well, it certainly feels like fall...

we were supposed to have all these storms last night, rain, etc. as i have joked for years, the state line of apathy that is the border between Indiana and Ohio, tends to sap the energy of most large storms. but, it was pleasant to feel a cool breeze when i went out to get the paper this morning. and, we're actually able to turn the air conditioner off and open up the new windows.

i did do a little poetry work last night. i believe i know where the next 13 poems are going. that will probably happen at some point this weekend.

i had a fascinating conversation with the muse last night. of course, i wasn't expecting to be called a loser during it, but i suppose that's the price for this life.

the New York Yankees tried to give away lead after lead last night against Baltimore. thankfully, they weren't quite able to do that. the Yankees won 10-8. that brings their magic number to get in the playoffs down to 2. hopefully, they will win again this afternoon.

VICE was really good last night.

NJPW was very good last night.

Real Time with Bill Maher was excellent last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH.

the Manchester United game this morning isn't on television, so i guess i will follow the game online.

i believe the window for the installer from Best Buy to be here starts soon. i figure they won't be here until around noon.

i'm hoping Ohio State will win easily today against Tulane. i know they are a big favorite in the game.

the New York Rangers play the New York Islanders tonight.

i will probably be on here tomorrow before the New Orleans Saints play.

i hope everyone has a good Saturday.

cada sueño muere en algún momento

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Emma Ruth Rundle - Races
Open Mike Eagle - Daydreaming In The Projects
American Pleasure Club - Smoking Rock with My Angel in Milwaukee

"I suspect the older you get the more invisible you become." - Nick Cave

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i do say, the bags under my eyes are impressive...

i'm back in the cycle of my brain never shutting off at night. i've tried different music, i've tried no light, some light. i've tried different positions. i suppose now i have to go to illegal drugs to see if i can get at least 6 hours of fucking sleep without being awake the entire time. i could see if i was just fucking stressed out or something, but i'm not. part of me thinks this is all my body "celebrating" the 10 year anniversary of when i should have died. and as much as i want to believe i survived a blood clot that was my entire left leg and 60 pulmonary embolisms in my lungs because i still had a purpose, it's hard to see what that is 10 years later. i can't imagine it was because the world still need a few dirty poems to make it laugh.

i went to the bank today to make a deposit. the woman that i have written about wasn't working. figures. after that, i went to the grocery store to pick up some prescriptions. it's fucking humid as hell outside.

the New York Yankees survived some shitty defense last night to defeat Boston 3-2. that postpones Boston's division title for at least a night. hopefully, they can do the same again tonight.

Smackdown was really good last night.

The Jim Jefferies Show was fucking hilarious last night.

Mayans M.C. was excellent last night, especially the ending.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Lucha Underground, Big Brother, Mr. Mercedes, American Horror Story and Total Divas. i'll watch NXT, 205 Live and Mae Young Classic sometime tonight on WWE Network.

the New York Rangers play at home tonight in a pre-season game against Philadelphia.

Manchester United plays this afternoon in the Champions League. i'm going to try to find the game online since it's not on television here.

i'm going to try to be on here in the morning tomorrow before i have to take mom back to Best Buy to drop off her laptop. i think she needs a new battery for it. plus, she forgot to tell them yesterday that she wants them to take the old television when they deliver the new one on Saturday. and since i told her to get the whole home protection plan when she got the new television, having them take the old television is going to be $85 cheaper now.

hopefully, i will have 3 drinks in my hands late tonight celebrating 3 victories. it hardly ever works out that way, but a guy can dream.

until tomorrow kids.

nunca es bueno cuando la realidad comienza a ensombrecer tu corazón

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Iron & Wine - Waves of Galveston
Shawn James - Ain't No Sunshine
Valerie June - Love Told a Lie

"Life is full of ironies and absurdities." - Adam West

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who drinks coffee and then gets sleepy?

i swear, i think i'm the only person on earth that fucking drinks coffee and then gets sleepy. it never fails. i'll have a nice cup of coffee and in under 2 hours i'm slowly drained and tired. or, maybe my body is just slowly rejecting all of life.

you would think this morning would have been a good one. 3 different poems published. another morning alive. yet, i opened a fucking email from my former best friend that was written last night and that has left a shitty taste in my mouth. i'm guessing she had to write the email to somehow, in her mind, be the better person before she dies. she wanted to forgive me. that made me laugh out loud. this coming from the cunt who went to the authorities and said i was stealing from her. i couldn't give two shits what stage your cancer is or how close you are to dying. in my world, you are already dead.

i did watch a good portion of the New York Rangers game last night. although it was a pre-season game, if the team is going to play like that all season, they will at least be entertaining. the Rangers defeated New Jersey 4-3 in OT last night.

Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Smackdown, The Jim Jefferies Show and Mayans M.C.

the New York Yankees game that was supposed to be played this afternoon is now going to be played tonight. all that does is make Boston wait a few hours before celebrating.

i'm getting ready to go out with mom and get a new television for the living room. i think after we go to Best Buy she'll want to go out to lunch.

i will be on here tomorrow before Manchester United plays in the Champions League.

Celebraré tu muerte como si fuera un nuevo año

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Whitey Morgan and the 78's - Me and the Whiskey
Band of Horses - No One's Gonna Love You
Tinsley Ellis - Kiss of Death
Tom Waits - 16 Shells from a Thirty-Ought Six (Live)

"Life would be so wonderful if we only knew what to do with it." - Greta Garbo

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i felt like i was dying last night...

i decided to take a shower last night as i knew it was going to be nearly impossible to take one this morning. i got the water at just the right temperature for my back. it felt so damn good. and then it just kept getting hotter. the more i would turn it down, it still felt hot. i finished the shower as fast as i could, but it got so damn hot that i nearly passed out. i had to sit down on the toilet and tell mom to get a fan going and some cold water for me. she said i looked like i was dying. i told her to stop dreaming. that was pure fucking misery. after about 15 minutes of cooling down and taking a shit, i started to feel better. if it ain't one thing, it's another. it never fucking fails.

the New York Yankees lost last night, 9-3 to the Marlins. if the Yankees want to know why they won't win the division this year, it's all the games they have lost to last place teams. speaking of that, the Yankees are off tonight and start a series tomorrow in Baltimore.

NXT was pretty good last night.

Lucha Underground was excellent last night.

Big Brother was good last night. i believe Scottie will be voted out tonight.

Mr. Mercedes was really good last night. it's obvious that season 2 is going to be a mindfuck.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Big Brother and Snowfall.

i did listen to episode #200 of Notsam Wrestling today. you can find that by going here:
http://notsam.com/wrestlingpodcast/2018/8/23/notsam-wrestling-200-alexa-bliss

mom's doctor's appointment went pretty good today. she met with the physician's assistant. she seemed way more interested than mom's usual doctor does. she answered all of mom's questions and recommended mom meet with the doctor in their building that does full evaluations for disabilities. that will be an 8 AM appointment sometime in September i do believe.

after that, we went to lunch at Rusty Bucket. that was good. after that, mom said she wanted to go to Best Buy and look at televisions. i think we found a 60 inch one at a good price. now, she just has to decide does she want it mounted? what kind of sound bar? does she want a new one in her room as well? and hopefully do that before the fucking sale is over. i got a new mouse and a little toy while i was there. i'm hoping the new mouse takes care of some of my frustrations while i'm on the computer and my arthritis is going nuts. it does feel much better in my hand. plus, it's a wireless one.

i'll be on here tomorrow after a trip to the grocery store.

i hope everyone has a wonderful Thursday evening...

¿Por qué una mujer con tatuajes me vuelve loco?

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

David Bowie - Modern Love
Lynyrd Skynyrd - Saturday Night Special
ZZ Top - Hot, Blue and Righteous
Marvin Gaye - Let's Get It On (Live)

"I don't want to die in a car accident. When I die it'll be a glorious day. It'll probably be a waterfall."
                                                                                                                           - River Phoenix

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the sun is supposed to shine this weekend

i was amazed at how quickly mom and i made it to her appointment this morning. usually the highway is a fucking mess in the morning. i did bring along my pen and little notebook, just in case the words hit me in the waiting room. i ended up writing 5 poems this morning. i think i will wait to type them up. i'm hoping that i'll be using my new computer (hopefully soon) to type them up. as for my mother, her procedure went well. no cancer, nothing crazy. she has diverticulosis. she will be on a high fiber diet, probably for the rest of her life most likely. she will get the result from the biopsies in a few days i guess. she's pretty relieved that it wasn't cancer, especially with what is going on with her brother. after we left the hospital, we went to Perkins. she was hungry and wanted some real food.

i guess they didn't start to work on our new computer until this afternoon. the guy at Best Buy gave us the impression they were going to at least start the process last night. so i'll go ahead and assume we'll be picking up the computer after the basketball game tomorrow afternoon.

i watched most of that crazy ass football game last night. i can't believe Green Bay came back to win.

the New York Rangers were asleep for most of the game last night against Colorado. i guess it was too much to ask to have great efforts in back to back games. they lost 2-1 and have certainly hit the skids or, reality is finally catching up with them.

i didn't watch any of The Wiz. i figure i will watch that sometime over the holidays.

enjoy some music kids:

i'm really starting to feel old when guys i saw in concert back in the 90's are coming up dead less than 20 years later. rest in peace Scott. the demons won't bother you anymore.
http://www.rollingstone.com/music/news/scott-weiland-dead-at-48-20151204

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on the DVR tonight will be Undateable, NJPW and The Knick.

i will probably be on here later tomorrow as Manchester United plays in the morning and i will be leaving shortly after that game to go see the Dayton Flyers take on North Florida.

i haven't given much thought to a Flashback Friday, so here is another lazy example of my brilliance:
wise enough to keep driving (first published in Gutter Eloquence Magazine 2012)
too many pieces to count (first published in The Camel Saloon 2012)
the first crack of thunder (first published in Jellyfish Whispers 2012)

i hope everyone has a great weekend. drink until your blind, only fuck the ones that cough and call if you need bail money.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Lucinda Williams - Change the Locks (Live)
Trampled By Turtles - Where Is My Mind? (Live)
Trent Reznor - Hurt (Live)

"Life is the art of drawing sufficient conclusions from insufficient premises." - Samuel Butler

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and i continue to fail forward

i woke up to snow this morning. nothing more than just a dusting on the grass, but of course, panic was in the air. thankfully, my cough got much better today after i brought up something about the size of an eyeball. good times.

if you could have seen the look on the guy at Best Buy when he opened up our computer today. he just looked at us and asked if you guys have thought about buying a new computer. i love how something in 8 years can be fucking obsolete. we ended up getting a new Dell computer with a ton of memory and enough space to have the old hard drive put on the new computer. hopefully everything will still be there. i'm guessing they will have the new computer ready tomorrow sometime.

so after that $1,000 mom and i went to Menards. i promised her we would get out of there under $100. true to my word, i got everything i needed and she got something she wanted and it all came up to $66.

i thought we were going to the grocery store today but mom isn't up to it. she has her colonoscopy tomorrow so she's hungry and cranky as hell. good times. i'm the lucky one that gets to take her tomorrow.

the New York Rangers played much, much better last night. sadly, they lost 2-1 in a shootout to the fucking Islanders. they will hopefully get back to winning tonight when they play Colorado at home.

NXT was really good last night. American Horror Story was crazy as hell. plus, i loved the twist. You're The Worst was excellent last night. they have done an excellent job with the depression angle.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Wiz Live on NBC. i will be flipping between the hockey game and the football game as i have a few fantasy players going tonight between Green Bay and Detroit.

i sent some poems to Dead Snakes today. for some reason Stephen never got the poems i sent him back in September. hopefully i don't have problems like that with the new computer, although i'm pretty sure i will.

that's all for me today. i really need to get some sleep tonight as i have to have mom to her appointment 1 hour before she's supposed to be there. god willing, they will start the procedure early. i will bring along my little notebook... god knows what kind of poems i come up with tomorrow.

i hope everyone had a great day.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Butthole Surfers - Pepper
Jason Isbell - 24 Frames
Portishead - Glory Box

"Of all the things I've lost I miss my mind the most." - Ozzy Osbourne

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let's start the month off with an adventure

so mom and i take my computer down to Best Buy this afternoon. they won't do anything because we don't have an appointment. mom tells this guy that she called this store last night and called the 1-800 number and was told to just come in. so, we have to make the same fucking drive tomorrow for a 4 PM appointment. i'm also at the point where i'll just say fuck it and get a new one.

i left out the morning adventure of taking mom to this outpatient place to bring them a stool sample. mom has no sense of smell anymore. i'm not that lucky.

after Best Buy we went to lunch. our waitress might have been 4 feet tall. but she had a crazy body, expect some poems about that before too long. on the way home from lunch, my stomach decided to rumble and make life interesting. driving home while trying to not think about shitting your pants isn't a new experience for me. just my luck, the new toilet we got didn't come with a seat for some fucking reason. and the one on there isn't a good fit for my fat ass, so i'm still shitting in my mother's bathroom. thankfully, no shit ended up on the carpet. good times.

welcome to the life of a poet people.

the New York Rangers ended their losing streak last night but are still playing shit hockey. and now the injuries are starting to pile up. still, i'll gladly take the 2 points from a 4-3 win over Carolina.

i thought The Voice last night was really good. i have no fucking clue who is going home tonight.

Monday Night Raw was more of the same old shit. some really good stuff (The New Day and a flashback to ECW 20 years ago) and a whole bunch of throw some shit against the wall and hope something sticks.

thankfully, Gotham last night was as close to perfect as a show can come. every second of it was awesome. the ending had me right on the edge of my seat. i can't wait for the show to come back in February.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Voice, The Muppets, Scream Queens and the special on AIDS by VICE tonight on HBO.

i think whatever little cold mom had she has now given it to me. fucking great.

that's all for me today. i need to get the trash picked up and get next door and get their trash as well. good times.

i hope everyone is doing better than i am. if not, i suppose that's why they invented alcohol.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Concrete Blonde - Tomorrow, Wendy
The Firm - Satisfaction Guaranteed
Nick Cave And The Bad Seeds - Push the Sky Away

"Everyone carries around his own monsters." - Richard Pryor

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