now i think i might not even sleep when i'm dead...

i might have got to sleep around 4 in the morning. i was back up at 8. it's not quite insomnia anymore. it's the morose nature of this existence in the winter. the hours seem endless and my brain simply has no desire to shut off. add in a good four or five hundred words i had to get off my chest with a former (maybe still, maybe not, who the fuck knows) friend. last night was one of those where there was no fucking way i was going to get anything resembling good sleep.

the New York Rangers had a good first period last night. that was about where all the good stopped. the Rangers lost last night at Tampa Bay 6-3. oh well.

Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night, especially the ending.

the Vice News Special Report last night about the untold stories of the 2008 financial collapse was very, very interesting. it would be even better if the dumb fucks in this country would actually understand how close we were to a great depression again and how much of the money given has already been paid back with interest. instead, these dumb fucks went and elected an asshole New York con man and thought he was going to save them. idiots.

The Voice was really good last night. i have no damn clue which 4 are going to make the finals tonight. i figure someone i really like is going to make it and someone else is going to get cut. all 8 have real talent.

i did watch a little of the Monday Night Football game last night between Minnesota and Seattle.

it was also good to see the Sacramento Kings win last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Smackdown and The Voice.

a big thank you to Jonathan Hayes for sending me a copy of his new book of poems, A Full Moon in Santa Cruz. it was an excellent, quick read.

i'll be on here tomorrow after i take mom to get her MRI on her back. of course, that is scheduled at the same time that Manchester United will be playing in the Champions League.

i better get going and try to get the trash done before it gets dark.

i hope everyone had a good day. until next time kids...

A veces me pregunto si en realidad puedo ser amado.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Breeders - Do You Love Me Now?
Metallica - Am I Evil?
Ryan Adams - Do You Still Love Me?
Guided by Voices - How's My Drinking?

"Some people hear their own inner voices with great clearness. And they live by what they hear. Such people become crazy... or they become legend." - Jim Harrison

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

let the melting begin...

today was the first day in weeks it wasn't below freezing when i woke up. it's been around 40 degrees all day long. some of the ice and snow has started to melt. i imagine once the rain starts, it will all start to melt. but, until that happens the lane is like a damn skating rink. thankfully there is plenty of grass to walk in.

the New York Rangers frustrated the living shit out of me last night. i don't think i have ever seen a team turn down so many chances to shoot to try to make the perfect pass in my life. the light bulb must have finally gone on in the 3rd period when they were down 3-1. they came back to tie the game at 3 to force overtime. now, instead of taking advantage of a power play in overtime, they went back to pissing any good chances away. it didn't surprise me at all when they lost in the shootout. to a team missing 12 regulars. 4-3 loss but they did pick up a damn point. this team is just good enough to be mediocre.

a big thank you to Jonathan Hayes for sending me his book, American Haiku. what a fun, quick read. i really enjoyed it. check it out at Amazon.com. i highly recommend it.

i will be going to see the Dayton Flyers play Iona tonight. it should be a high scoring affair. it's on national tv (NBC Sports Network) so i do expect a pretty hyper crowd and game. hopefully Dayton plays just enough defense tonight to get another win at home. of course, it wouldn't surprise me if both teams were in the 90's tonight either.

i got the mix cd i had to do done this morning. i'm willing to bet that 90% of the songs on it my 10 year old cousin has never heard. i always enjoy the chance to educate or corrupt the youth.

i'm facing a big fucking decision in my fantasy football playoffs. do i bench Drew Brees for Andy Dalton like some of the "experts" are saying i should? i just can't bring myself to doing it. and if it costs me the chance to go to the finals, so be it. i just can't believe that will be the deciding factor. i'm a pretty decent underdog in that match on NFL.com. i'm still a 28 point favorite in the championship game on CBS. thankfully, i have no injury concerns at all this week. that's really helpful as i will be at a basketball game for a good portion of Sunday. Dayton plays Southern Cal.

that's pretty much all for today. hope this finds everyone well. i will hopefully have some good news to report tomorrow.

music:

Gary Clark Jr. - The Bright Lights EP

"Don't care what people say. Don't give a damn about their laws." - Edith Piaf