sometimes you have to out-crazy the crazy...

 so, when i started the drive around noon today to take mom out to her eye appointment, i was hoping the traffic was going to be good. for the most part, other than being followed by a sheriff for a few miles, it was a decent ride. eventually, i found the place after a wrong turn. sometimes mom gets her lefts and rights confused these days. i know they wanted us there early to finish filling out the paperwork which mom could never get to come up on her phone or ipad. eventually, they called her back. the first guy she saw was sort of this matter of fact i don't need the story guy. he was filling in all her paperwork on the computer. mom is wordy when she gets nervous, and i could tell her anxiety was really fucking with her on this. eventually, she got used to what the guy was asking and calmed down. by the time she saw the second doctor, she was pretty good. her right eye is the worst eye, so that would be the one they would do surgery on first. it is going to be tricky if mom decides to have it, as she would have to lay flat for 24 hours afterwards. given her spinal stenosis, i have no clue if this is even possible. she made the comment on the way home that she wishes she never would have made this appointment. i understood what she meant. she knows what is possible but also knows what her physical ailments are that could limit her chances of it really being successful. 

so, the drive home was crazy. i could see behind me that two cars were weaving in and out of traffic, almost like they were either filming shit for YouTube or this was the beginning of some road rage shit. so, i fucking floored it to get around the truck in front of me and get plenty away from those fucks. thankfully, there were no cops around since i was going 50 mph over the speed limit. i hate the long drives for mom because every bump in the road she can feel in her back. and here in Ohio, since no one wants to pay taxes, the roads are shit. good times.

the New York Rangers won last night at home over Carolina, 2-1. that's 6 wins in a row. it was a costly one though, as Adam Fox got injured on some cheap shit from Sebastian Aho and is now out 2-4 weeks. Filip Chytil is out as well. and i guess Igor Shesterkin is dealing with an injury as well. joy.

i did see a little of the NFL game last night.

Big Brother was good last night. Cirie was evicted and Bowie Jane is the new HOH.

NJPW was really good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, AEW Rampage and Real Time with Bill Maher. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.

here are your NBA highlights from last night.

i am going to try to be on here tomorrow before Manchester United plays. also before Ohio State plays and WWE Crown Jewel comes on.

i hope everyone has a great weekend.

i need to get going and make dinner. i'm making chicken alfredo tonight.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

A veces tienes que estar más loco que el resto

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

TV's Goodtimes - Cornered By

Sentimental Family Band - Talking To Strangers

Becca Mancari - Over and Over

XTR HUMAN - I want more

Band of Horses - Is There A Ghost (Live Acoustic)

"Imperfection is fine." - Anna Wintour

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the last day of calm

 since tomorrow is supposed to be rainy, muggy and windy as fuck, i took today as the last day of calm. it was nice to just relax a bit and watch some soccer and unwind. of course, that only lasted for a few hours. mom had a nurse out here this afternoon. thankfully, her birthday gifts did arrive this morning. she loved the lamp and night light i got her. and we finally have some tomatoes showing up on the back porch. of course, with hail in the forecast tomorrow, i'm going to have to figure out where we can move the plants to save them. good times.

here are your highlights from the NBA playoffs last night:

here are your highlights from the NHL playoffs last night:

the USWNT defeated Nigeria last night, 2-0.

the Yankees won last night against the Blue Jays, 3-2. they go for the sweep tonight.

i did watch most of the Euro 2020 games today. the best game of the day was Belgium coming from behind to beat Denmark, 2-1.

i might watch some of the Copa America tonight. i usually don't pass up the chance to watch Brazil play. Colombia and Venezuela are playing right now.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, The United States of Al, Clarice and two episodes of Holey Moley. i watched NXT UK this afternoon on Peacock, it was really good.

i'm sure i'll watch some of the NHL and NBA playoffs tonight.

i have no clue what time i will be on here tomorrow. the storms are supposed to start right after sunrise. so, i doubt i will get a good night of sleep. joy.

to the 14 members of the house that voted against Juneteenth becoming a federal holiday, please go fuck yourselves.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay socially distant.

get the shot.

tengo la sensación de que la muerte llamará a mi puerta pronto

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

MGMT - Time to Pretend

The Airborne Toxic Event - Sometime Around Midnight

Band of Horses - No One's Gonna Love You

Framing Hanley - Lollipop

"For every prohibition you create, you also create an underground." - Jello Biafra

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apparently, i will sleep more when i die...

i think i am going through another stage of insomnia. joy. i didn't get to bed last night until 5 this morning. if my brain would be working on poems, baseball cards, overthrowing the world, i wouldn't mind it at all. instead, i'm stuck thinking of loneliness, despair, new ways to consider old deaths, what exactly a clean death would look like and what would be the perfect opening line of my obituary. good times.

well, the Columbus Blue Jackets pissed away a 3 goal lead last night and lost to Toronto 4-3 in OT. they now will play a Game 5 tomorrow. winner moves on, loser goes home.

