it never fails

 so, when i fall in love with someone, i fall rather hard. it seems the more i try, the less it actually happens. so, i have been trying to take it slower, enjoy the scene, be honest and full of empathy. then came the spanish princess. i had been pursuing her for years, but never stepping over the line. now, it was easy to do since she is in Colorado and i'm in Ohio. well, a few months ago, she texted me and told me that she was into me. she was the first to say i love you. this made my world. the dream woman and i finally had found her. now, i knew of all her battles with cancer and other health scares, but anyone that knows me knows that i know that is all part of the package. she texted me this morning to let me know she can't do a relationship right now. that i don't deserve to be "stuck" in something where i can't get all the love i deserve. i'm not sure why she thinks i deserve it, as i have never been in a relationship where someone loved me as much as i loved them. i told her that i will always love her, always think of her as a friend and will forever be there for her. i get the feeling that she thinks her cancer is back again and she has used up her 9 lives. so yeah, this is probably going to be one those weekends where the depression grows a little deeper and the poems get even more sad than usual. 

here are your videos for this day of National Poetry Month:

the New York Rangers lost at Saint Louis last night, 3-2, in OT.

Vice News Tonight was very good last night.

NJPW was very good last night.

here are your NBA highlights from last night:

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, AEW Rampage, AEW Battle of the Belts VI and Jason Isbell: Running With Our Eyes Closed. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.

the New York Yankees play this afternoon at Baltimore.

the New York Knicks play tonight at New Orleans.

i should be on here tomorrow after Manchester United plays in the morning.

i hope everyone has a great weekend.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

el amor es como una espada afilada y sangro demasiado fácil

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Black Crowes - Good Friday

The National w/Bon Iver - Weird Goodbyes

Devon Gilfillian - All I Really Wanna Do

Laamar - Home To My Baby

Regina Spektor - Down by the River (Live)

"Love is like a faucet, it turns off and on." - Billie Holiday

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: