there is so much to get to in this blog, i might as well start with the bullshit at the top of my mind. let me paint a picture. i have been talking to this beautiful woman from Georgia (state not country) for the last couple of weeks. i thought we really hit it off. we're both born in January. she's a Chelsea fan. i'm a Manchester United fan. she really liked my poetry. etc. etc. well, last night she told me she loves me. i said i love you too. felt incredibly comfortable saying that as i am at the point of my life where i am fucking tired of being alone. so, i got up this morning and there was no message from her. no big deal, i'll send the good morning. she comes back that she is in pain and her phone is fucked up. ok, shit happens, sorry to hear that. she then sends me a pic that says her camera on her phone won't work unless she has an Amazon gift card. i checked all around the web, already knowing the answer, but hoping to find something where i was wrong. so, you wait until the day after i say i love you to fucking try to scam me. that pissed me off royally. now, i had mailed her a book that should arrive tomorrow along with a birthday card. i usually allow people three strikes. but, when you toy with my emotions and then try to scam me, that's such a red flag that you have to go. so yeah, that was how my day started off. just fucking lovely. but, that should give me plenty to write about for the last 8 poems needed for the book.
i tried to start the Highlander today and of course it wouldn't. i needed to go to Kroger to get some pills and whatever was on the list. the battery charger mom ordered from Amazon is supposed to be here tomorrow. i'm hoping that works or we'll have to get a new battery. joy.
Manchester United defeated Arsenal yesterday in a penalty shootout to advance to the next round of the FA Cup. between a win with just 10 men and the draw at Liverpool the week before, maybe the team finally believes in itself again.
i did watch the NFL playoffs yesterday. Bills defeated the Broncos, 31-7. Eagles beat the Packers, 22-10. and the Commanders defeated Tampa Bay, 23-20. tonight the Rams will take on the Vikings.
The Agency last night was excellent.
Dexter: Original Sin was very good last night.
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nothing on the DVR tonight. i will be watching Monday Night Raw on Netflix.
so, the 3 poems i wrote last night i will look back with a great sense of irony. the poems i will hopefully write tonight will have plenty of venom. i won't be shocked if i get real fucking close to the number i need by 4 in the morning.
i'm ultra depressed now given this shit today. i told mom i should have expected the Highlander not to start when my blood sugar was 99 this morning. for every good thing that happens, there has to be a negative to even it out.
i still have no clue what is going on with my health insurance. and i need to get my driver's license renewed sometime before my birthday on the 21st. joy.
there was something i wrote last night that really has me thinking today. this theory that maybe i am that person who never gets to really fall in love and have that kind of happiness in my life. part of me is so eager to not be alone anymore that i'm willing to overlook the obvious shit just for the chance. that makes me wonder if i'm just rolling the ball uphill just to watch it fall over and over again. i remember in my 20's an old girlfriend warned me i was becoming the bitter old soul. sure enough.
that's all for me kids.
i surely hope your weekend was better than mine.
on the bright side, i did get my laundry done.
now i have to go ice my bad back.
until tomorrow kids...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay off the fucking streets.
get the fucking shot.
La vida es una estafa
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Bon Iver - Skinny Love
Bright Eyes - Poison Oak
Ryan Bingham - The Poet
Warren Zevon - Carmelita
Cat Power - It's All over Now, Baby Blue (Live)
"I don't really plan. I just see what happens." - Ruth Wilson
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so, when i fall in love with someone, i fall rather hard. it seems the more i try, the less it actually happens. so, i have been trying to take it slower, enjoy the scene, be honest and full of empathy. then came the spanish princess. i had been pursuing her for years, but never stepping over the line. now, it was easy to do since she is in Colorado and i'm in Ohio. well, a few months ago, she texted me and told me that she was into me. she was the first to say i love you. this made my world. the dream woman and i finally had found her. now, i knew of all her battles with cancer and other health scares, but anyone that knows me knows that i know that is all part of the package. she texted me this morning to let me know she can't do a relationship right now. that i don't deserve to be "stuck" in something where i can't get all the love i deserve. i'm not sure why she thinks i deserve it, as i have never been in a relationship where someone loved me as much as i loved them. i told her that i will always love her, always think of her as a friend and will forever be there for her. i get the feeling that she thinks her cancer is back again and she has used up her 9 lives. so yeah, this is probably going to be one those weekends where the depression grows a little deeper and the poems get even more sad than usual.
here are your videos for this day of National Poetry Month:
the New York Rangers lost at Saint Louis last night, 3-2, in OT.
Vice News Tonight was very good last night.
NJPW was very good last night.
here are your NBA highlights from last night:
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, AEW Rampage, AEW Battle of the Belts VI and Jason Isbell: Running With Our Eyes Closed. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.
the New York Yankees play this afternoon at Baltimore.
the New York Knicks play tonight at New Orleans.
i should be on here tomorrow after Manchester United plays in the morning.
i hope everyone has a great weekend.
until tomorrow kids...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay off the fucking streets.
get the fucking shot.
el amor es como una espada afilada y sangro demasiado fácil
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
The Black Crowes - Good Friday
The National w/Bon Iver - Weird Goodbyes
Devon Gilfillian - All I Really Wanna Do
Laamar - Home To My Baby
Regina Spektor - Down by the River (Live)
"Love is like a faucet, it turns off and on." - Billie Holiday
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i often wonder when i string these 4 hour sleep nights together if i am going slowly insane or i am simply riding that wave to a different plane of thought, belief, etc. my ego tends to get stronger as the candle gets closer to burning out. i'm pretty sure that is insanity. but, it also tends to be the moments where i am the most calm. that delicate dance i suppose.
i did sit in on mom's meeting with her financial advisor today. she is better off than she realized, which should help her mental state. it also opened my eyes to the investment opportunities that will be coming soon. after that meeting, i had to go to the next town over to get money out of mom's checking account. 30 minutes roundtrip. i drove by the old farm. it looks so much different now.
the New York Knicks won last night at home over Houston, 137-115.
here are your NBA highlights from last night:
Monday Night Raw was good last night.
The Voice was very good last night.
Perry Mason was excellent last night.
the USMNT won last night over El Salvador, 1-0.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be NXT, MLW, The Voice and That's My Jam.
the New York Rangers play tonight at home against Columbus. the Rangers qualified for the playoffs last night after Buffalo and Florida lost. now, it is time to find their groove to make a deep run.
i need to get going on dinner and get all the trash picked up tonight.
i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.
until then kids...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay off the fucking streets.
get the fucking shot.
así que supongo que estamos bien con los tiroteos escolares ahora
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Caution - To Decide
Y La Bamba - Collapse
Evergreen - Step
Bon Iver - Skinny Love
Tracy Chapman - Fast Car
"I allow myself to fail. I allow myself to break. I'm not afraid of my flaws." - Lady Gaga
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i always love when a day starts off with me not making it to the bathroom in time. i swear, these are the days i just shake my head and know the 8 year old me was right. hard to believe we're coming up on 40 years since i first thought of suicide.
let me start off with my doctor's office visit yesterday. my blood pressure was great. my A1C was up. they believe it is due to stress. and all the usual, i need to exercise more, watch what i eat, etc. they are upping my dose of Trulicity. so, i hope that works. i need to get my blood drawn sometime this month. joy.
Manchester United won yesterday at home against Real Betis, 4-1. that gives them a very good chance of advancing in the Europa League when they go to Spain next week.
the Dayton Flyers defeated St. Joe's yesterday, 60-54. they will play Fordham tomorrow afternoon in the semifinals.
the New York Rangers won last night in Montreal, 4-3 in a shootout. they play tomorrow at Buffalo.
the New York Knicks lost last night at Sacramento, 122-117.
here are your NBA highlights from last night:
Young Sheldon was pretty good last night.
NJPW was good last night.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, AEW Rampage, the finale of The 12th Victim, Real Time with Bill Maher and Game Theory with Bomani Jones. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.
i've got my last load of laundry in the dryer. i vacuumed the whole house today. my back is fucking killing me.
i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow. it will probably be in the morning most likely.
i hope everyone has a great weekend.
until then kids...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay off the fucking streets.
get the fucking shot.
encontrar el placer en el dolor
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Concrete Blonde - Tomorrow, Wendy
Lonnie Holley & Bon Iver - Kindness Will Follow Your Tears
Acantha Lang - Ride This Train
JusMoni & Nappy Nina - Henny Lavender
Florence + The Machine - Just A Girl
"It's my experience that you really can't lose when you try the truth." - Sharon Stone
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i did get up in time for the Manchester United match this morning. when United got down 2-0, i turned it off. i don't need that kind of stress in my life. i did see that CR7 scored to make it 2-1. then Bruno missed a penalty in the second half (i'm not sure why Cristiano wasn't taking that) that could have made it 2-2. as usual, Arsenal scored again to make it 3-1, which was the final. so, i doubt that United will finish in the top 4 this season, hell, might as well make it the top 5. so, no European games next year, they better win something next season (FA Cup, League Cup, Premier League) since they won't have the excuse of needing to rest players, etc.
so, instead of watching the rest of the United game, i finally got some poetry work done. i sent out 9 poems this morning; 4 to Dumpster Fire Press and 5 to Synchronized Chaos. when i hear back from these places, i will pass along the verdicts.
the New York Yankees won last night against Cleveland, 4-1. Aaron Judge finally came to life and hit 2 home runs last night. hopefully, they will win again today.
Smackdown and NXT Level Up were both pretty good last night.
AEW Rampage was excellent last night.
Real Time with Bill Maher was hilarious last night.
A Black Lady Sketch Show was fucking great last night.
here are your 3 videos for this day of National Poetry Month:
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be The Batman.
here are your highlights from the NBA playoffs last night:
the New York Rangers play this afternoon at Boston. this is their last road game of the regular season. i'd love to see them win again today.
i'm sure i'll watch some other sports today while try to catch up on some naps.
i also need to finally get my laundry done today. so, yeah, that's the rest of this day. if i get a wild hair up my ass, i may put out a new SoundCloud recording late tonight.
that's all for me kids.
i hope everyone has a wonderful Saturday.
until tomorrow...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck war.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay socially distant.
get the fucking shot.
no dejes que tu pasado te persiga
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Bon Iver - Skinny Love
Jack Johnson - Flake (Live)
Belief - Ulu
KIMMORTAL - K, I'm Mortal
Chastity Brown - Wonderment
"There is nothing either good or bad but thinking makes it so." - William Shakespeare
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we had over 1.5 inches of rain yesterday. that truly fucked with my arthritis greatly. it still is killing me. nothing like bagging your groceries and your hands stop working. these are the days i tell my 8 year old self he was right, death was the only choice.
the Yankees lost again last night to the Angels, 6-4. hopefully, they win tonight to avoid the fucking sweep. now, they have basically no fucking chance to win the division so they need to concentrate on making sure the wildcard game will be at home.
NXT was really good last night.
Deadliest Catch was crazy last night.
Hard Knocks was good last night. the season finale is next week.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, AEW, Big Brother and American Horror Story: Double Feature.
the grocery shopping was a little crazy today. i did get some baseball cards at Rite Aid today. i bought one Fairfield box for $4. there was about $15 worth cards in it. i got some binders at Meijer today as they still had their sale going on. i wanted to get all the minor league cards in one binder by themselves. that really lessened the load in the binder i had them in. plus, now i have an extra in case i need one in the future. i got most of what was on the grocery list today.
mom has her eye appointment tomorrow afternoon. i will most likely be on here after we get home from that.
tomorrow has clusterfuck written all over it with Ohio State playing, the USMNT starting their World Cup Qualifying and everything else on tv tomorrow night. at least the weather is supposed to be way less humid.
thanks to everyone that checked out my latest published poems:
so, mom has an appointment about every other day this week. and with the heat, this is going to be the week from hell. at least her dentist appointment is in town, so i'm going to go back home after she gets in there so i don't have to sit out in the heat. i'll probably do what i was going to do if i was waiting in the car... writing poems.
NXT Takeover 36 was awesome last night. if this was Adam Cole's goodbye to WWE, he honestly had one of the greatest runs in NXT EVER. and Walter vs. Dragunov II was just as fucking amazing as the first one was. just one fucking amazing weekend for pro wrestling.
Big Brother was good last night.
Heels was good last night.
Last Week Tonight was brilliant as always.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight. i'll be watching Monday Night Raw for most of the evening.
the Yankees play tonight at Atlanta. with both teams on winning streaks, this should be very interesting tonight.
the New Orleans Saints play tonight at home against Jacksonville. i'll probably watch some of the game tonight.
i hope everyone had a great weekend.
i should be on here tomorrow in the morning, before i have to take mom to get some bloodwork done.
so right around the time Takeover was starting last night, i got word that "Mr. Ranger" Rod Gilbert had passed away at the age of 80. now, i became a fan of the New York Rangers after he had stopped playing, but i always knew what he meant to the club and city. Rod lived an amazing life. it is going to be a little weird not seeing him at MSG again. rest in peace.
until tomorrow...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
stay socially distant.
get the shot.
a medida que envejezco, puedo ver mi muerte mucho más fácil
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Ray LaMontagne - Such a Simple Thing
Tom Waits - Come On Up To The House
Tyler Childers - Whitehouse Road (Live)
Bon Iver - Flume (Live)
Will Hoge - When I Get My Wings
"Without fear you can't explore or push yourself beyond what you've done." - Alexandre Desplat
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so, the Yankees won again last night down in Miami over the Marlins, 4-2. Anthony Rizzo hit another homer. i can't wait to see the ovation he gets in the Bronx. hopefully, the Yankees will get the sweep this afternoon.
ROH was excellent last night. it was the start of the women's tournament.
i did watch a little of the MLS and TBT last night.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be The White Lotus, Last Week Tonight, Power Book III: Raising Kanan, Big Brother, Desus & Mero and the season finales of The Chi, Black Monday and Flatbush Misdemeanors.
the finale of the Gold Cup is tonight. USA vs. Mexico. i'd love to see the USA win tonight.
hopefully, i will get my laundry finished before that game starts tonight.
i should be on here tomorrow when i get back from taking mom to her doctor's appointment.
i want to say thank you to everyone that has checked out my latest published poems:
i tried the AC in the Highlander today and it was more or less just moving around hot air. so, as my father taught me as a child, windows down and drive fast. that's your air conditioning.
mom's doctor's appointment went well today. i think she liked this new doctor. he was pretty thorough and a good listener. she had to have some blood drawn afterwards. i'm hoping all her numbers are still good. she didn't bruise too bad from her fall yesterday. i took her to Burger King after the appointment so she could get her frozen Coke she loves so much. you know, whatever i have to do to stay in the will.
Monday Night Raw was ok last night.
The Voice was very good last night. i have no damn clue who is going to win tonight.
here are your highlights from the NBA playoffs last night:
here are your highlights from the NHL playoffs last night:
i did watch team USA win this morning at the World Hockey Championships. they won 3-0 over Kazakhstan.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, NXT, Deadliest Catch, the season finale of The Voice and two episodes of Mr. Inbetween.
the Yankees start a series tonight at home against Toronto. hopefully, they will keep on winning.
i'm sure i'll catch some of the NBA and NHL playoffs tonight as well.
i'm going to try to be on here early tomorrow. i want to get the grocery shopping done and be home in time to watch the Europa League final between Manchester United and Villarreal.
i have trash to go pick up here and next door, so that's all for me kids.
so, i went to bed around 5 again this morning. up at 9, rinse, repeat, off to the grocery stores... i have been defeated by the mundane. good times.
the poet of the day for this day of National Poetry Month is Mather Schneider. yet another one that i have been published with for decades now, Mather knows how to lay down the words and keep you coming back for more...
the WWE Hall of Fame ceremonies last night were pretty good. it did feel a little long, but that was mostly due to the fact they were doing the 2020 and 2021 classes in the same night.
Hemingway was very good last night. i'm sure the finale tonight will be great as well.
Young Rock was pretty funny last night.
Kenan was very good last night.
Dark Side of the Ring: Confidential was about New Jack last night.
Mayans M.C. was fucking great last night.
the Yankees defeated the Orioles last night, 7-2. they will go for the sweep tonight.
the New York Rangers defeated Pittsburgh last night, 8-4.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, AEW, Snowfall, The Masked Singer, the finale of Hemingway and night 1 of NXT Takeover: Stand and Deliver.
i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow. i hopefully will be on here before Manchester United plays in the Europa League, but most likely, it won't be until after the game.
that is all for me kids. i just love days when i get to have lunch around 5 PM.
until tomorrow...
fight the power.
fuck racism.
fuck hatred.
fuck the police.
black lives matter.
stay healthy.
wash your fucking hands.
wear your mask.
get the shot.
nunca me importó si nadie me ama
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Bon Iver - Skinny Love
Conor Oberst - Cape Canaveral
Jamey Johnson - In Color
Cheap Trick - The Flame (Live)
"What we need is not the will to believe, but the wish to find out." - William Wordsworth
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mom made pasta last night for dinner. i know when i eat that at night, my blood sugar in the morning is going to be sky high. so, when my blood sugar this morning was lower than it was yesterday, i was a little confused. but then i remembered my body has never made any fucking sense to anyone. joy.
here is your video for this day of National Poetry Month:
Smackdown and 205 Live were both pretty good last night.
Real Time with Bill Maher was pretty funny last night.
enjoy some music:
and now some of this and that:
on the DVR tonight will be ROH, Austin City Limits and One World: Together at Home.
i might do a little writing today, who knows.
i think mom is hoping i will have to drive her to this local craft store as she put in an order online for some stuff to make me a better mask. i really don't give two shits about it. i stay pretty distant from everyone when i'm out in public.
i think some storms are supposed to roll in tomorrow, so i'm hoping today is nice and peaceful.
that's all for me kids.
i hope everyone has a wonderful Saturday.
stay healthy...
until tomorrow...
me encantaría dormir este día lejos
be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.
peace and chicken grease...
music:
Bon Iver - PDLIF
Shabazz Palaces w/Purple Tape Nate - Fast Learner
Paul Cauthen - Cocaine Country Dancing
Prince - Live at The Aladdin Las Vegas Sampler (EP)
"First of all, writing at best - certainly fiction writing - more and more I think is magic."
- Kathy Acker
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