Wednesday, February 12, 2020

here comes the snow...

the weather "experts" around here said the storm that was coming would start off with rain and the snow line would be a few miles north of us. of course, just more bullshit. it started off as ice and now has turned over to snow. so, i'm guessing we're going to be part of that 2 to 4 inches of snow line now. good times.

the Dayton Flyers whipped Rhode Island last night, 81-67. Dayton started the game on a 17-0 run that was just fucking lovely to watch. sadly, three assholes wearing stripes decided that the sell out crowd was actually there to see them. 52 fucking fouls were called in the game, including 7 technicals. what a fucking joke. Dayton is now 22-2 on the season. they are still undefeated in league play. they play this Saturday at UMass. they have won 13 games in a row.

Ali & Cavett: The Tale of the Tapes was pretty interesting last night.

WWE Backstage was really good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Masked Singer, NXT, AEW and Miz & Mrs.

the New York Rangers won last night in Winnipeg, 4-1. i believe Igor Shesterkin is the second coming for this team. the man is fucking amazing.

so far, sleeping out in the chair has worked pretty good for me. i will probably have to be in my bed tonight with the snow. i think most of my problems the other night was from not drinking enough water. i've been really trying to drink more and stay hydrated better. i guess i'll see if that works for me tonight.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow. if we get 4 inches of snow, mom has these guys on call to clear off the driveway and sidewalks. she knows i would do it, but then my back wouldn't be worth a shit for the next 2 weeks or so.

figures winter finally fucking shows up in mid February.

until tomorrow kids...

siempre hay algĂșn gilipollas que intenta arruinarlo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Chemical Brothers - Where Do I Begin
Morphine - Murder for the Money
Soundgarden - Outshined
TV on the Radio - Wolf Like Me

"Concentration and mental toughness are the margins of victory." - Bill Russell

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

https://blackfacts.com/fact/naacp-founded
https://blackfacts.com/fact/fugitive-slave-act-1793
https://blackfacts.com/fact/for-a-lincoln-birthday-celebration-james-weldon-johnson-writes-the-lyrics-for
https://blackfacts.com/fact/1898-booker-t-washington-the-madison-square-garden-address

response from Horror Sleaze Trash

i heard back from AG at Horror Sleaze Trash on my recent poetry submission. my poem "the inevitable march to the end" has been accepted for publication.

Tuesday, February 11, 2020

i guess 4 hours is all i will get...

i got around 4 hours of sleep last night in my massage chair. i think it would take a fucking coma to have me catch up on all the sleep i've lost over the years.

Monday Night Raw was really good last night.

The New Pope was excellent last night.

McMillion$ was great last night.

Desus & Mero was hilarious last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be WWE Backstage and Ali & Cavett: The Tale of the Tapes.

the Dayton Flyers play tonight at home against Rhode Island. Dayton is 10-0 in the A10 this year. Rhode Island is 10-1. plus, Obi Toppin's brother Jacob plays for Rhode Island. tonight should be a really good game. i really hope Dayton plays its best game of the season tonight. they will probably need it.

the New York Rangers play tonight on the road at Winnipeg. the trade deadline is under 2 weeks away. this little road trip should make up the team's mind regarding to sell or buy at the deadline.

that's pretty much all for me kids. i need to get the trash picked up, take a shower, hopefully sneak in a nap and then go to the game.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

until then...

la soledad sabe mi nombre

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Charles Bradley - Lonely as You Are
Maxwell - Fortunate
Nina Simone - Don't Let Me Be Misunderstood
The Pharcyde - Passin' Me By

"Cruelty is contagious in uncivilized communities." - Harriet Jacobs

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

https://blackfacts.com/fact/first-black-legal-protest-in-america-pressed-by
https://blackfacts.com/fact/nelson-mandela-is-released

Monday, February 10, 2020

apparently, my bed and i are no longer on speaking terms...

i couldn't get comfortable and i don't think i slept for more than 45 minutes at a time last night in my bed. eventually, i just got an ice pack and went to my massage chair. i did that twice today and got a little over 4 hours of sleep doing that. so yeah, i guess that will be the routine for awhile now. joy.

we had some snow rip through here yesterday. it eventually turned to rain, about 1.5 inches of it. that could explain some of the misery.

the USWNT defeated Canada last night 3-0 to win the Olympic qualifying tournament.

i didn't watch much of the Academy Awards last night. i think my mother did, so she would tell me the winners when she would go from her room to the kitchen.

the series finale of Power was good. i will probably end up watching the 4 series that are coming out of it, starting this summer.

The Outsider was fucking great last night.

Avenue 5 was very funny last night.

Curb Your Enthusiasm was hilarious last night.

My Cartoon President was good last night.

Homeland was excellent last night.

both episodes of Kidding last night were brilliant.

the New York Rangers defeated the Kings last night, 4-1. they certainly have something in their rookie goalie, Igor Shesterkin.

i also watched some of both XFL games yesterday. i really like the different rules in the league. i hope week 2 is good as well.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The New Pope, McMillion$ and Desus & Mero. i'll be watching Monday Night Raw for most of the evening.

this has been one of these gloomy ass days, that's for sure. i don't think the sun even poked out of the clouds today. joy.

i did listen to episode 277 of Notsam Wrestling today. you can find that by going here:
http://notsam.com/wrestlingpodcast/2020/2/10/notsam-wrestling-277-chelsea-green

i'm hoping to be on here early tomorrow, long before i get ready to leave to go to the Dayton Flyers game tomorrow night.

i hope everyone had a great weekend.

until tomorrow kids...

Aparentemente, ni siquiera dormiré cuando esté muerto

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

CocoRosie - Aloha Friday
Cigarettes After Sex - Neon Moon
Gnarls Barkley - Crazy
Luniz - I Got 5 On It

"Accomplishments have no color." - Leontyne Price

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

https://blackfacts.com/fact/alex-haley-renowned-author-dies
https://blackfacts.com/fact/1907-civil-rights-activist-and-politician-grace-towns-hamilton-was-born-in-at
https://blackfacts.com/fact/educator-joseph-charles-price-was-born

Sunday, February 9, 2020

something like a Japanese game show but everyone was speaking Spanish...

i think if anyone has read this blog for any length of time, you know of my problems sleeping. last night was truly fucking bizarre. i was having this vivid dream that made no fucking sense. think of something like This Is Your Life meets Double Dare. around 5 in the morning, i opened my eyes and asked myself, what the fuck are you doing? i don't believe it was an acid flashback but it was certainly as close as i have experienced in the last 20 years. i eventually had to go get an ice pack and get in my massage chair so i could actually get something resembling sleep. good times.

the Dayton Flyers defeated Saint Louis yesterday, 71-65. the Flyers are now 21-2. they have a huge game at home on Tuesday against Rhode Island. if Dayton can win that, they would lead the entire A10 by two games.

i did watch a ton of college basketball yesterday.

i also watched a good amount of the XFL yesterday. it was better than i was expecting to be honest.

ROH was pretty good last night.

Saturday Night Live was pretty funny last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be the series finale of Power, My Cartoon President, Homeland, two episodes of Kidding, The Outsider, Avenue 5 and Curb Your Enthusiasm.

i doubt i watch much of the Academy Awards tonight, mostly because i didn't really see any movies this past year.

the New York Rangers play at home tonight against the Kings. i might watch some of that. hopefully, they will start off much better than they did in their last game.

i hope everyone had a great Saturday. hopefully, your Sunday will be even better.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow. your guess is as good as mine.

until then...

mantén tus pies en las nubes y tu cabeza en el suelo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Sam & Dave - When Something Is Wrong with My Baby
Donny Hathaway - I Love You More Than You'll Ever Know (Live)
Otis Redding - For Your Precious Love
Wilson Pickett - In the Midnight Hour

"The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don't have any."
                                                                                        - Alice Walker

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

https://blackfacts.com/fact/paul-laurence-dunbar-1
https://blackfacts.com/fact/invisible-man-wins-award
https://blackfacts.com/fact/juanita-jewel-shanks-craft-1902-1985-and-the-long-civil-rights-movement-in-texas--birthday

Saturday, February 8, 2020

the joy of a bad back and snow...

i was really hoping to go to the basketball game today. that was my plan when i fell asleep last night. i woke up this morning with a back aching and new snow coming down. i haven't been able to get my back loose yet, and right now is when i would be leaving for the game. oh well. it is on television. hopefully, Dayton will continue their winning streak.

the grocery store yesterday was a bit of a zoo. but, it looks like i got the shopping done yesterday the only time this weekend it won't be snowing or raining.

Smackdown and 205 Live were both really good last night.

Real Time with Bill Maher was excellent last night.

High Maintenance was great last night.

the New York Rangers didn't show up last night until 3 minutes left in the game. they lost to Buffalo, 3-2.

the USWNT defeated Mexico last night, 4-0 to qualify for the Tokyo Olympics. they will face Canada next to see who wins the tournament.

The Shop was really good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH and Saturday Night Live.

i'm sure i'll watch plenty of college basketball this afternoon.

eventually, i'll have to go down and get the paper and mail. i'll do that when it stops snowing. hopefully that will be before Dayton plays today.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday. call if you need bail money.

i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

i'm off to go ice down my damn back.

until tomorrow kids...

estos son los dĂ­as que mi espalda no vale nada

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Gil Scott-Heron - The Revolution Will Not Be Televised
Bowling for Soup - Alexa Bliss
Weyes Blood - Wild Time
Bonnie "Prince" Billy - This Is Far From Over

"I would not give my first 15 years to my worst enemy." - Gary Coleman

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

https://blackfacts.com/fact/andey-rooney-suspended-for-racist-comments
https://blackfacts.com/fact/officers-killed-three-students-during
https://blackfacts.com/fact/marcus-garvey-entered-federal-prison-in-atlanta


Friday, February 7, 2020

snow day

i know as a kid, i absolutely loved the days when snow would close school. at least until i got older and my father would make me go out and shovel every inch of the driveway, sidewalks, porch, etc., mostly out of his fear that someone would slip on the property and sue him for money that he had already pissed away. good times.

as an adult, all the snow fucking means is more stress of driving with fucking idiots on the road and hoping my bad back doesn't act up while i'm walking on this shit.

NXT UK was pretty good last night,

Young Sheldon was pretty funny last night.

The Unicorn was very good last night.

Will & Grace was hilarious last night.

Indebted was pretty good last night.

Desus & Mero was very funny last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, The Shop, Real Time with Bill Maher and High Maintenance. i'll watch 205 Live sometime tonight on WWE Network.

i decided to get the blog done before i went to the grocery store so maybe the sun would actually come out and melt some of the fucking snow. i think we got a little over 2 inches maybe. that wouldn't have closed shit when i was in school.

the New York Rangers play at home tonight against Buffalo. i'd love to see the boys win again.

i will be on here tomorrow in the morning, before i leave to go see the Dayton Flyers play at home against Saint Louis.

i hope everyone has a great weekend. hope the weather is better wherever you happen to be.

until tomorrow kids...

un buen dĂ­a para quedarse y drogarse

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Sharon Van Etten - Beaten Down
Funkadelic - I Wanna Know If It's Good to You
Michael Stipe - Drive To The Ocean
Clutch - Spacegrass

"A man is only as faithful as his options." - Chris Rock

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

https://blackfacts.com/fact/negro-history-week-originated-by-carter-g-woodson-is-observed-for-the-first-tim
https://blackfacts.com/fact/alcorn-a-amp-m-college-opened

response from Synchronized Chaos

i heard back from Cristina at Synchronized Chaos on my recent poetry submission. my poems "a series of small tragedies", "these are the mornings", "a million better places", "the inevitable reality" and "that sad reality" have been accepted for publication in the March issue.

Thursday, February 6, 2020

just enough ice to make the trees glisten...

before i get into a shitty ice storm that wasn't and my never fucking ending battle with arthritis, a little poetry news to pass along first.

i sent out 21 poems today; 5 each to Synchronized Chaos, Horror Sleaze Trash and Chantarelle's Notebook; 6 poems to Record Magazine. when i hear back from these places, i will pass along the verdicts.

i didn't go out to get the paper and the one piece of mail we had until this afternoon. i only got 4 hours of sleep again. joy. and my arthritis in my back has been nagging me all day long. but, the joy of being stubborn...

The Masked Singer was good last night. i had no damn clue who The Llama was...

Miz & Mrs was pretty funny last night.

NXT was really good last night.

AEW was really good last night as well.

the New York Rangers won last night over Toronto, 5-3.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Young Sheldon, The Unicorn, Will & Grace, Indebted and Desus & Mero. i'll watch NXT UK sometime tonight on WWE Network.

i guess we're supposed to get some snow in the morning. so, i'll probably go to the grocery store after that is over. i'm hoping the roads won't be too bad.

i should be on here in the afternoon tomorrow.

i'm off to go ice my back yet again.

until tomorrow kids...

el dolor no es nada que una botella de Jack Daniels no puede arreglar

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Lamb of God - Checkmate
Living Colour - Cult of Personality
Rage Against the Machine - Bullet in the Head (Live)
Sevendust - Black

