just going through the motions...

 my back has been killing me today. of course, anytime i wanted to rest it or ice it down, mom needed my help. the joy of life. i had to tell my mother today, as i watched her struggle to find her password for her financial planner, that her homework assignment is to get all this shit into one book and have it updated because when she dies, i'm not doing it. and she talks all the time about me taking over shit, and then of course, she never does it. and i only want to do it if she wants me to. because i know damn well the history of mental illness in this family and the fucking joys i have coming...

the Yankees won last night at Tampa, 2-1. holy shit a win. hopefully, they can do that again tonight.

AEW Dynamite was good last night.

i did watch some of the Copa America last night. Colombia defeated Uruguay 1-0 even though Colombia played the entire second half with only 10 men. the last twenty minutes were fucking crazy. so, it will be Argentina vs. Colombia in the final on Sunday. Argentina was the last team to actually beat Colombia, so it should be amazing.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Don't Forget the Lyrics and NJPW.

i will probably be on here tomorrow in the morning, before mom has physical therapy in the afternoon.

i need to go make dinner, so that's all for me kids...

until tomorrow...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

simplemente haciendo los movimientos

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Amy Annelle - East Texas Son

Ray LaMontagne - Step Into Your Power

Kate Bollinger - Any Day Now

Ryan Bingham - Bluebird

The Killers - Mr. Brightside

"Writing is an act of faith, not a trick of grammar." - E.B. White

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

no good deed goes unpunished...

 so, we had some weeds in our rock garden, it looked like a fucking forest to be honest. i got out there and pulled what i could. basically, until my back told me to fuck off. i got a trash bag full of weeds pulled though. and then i spent the next 3 hours in my massage chair with ice on my back in pain. joy.

Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night.

i caught some of the highlights from the home run derby last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NXT, Deadliest Catch and Dark Side of the Ring. i'll have to watch Hot Wheels: Ultimate Challenge tomorrow on Peacock since our local NBC has been taken off DIRECTV due to a contract dispute. i always love when rich people argue over money.

i doubt i watch much of the All-Star game tonight for MLB. 

i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.

it looks like the rest of this week is going to be hit or miss thunderstorms. that should do wonders for my bad back and arthritis.

i now need to get the trash picked up, figure out dinner and probably help mom with her laundry.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Ninguna buena acción queda sin castigo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Good Looks - Broken Body

L'Rain - New Year's UnResolution

Nic Clark - Don't Count Yourself Out

Fishbone and NOFX - Estranged Fruit

Blondshell - Salad

"Genius is more often found in a cracked pot than in a whole one." - E.B. White

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

the hours just bleed together anymore...

 i hate these days where it is humid right from the start. it doesn't fuck with me as much as it does my mother. her Meniere's disease is truly fucking worse when it is humid. she almost becomes a narcoleptic. today she dropped her glass of diet coke in the living room. what makes it even worse, her vision is so bad she thought the coke on the carpet was glass. there's just a glimpse of the fun i have everyday. 

the Yankees pissed away a 4 run lead last night and lost to Boston, 11-6. they are off tonight and start a series at home against the Reds on Tuesday night. they are 61-25 this season.

Westworld was really good last night.

Big Brother was good last night. of course, if i was watching the live feeds, i probably would be upset.

Flatbush Misdemeanors was pretty funny last night.

The Chi was excellent last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Monday Night Raw and Miz & Mrs.

the USWNT plays Mexico tonight. of course, i don't have Paramount+ so if i want to watch it i have to watch it on my phone in Spanish. hopefully the women will win tonight.

i did listen to Notsam Wresting episode 403 this morning. you can hear that by going here:

https://www.stitcher.com/show/sam-roberts-wrestling-podcast/episode/the-liv-morgan-story-notsam-wrestling-403-204776255

so, the trip to Kroger was interesting yesterday. i never thought it would be so damn busy on a Sunday afternoon. i waited longer in line than it took me to find what i was looking for.

i'm not sure when i will be on here tomorrow.

the tomatoes are starting to ripen on the back porch. now, i just need to get them before the birds and insects destroy them.

i hope everyone had a great weekend.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay socially distant.

get the fucking shot.

Ojalá algún día los poemas fluyan de mí como el agua.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

David Bowie - I'm Afraid of Americans (V1) (Radio Edit)

Radiohead - Karma Police

Blood Orange - Champagne Coast (Live)

MGMT - Time to Pretend

Nine Inch Nails - Closer (Live)

"Genius is more often found in a cracked pot than in a whole one." - E.B. White

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

not bad for not falling asleep until 5 in the morning...

i had some strong alcohol last night, took a shower and was still up at 5 in the morning. the life of a poet...

Red Scare defeated House of 'Paign yesterday, 83-76. they are now in the final four of the TBT. they face the Golden Eagles on Sunday.

Smackdown was awful last night. thank god 205 Live was at least decent.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH.

i did watch a little of the MLS last night. i will probably watch more of those games tonight.

i will probably also watch some more of the TBT today.

i'm going back through my baseball cards, making sure i didn't miss anything. i think i found around 10 cards last night i somehow missed.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday.

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

wear your mask.

intentando un día sin café, deséame suerte

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Mayer Hawthorne - The Walk
Anderson East - If You Keep Leaving Me
St. Paul & The Broken Bones - Broken Bones & Pocket Change
JJ Grey and Mofro - The Sun Is Shining Down

"Writing is an act of faith, not a trick of grammar." - E.B. White

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

one of these days, i'll actually get something resembling sleep...

i'm the type of guy that usually will try his best to ignore the pain as much as possible. when my back is truly fucked up or when my nerves start firing at all times, that becomes a little impossible. i get the feeling tonight i will have to sleep in a bath of CBD oil, hoping i get more than 3 1/2 hours of sleep.

so i got a message from my doctor's office this morning. apparently, all my numbers look good but my liver enzymes are still elevated. of course, the results haven't been posted yet and they haven't told me what GI doctor they have referred me to. so, until i see some concrete shit, i'm not going to just take the word of a nurse.

part 2 of I Love You, Now Die was way more fascinating than part 1. it cemented 3 things in my mind... 1) no 14 year old should EVER be on Prozac. 2) Glee was an evil show masked as a musical. 3) the mentally ill will never get the help we need in this country.

NXT last night was really good.

Big Brother was good last night. i'm really liking the game Sam is playing so far. i'm pretty sure Kemi will be evicted tonight.

the season 3 premiere of Snowfall last night was excellent. this season looks like it is going to be great.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Holey Moley, Big Brother, Baskets and Desus & Mero.

i did listen to episode 246 of Notsam Wrestling this morning. you can find that by going here:
https://soundcloud.com/notsamwrestling/one-night-stand-2006

i will probably be on here tomorrow after a trip to the grocery store.

the weather is supposed to be way less humid tomorrow, so i'm hoping they actually get that one right for a change.

i'm off to my massage chair to ice down my body yet again.

here's hoping my friends in the New Orleans area aren't under water.

until tomorrow kids...

estoy perdiendo la capacidad de disfrutar el dolor

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Sufjan Stevens - Love Yourself
Sleater-Kinney - Hurry On Home
Emily Wolfe - Holy Roller
David Bowie - Space Oddity

"The world is full of people who have never, since childhood, met an open doorway with an open mind." - E.B. White

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

keep your enemies closer...

apparently, certain people don't understand that once the bridge is burned, your best bet is to never fucking get close to it again. so, i saw yesterday that Debbie Kirk was talking shit about my mother on the GoFundMe page, that for some fucking reason was accepting donations again. my name was still clearly on the page, which totally infuriated me. i contacted the guy that contacted me over Debbie's bogus fraud claims and told him what was going on. i told him i figured she still had me listed as the beneficiary so she could claim i was stealing from her again. i don't have an account with GoFundMe any longer, so this could not be possible. i checked last night and my name is still listed but the account is once again not accepting donations. i know Debbie has surgery today and if she has any friends left, i doubt any of them are competent enough to actually start a GoFundMe and have the money go directly to her. i joked that if she happens to die in surgery, they could just take down the page completely as i don't want my name associated with that cunt any longer. i'm not sure i can make it any fucking clearer than that.

i heard back on the poems i sent to Riggwelter the other day. possibly the nicest rejection letter i have ever received. so there's another 5 back on the pile.

World Cup update:
France defeated Belgium yesterday 1-0. today England takes on Croatia in the other semifinal.

the New York Yankees lost last night to Baltimore 6-5. they are now 3 1/2 games behind Boston in the division. they have to win tonight to get a split in the series.

Smackdown was pretty good last night.

205 Live was very good last night.

The Jim Jefferies Show was fucking hilarious last night.

Deadliest Catch was good last night.

Fuck That's Delicious was great last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Big Brother and Lucha Underground. i'll watch NXT sometime tonight on WWE Network.

i have to take mom to the post office sometime today to sign for some mail because the person that delivers the mail doesn't know how to ring the fucking doorbell.

it would also be nice if the mail i know that was sent from England almost two weeks ago would actually arrive already, or i wish they were done reading it. i have no doubt that the magazines that get sent to me, the post office will peruse before they actually put them in the mailbox.

thanks for all the positive comments on the poems published recently at Misfit Magazine and The Beatnik Cowboy. i really do appreciate them.

i will probably be on here tomorrow after i take mom to get a copy of her x-rays for the bullshit she has to go to on Friday. god willing, that will be the final time her old job tries to show that she can still work. she had to postpone the injection for her back that she really, really needs so she could do this shit. to say i'm a little pissy at the moment would be an understatement.

that's all for now kids.

si la ira es un regalo, estoy abriendo regalos todo el día

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Jesus and Mary Chain - Reverence
Chicano Batman - Black Lipstick
Drivin' N' Cryin' - Straight to Hell
Cold War Kids w/Bishop Briggs - Love On the Brain

"Writing is an act of faith, not a trick of grammar." - E.B. White

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

nothing quite like running a vacuum during a damn tornado

well, not quite a tornado but the wind was whipping somewhere around 80 mph while i was running the vacuum in the kitchen. i had to vacuum the whole house today because mom sneezed. i truly love that she is getting crazier as she gets older. like she's going to out-crazy me. please.

the storm knocked down some huge limbs here in the cul-de-sac. i had some solar lights come out of the ground. and of course that's in the part of our front yard that floods.

i did watch a good portion of the Home Run Derby last night. if the world didn't know about Aaron Judge before last night, they sure as hell know who is now.

Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night. i especially liked that they decided to keep Samoa Joe in the main event picture. and thank god the Kurt Angle drama will come to a head next week.

The Defiant Ones, Part 2 last night was mostly about N.W.A. i can still remember exactly where i was the first time i heard Fuck Tha Police.

i did write one poem last night after mom's physical therapy session. i haven't typed it up yet. i'm hoping a few more pop in my head before the end of the week.

i had a pretty good trip to the bank yesterday. the one teller that sort of knows who i am, who just happens to be this cute black woman as well, was the one working yesterday. she saw me walk up and smiled. i figure i'm reading too much into that. i made a quick one liner that made her laugh, which i took as a good sign. not good enough for me to engage further or anything. but... she did call me Mr. Campbell when she handed me my receipt. that's a good way to make me feel fucking old.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight. The Defiant Ones, Part 3, Smackdown, Deadliest Catch and The Jim Jefferies Show. i'll watch 205 Live sometime tonight on WWE Network.

i will probably also watch a little of MLB All Star Game tonight. i know Aaron Judge is batting third in the top of first inning, so i have no clue how much i will watch after that.

i did listen to the latest Jim Norton & Sam Roberts podcast today. you can find that by going here:
https://soundcloud.com/jimandsamshow/ep-033-talib-kweli

i'll be on here tomorrow after i get back from taking mom to another doctor's appointment and to get some blood work done. joy.

i now have trash to pick up and dishes to do. at least the rain has stopped.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Matthew Sweet - Trick
David Byrne - This Must Be The Place (Naive Melody) (Live)
Kenny Wayne Shepherd Band - Last Goodbye
Sturgill Simpson - You Can Have the Crown

"Genius is more often found in a cracked pot than in a whole one." - E.B. White

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

getting old

i've had this damn Lucinda Williams song stuck in my head for months it seemed like. the problem was,  i always thought the song was done by Heartless Bastards. so yesterday, i finally figured this mystery out and got the song on iTunes. not sure why yesterday was the first day i decided to use the internet to figure out this question in my head, but oh well.

mom had a doctor's appointment this morning. she didn't want me to go along, so i didn't. she's been having problems remembering shit, and given the history of dementia and alzheimer's with her parents, i believe both of us want to catch anything as soon as possible. of course, the beauty is it could be a number of other things as well. but, i'm a worse case scenario type of guy. so, i'll have my mind elsewhere while she's waiting on the results of the blood tests and the appointment for a neurological exam. good times.

the Yankees were leading last night 3-0 when the news of the partial ligament tear for Tanaka came down. and just like that, they were trailing 9-3 and the game was over. it felt like the season was as well. that makes 80% of the starting rotation is now on the disabled list. hard to win games let alone contend in the division with those kind of injuries. they play tonight in Baltimore, who happens to be in first place in the division. i'm sure they have the hammer out to put the nails in the coffin tonight. i'd like to see the team show some fight, but even that is probably not enough. it's going to be a long rest of the season.

i did watch Big Brother last night. i'm very happy that Zach stayed in the house. the new HOHs aren't going after him. both of them want to get rid of Devin this week. hopefully, that will happen.

other than baseball tonight, not sure what i'm going to watch. mom got me a charcoal art set, so i guess i might play around with that a little. i'm trying to come up with logos for this blog, for my book, etc., for t-shirts, mugs, mousepads, anything i could possibly sell. i need to start making some money. especially given the fact that the farm is going to go away soon and who knows if i'm going to live with my mother still or not. trust me, i'm not exactly hoping i get to live in my 1992 Ford Ranger.

well, after the last few days, i know that all the cats are alive. Boomer made it back up from the wood lot. and amazingly, my cat Alfred had two kittens recently. saw her nursing them today. so, that makes it that Batman, Robin, and Alfred all got pregnant. where is a damn villain when you need one?

that's all for me today kids. i hope everyone has a great weekend.

be well. be creative. be loud. be the prince of mischief. be the first one to order a round with a stranger's credit card.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Lucinda Williams - Real Live Bleeding Fingers and Broken Guitar Strings
Jeremy Pinnell - The Way Country Sounds
Drive-By Truckers - Grand Canyon
Sinead O'Connor - Nothing Compares 2 U

"Genius is more often found in a cracked pot than in a whole one." - E.B. White

bring on the weekend

wrote my first poems of 2013 today. i believe all 3 are pretty damn good. i imagine if they get published, as they were all submitted today, i'll know for sure that someone other than me thinks they are good.

sent off poems today to The Camel Saloon and The Gap Toothed Madness. when i hear back from these places i'll be sure to post it here on the blog.

other than that and some porn today, just resting up for the weekend. team USA in the gold medal game of the World Juniors will start off my Saturday. then, Manchester United in the 3rd round of the FA Cup. would be nice to keep the winning streak going. then, some NFL playoffs before i get ready to go see the Dayton Flyers play Saturday night. other than the snow that is supposed to come, i can't think of a better start to the weekend. more NFL playoffs on Sunday and hopefully 3 victory beers from the day before.

hope everyone has a good weekend.

music today:

The Killers - Hot Fuss
David Gray - White Ladder (this CD was sent to me by a woman over a decade ago. of course, i have lost touch with her. so, wherever you may be Kelly, i do hope you are doing well. i still think of you when i play this music.)
Muddy Waters - Blues Legend
Pantera - Official Live:101 Proof

"I see nothing in space as promising as the view from a Ferris wheel." - E.B. White