today is the last day of April. so, of course, it is raining this morning. i hope everyone has enjoyed the videos and my SoundCloud recordings for the month. below are the final 3 videos for this day of National Poetry Month:
a delightful trip into the dark mind of an evil genius or simply the musings of an asshole
Saturday, April 30, 2022
the last day of National Poetry Month...
the end of the rainbow (latest SoundCloud recording)...
my poem "the end of the rainbow" is my latest SoundCloud recording. the poem was first published at Terror House Magazine. you can hear the poem by going here:
https://soundcloud.com/j-j-campbell/the-end-of-the-rainbow
Friday, April 29, 2022
the hours are bleeding together again...
so, i did write 3 poems yesterday while mom was doing her physical therapy. i typed them up last night and i think they are pretty good. after she got done, she had to have her frozen Coke. she likes to play this little trick anymore where she forgets to bring any money along at all. so, i had to get my credit card out. i really love when she does this when we're at the mechanic or doctor's office, etc. i remember one time the bill at the mechanic was over $800. she swore she had her credit card on her. of course, she found it on her desk when we got back home. good times.
i love what the New Orleans Saints did in the first round last night. they drafted Chris Olave from Ohio State. he fills a desperate need at WR. and then they drafted the nastiest offensive lineman in the draft in Trevor Penning out of Northern Iowa. that fills another desperate need. hopefully they fill some more holes in the second and third round tonight.
Thursday, April 28, 2022
a change in plans...
mom had down the wrong time for her physical therapy appointment today. now that i know it is later in the afternoon, i figured i would get the blog done now.
tonight is the first round of the NFL Draft. i'm really interested to see what the New Orleans Saints do with their two first round picks. and i can't wait to see where the Ohio State guys end up.
with plenty of whiskey (latest SoundCloud recording)...
my latest SoundCloud recording is my poem "with plenty of whiskey". the poem was first published at The Beatnik Cowboy. you can listen to the poem by going here:
https://soundcloud.com/j-j-campbell/with-plenty-of-whiskey
Wednesday, April 27, 2022
these are the days where i smile at the thought of death...
so, a friend was supposed to come over last night and bring some medical marijuana for my mother to try. we're kind of searching for something to really actually work on the pain she has. and maybe this is why i don't have many friends, as the friend never showed up. now, she claims she came by and texted and called, but i got none of those. i was sitting in the living room, watching television, waiting. and waiting. and waiting. around 1 in the morning i gave up. i feel bad for my mother as she doesn't know still if the medical marijuana would work for her or not.
so, the plan today was for me to go meet her as this was her day off. i got all the grocery shopping done and now i'm waiting to hear from her. and i'm not going to be shocked to be handed another handful of excuses why we couldn't meet, etc. it is beyond frustrating at this point.
and that brings me to death. as i listen to my mother cry herself to sleep from the pain, how i can't lift my right arm without some nerve getting fucking higher than a kite in joy, etc. etc. have i written enough that i would be remembered? i strongly believe that as long as 1 person remembers you and shares that gift, you are still alive. just not experiencing any of the pain or bullshit that comes with being alive. and that is what is the tempting nature of death. the sheer relief from the utter wastefulness and bat shit crazy bullshit that is humanity. as much fun, as much love, as much freedom that could be enjoyed on this earth, every other fucking thing on the flipside of that is life as well. now, i'm not saying life should be a bed of roses. i'll never forget that the most beautiful roses grow in the smelliest shit ever. i'm just saying if you come across this blog and there hasn't been a post in a few weeks or so, i found the secret door to death and leaped at the god damn chance to free myself from this earth. and that is the most beautiful thought anyone could ever have.
the Yankees defeated the Orioles last night, 12-8. Rizzo hit 3 home runs last night. he now leads the majors. hopefully, the boys will win again tonight.
Tuesday, April 26, 2022
so much for leaving the furnace off...
so, after a few days of really nice weather, it got cold again. we're under a freeze warning for tonight. thankfully, we haven't put out any flowers yet.
mom wanted McDonald's for breakfast this morning. i must have picked the right time to go as there was no line at the Brookville one. of course the trade off for that was the frozen Coke mom wanted wasn't available.
Monday Night Raw was really good last night.
Monday, April 25, 2022
it never fails...
so, today went nowhere close to as planned. mom fell this morning. my guess is she tried to sit on the edge of the bed and fell right off. thankfully, she didn't hit her head. but, she was shaken enough that she decided to cancel her physical therapy appointment today. so, instead of going to that, i had to run over to the local insurance company after my nap today and take a bunch of shit they needed to copy to verify that we are citizens and can keep our health insurance. and of course, right as i left the house to do that, it started fucking raining cats and dogs. fuck me.
the Yankees won yesterday over Cleveland, 10-2. i had a good laugh watching the post game shit on the Cleveland channel. they talked about how the players were so upset after Saturday and then play their worst game of the season on Sunday. i just laughed and thought karma is a motherfucker. the Yankees are off today and start a series against Baltimore tomorrow.
response from Synchronized Chaos...
i heard back from Cristina at Synchronized Chaos on my recent poetry submission. my poems "on the horizon", "crystal fucking clear", "coffee-stained nightmares", "the last fading glance" and "from experience" have been accepted for publication.
Sunday, April 24, 2022
laundry day, take 2...
so, mom decided she was going to do her laundry yesterday. and then, after watching it sit there for hours and hours, i asked her if she wanted my help doing her laundry. she asked why and i said i would like to do my laundry this weekend and i know if i wait on you to finish yours, i'll get to do mine on Thursday or Friday. so, i did her 3 loads last night. and now, as soon as i get this done, i'll do my 3 loads of laundry.
i think it was just hot enough in the house last night, and i had just enough alcohol in me, that given my back pain, i more or less just passed out in my massage chair. i woke up this morning at 5:15. the front door was still open and ESPN was still on. in hindsight, i should have just stayed in the chair. i got 2 lousy hours of sleep in my bed. god i just love having a pinched nerve.
i finally saw The Batman last night. i really enjoyed it. probably my second favorite Batman movie, only behind The Dark Knight. i thought Paul Dano was magnificent as the Riddler. he was so fucking creepy, it was great.
long before (latest SoundCloud recording)
my poem "long before" is my latest SoundCloud recording. you can listen to the poem by going here:
https://soundcloud.com/j-j-campbell/long-before
Saturday, April 23, 2022
the calm in the storm...
i did get up in time for the Manchester United match this morning. when United got down 2-0, i turned it off. i don't need that kind of stress in my life. i did see that CR7 scored to make it 2-1. then Bruno missed a penalty in the second half (i'm not sure why Cristiano wasn't taking that) that could have made it 2-2. as usual, Arsenal scored again to make it 3-1, which was the final. so, i doubt that United will finish in the top 4 this season, hell, might as well make it the top 5. so, no European games next year, they better win something next season (FA Cup, League Cup, Premier League) since they won't have the excuse of needing to rest players, etc.
Friday, April 22, 2022
so the brakes on the Highlander still work
so i had an interesting Earth Day. on my way to Menards, two deer ran out in front of me. now, they were coming out of a cemetery, so that will obviously be a poem one day. the one went pretty fast across, the other, not so much. the speed limit on the road is 45 MPH. i was probably going 50 or so. i could see the fear in the eyes of the deer as i was hitting the brakes. there was no car in the other lane. so yeah, i probably missed it by a foot or so. my heart rate didn't get too bad, but i do believe my asshole might have puckered. what a time to be alive.
so, i got a ton of shit at Menards. i think the birds will definitely be happy. and i got some better stuff for the tomatoes this year than we had last year. between gas and all the stuff i got at Menards, i believe it was all under $160. and that's with getting plenty of shit on discount. joy.
Vice News Tonight had two really good episodes this week.
the Yankees lost yesterday at Detroit, 3-0. they start a series tonight at home against Cleveland.
Thursday, April 21, 2022
of course it had to rain
so, last night i was watching some tv and then all of a sudden, pain took over me and i was out. i don't remember falling asleep. what i think happens anymore is the pain gets so much for my body that i just blackout. what pissed me off was i was right in the middle of that Cypress Hill documentary last night. thankfully, i did get to see all of it, eventually. that brought back a ton of memories.
the Yankees won last night in Detroit, 5-3. they go for the sweep this afternoon. i'm pretty sure most of the attention will be on seeing if Miguel Cabrera gets his 3,000th hit today for the Tigers.