i'm still amazed god hates me as much as i hate myself...

i should have known exactly what today was going to be like when i pulled into the driveway from the grocery store this morning and there was the cousin that molested me waving at me. it's one thing to accept the pain, it's another to try to withstand constant torture and pretend death wouldn't be the better option. needless to say, the poems didn't get sent out today.

i did go to the grocery store early this morning. of course, they didn't have everything i needed. so, i had to go to the grocery store in town to get my bread and some things mom wanted from the deli. mom didn't like the dinner she made last night, so i'm now in charge of making all meals. she acted like she was depressed about it, but i think it was just a simple ploy to get out of doing anything for awhile. of course, she did something to her horrific back again. i can't wait for her to get another injection later this month.

World Cup Update:
so, i didn't get back from the second store until halftime of the France vs. Uruguay game. mom said France had scored as soon as i left to go to the local grocery store. figures. France scored again in the second half and won the game 2-0. i did watch all of Brazil vs. Belgium. Belgium outplayed Brazil for the majority of the game, although Brazil made it interesting late. Belgium won 2-1. that means the first semifinals is set. France vs. Belgium. that will happen on Tuesday. tomorrow, Sweden plays England and Russia takes on Croatia.

Big Brother was pretty good last night. when the cast realizes that Steve is a former undercover cop and not a mechanic, they will know they did the right thing voting him out first. Kaitlyn won HOH. she is bat shit crazy, so it should be an entertaining week.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be VICE, NJPW and Major League Wrestling.

i either got too much sun this morning or something i ate has declared war on me as i have spent most of this afternoon sitting on the shitter. i don't mind when a poem or two arises from these situations. but, when it's agony that comes instead of poetry... not good.

the New York Yankees start a series tonight in Toronto. i'd love to see them go on a long winning streak before the All-Star break starts.

i will probably be on here tomorrow sometime in the afternoon. the weather is supposed to finally break here and be somewhat decent. so, i might actually get out and feed the birds for a change.

i hope everyone has a great weekend.

y espero que el mal dentro de ti no quiera matarte

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Beth Orton - Thinking About Tomorrow
Valerie June - Love Told a Lie
Nikka Costa - Nothing Compares 2 U
Charles Lloyd & The Marvels w/Lucinda Williams - Masters of War (Live)

"In the practice of tolerance, one's enemy is the best teacher." - Dalai Lama

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

so much for a sunny day...

when i went out to get the newspaper this morning, it was already muggy as hell. i looked at the clouds and figured we might get a little rain. about 45 minutes later, it was fucking pouring. 3 hours after that, still fucking pouring. we don't get showers anymore, we get flood warnings. at least the grass got cut yesterday. i suppose i really shouldn't have put out the new solar lights and all the bird food. oh well.

the trip to Menards was pretty good yesterday. i found most of what i was looking for, plus a few things that were cheaper than at the grocery store. i kept it under $100, so mom was pleased.

the New York Yankees pissed away a great comeback yesterday and lost 7-6 to Toronto. thank fucking god they are off today. they start a series against the Brewers to take them into the All Star break.

NXT was really good last night. the match between Roderick Strong and Bobby Roode was excellent.

Lucha Underground was good last night.

Snowfall was outstanding last night. i usually will give any new show on FX a try and i'm so happy i decided to watch this one. i will definitely watch this whole season. between the music, the drugs and the acting, fucking fantastic.

Big Brother was hilarious last night. i loved the look on Cody's face when he tried to nominate Paul. i really hope Christmas doesn't get voted out tonight, but who knows.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight and Big Brother.

i did listen to the latest Sam Roberts Wrestling Podcast this morning. you can find that by going here:
https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/sam-roberts-wrestling-podcast/id934576040?mt=2

i think the rain has finally stopped. so, i guess i can go to the post office now and take care of some things.

mom has her second physical therapy session this evening. i believe it's going to be on a Monday and Thursday rotation for the next few weeks.

mom had wanted to go out shopping this morning, but she doesn't do well in the rain either. welcome to the house of arthritis.

i will probably be on here tomorrow after mom's doctor's appointment in the afternoon.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Kaleo - Way Down We Go
Traffic - Dear Mr. Fantasy
Grateful Dead - Morning Dew (Live)
Slayer - Raining Blood

"We can live without religion and meditation, but we cannot survive without human affection." - Dalai Lama

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

the end of a lazy weekend

i was fucking around on iTunes last night, just trying to find some music i might have missed. and then i stumbled on some Martha Wainwright that i hadn't heard before. needless to say, i've been playing that EP to death since last night.

and when i get on the singer/songwriter kick, there will be some poems coming.

the Yankees lost yesterday. in true 2014 Yankee fashion, they lost 2-1 on a throwing error in the bottom of the 11th. just when i think this team is turning the corner they revert back like the chickenshits they are. they finish the series in Minnesota today. i couldn't care less what happens at this point.

the World Cup games were pretty damn good yesterday. Argentina beat Belgium 1-0. first time Argentina has made the semifinals in 24 years. the Netherlands beat Costa Rica on penalty kicks, 4-3. i was thinking Louis van Gaal was nuts for changing goalies right before the end of the game. turns out, the man is a fucking genius. i can't wait until he takes over at Manchester United.

that sets up a final four in the World Cup of Brazil vs. Germany and Netherlands vs. Argentina. four of the biggest and best teams in the world. should be great.

i watched another great episode of ROH last night. would love to see that company take the next step and start to really challenge the WWE.

if the tennis match is still going when i get done with this, i imagine i'll watch some of that as i'm picking up the trash. it's started to rain here, so i'll take my damn time. also, the rained out NASCAR race from yesterday starts soon. i imagine i'll watch some of that as well.

tonight will be a new episode of Big Brother and a new episode of The Leftovers.

had some damn good BBQ from this local food truck yesterday. holy shit it was good. i'm a sucker for some good brisket.

i geeked out when i saw Pink Floyd is putting out a new album. that was a pleasant way to start my day.

that's all for me today kids. i better get started on my "chores" before the weather gets too damn bad. hope everyone has a great end of the weekend.

be well. be creative. be a beacon of hope in the land of darkness. and then be the dirty fucker that likes to play evil games.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Grace Potter - I Shall Be Released
My Morning Jacket - Suspicious Minds (Live)
Martha Wainwright - Bloody Mother Fucking Asshole EP

"Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions." - Dalai Lama

here's a couple of photos i took yesterday

guess what... more rain

i was wondering when i woke up this morning at 7:30 after roughly 3 hours of sleep, why? then i looked outside and noticed the rain. ah, for most people rain helps people sleep. for me, it makes my back so damn tight that i can't sit still, or lay down or walk around. and people wonder why i openly talk about death and drugs.

the Yankees had a HUGE walk off win last night over Baltimore. i didn't think it was going to happen with all the chances they pissed away last night. Nova pitched better than i have ever seen him. a complete game, only a few hits allowed and he was throwing 96 in the 9th inning. they play again here in a few hours. hopefully they can keep the good streak going.

after that, i completely forgot that team USA was playing Guatemala in a friendly tune up for the Gold Cup. luckily i remembered before the start of it. USA with a huge win, 6-0. congrats to Landon Donovan on becoming the first American to score 50 international goals. i am looking forward to the start of the Gold Cup on Tuesday i believe.

so, with 2 victory beers in me, i decided to break out a new notebook and start some poems. i wrote 4 really good ones last night. i typed them up this morning. after the Yankee game this afternoon, i'm planning on going through all the poems and getting the next batch ready for submissions. that is if the rain doesn't stop. if it stops, i'll be outside trying to clean my truck up on the inside for the first time in EVER.

a big thank you to Frontier Communications for once again providing the slowest high speed internet on the face of the earth.

i've got a feeling this evening might be the night i break out the watercolors.

i did go to the Manchester United website yesterday and watched a bit of the David Moyes press conference. i did find it funny how Sir Alex told him the job was his. also, Wayne Rooney isn't for sale (so far) and i'm so happy that my second favorite player of all time, Ryan Giggs, has accepted the role of player-coach. to see a guy who started around the same time i started rooting for the team still going is amazing.

peace and chicken grease.

music today:

Macklemore & Ryan Lewis - The Heist
Various Artists - Def Jam 1985-2001: The History of Hip Hop, Vol. 1
Everlast - Today (Watch Me Shine) (US CD Single)
Dr. Dre - The Chronic

"We can live without religion and meditation, but we cannot live without human affection." - Dalai Lama