and now it feels like i am stuck in a void...

 i was all ready to get some sleep last night and mom let out a scream at 4:45 AM. i went into her room and turned on the lights and she was wondering where her flowers were. i asked her why would you have flowers in the bed with you? she then told me she loves me and went back to sleep. i mumbled to myself... and people wonder why the fuck i don't get any sleep. good times.

here are your 3 videos for this day of national poetry month:

the Yankees lost last night at home to Oakland, 3-1. they play tonight at Milwaukee.

i did watch a good amount of the NFL Draft last night. i liked what the New Orleans Saints did.

Young Sheldon was very good last night.

here are your highlights from the NHL playoffs last night:

here are your highlights from the NBA playoffs last night:

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, Real Time with Bill Maher and Jerrod Carmichael Reality Show. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.

the New York Rangers play Game 3 of their series with the Capitals tonight at Washington. the Rangers will be looking to go up 3-0 in the series.

i might watch some of rounds 2 and 3 tonight in the NFL draft.

i will probably be on here tomorrow after Manchester United plays at home against Burnley.

i hope everyone has a great weekend...

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Y ahora se siente como si estuviera atrapado en un vacío

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Jana Mila - Somebody New

Viben - Pablo Picasso

Lizz Wright w/Meshell Ndegeocello and Brandee Younger - Your Love

David Gilmour - The Piper's Call

Mary Gauthier - Coney Island Baby

"Writers, particularly poets, always feel exiled in some way - people who don't exactly feel at home, so they try to find a home in language." - Natasha Trethewey

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up too early on a Thursday...

 so, the reason the check engine light was on in the Highlander was due to the same damn reason as three times before. the hose that goes into the air box came loose. as the guy at the dealership told me, that should never happen. so, me made a note in my account and also didn't charge me anything. now, if i could just get that hour back in the waiting room watching fox news. holy shit, no wonder so many people in this country are fucking dumb.

here are your 3 videos for this day of national poetry month:

the Yankees won last night at home against Oakland, 7-3. hopefully, they will win again tonight.

here are your highlights from the NHL playoffs last night.

here are your highlights from the NBA playoffs last night:

The Masked Singer was crazy as usual last night.

the season finale of American Horror Story was good last night.

NJPW was very good last night.

AEW was ok at best last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Young Sheldon.

the first round of the NFL Draft is tonight. i imagine i will watch some of that.

i am running on roughly 3 hours of sleep, so at some point i will crash, that's for certain.

i did get 2 poems written today. i was hoping for a lot more than that. but, i can only squeeze so much water out of the rock anymore.

i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

until then...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Despierto demasiado temprano un jueves

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Ruel Thomas - I Am Today

Eels - Goldy

Cage the Elephant - Ain't No Rest for the Wicked

Foster the People - Pumped Up Kicks

Butthole Surfers - Pepper

"People say conversation is a lost art; how often I have wished it were." - Edward R. Murrow

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one of those days where i definitely feel like an old man

 maybe it was when i was looking for the butterscotch chips that mom wanted... maybe it was straining to bend down and get some cheese... fucking one of those days where i feel like an old man. for those that are interested, my doctors appointment went well yesterday. my weight was down, my A1C was down and my blood pressure was very good. so, all of them were pleased that i seem to be headed back in the right direction. the Trulicity has definitely worked so far.

here are your 3 videos for this day of national poetry month:

the New York Rangers won last night at home against Washington, 4-3. they are now up 2-0 in the series. Game 3 will be Friday at Washington.

here are your highlights from the NHL playoffs last night:

the New York Yankees won last night at home against Oakland, 4-3. hopefully, they will win again tonight.

here are your NBA playoff highlights from last night.

the finale of Shogun was very good last night.

Dark Side of the Ring was excellent last night.

NXT was really good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite, The Masked Singer, NJPW and the season finale of American Horror Story.

grocery shopping went pretty well today. nothing was that crowded, so that helped.

i got home in time to watch the second half of the Manchester United game today at home against Sheffield United. the boys found a way to win while not playing great again. Manchester United won 4-2.

not sure what i am doing for dinner tonight.

i have to take the Highlander in to the dealership tomorrow at 9:45 AM. so, i know i need to get to bed a little earlier than normal tonight if i want to be able to function like whatever the fuck a normal human is like.

i should be on here tomorrow in the afternoon.

until then kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

me siento como un anciano

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Caravan Palace - Mirrors

Drew Holcomb & The Neighbors - Suffering

Beth Gibbons - Floating On A Moment

Local Natives - April

Zsela - Fire Excape

"I want women to be liberated and still be able to have a nice ass and shake it." - Shirley MacLaine

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nothing like waking up after a solid two hours of sleep...

 and here i thought i was doing the right thing and got to bed before 3 AM last night. so, when i woke up and looked at the clock and it said 5:48 AM, i was like what the fuck. thankfully, i was able to fall back asleep until 8:30 AM. 

here are your 3 videos for this day of national poetry month:

the Yankees lost yesterday at home to Oakland, 2-0. hopefully, the offense will wake the fuck up and they will win tonight.

here are your highlights from the NHL playoffs last night:

here are your highlights from the NBA playoffs last night:

The Voice last night was really good.

Monday Night Raw was very good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NXT, Dark Side of the Ring and the finale of Shogun.

the New York Rangers play Game 2 tonight at home against Washington. hopefully, the boys will be up 2-0 in the series after tonight.

i have a doctors appointment this afternoon. i'm hoping the Trulicity has had a positive effect on my A1C. 

i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.

i'm not looking forward to the rain later today.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Nada como despertarse después de dos horas seguidas de sueño.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

MAKR EN ERIS - Get In The Water

melotheory - Breathe

The Beatles - Oh! Darling

The Goo Goo Dolls - Iris

Bob Marley - No Woman, No Cry (Live)

"Good luck needs no explanation." - Shirley Temple

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happy earth day

 so, i woke up this morning and my back told me to go fuck myself. yeah, it has been one of those days...

here are your 3 videos for this day of national poetry month:

the Yankees won yesterday at home against Tampa Bay, 5-4. they are playing Oakland today at home, it is currently 0-0 in the 7th inning.

the New York Rangers won Game 1 yesterday at home against Washington, 4-1. Game 2 will be Tuesday night.

here are your highlights from the NHL playoffs yesterday:

here are your highlights from the NBA playoffs yesterday:

A Gentleman in Moscow was very good last night.

The Sympathizer was excellent last night.

The Jinx Part 2 was good last night.

Last Week Tonight was BRILLIANT as usual.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Voice and Monday Night Raw.

i should be on here tomorrow before i go to my doctor's appointment.

i hope everyone had a great weekend.

go out and enjoy the weather, plant a tree, pick up some trash, whatever feels good for the earth today.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

feliz día de la Tierra

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Nina Simone - Do I Move You?

Peter Gabriel - In Your Eyes (Live)

Willie Dixon - You Shook Me

Thelonoius Monk - Body and Soul (Live)

Guided By Voices - Do the Earth

"The optimist thinks this is the best of all possible worlds. The pessimist fears it is true." 

                                                                - J. Robert Oppenheimer

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that took another 10 years off of my life...

 as a sports fan, i pretty much have seen it all. today is just another chapter of it, but, i am thankful i am 48 years old, so i know not to ever get my hopes up. when Manchester United went up 3-0 today in the FA Cup semifinal, i figured they would win but it wouldn't be like in the past. in the past, United goes up 3-0 and they would win either 3-1 or maybe 5-2, something like that. this United team lacks every single bit of confidence that all the United teams had before. and i sadly know that all too well. so, of course, United pissed that lead away and ended up going to extra time at 3-3 against Coventry. Coventry thought they had won the game in the 122nd minute, but they were offside by maybe an inch. probably even less than that. so the game went to penalty kicks. United won those 4-2, to advance to the FA Cup final against Manchester City. you could tell no one was particularly pleased that United won this way. to be honest, it feels like a fucking loss, which would have spared the potential embarrassment of what Manchester City will most likely do to them in the final. regardless, i'm not sure how ETH keeps his job and i'm not sure the new top brass has the guts to sell off all the players that need to leave. i was hoping for a way less stressful beginning to my Sunday. 

here are your 3 videos for this day of national poetry month:

the Yankees lost yesterday at home to Tampa Bay, 2-0, in 10 innings. hopefully, they will win the series today.

here are your highlights from the NBA playoffs yesterday:

here are your highlights from the NHL playoffs yesterday:

AEW Collision and AEW Rampage were both pretty good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be A Gentleman in Moscow, The Sympathizer, The Jinx Part 2 and Last Week Tonight.

the New York Rangers play Game 1 of their playoff series this afternoon at home against Washington.

i'm sure i will watch plenty of sports today.

i hope your Saturday was good. i hope your Sunday will be even better.

i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

until then kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Eso me quitó otros diez años de vida.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Tyler Childers - Going Home (Live)

Gillian Welch & David Rawlings - Hello in There

Jason Isbell - Traveling Alone (Live)

Davina and The Vagabonds - Find My Love

Eric Church - Sinners Like Me (Live)

"A ruffled mind makes a restless pillow." - Charlotte Bronte

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response from Cajun Mutt Press...

 i heard back from Cajun Mutt Press on my poetry submission from back in February. my poems "mojo nixon" and "this darkened heart of mine" have been accepted for publication in Night Owl Narrative issue #5. my poem "a broken life" has been accepted for publication on the website on May 10th.

puff puff pass...

 happy 4/20 everyone. i definitely could use some marijuana today. 

here are your three videos for this day of national poetry month:

the Yankees won last night at home against Tampa Bay, 5-3. hopefully, they will win again this afternoon.

Smackdown and NXT Level Up were both really good last night.

Real Time with Bill Maher was excellent last night.

Jerrod Carmichael Reality Show was very uncomfortable to watch last night. i loved it.

here are your highlights from the final two NBA play in games from last night:

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be AEW Collision and AEW Rampage.

the NBA playoffs start today.

the NHL playoffs start today.

i will be watching plenty of those at some point today.

i did get on the website this morning to make an appointment for the Highlander. the earliest i could get was for Thursday morning. fuck me.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday.

i am going to try to be on here tomorrow before Manchester United plays in the FA Cup semifinals.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

¿Por qué no todos nos drogamos?

be well. be creative.be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Cypress Hill - I Wanna Get High

G. Love & Special Sauce - Who's Got The Weed

The Charlie Daniels Band - Long Haired Country Boy

Jack Johnson - Willie Got Me Stoned (Live)

Gov't Mule - Don't Step On the Grass, Sam (Live)

"Acceptance and tolerance and forgiveness, those are life-altering lessons." - Jessica Lange

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well of course the check engine light would come on...

 i tell ya, i swear on most days i think i am fucking cursed. it is a rare day when i think i actually have some good luck. today was my usual type of day. mom has been up for probably over 24 hours now. she didn't sleep at all last night. i told her when i got home from Menards she better sit down and try to sleep before i strap her the fuck in and make her go to sleep. she started whining and said i hate her. i laughed and told her calmly, i'll never hate you more than i hate myself. she wasn't quite sure how to take that one. the check engine light came on as i was going to Menards. it wasn't blinking, so i know that meant it was fine to keep driving. i'm going to get on the dealer's website in the morning and see when i can get an appointment to take the Highlander in. i found everything i was looking for at Menards.

here are your 3 videos for this day of national poetry month:

Young Sheldon was very good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, Real Time with Bill Maher and Jerrod Carmichael Reality Show. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.

the Yankees play tonight at home against Tampa Bay.

the NHL playoffs start tomorrow.

the final NBA play in games are tonight.

i have no damn clue what i'm making for dinner tonight. i didn't have lunch until 5 PM.

i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

i hope everyone has a great weekend.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Por supuesto, se encendería la luz de verificación del motor.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Sharon Jones & The Dap Kings - Don't Wanna Lose You

Myia Thornton - Never Good 4 Me

Apifera - Theodor Marmalade

Childish Gambino - Redbone

TV on the Radio - Will Do

"I'm always looking for meaningful one-night stands." - Dudley Moore

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no good deed...

 so, i was trying to help mom outside water the plants she got and of course, the hose is warped or some shit. so, i tried to get the nozzle off and fucked up my hands royally. joy. i did get mom to her appointment today to get her back injection. hopefully, she will feel better for the next few weeks at least.

below are your 3 videos for this day of national poetry month:

the New York Yankees won yesterday at Toronto, 6-4. that was one hell of a comeback. they are off today and play tomorrow night at home against Tampa Bay.

AEW Dynamite was pretty good last night.

NJPW was good last night.

Abbott Elementary was hilarious last night.

The Masked Singer was crazy as usual last night.

American Horror Story was fucking insane last night. the season finale is next week.

here are your NBA play in games highlights from last night:

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Young Sheldon.

i think i am making some nachos for dinner tonight. 

i need to go to Menards to get some things tomorrow. i should be on here after i get all that done.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

ninguna buena acción...

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Allman Brothers Band - Ramblin' Man

Slash & Chris Stapleton - Oh Well

Guided By Voices - Serene King

Elephant Music - A Girl Like You

Pearl Jam - Come Back (Live)

"I write to get it out of me. I don't write it to remember it." - Kathy Acker

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just a few drops here and there...

 it did rain here overnight and a little this morning. most of the heavy shit today has been to our north. all we had was a few drops while i was busy grocery shopping.

here are your 3 videos for this day of national poetry month:

the Yankees lost last night at Toronto, 5-4. they are losing today 3-1 in the 7th inning.

NXT was really good last night.

Dark Side of the Ring was very good last night.

Shogun was amazing last night. the finale is next week.

here are your highlights from the NBA play in games last night:

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite, Abbott Elementary, The Masked Singer, American Horror Story and NJPW.

the New York Rangers will play the Washington Capitals in the first round of the NHL playoffs. that will be a fun one, especially if the Rangers knock Ovechkin out of the playoffs.

grocery shopping went pretty good today. nothing was really crowded, so that was a plus.

i should be on here tomorrow after i take mom to get her back injection. she is really looking forward to that.

i have no clue what i'm doing for dinner tonight. 

i'll figure that out after i ice down my back for a bit.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Sólo unas pocas gotas de lluvia aquí y allá.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Fantastic Cat - All My Fault

Cigarettes After Sex - Dark Vacay

Travis - Gaslight

Tone Royal w/Daddy NAT - Alone

Blondshell w/Bully - Docket

"Every good thing in the world stands on the razor-edge of danger." - Thornton Wilder

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