Smackown was pretty good last night, as was 205 Live.

Real Time with Bill Maher was excellent last night.

Room 104 was weird last night, and really good.

the Yankees lost last night 1-0 down in Tampa. hopefully, the bats will come alive in today's doubleheader.

i had to go to the store to get mom's pills this morning. thankfully, it wasn't too crowded.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH.

i will probably watch some hockey today, as well as some of the NBA.

that's all for me kids.

i have a bad back to go ice down and watch some baseball.

if i get a wild hair up my ass tonight, i may send some poems out.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

wear your mask.

la soledad es una cicatriz en el alma

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Freekbass - Runaway
Macy Gray - Stoned (Live)
Tedeschi Trucks Band - Walk Through This Life
Band of Horses - The Funeral
Antony and the Johnsons - Knockin' On Heaven's Door

"It is better to die on your feet than to live on your knees." - Emiliano Zapata

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don't worry, the words will come...

i was all ready last night to write out the pain. 2 fucking hours later and nothing on the page. the younger me would have been pissed and full of panic and rage. i'm old. i simply went to bed. this morning, of course while taking a shit, the first good line of the month popped into my head. i ended up writing my first 3 poems of December today. they are really, really good. they will be included in my first submissions of the month.

i went to the bank today to make a deposit. there's a certain happiness i get when i'm the only white guy in a place and i don't feel threatened or worried. i was a little surprised how busy it was and then i remembered what day it was.

i'll be back in a bit, the last load of my laundry just got done in the dryer...

ok, i'm back...

when the New York Rangers were up 3-0 going into the 3rd period yesterday, i was pretty happy. when they ended up losing to Winnipeg in the shootout, 4-3, i was pretty pissed. much like i said yesterday, the Vic Hadfield ceremony would be the best part of the game.

the season finale of Camping was hilarious last night.

Ray Donovan was really good last night.

Enemies: The President, Justice & the FBI was about the Clinton presidency last night. i can remember sitting at a table at a friend's house telling everyone the economy was too good for him to be impeached and removed from office. i did enjoy watching all the Republicans then that wanted blood are the same ones now protecting Trump as much as possible.

Escape at Dannemora was excellent last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, The Voice and Say Her Name: The Life and Death of Sandra Bland. i'll be watching Monday Night Raw for most of the evening, unless it fucking sucks again this week.

Ohio State didn't make the playoffs. i figured that would happen. they will play Washington in the Rose Bowl on New Year's Day. hopefully, they will get a victory.

i hope everyone had a great weekend.

i'll be on here early tomorrow since the Dayton Flyers have a home game tomorrow night. and as of right now, i think mom is going to go with me.

Y aquí viene otra mujer hermosa que quiere hablar conmigo ...

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Band of Horses - No One's Gonna Love You
Q Lazzarus - Goodbye Horses
Rufus - Tell Me Something Good
Morphine - French Fries With Pepper
Bruce Springsteen - I'm on Fire

"Words, as is well known, are the great foes of reality."- Joseph Conrad

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who drinks coffee and then gets sleepy?

i swear, i think i'm the only person on earth that fucking drinks coffee and then gets sleepy. it never fails. i'll have a nice cup of coffee and in under 2 hours i'm slowly drained and tired. or, maybe my body is just slowly rejecting all of life.

you would think this morning would have been a good one. 3 different poems published. another morning alive. yet, i opened a fucking email from my former best friend that was written last night and that has left a shitty taste in my mouth. i'm guessing she had to write the email to somehow, in her mind, be the better person before she dies. she wanted to forgive me. that made me laugh out loud. this coming from the cunt who went to the authorities and said i was stealing from her. i couldn't give two shits what stage your cancer is or how close you are to dying. in my world, you are already dead.

i did watch a good portion of the New York Rangers game last night. although it was a pre-season game, if the team is going to play like that all season, they will at least be entertaining. the Rangers defeated New Jersey 4-3 in OT last night.

Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Smackdown, The Jim Jefferies Show and Mayans M.C.

the New York Yankees game that was supposed to be played this afternoon is now going to be played tonight. all that does is make Boston wait a few hours before celebrating.

i'm getting ready to go out with mom and get a new television for the living room. i think after we go to Best Buy she'll want to go out to lunch.

i will be on here tomorrow before Manchester United plays in the Champions League.

Celebraré tu muerte como si fuera un nuevo año

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Whitey Morgan and the 78's - Me and the Whiskey
Band of Horses - No One's Gonna Love You
Tinsley Ellis - Kiss of Death
Tom Waits - 16 Shells from a Thirty-Ought Six (Live)

"Life would be so wonderful if we only knew what to do with it." - Greta Garbo

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a new week with old problems...

first off, let's get the poetry news out of the way. i heard back from Nerve Cowboy on my poetry submission from back in February. they decided to pass on the poems. at least they did apologize for the delay in their response.

i also wrote 3 more poems last night. i got on a wild brainstorm last night while watching Twin Peaks. more on that later. i typed up the poems this morning and really, really liked them. i'm shooting for sending out another round of submissions in the next couple of days.

Old Timer's Day yesterday was a good dose of nostalgia. and sadly, it was more entertaining than most of the Yankees game yesterday. Texas got up 7-0 before the Yankees did anything. they ended up losing 7-6. oh well. thankfully, the division sucks this year and the Yankees, losers of their last 10 out of 12, are still tied for first place. they start a series tonight in Chicago against the White Sox.

the Confederations Cup went pretty much how i thought it would yesterday. Germany defeated Cameroon 3-1 and Chile did just enough to advance in a 1-1 draw with Australia. that sets up the semifinals of Portugal vs. Chile and Germany vs. Mexico. that should be a nice preview of potential World Cup matches next year.

the season finale of Veep last night was hilarious.

the season finale of Silicon Valley was really good.

Last Week Tonight was excellent as always.

it figured that Nine Inch Nails would perform on one of the most surreal episodes of Twin Peaks EVER. thank god i could pause the television. the brainstorm on top of the mindfuck was coming at me a thousand miles per hour. i needed the break just to compose thoughts to be able to write them down for a poem.

I'm Dying Up Here was pretty funny last night.

Power was excellent last night. i can't wait to see where this season goes.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight. i'll be watching Monday Night Raw for most of the evening.

i might check out the NBA Awards tonight for shits and giggles.

i will be on here early tomorrow as mom's physical therapy appointment got moved to tomorrow afternoon.

i hope everyone had a great weekend.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Eric Burdon & WAR - Spill the Wine
Band of Horses - In a Drawer
The Band - When I Paint My Masterpiece
Nine Inch Nails - She's Gone Away

"The true measure of a man is what he would do if he knew he would never get caught." - Lord Kelvin

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advancing by losing...

i figured with Manchester United having a 2 goal lead, Hull was going to come out firing on all cylinders and United was going to sit back and try to pick them off on the counter attack. but, the wildcard in every sporting event is shitty officiating. the blind cunt doing the game today gave Hull a goal when he awarded a soft as hell penalty shot. he had 4 different chances to give United a penalty kick but of course, that's where the blind part comes in. thankfully Paul Pogba scored to even the game at 1-1. Hull would go on to score late, but given the 2 goal advantage, it wouldn't be enough. United's long ass unbeaten streak is over but they have advanced to the EFL Cup final at Wembley.

the New York Rangers lost last night 2-0 to Philadelphia. they outplayed the Flyers for most of the game. this goes down as one of those trust the process not the result games. they are off now for the All-Star break. hopefully they all get healthy.

i thought NXT was pretty good last night. the Takeover event on Saturday should be a good one.

the mid-season finale of Total Divas was pretty funny last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Baskets, Fuck, That's Delicious, The Pizza Show, Lip Sync Battle and Caraoke Showdown.

i did listen to the latest Sam Roberts Wrestling Podcast today. you can find that by going here:
http://notsam.com/wrestlingpodcast/2017/1/26/wrestling-podcast-118-he-hate-me-charlie-ebersol

i did write a poem last night. i haven't typed it up yet as i'm hoping to write a few more. but, it's not every night that you write about an attempted murder in a river. the things that float in my fucking mind.

i've had a headache all fucking day. we've had some snow on and off, but nothing is sticking. i should go to the grocery store but i'll probably wait until the weekend.

that's all for me today. this is going to be a tough night to get through without drinking.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Band of Horses - In a Drawer
Social Distortion - Bad Luck (Live)
JJ Grey & Mofro - This River
Beck - Where It's At

"If you don't have enemies, you don't have character." - Paul Newman

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