never wanted to be a juggler, let alone a good one...

i, well at least when my ego is healthy, kind of pride myself on being a good multi-tasking motherfucker at times. you know, one of these assholes that has 5 or 6 plates spinning and it still able to get everything done. it was much easier when i could burn the candle at both ends and didn't need to take a break. now, arthritis has claimed ownership and runs the fucking show. we had storms rolling through most of the night last night and i didn't get as much done as i wanted to. i was hoping to say i sent out this many poems to such and such, but shit, i haven't even gone through the big file to know what poems i want to even send out yet. between my best friend trying to defeat breast cancer and being depressed at the same time, to my mother who is having trouble with her vision and stress, to myself coming to terms that i have all the signs of someone who is suicidal. good times. i was watching some Anthony Bourdain tributes last night, as i had obviously not cried enough during the day, and they had a segment about what people should look for in someone who might be suicidal. and sure enough, i could check off every damn box for myself. that's a sobering thought to try to sleep to. yet, i still wake the fuck up. i have always said i would like to die in my sleep and have it be peaceful. who the fuck am i fooling?

the New York Yankees won last night over the Mets, 4-1. i wasn't happy when the second pitch of the game from the Yankees starter ended up in the upper deck. thankfully, the Mets suck and that was the only run they scored all night. the Yankees are back in first place in the division. hopefully, it stays that way when they play again tonight.

when i noticed LeBron wasn't playing that well last night, i didn't bother to watch much more of Game 4 of the NBA Finals. i would be shocked if LeBron returns to Cleveland. hell, he brought them one championship. that is amazing enough. here are your highlights from Game 4 last night.

NJPW was excellent last night.

Major League Wrestling was pretty good last night.

Real Time with Bill Maher was hilarious last night.

Wyatt Cenac's Problem Areas was very good last night.

Vice was very good last night as well.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH and the finale of Patrick Melrose.

i will be watching the USA Men's National team as they play France in a soccer friendly today. considering it is in France and it's their sendoff to the World Cup, i won't be shocked if the USA gets killed today.

hopefully Justify will win the Triple Crown at The Belmont Stakes later today. i do plan on watching that.

i believe my sister is coming down for a little while today. that should be interesting.

that's all for me kids. i hope everyone has a great Saturday. be safe and call if you need bail money.

la presión hace diamantes, con suerte antes de que lleguen las personas muertas

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Delta Saints - Crazy
John Prine - Loretta
Dorothy - Flawless
The Black Crowes - Willin' (Live)

"I have enough money to last me the rest of my life unless I buy something." - Jackie Mason

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: