it's like punching a brick wall with a pillow...

it seems no matter how much or how little effort i put into anything, some shit just isn't going to go my way. i find the courage to get over my self-hatred and make a video and of course, it's too large. and i wish i was talking about something other than the video. add in a little rejection and pain and you have nearly every Sunday morning of my adult life. and sadly, i know i'm not going to be able to find the pleasure in the pain forever.

a little poetry news to pass along: i heard back on my poetry submission from last month to Squawk Back. they rejected all 10 poems i sent. that was a nice kick in the nuts. well, there's 10 more back on the pile. and like the glutton for punishment i am, my next round of poems will go out tomorrow.

World Cup update:
Croatia defeated Russia on penalty kicks (4-3) in an absolutely crazy fucking game. so now the final four is set up. France plays Belgium on Tuesday and Croatia takes on England on Wednesday.

the NJPW G1 Special in San Francisco last night was really good. the angle at the end i totally didn't expect. that should make for an interesting summer for The Bullet Club.

ROH was good last night.

Bill Maher: Live from Oklahoma was pretty fucking funny last night.

the New York Yankees won yesterday 8-5. of course, they had a couple injuries that i hope aren't serious. hopefully they will win the series this afternoon.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Big Brother, Total Bellas, Power, Sharp Objects, Succession, The Affair and the season finale of I'm Dying Up Here.

of course, i had to make the video i did a little artistic, you know me. but, it was easily the best shot i have ever got of completion.

i imagine i will be on here tomorrow after a trip to the post office. i have some poems to mail out.

i believe the shitty humid weather returns tomorrow. so, i'm hoping to actually enjoy the windows being open today. other than the runny nose from this morning, so far so good.

i hope everyone had a good Saturday. i hope your Sunday is even better.

Creo que en realidad la mayoría de mí ya está muerto

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Gary Clark Jr. - Our Love (Live)
Marc Broussard - Lonely Night in Georgia (Live)
Chris Isaak - Baby Did a Bad Bad Thing (Live)

"A person often meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it." Jean de La Fontaine

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: