after Manchester United plays at Swansea City in the League Cup.

i hope everyone had a great weekend.

hay una delgada línea entre el amor y el odio, trata de no resoplar

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Marilyn Manson - Lunchbox
Morphine - You Look Like Rain
Mazzy Star - Fade Into You
Mother Love Bone - Stargazer

"Never use a big word when a little filthy one will do." - Johnny Carson

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

hello to a rainy weekend

i'm really hoping to catch up on some sleep this weekend. i figure my nerves will get the better of me the closer we get to Tuesday. i'm not exactly looking forward to trying to go to sleep at 8 in the evening so i can be up at 4 in the morning.

the New York Yankees pissed away a lead last night, but came back to tie, only to give the game away again. a 5-4 loss to Tampa. hopefully they will win this afternoon down in that dump.

i did watch some of Cleveland's destruction of Boston last night in the Eastern Conference finals. the final score of 130-86 was a good indication of the game. Cleveland had a lead by more than 50 at some points. i suppose this is what the league gets for not having LeBron in the top 3 of the MVP.

VICE was fascinating last night. the story of women in prison was very good. and i never knew how easy it would be to make a "Warhol".

Real Time with Bill Maher was excellent last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Saturday Night Live and ROH. i will be watching NXT Takeover: Chicago tonight on WWE Network.

i will probably watch The Preakness Stakes today. i'm going to go with Classic Empire to win.

i figure most of the day will just be trying to stay out of the way. i have no clue when the cleaning ladies will be here.

i should be on here tomorrow sometime after Manchester United finishes off their Premier League season against Crystal Palace.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Diane Coffee - Everyday
Niki & The Dove - You Want the Sun
Tricky - Aftermath
Mother Love Bone - Stargazer

"In this business it takes time to be really good - and by that time, you're obsolete." - Cher

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

a day without sunshine

it's these days in the winter where my mind easily drifts into some pretty dark places. death, suicide, crazy mutilation porn, my shitty childhood, etc etc. and the scary thing is, the more good news i get (1 poem accepted, 2 selected for a best of), it brings me no joy at all. i still think about something Steve Harvey said nearly 15 years ago that burns me to my soul. if you have no one to share your success with, you don't have shit in your life. sure enough, here i am.

it completely slipped my mind that last night was the season finale of American Horror Story. i was happy that i got to watch all of it. i really enjoyed it and thought the series on the whole was awesome as well. i really enjoyed how they tied up some storylines and brought back characters from earlier in the season. that was a nice touch.

Lucha Underground was great once again. yet another fast paced episode that was surely some of the best indie work going on today in pro wrestling. here are some highlights:

i have no clue what i'm going to watch tonight. maybe some basketball, maybe some junior hockey up in Canada, maybe i'll just flip around the channels all night.

mom was supposed to be home hours ago. she said she was going to get the paper and mail while she was out, so i didn't bother to leave the house today (other than to feed the animals). so, i suppose i'll spend some time tonight going through the paper and mail.

the parts for the new roof got delivered today. they are hoping to get started on that tomorrow. that would get us one step closer to selling this place.

for those that are wondering, my left arm is slightly better, but i think it's mostly me blocking out the pain than the arm actually getting better. i'm still sleeping in a chair. i can lay down in a bed to stretch or to masturbate, but sleeping is damn near impossible. the pressure that builds in my arm is fucking unbearable after a few minutes. my luck, this won't be a nerve problem. if i can make it through this weekend without going completely insane, i'm shooting for a trip to the doctor next week sometime.

my last thought today is just wondering if anyone has masturbated so hard before that their dick felt like it was actually going to start to catch fire. welcome to my Thursday as you enjoy that visual.

thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Elliott Smith - Between the Bars
Jimi Hendrix - Red House
Cat Power - I've Been Loving You Too Long (To Stop Now)
Radiohead - Paranoid Android
Mother Love Bone - Chloe Dancer/Crown of Thorns

"Fame is the thirst of youth." - Lord Byron

mere seconds away...

i have been a sports fan for nearly my entire life. being punched in the gut by a game is not new to me. hell, i quit believing in happiness after 2001 when the Yankees lost in the World Series. so, last night, when the USA gave up the goal in the final seconds against Portugal, i was stunned, shocked, hurt, upset... but really fucking happy it wasn't a loss. probably helps that i was watching wrestling about 3 minutes after the game, so my mind was occupied. while the 2-2 draw keeps everyone in the group of death alive, i still feel pretty confident that the USA WILL advance to the knockout round. of course, come Thursday, i might be feeling different.

in the other games yesterday, Belgium beat Russia 1-0 in one boring ass match. thankfully, i didn't watch much of it. Algeria beat South Korea 4-2 in a pretty entertaining match.

today starts the final games of the group stage. the day starts with Group B. Spain vs. Australia in a game that means nothing. Chile vs. Netherlands to determine the group winner. in Group A action, Brazil plays Cameroon in what should be an entertaining game. and then the HUGE match between Mexico and Croatia. that will determine who gets out of the group. hopefully another good day of action.

the Yankees played like shit yesterday. Tanaka pitched well enough to deserve a better fate, but the offense decided it wanted the day off. 8-0. at least the fucking Old Timer's game was entertaining. it was good to see some of the guys i remember from my childhood, following the Yankees in the newspaper and by baseball cards. they play again tonight in Toronto.

the ROH ppv last night, Best in the World, was great. 3 hours of non-stop action. some really good matches. a few holy shit moments. a title change that i didn't see coming. i thought it was a very good start to a new era in ROH. hopefully the buy rate is good enough that they will do another one.

got an invite to submit some poems to the Chiron Review in the mail over the weekend. i'll definitely have to come up with something to send their way.

mom is up in Columbus for most of the week. so, i'll be home alone. how i wish i still had the energy i had in my twenties. i might try to do some creative shit while i'm alone. i haven't painted since god knows when. and i've had a YouTube video idea brewing in my head for months now. hopefully, i have the right batteries in the house as most of my shit is dead at the moment.

i need to get some gas sometime in the next few days. the grass is getting to the point of ridiculous. of course, it's rained at some point like every day for the last week or so. doesn't look like it will be "dry" until the end of the week.

the Sunday night shows were excellent last night. Last Week Tonight had me laughing. Nurse Jackie was a really good setup for the finale next week. Californication was good. the series finale is next week. i'll be a little sad to see one of my favorite shows end. Penny Dreadful was spectacular last night. i can't wait to see how this season ends. if Eva Green doesn't win something for this series, i'll be shocked.

tonight will be a mix of baseball and Monday Night Raw. and then if i'm up to it, some creative outbursts.

hope this Monday is finding everyone well... not too hungover from the weekend, be it sports, alcohol, sex, etc...

be well my enemies, i will return tomorrow. hopefully with pictures.

music:

The Band of Heathens - Hurricane
Mother Love Bone - Chloe Dancer/Crown of Thorns
Conor Oberst - Cape Canaveral
The Black Crowes - The Last Place That Love Lives
Tedeschi Trucks Band - Learn How to Love

"Believe me, the reward is not so great without the struggle." - Wilma Rudolph

let the music take over

just one of those days when the weather feels so damn nice that you just wanna be a lazy piece of shit for the day. and since i'm that most days, i decided i would get a few things done and then let the music take over.

got the dishes done this afternoon after i decided i didn't feel like doing them at midnight last night. also, finished The Killing Joke this afternoon. i really enjoyed it. so, it looks like i know where some of my money will be going now.

got a compliment on my beard last night at the grocery store. of course, it was from the 16 year old girl bagging the groceries. i thanked her and then did my best to not do anything to get me arrested.

not sure what i'm going to watch tonight on television. i believe the Yankees are in Kansas City and play at 8 pm. other than that, not a clue. i'm sure there must be a soccer friendly on somewhere. of course, there's always some pro wrestling and the Food Network. i'm sure i'll fall asleep to something.

did have some fun on iTunes today. what amazes me is most of these songs i find that are a few years old come from my brain recalling a certain situation or certain poem that i was writing when that song was playing. quite frankly, it spooks me out at times. but, i enjoy it just as much. you'll see some new names down below.

had a holy shit moment with an old girlfriend who emailed me back today. she brought up something good that happened over 20 years ago. that brought back some memories, let me tell ya. that should allow you to understand some of the music below.

hope this finds everyone well and ready for the weekend. i'll probably be on here early tomorrow, given that all my sports are going to be on Saturday night.

take it easy my friends, and by all means, take it again...

music:

Nickel Creek - Nickel Creek
Mother Love Bone - Mother Love Bone
Conor Oberst - Cape Canaveral
Son Little - Your Love Will Blow Me Away When My Heart Aches
Tedeschi Trucks Band - Learn How to Love
The Jezabels - Dark Storm EP
Neal McCoy - Wink
The Pretty Reckless - Heaven Knows

"I'm just another guy who thinks he's smarter than he is, in a long line of them." - Colin Quinn