i first had to make yet another run to Rite-Aid for mom. thankfully, they had both things i was looking for. i brought them back home as mom was in the middle of a phone call with her surgeon. apparently mom's pain number was up at 9. even i know, that's not good. so the surgeon wanted us to come in this afternoon. more on that later. i had to go to the grocery store, but before i did, i had a nasty shit to take. one of those shits that i knew i will be walking around in the store and some sweat will run down my back into the cauldron of shit and blood festering in my asshole. (some artist in Sweden is smiling) while at the store, i wasn't able to find everything mom wanted, so i compensated the best way i know how; candy and ice cream. i got back home and got all the groceries put away and then mom told me i needed to go back to the store to get the better pain drugs the doctor ordered for her to take immediately. oh goody, so right back to where i just was. i figured since i was out, i'd get dinner as well.
i didn't sleep well as i know mom doesn't do too well when she has to take the "hard" shit. thankfully, she did sleep well and her pain level this morning was down to a 3. the surgeon sent one of his nurses out to the house this morning to check on mom and get a visual of what was going on. i guess the white stuff at the top of her incision was just some fatty tissue that got wet, nothing to worry about. mom's pain level got so high because she did too damn much in a day. walking back and forth from the kitchen to her bedroom a few times and then also to the computer and back. the nurse had to remind her this morning that she shouldn't be even trying to do that much walking until 2 weeks after the surgery. since mom's pain level was down, we didn't have to make the trip to the doctor's office today. thank god. i don't think we have enough drugs here to get mom through that car ride.
she's been more or less in her recliner all day today. they told her to let her incision air out some, as that should help the healing. hopefully she won't have her pain level shoot up any higher again.
i heard from my good friend Debbie last night. i'm amazed that she's still alive. she doesn't know for how much longer and i gave her (more or less) permission to die if she needs to. as i get older, i honestly see why so many people just need out.
a little poetry update... i heard back from Mark at Otoliths on my recent poetry submission. he decided to pass on the 5 i sent. so June is off to a good start; 5 published, 5 rejected. oh well.
the New York Yankees lost last night to Baltimore 10-4. they start a series in Toronto tonight.
i didn't watch much of Game 2 of the Stanley Cup Final last night. hopefully Nashville figures out a way to win at home.
NXT was really good last night.
thank fucking god Lucha Underground is back. the show last night reminded me why i love professional wrestling.
the internet is going in and out at the moment. this is the reason why i should have never stopped smoking marijuana. i never was stressed out when i was stoned. FUCK.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight.
Game 1 of the NBA Finals finally starts tonight. i really couldn't give a shit who wins, i just want the games to be close.
i actually caught up on some podcasts today.
i listened to the latest Jim Norton & Sam Roberts podcast. you can find that by going here:
i also listened to the latest Sam Roberts Wrestling Podcast today. you can find that by going here:
that's pretty much all for now. i need to figure out what i'm making for dinner and whether mom is going to eat in her room or saunter out to the kitchen table.
i'm sure at some point i'm just going to be too fucking exhausted to exist any longer. i'll try to give a little warning before that happens.
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
Foo Fighters - Run
Prophets of Rage - Unfuck the World
Lucius - Lucius in the Rotunda (Live)
Arcade Fire - Everything Now
Lorde - Perfect Places
"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring." - Marilyn Monroe
and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: