well, at least i know where my anxiety problems come from now...

mom was a bit of a basket case last night. it was all stress i do believe. she admitted this morning she gets anxious at fucking everything now. going anywhere, anything new, it's becoming a mental barrier that i fear is going to reach the life or death stage before too long. i'm hoping she brings it up with her doctor, or, i'll have to play the adult in the room and tell him myself. her procedure today was all of 20 minutes. at the hospital, it would have been at least a couple hours. when i saw her walking out to the lobby, i was pleasantly surprised. mom said really, the only difference was she didn't get a gift basket at the end of it. we both joked that my sister is going to be pissed at that. of course, mom realized after it was over it was stupid to be as fearful of it as she was. ah, the beauty of hindsight.

i did write 3 poems in the 20 minutes she was in the procedure. i typed those up this afternoon. that brings me up to 20 poems for the month. that's not bad for wanting to take the month easy. my next round of submissions will probably be in early August.

the New York Yankees did make a few trades yesterday i wasn't expecting. they moved Adam Warren to Seattle for more international signing bonus money. they then got Lance Lynn from the Twins for Tyler Austin and a pitcher in A ball. i like both moves. the international signing bonus money has already been used. they believe Lance Lynn is better than Adam Warren. i tend to agree. and they think the first baseman they got in the trade with the Cardinals is better than Tyler Austin. i still think they will make some moves in August if they can. but, this is the team they will try to hunt down Boston with. they better start winning games soon. they start a 2 game series at home tonight against Baltimore. the Orioles have traded away most of their team, so these are games the Yankees MUST win.

Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night. i do like a pissed off Brock Lesnar. that makes for a better show. plus, the interaction between him and Paul Heyman was pretty interesting.

Rest in Power: The Trayvon Martin Story was excellent last night. this is one of those shows i wish everyone in this country would be forced to watch. i know this is a series that is going to make me more angry than anything. i don't know how anyone could listen to the tapes of when Trayvon got shot while watching his parents cry and not feel anything.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Smackdown, The Jim Jefferies Show, Deadliest Catch, Fuck That's Delicious and Miz & Mrs. i'll watch 205 Live sometime tonight on WWE Network.

Manchester United plays Real Madrid tonight. this preseason has been a disaster for United, given all the damn injuries and players absent because of the World Cup. i'll probably watch some of the match tonight, but i'm not expecting much.

i'm not sure when i'll be on here tomorrow. i know i need to pick up the trash and get that out before it starts to fucking rain again.

Me pregunto qué pensará la musa cuando lea los poemas

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Trampled By Turtles - Alone
Ray LaMontagne - Jolene
Bruce Springsteen - Nebraska
Hot Water Music - Radio

"I'm the one guy who says don't force the stupid people to be quiet. I want to know who the morons are." - Mark Cuban

and now your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: