no sunshine in a land of rejection and dirty clothes

my last load of laundry is in the clothes dryer. today has been a day of agony. not because of anything happening, just life itself. no sunshine at all today. my back has been tight all damn day long. and i figured why not just totally fuck myself and do my laundry as well today. mom has been gone most of the day visiting my uncle at the nursing home. being home alone reminds me of how easy it is for me to slip into the darkness. play a couple sad songs and next thing you know i'm finishing off a bottle of vodka or scotch. good times.

i did watch the USA Women's soccer game last night. they tried so damn hard to make sure Abby Wambach scored that they forgot to actually just play the game and go win. so, China won 1-0 and it was the first time the women had lost at home in over a decade. it highlighted the one thought i have had since 2001. there is no such thing as a happy ending.

the DVR cut off American Horror Story before it ended last night. thankfully i didn't have to be up all damn night to see it. what a great fucking show. and now i have to wait until January to see what happens next. fuck me.

i heard back from Hiram Poetry Review on my poetry submission back in October. they once again have decided to pass on what i sent.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Big Bang Theory and Life in Pieces.

the New York Rangers play tonight in Minnesota. hopefully they can start stringing some wins together.

i am going to do my best to avoid the NFL game tonight. neither i nor my opponents have anyone playing in the game, so i have no need to watch it for fantasy football.

i am absolutely loving this new Butch Walker song:

be right back, i have clothes to fold.

now that i have that done, i suppose i can now think about taking a shower.

a big thank you to all of you that have sent Christmas cards so far. i really do appreciate it.

whenever we ever get done putting the decorations up (mom was going to start but other shit came up and lord knows she doesn't want me to do it) i'll start wrapping the gifts. i'm hoping i can find some brown paper bags for the bottles.

i hope everyone had a great day. hopefully the sun made an appearance where you live.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

David Bowie - Modern Love
Trampled by Turtles - Alone
Butch Walker - Santa'Self (Fuck Your Christmas Party)

"Nothing is more intolerable than to have to admit to yourself your own errors." - Ludwig van Beethoven

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

leave it to arthritis to ruin the holidays

i was feeling pretty good this afternoon. i just got done watching some wrestling and then it started raining. it's almost like it's a trigger now... my back started to tighten up, my hands started to ache... the whole damn body just wanted to go into a cocoon. it's a damn good thing my mantra is find the pleasure in the pain. i don't suggest that masturbating while in pain is for everyone, but it does have a way of turning the screw so to speak. enjoy the visual.

NXT Takeover: London this afternoon was awesome. i really enjoyed most of the show. i thought the tag team match and the main event were the best ones. plus, anytime you can see Finn Balor come out looking like Jack the Ripper, you know it's going to memorable. it was certainly an excellent way to spend my afternoon.

i guess my uncle is going to be moved to the nursing home right down the street from us. i think the family is having a hard time understanding that he isn't going to be around forever. i don't know if i have ever come across so many people that just are unwilling to accept death as what it is. that there is some cure or hope or whatever the fuck that is going to keep him around forever. quite honestly, it's fucking baffling.

the New York Rangers did just enough to get a win last night. i thought the kids (McIlrath and Skjei) played pretty good. i'd love to see the team keep them both around for the rest of the season. this team needs some youth. a much needed 4-2 win over Edmonton. they go back out on the road next, i believe to Minnesota.

i was happy that Jordan won The Voice last night. he truly has a wonderful voice. plus, to dominate like he has on iTunes all season, he truly deserved to win. that being said, i have no doubt that Emily Ann Roberts will have a much better career in music.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be American Horror Story.

i will be watching Abby Wambach's final game tonight. as a lover of the sport, it can't be understated what she has meant to Women's soccer in this country.

other than that, i will probably be helping my mother with some more Christmas shit.

hopefully i get to bed at a decent hour tonight. i've been finding myself up at 3 in the morning for the last few nights. that's not fun when you wake up usually before 7 in the morning. i guess i will sleep well when i'm dead.

i hope everyone had a great day. if you didn't, go tell someone else about it.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Joe Ely - The Road Goes On Forever (Live)
Tom Waits - Make It Rain (Live)
Dave Mathews Band w/Warren Haynes - Cortez the Killer (Live)

"I don't mean to sound bitter, cold, or cruel, but I am, so that's how it comes out." - Bill Hicks

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