"None but ourselves can free our minds." - Bob Marley

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

https://blackfacts.com/fact/jail-in-movement-started-in-rock-hill-s-c-when
https://blackfacts.com/fact/peabody-fund-established
https://blackfacts.com/fact/the-mayflower-of-liberia

Wednesday, February 5, 2020

trying to get everything done before the ice storm...

i'm busier than nine cats covering up shit in a wind storm today. my back has been killing me and i believe my prostate is enlarged. good times. i got to the pharmacy to get my pills that were supposed to be ready last Friday. there's 30 minutes of my life i'll never get back. and when i got home, i started my laundry. and then mom said something about First Four tickets and how she was having problems buying them. so, i bought them but the problem is, it looks like everything is electronic now and that is a minor problem for someone who doesn't have a cell phone. so, either i'll figure out how to get the tickets on paper or i'll be selling them and getting my money back. good times. on top of all that, i did do a little poetry work. i know where my next 21 poems are going. with any luck, i'll get those out tomorrow morning. the ice storm is supposed to hit sometime tonight. i'm not looking forward to it.

WWE Backstage was pretty good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Masked Singer, NXT, AEW and Miz & Mrs.

the New York Rangers play tonight at home against Toronto. i'd love to see the Rangers win tonight.

baseball season is getting closer. so, of course, the Yankees just had their first injury...

i'm very happy that the Red Sox traded Mookie Betts to the Dodgers. there's one headache the Yankees get to avoid this season...

that's all for me kids. i have one more load of laundry to get into the dryer and then i'm done.

i should be on here tomorrow after i get those poems out into the world.

until then...

claro, el invierno aparece ahora

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Ana Tijoux - Libertad
Courtney Barnett - Dead Fox
Ariel Abshire - It Wasn't God Who Made Honky Tonk Angels
Ann Peebles - I Needed Somebody

"You can only milk a cow so long, then you're left holding the pail." - Hank Aaron

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

https://blackfacts.com/fact/suit-seeking-to-bar-englewood-n-j-from
https://blackfacts.com/fact/willis-johnson
https://blackfacts.com/fact/birthday-of-natalie-cole

Tuesday, February 4, 2020

so much for the sunshine...

today has been nothing but rain. just enough rain to make every fucking bone in my body ache. good times.

i did get to the bank today. after i made that deposit, i went to get some gas. i always like having a full tank when some shitty weather is coming. after that, mom wanted Taco Bell for lunch today. i hate going there when it is raining because the drive-thru is out in the open and the inside of the car gets wet. good times.

the New York Rangers lost to Dallas last night, 5-3.

Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night.

The New Pope was excellent last night.

McMillion$ was fucking fascinating last night.

Desus & Mero was hilarious last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be WWE Backstage.

i think i'm going to do some poetry work tomorrow while i'm doing my laundry. the weather is supposed to get cold and icy here tomorrow, so i might as well try to be productive in my pain.

i have to get the trash picked up here and next door, so that's all for me kids.

until tomorrow...

la lluvia me duele los huesos

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Arum Rae - Should I
Tracy Chapman - Give Me One Reason
Jill Scott - A Long Walk
Mavis Staples - Why Am I Treated So Bad? (Live)

"I would like to be remembered as a person who wanted to be free... so other people would be also free." - Rosa Parks

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

https://blackfacts.com/fact/france-abolishes-slavery
https://blackfacts.com/fact/a-stamp-of-sojourner-truth-is-issued
https://blackfacts.com/fact/j-c-watts-becomes-the-first-black-selected-to-respond-to-a-state-of-the-union

my 3 poems at Fourth and Sycamore

my poems "like pollen on a sunny day", "oblivion finally upon me" and "two beautifully broken souls" have been published at Fourth & Sycamore. you can find the poems by going here:
https://fourthandsycamore.com/2020/02/04/the-poetry-of-j-j-campbell-6/

Monday, February 3, 2020

enjoying a little sunshine...

i was up at 8:30 this morning, after roughly 3 hours of sleep. i let mom sleep until 9:30. we made it to her appointment on time this morning. the x-rays showed that her back is getting worse. the doctor made a bigger emphasis that surgery is a bigger option now if the shots don't work. i get the feeling she's going to be at the option of either surgery or constant pain before too long. good times.

the Super Bowl was pretty good last night. i'm not sure if it was more that the 49ers blew it or that Patrick Mahomes won it for the Chiefs. Kansas City won 31-20 after the 49ers were up 10 in the 4th quarter.

i thought the commercials were pretty good last night. my favorites were the Bill Murray one and the Jason Momoa one.

The Masked Singer was good last night.

My Cartoon President was hilarious last night.

The Outsider was really creepy last night.

Avenue 5 was pretty funny last night.

Curb Your Enthusiasm was fucking funny as hell last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The New Pope, Desus & Mero and McMillion$. i'll be watching Monday Night Raw for most of the evening.

the New York Rangers play at home tonight against Dallas. i'd love to see the Rangers find a way to win again tonight.

i did listen to episode 276 of Notsam Wrestling today. you can find that by going here:
http://notsam.com/wrestlingpodcast/2020/2/3/notsam-wrestling-276-mvp

i should be on here tomorrow after a trip to the bank and the post office. i have to send in our absentee ballot requests.

i hope everyone had a great weekend. until tomorrow kids...

y solo imaginen, todo lo que tenĂ­an que hacer era seguir corriendo la pelota

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Beastie Boys - (You Gotta) Fight For Your Right (To Party)
Public Enemy - Shut Em Down
Childish Gambino - This Is America
Kendrick Lamar - Bitch, Don't Kill My Vibe

"At some point or another, everyone has felt unseen and unheard and marginalized." 
                                                                            - Ayanna Pressley

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

https://blackfacts.com/fact/u-of-alabama-first-black-student

Sunday, February 2, 2020

so the sun shows up on the day everyone stays inside to watch a football game...

so add my left knee to my current aches and pains. it locked up while i was walking in the parking lot last night after the basketball game and has been barking ever since. joy.

Manchester United played a toothless 0-0 draw yesterday at home against Wolves. fuck me, this team is so fucking frustrating to watch anymore.

the Dayton Flyers defeated Fordham yesterday, 70-56. 20 wins by the first of February. that's only the second time EVER Dayton has done that.

the New York Rangers won in Detroit last night, 1-0. it was The King's first shutout since 2017.

Saturday Night Live was better than i expected it to be last night.

Austin City Limits was excellent last night.

ROH was pretty good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Outsider, Avenue 5, Curb Your Enthusiasm, Our Cartoon President and The Masked Singer.

the Super Bowl tonight is between San Francisco and Kansas City. hopefully, the Chiefs will win.

i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow. mom has a doctor's appointment in the morning. so, i might be on here in the early afternoon.

i hope everyone had a great Saturday. hopefully, your Sunday will be even better.

until tomorrow kids...

nunca confĂ­es en una maldita marmota

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, pantiues, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Billie Eilish - idontwannabeyouanymore
Bettye LaVette - Let Me Down Easy (Live)
Fiona Apple - Across the Universe
Ike and Tina Turner - River Deep Mountain High

"Mistakes are the portals of discovery." - James Joyce

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Raven_Wilkinson
https://theundefeated.com/features/today-in-black-history-feb-2-anne-raven-wilkinson-born/

Saturday, February 1, 2020

welcome to the weekend, where the hell did January go?...

i know i'm getting old as the months are now just flying by me. joy.

Smackdown and 205 Live were both pretty good last night.

Real Time with Bill Maher was very funny last night.

the New York Rangers won last night over Detroit, 4-2. they play tonight at Detroit.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Saturday Night Live, ROH and Austin City Limits.

Manchester United plays at home today against Wolves. i'd love to see United actually fucking win.

i'll get to see most of the match before i have to leave to go see the Dayton Flyers play at home against Fordham. this is a game that if Dayton plays to its own potential, they should win by 30 or more. Dayton is seeking their 11th straight win today.

that's all for me kids. no sunshine again today, although it's supposed to start warming up. good times.

i hope everyone has a great weekend.

i should be on here tomorrow in the morning. i'm sure the pre-show for the Super Bowl starts before the sun comes up.

until tomorrow...

abre tu mente y aprende algo en el mes de la historia negra

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Jason Isbell - Cover Me Up
The Coasters - Down in Mexico
Nine Inch Nails - She's Gone Away
Otis Redding - Chained and Bound (Live)

"I will not take 'but' for an answer." - Langston Hughes

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

my 5 poems at Synchronized Chaos

my poems "whatever broken spanish i remember", "the human condition", "this weird void", "endless strings of lights" and "the last hope i have" have been published at Synchronized Chaos. you can find the poems by going here: http://synchchaos.com/poetry-from-j-j-campbell-35/