love can be hazardous for your mental health...

i was thinking about this last night while chatting with my beautiful lover in Italy; clearing up some misunderstandings and remembering the joys of being in love with someone while they are menstruating. i'm not sure there could be anything more hazardous for your mental health than being madly in love while being fucking poor. i'm hoping to pull off some romantic shit for her birthday later this month. i think i may have found something my broke ass can swing, but there's always that voice in the back of my head that thinks it will never be enough. this is the joy of having shitty self-esteem, a disease that has fucked with me since birth i believe. as i told her last night, i am going to do everything i possibly can to make this work or i will happily die trying. i'm sure there's a part of me more looking forward to death than it should be. and i'm really trying to beat that fucker down, but his will is often stronger than mine. it certainly makes for an awkward silence here and there.

the New York Yankees split their doubleheader yesterday with Baltimore, losing the first game 5-4 and winning the second game 10-2. they are now 2 1/2 games behind Boston in the division. hopefully they will win tonight over a Baltimore team they have no business losing to.

Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night, but i didn't watch all of it. i was flipping back and forth with the baseball game. the main event was excellent last night. i could watch Seth Rollins and Drew McIntyre wrestle for another 20 years and not get bored of that.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Smackdown, The Jim Jefferies Show, Deadliest Catch and Fuck That's Delicious. i'll watch 205 Live sometime tonight on WWE Network.

i am really looking forward to watching France vs. Belgium today in the World Cup. it's going to be fascinating for most Manchester United fans as it will be Pogba vs. Lukaku. i'm not really rooting for either team, i just want an entertaining match.

i have dishes to put away and trash to pick up. and i think there is a chance for thunderstorms this afternoon. summer in Ohio. wait ten damn minutes and the weather will change.

that's all for me kids.

esto es lo que sucede cuando se vive durante más de cuarenta años y nunca jamás verdaderamente sientes amado

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Bush - Alien
Jeff Buckley - Hallelujah
Sade - No Ordinary Love

"Love is a reciprocal torture." - Marcel Proust

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: