my mom asked me last night if i thought she was going to die before spring? how the fuck do i answer that? i replied to her, what do you want to hear? i know why she is depressed. it is coming up on the 23rd anniversary of her second husband's death. she has never stopped grieving that. i never expect her to as i know there is no time table for the grieving process. i also know she is in pain and nothing is working to help her really. what pisses me off is she won't ask for help until she absolutely needs it. and then, will get mad at me for helping her because apparently i don't do it the way she wants me to. i'm trying to keep my cool and remain calm, but i know how i have no patience for this kind of shit. this is where i have to just give her as much space as possible and hope she comes to her fucking senses at some point and just lets me do this shit. it is painfully obvious that this world has past her by now.
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so, the reason i did the grocery shopping yesterday was the chance of freezing rain today. mom is at the point now where she worries about everything. i am at the point of my life where i couldn't give a shit either way. when it looked like it was going to be bad last night, she told me over and over again how happy she was i got the grocery shopping done already. i'm trying to do my best to make sure she has a good life with what she has left.
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somehow, my mother has lost her glasses. we have looked all over her room and haven't found them. i get the feeling this is going to be my future until her death. joy.
here are your links for this day of Black History Month:
on the DVR tonight will be NXT and St. Denis Medical.
the Dayton Flyers play tonight at home against Davidson.
i'm doing a little experimenting for dinner tonight. i got some onions and mushrooms i need to use. so, i'm thinking of cooking them with some ground turkey and then add some cheese and that will be dinner. mom's teeth are going bad, so she can only eat soft stuff. i figure that should work.
i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.
i did write 1 poem last night. it seems i'm writing more about death and suicide lately. go figure.
until tomorrow kids...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay off the fucking streets.
get the fucking shot.
El caso de las gafas perdidas
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Gus Baldwin & the Sketch - (She's Gone) Arigato
Okonski - Dahlia
Bad Brains - Kick Out the Jams
TV on the Radio - Province
Street Sweeper Social Club - The New Fuck You
"Memories of our lives, of our works and our deeds will continue in others." - Rosa Parks
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so, i got home from the grocery store in time to watch the Manchester United game today. they were at home playing against FC Twente in the Europa League. United went up 1-0 in the first half. now, i really wish they would have been clinical today and scored 3 or 4 goals, like they could have. instead, they pissed away chance after chance and when you do that, even a shit team will punish you. that is what happened today as the game finished 1-1. fuck me.
i only got 3 1/2 hours of sleep last night, so i have been extra pissy today. grocery shopping didn't help that much. the lady that bagged my groceries at Kroger didn't know what the fuck she was doing. i mean, who doesn't stack heavy shit on top of bread? so, i hit a bump going out to the Highlander in the parking lot and a few things fell out of the bags and on to the pavement. imagine my fucking joy.
NXT was good last night. that was the last episode on the USA Network. next week it will debut on the CW.
Deadliest Catch was really good last night.
the Yankees lost last night at home to Baltimore, 5-3. that clinches a playoff birth for the Orioles. now, hopefully, the Yankees will win the division tonight.
the New York Rangers won last night against the Islanders, 6-4. what the score doesn't tell you is the Islanders were up 4-1 in the 3rd period.
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on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite, Big Brother, two episodes of Grotesquerie and The Masked Singer.
i don't have a damn clue what i am doing for dinner.
i should be on here tomorrow after i figure out if my new glasses and sunglasses are in or not.
i have a couple really large ice packs out in the old refrigerator that we put in the garage. i broke one of those out last night. it basically takes up my entire back. i put that in my chair and i eventually went to sleep. i might have got a little over 5 hours. that feels like an eternity when some nights i can barely manage 2 hours of sleep. so, other than technology being a motherfucker as usual today, i have been feeling pretty good. the pinched nerve has been manageable all day. the arthritis has been as well. hopefully, that becomes the new normal.
the Yankees won last night over the Royals at home, 4-3, in 11 innings. Baltimore lost, so the Yankees lead in the division is back to 1 1/2 games. they start a series tonight at home against Boston. i'm really hoping that the Yankees can win this series and get closer to clinching the division.
Big Brother was good last night. i think Quinn is going to be evicted, at least from what i have seen so far today.
AEW Dynamite was good last night.
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on the DVR tonight will be Big Brother, NJPW and two episodes of The Old Man (which i will probably have to watch on HULU tomorrow)...
i will probably watch some of the NFL game tonight between Buffalo and Miami.
i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow.
i need to go make dinner. tonight will be pork chops and apples.
until tomorrow my friends...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay off the fucking streets.
get the fucking shot.
En realidad pude dormir un poco
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Mozworth - Postcard
RubbleBucket - Moving Without Touching
TV on the Radio - Wolf Like Me
Interpol - Untitled
Oasis - Champagne Supernova
"Temptation is a woman's weapon and a man's excuse." - H.L. Mencken
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i took a shower last night and my pain was at a level where i knew i needed to sleep in my massage chair with ice just about everywhere. i got close to 4 hours of sleep. ok, not bad. i got a few naps this morning before i had to go to the eye doctor. i let her know that i really haven't noticed much of a change with my eyes. well, the exam showed something different. there was enough of a change that she said i needed new glasses. oh joy. the woman working with me to find the new glasses was excellent. i told Emily my concerns with the ones i currently have and she brought back 6 different ones that fit me great. so, i tried them all and decided on two that fit the best that would be my new glasses and new sunglasses. the second pair would be 50% off, which i was happy about. so, after adding up everything and the co-pay for the exam and everything... $1,100.50. well, fuck me. the first thought i had while pulling out my credit card was i wonder how much i could get for a kidney. as i told my mother when i got back home, i believe i am at the point of life where i need to have the financial discussion of does it make more sense to live or die. i should have the new glasses in 2 weeks.
i also got a new phone case today. my old one was falling apart. thankfully, the new one is really simple and durable. and about $30 cheaper than the one i had before. joy.
the Yankees lost last night at Texas, 10-6. they are off tonight and start a series tomorrow at the Cubs. the Cubs by the way threw a combined no hitter last night. great.
Big Brother was good last night. i have no damn clue who gets evicted tonight.
AEW Dynamite was good last night. unfortunately, i have watched wrestling long enough that i saw the "arson" angle coming way before it actually happened.
enjoy some music:
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on the DVR tonight will be Big Brother and NJPW.
i will spend most of the evening probably watching the NFL game between the Chiefs and Ravens tonight.
i should be on here tomorrow when i get home from Menards. i need to make that trip so i can use some gift certificates and get the 11% rebate on everything. i'm sure the birds would love to have some suet to eat.
i need to go ice my back down and get ready to make dinner. i believe we will be having some pulled pork tonight. not sure if i'm doing sandwiches or maybe nachos with it. football food of course.
best of luck to everyone gambling tonight.
until tomorrow my friends...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay off the fucking streets.
get the fucking shot.
Bueno, hay mil dólares que no esperaba gastar.
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Sonny Gullage - Go Be Free
MJ Lenderman - She's Leaving You
TV on the Radio - Final Fantasy
Fantastic Negrito - Lost in a Crowd
Dr. Dog - Too Weak To Ramble (Live)
"All comedians are, in a way, anarchists. Our job is to make fun of the existing world." - Bob Newhart
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i tell ya, i swear on most days i think i am fucking cursed. it is a rare day when i think i actually have some good luck. today was my usual type of day. mom has been up for probably over 24 hours now. she didn't sleep at all last night. i told her when i got home from Menards she better sit down and try to sleep before i strap her the fuck in and make her go to sleep. she started whining and said i hate her. i laughed and told her calmly, i'll never hate you more than i hate myself. she wasn't quite sure how to take that one. the check engine light came on as i was going to Menards. it wasn't blinking, so i know that meant it was fine to keep driving. i'm going to get on the dealer's website in the morning and see when i can get an appointment to take the Highlander in. i found everything i was looking for at Menards.
here are your 3 videos for this day of national poetry month:
Young Sheldon was very good last night.
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on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, Real Time with Bill Maher and Jerrod Carmichael Reality Show. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.
the Yankees play tonight at home against Tampa Bay.
the NHL playoffs start tomorrow.
the final NBA play in games are tonight.
i have no damn clue what i'm making for dinner tonight. i didn't have lunch until 5 PM.
i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow.
i hope everyone has a great weekend.
until tomorrow kids...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay off the fucking streets.
get the fucking shot.
Por supuesto, se encenderÃa la luz de verificación del motor.
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Sharon Jones & The Dap Kings - Don't Wanna Lose You
Myia Thornton - Never Good 4 Me
Apifera - Theodor Marmalade
Childish Gambino - Redbone
TV on the Radio - Will Do
"I'm always looking for meaningful one-night stands." - Dudley Moore
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i know when i'm finally eating lunch and it is close to 5 PM, i have had a pretty busy day. i made it to the bank and Rite Aid this morning. after that, i had to ice my back down as the weather was truly fucking with me today. very windy, some rain, miserable. i took mom to her doctor's appointment. after that we drove to her bank to get some money out of the ATM. and them we drove past the old farm on the way home. for some reason, we didn't get any mail today. my guess is the mailbox will be completely fucking full tomorrow. tomorrow will be laundry day for me as it is supposed to snow.
here are your videos for this day of Black History Month:
AEW Dynamite was good last night.
I Can See Your Voice was good last night.
here are your NBA highlights from last night:
enjoy some music:
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on the DVR tonight will be Young Sheldon and NJPW.
the New York Rangers play at home tonight against Montreal.
i will probably be on here tomorrow sometime in the afternoon, between some loads of laundry.
a big thank you to everyone for checking out my latest published poems:
so, the ones that believe in the groundhog, believe there will be an early spring. great.
i made it back from the bank yesterday in time to watch the Manchester United game. that match took a few years off of my life. but, in the end, hopefully it was worth it. United won 4-3 when Kobbie Mainoo scored in the 97th minute. this kid is 19 years old and oozes fucking class. if it all works out for him, he will be one of the best midfielders in the world in a few years or less.
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NJPW was excellent last night.
here are your NBA highlights from last night:
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, AEW Rampage and Real Time with Bill Maher. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.
the Dayton Flyers play tonight at home against St. Bonaventure. hopefully Dayton will win.
i'm going to try to be on here in the morning tomorrow as i think mom wants to go walking tomorrow afternoon.
i hope everyone has a great weekend.
until tomorrow kids...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay off the fucking streets.
get the fucking shot.
una primavera temprana
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Valerie June - Astral Plane
Leila Sunier - All I Choose
Bacao Rhythm & Steel Band - Grilled
Izzy and the Black Trees - F-16
TV on the Radio - Wolf Like Me
"Mistakes are the portals of discovery." - James Joyce
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so, i woke up this morning to yet another fucking telemarketer calling. nothing quite like 4 hours of sleep when you know you have shit to do. joy.
so, after breakfast this morning, i had to go to the post office to return a package that mom never ordered. after that, i had to go to her accountant and drop off the taxes. side note, they called this afternoon to tell mom they are done. after the accountant, i went to the bank. i made that deposit and then went back home. got in a good 20 minute nap and then helped mom get ready to go to her doctor's appointment. that appointment lasted forever. the good old Medicare checkup appointment. but, at least mom got to talk about everything she wanted to.
we had a really good lunch today, so dinner tonight is going to be light.
the Yankees lost yesterday to Baltimore, 3-1. Judge had 3 strikeouts yesterday, so i'm hoping he has a big series in Texas so the triple crown will be a possibility. they start a 4 game series tonight at the Texas Rangers.
i did watch a little MLS action yesterday.
mom was happy that her Jets defeated the dictator's Steelers yesterday.
Last Week Tonight was BRILLIANT as usual.
Power Book III: Raising Kanan was excellent last night.
Nothing Compares was really good last night. i think it did a great job showing how much Sinead O'Connor was way ahead of the times. you look back on ripping up the photo of the Pope now and given all the sexual abuse in the Catholic church, it makes perfect fucking sense. highly recommend watching this if you get the chance.
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on the DVR tonight will be The Voice and Monday Night Raw.
i did listen to episode 415 of Notsam Wrestling today. you can hear that by going here:
so, right as i was finishing up the blog yesterday, mom fell again. i told her that i was going to do her laundry after i got my blog done. being the stubborn person she is, she tried to get her clothes together and into where we have our washer and dryer. and of course, she knelt down to pick up something up and down she went. i was able to help her better this time, mostly because she did it in her bedroom and not her bathroom. i told her it wasn't wise to start a career as a stunt lady at her age. she has got some pretty nasty bruises. so now i get to end her nights by applying Aspercreme wherever it hurts. at least that shit works better than the pain pills do. fingers crossed, she has managed to not fall today. 3 times in a week is way too much for my liking.
the Yankees lost yesterday to Baltimore, 9-6. the injury bug snuck up again yesterday and the home plate umpire thought everyone was there to see him. a recipe for disaster every fucking time. they are back home tonight to start a series against the White Sox.
here are your highlights from the NHL playoffs last night:
here are your highlights from the NBA playoffs last night:
NXT UK was pretty good last night.
the season finale of Young Sheldon was pretty funny last night.
the series finale of The United States of Al was funny, although you could tell they had no clue they were going to be cancelled.
both episodes of the series finale of How We Roll were pretty good last night. with how that ended, i'm pretty sure they thought season 2 was coming as well.
Vice News Tonight had two great shows this week that showed just how fucking corrupt the Louisville, Kentucky police department is. of course, i'm pretty sure most police departments are like that.
the season finale of Atlanta was fucking amazing last night.
NJPW was good last night.
Desus & Mero was fucking hilarious last night.
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on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, AEW Rampage, Real Time with Bill Maher, Pause with Sam Jay and George Carlin's American Dream, Part 1. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.
the New York Rangers play Game 2 tonight at Carolina. i'm really hoping the Rangers play 60 minutes tonight and win.
i did get some baseball cards while i was at Rite Aid last night. $11 for 2 boxes. there was about $30 total of worth between both of them combined. not bad.
the Yankees game just got rained out. so, they will be playing a doubleheader on Sunday now against the White Sox.
i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow. i'm about halfway done my with my laundry and i still have 1 load of mom's to do. and at some point tonight, i need to cook dinner and do the dishes.
mom and i had an interesting conversation last night. she believes her sudden turn in shitty health is due to that certain someone and i not getting along any more. i told mom that i was preached to my entire life that choices have consequences. and now that she made her choice, mom doesn't want her to face any consequences. if i had known that all of this, choices and consequences, was hypocritical bullshit, just imagine where i would be now. i understand that no one gives two shits about anything i have missed out on to help my stepfather or my mother as they got older in life. that certain someone has made it painfully clear, that since i don't make money and make a positive contribution to the world, i don't get to have a say or rights or anything in this world. i would like to think differently, but society reaffirms her beliefs more often than mine.
i told my mother i don't want to see her die like this. no matter what the fuck she thinks, i am trying to give her the best quality of life i can. so yeah, nothing but fun as usual going on here.
i just had a load in the dryer get done, so that's all for me kids...
until tomorrow...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay socially distant.
get the fucking shot.
esta no será una muerte bonita
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
J Rocc - One
James and the Cold Gun - Seven
Audioslave - Cochise
TV on the Radio - Province
Grant Lee Buffalo - Fuzzy
"Love is the poetry of the senses." - Honore de Balzac
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i haven't been lucky enough in my life for this day to really mean something to me, but to all of you who are lucky enough, Happy Valentine's Day.
so, if any of you took my betting advice last night, i really hope you took the Bengals +4. the Rams won the Super Bowl last night, 23-20. i felt bad for Joe Burrow in a sense. his offensive line shit the bed when he needed them the most. plus, i absolutely hated how the officials called the game last night. they started off letting them play. i'm perfectly fine with that. then, in the last 2 minutes of the game, they decided to call every little thing possible after letting it all go earlier in the game. now, the biggest fault goes to the Bengals for putting Eli Apple on Cooper Kupp. anyone with a fucking brain knows that is a horrible matchup. how Eli is still in the league is a fucking mystery to me. a bunch of the Rams talked about retirement after the game. i hope they fucking do. i'm still salty 3 years later for them fucking over the Saints (with the refs help, oh shit, i sense a theme here) and making it to the Super Bowl.
the halftime show was excellent. i know my mother didn't like it since she has the hardest time hearing the lyrics to any rap song anymore.
our food yesterday was a bit of a clusterfuck. i thought we had some taco seasoning for the turkey i was browning for the nachos. nope. so, i had to make my own on the fly while keeping in mind mom's sodium totals. that was fun. i added some tomato sauce and some queso with salsa and it turned out pretty damn good. as for the ribs last night. mom kept those in the broiler a bit too long and burnt the shit out of them. there was still some edible meat on them, but not nearly as much as i was hoping. my plan was to have leftovers for dinner tonight. oh well.
Celebrity Big Brother last night was crazy. i have no clue who will be evicted tonight.
Billions was excellent last night.
Power Book IV: Force was really good last night.
Euphoria was amazing last night.
The Righteous Gemstones was crazy last night.
Somebody Somewhere was very good last night.
enjoy some music:
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on the DVR tonight will be Monday Night Raw and Celebrity Big Brother.
the Dayton Flyers play tonight at Rhode Island. hopefully the boys will find a way to get a win on the road tonight.
i did watch the USA women's hockey team defeat Finland this morning, 4-1. they will play Canada for the gold medal on Wednesday.
i did listen to episode 382 of Notsam Wrestling this morning. you can hear that by going here:
i should be on here tomorrow after Manchester United plays in the afternoon. i should be back from taking mom to her doctor's appointment by the time that match starts.
until tomorrow kids...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay socially distant.
get the fucking shot.
Que es el amor
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Donny Hathaway - I Love You More Than You'll Ever Know (Live)
Snail Mail - Valentine
THICK - Love You Forever
TV on the Radio - Will Do
Kendrick Lamar - Bitch, Don't Kill My Vibe
"It is easier to build strong children than to repair broken men." - Frederick Douglass
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