sometimes you just become numb

i have been a Dayton Flyers fan since i was a child. i remember living and dying with every shot in 1984 when they made their miracle run to the Elite 8. eventually, i became a season ticket holder. and when you are an avid fan, you read everything, you check the latest news, the rumors, etc. 20 years ago, i remember getting the news about Chris Daniels. i was in a work van at the airport and i started to cry. a young man just starting to realize his potential and dies. enlarged heart. i still have moments where i wonder just how far Chris could have gone, NBA, Europe... such a shame he never got to find out. so this afternoon i was just getting online and saw a news report about a UD player dying. my first thought was what the fuck. and then i clicked and was crying immediately. Big Steve. 20 years old. reportedly collapsed at his parents home in Indiana and died. they believe an enlarged heart is the cause of death. here's a guy who busted his ass to get in better shape, always had a smile on his face and just finished a season where he set the record for blocked shots for the team in a season. i so wanted to not believe this story. then i saw the university confirmed it and i am completely fucking devastated. my thoughts and prayers go out to his family, his teammates, his friends and the endless number of kids he made smile. rest in peace Steve. your memory will never fade.

i woke up this morning before 5 AM. i couldn't fall back asleep for anything. i knew i had to drive mom this morning to the next town over so a co-worker could drive her to a meeting in Middletown. i might have got 20 minutes of nap time when i got back home. i figured i would go out and feed the birds before the storms hit. it figures, they haven't come yet. and now mom is back home.

the New York Yankees fell behind early last night and never really got back into the game. they lost 7-3 to Kansas City. they need to win tonight to win the series. splitting the series after winning the first two will feel like a loss to me.

Game 7 last night between the Blues and Stars was a blowout. St. Louis won 6-1 on the road to advance to their first conference final in 15 years.

Lucha Underground was good last night. NXT was good last night. i really enjoyed Table for 3 as well on WWE Network.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be the season finale of The Big Bang Theory, WWE Smackdown and Lip Sync Battle.

i did listen to the latest episode of Seton Calling this afternoon. i always like finding bands i haven't heard of.

check out the podcast here: http://setoncalling.com/2016/05/11/episode7-dominicnickypalermo/

that's all for me today. i've got a death to process and will probably find a pen and a bottle before too long.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Deer Tick - Goodbye, Dear Friend
INXS - Not Enough Time
Pink Floyd - Wish You Were Here (Live)

"There's no present. There's only the immediate future and the recent past." - George Carlin

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: