with the last thread of patience i have...

one of the joys of being a loner is truly not having to deal with certain amounts of shit that arise during adult life. today would be the perfect example. for the few friends i do have, i will go to unreal lengths to help them if i fucking can. now, with a certain special someone, that kind of help is determined from their end to be an accusation that they haven't been trying their best. i have swallowed so much fucking pride in my life, i'm choking to death on it. i remember something i heard when i was little. something to the effect that some people are determined to burn every fucking bridge in their life they can. it's fucking tragic at times, but i'm just stubborn and cynical enough to not give a shit. and it's the moments the Irish temper deep within starts to rage and i deeply understand how evil i really can be. and i don't think many people know, or even give a shit, how hard it has been to control that fucking demon for 42 years. i really hope Debbie Kirk gets good news tomorrow. regardless, i know somehow, i did something wrong along the way and i should feel bad for it. the joys of being an asshole is you are simply incapable of those moments any longer. i care, but never press your luck.
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the New York Yankees got some strong pitching last night and just enough offense to win, 3-0 over Washington. they will go for the sweep tonight.

Smackdown was really good last night.

205 Live was excellent last night.

Deadliest Catch was good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight and Lucha Underground. i'll watch NXT sometime tonight on WWE Network.

hard to believe the World Cup starts tomorrow. i was happy that the USA, Canada and Mexico won the bid for the 2026 World Cup. of course, i don't like my chances of being alive to actually watch it.

i got some great FREE music on NoiseTrade this afternoon. the link is below:
T. Hardy Morris - Dude, The Obscure Singles Pack

i will probably do some poetry work the next few days while the soccer games are on. in a perfect world, i'll have the new chapbook in the format correctly by the time the cover art arrives. in reality, well, we'll see.

i will probably be on here in the afternoon after the first game of the World Cup, Russia vs. Saudi Arabia.

that's all for me kids. it's raining and the adrenaline only lasts so long these days.

no tengo miedo de morir solo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

music:

Disturbed - Down with the Sickness
Marilyn Manson - I Don't Like the Drugs (But the Drugs Like Me)
Pantera - Walk
Slayer - Seasons in the Abyss

"The innocent and the beautiful have no enemy but time." - William Butler Yeats

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: