here comes the pain again...

 part of feeling much older than you really are in my beliefs is never getting your expectations up. i guess i learned as a child to always prepare for the worst. and then preparation became this mindset where i expected nothing but the bad. so, i never knew how to handle the good, if the good ever would happen. now, it has happened a few times in my life. and as much as i want to think i handle success well, i know i haven't had near the amount of success that i really crave. and that brings me back to expectations. this is why i am a huge supporter of drugs. all of us need to get out of our fucking heads at times. and i know i'm at the stage of life where i really need to get out of my head. i mean third eye so open every ray of the sun fills whatever room i'm in. so yeah, i was hoping that was going to be what today was going to be about. but it wasn't. so, hopefully, tomorrow.

i did go to the bank today and deposit the check mom gave me. i then went to Big Lots and found some football, basketball and 1 pack of baseball cards. i got 5 packs of cards for around $26. there was over $80 worth of cards in them. that made me happy.

here are your 3 videos for this day of National Poetry Month:

the Yankees won last night over Toronto, 3-0. they start a series tonight in Baltimore.

Young Sheldon was very good last night.

United States of Al was pretty funny last night.

How We Roll was good last night.

Vice News Tonight had two great shows this week.

Atlanta was fucking amazing last night.

NJPW was good last night.

Desus & Mero was fucking hilarious last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, AEW Rampage, Bill Maher: #Adulting and A Black Lady Sketch Show. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.

it is supposed to rain tonight. i guess that explains why the grass got cut today.

i am going to try to be on here in the morning tomorrow before Manchester United plays.

my sister should be down here by tomorrow afternoon.

i hope everyone had a Good Friday.

i hope everyone has a great weekend.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay socially distant.

get the fucking shot.

disfruta de los dulces

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Black Crowes - Good Friday

Magnus Ferrell - Held You So

Taylor Rae - Never Gonna Do

Crows - Garden Of England

Sonic Youth - Live in Kyiv, Ukraine 1989

"Set me a task in which I can put something of my very self, and it is a task no longer; it is joy; it is art." - Bliss Carman

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: