so, i was sitting in my massage chair watching tv this afternoon and an alert came on my phone. i did a double take and said oh fuck. and then the alerts came one after another. music has been a constant companion to me my entire life. and i love that i have been exposed to so many different kinds of music and to so many different kinds of musicians. but, when my life took a bend toward poetry being my main thing, i tended to really listen to singer songwriters and folk bands, etc. and the one group that really caught my ear was The Band. Robbie Robertson died today at the age of 80. fucking prostate cancer. those songs from The Band stoked my creativity as much as anything in my entire life. this one hits a little harder than i was expecting. thanks for all the damn memories Robbie.
Wednesday, August 9, 2023
this one hits a little harder...
Tuesday, August 8, 2023
the dog days strike again...
i had to run out and get some prescriptions for my mother today. i made it back home before the contractors showed up to look at our kitchen. she asked what the weather was like and i told her it was probably 78 outside but it feels like 94. i knew she wanted to go walking later but that changed her mind completely. the meeting with the contractors went well. if the estimate is within what mom wants it to be, i feel like we have found the right people to do our kitchen.
the Yankees lost last night at the White Sox, 5-1. they are back in last place again and i am at the point where i couldn't give a shit anymore.
Wednesday, August 2, 2023
and the hours all bleed together...
first off today, some sad news to pass along. one of the better humans i have come across in the small press over my damn near 30 years in it has died.
https://www.jsonline.com/obituaries/pwix0533503
i hadn't heard from him in a few years. i always thanked Russell for publishing me as much as he did at The Camel Saloon. my best to his family. rest in peace my friend.
the Yankees lost last night at home to Tampa Bay, 5-2. hopefully, they won't get swept tonight but i won't be holding my breath.
Tuesday, August 1, 2023
welcome to August...
so, i stayed up late last night to watch the USWNT take on Portugal. there's a couple of hours i'll never get back. Portugal completely outplayed the USA for the ENTIRE game. they were probably 1/2 inch away from winning the game late, which they deserved to do. the game finished 0-0. this means the USA finished 2nd in the group. in the grand scheme of things, it means they will play Sweden next most likely. and honestly, if they play like this against Sweden, they will get crushed.
Wednesday, July 26, 2023
i believe i was in the ice cream aisle...
when i got the alert (maybe 30 of them total) that Sinead O'Connor was dead. a flood of memories hit me. i remember when i first saw her video for Nothing Compares 2 U and immediately thought of my girlfriend at the time, whom i am still friends with to this day. growing up an artsy kid who kind of hid that part of his life at times because of the love of sports, etc., Sinead's music always had a place in my soul. this news today really hit me much harder than i thought it would. may you finally be at peace.
Wednesday, July 19, 2023
what a crazy day...
so, before i get to my 2 hour adventure in the grocery store today, let me tell you about my trip to the eye doctor yesterday. this was my first time to this eye doctor. they recently took over where the old CVS in town was so the place looks very new. all the equipment looks brand new, so that gave me some hope that this experience was going to be completely different than the last 15 years or so at the eye doctor. and it was. i did love how the doctor was very attentive to my questions and really seemed to listen. i loved that she showed me this is how your vision is with your current prescription and this is it with the new prescription. wow, what a difference. i should get the new glasses and sunglasses in a couple of weeks. now, to that part. i picked out frames before my appointment online and that saved a ton of time. all told, with all the other fees and everything, it was $895 for both of the glasses. i got a call from the eye doctor this morning and i guess the lady that rang up my bill forgot to charge me for the frames of the sunglasses. so, with the 40% off that i got from my insurance for the sunglasses, i guess i still owe $114. now, the lady that made the mistake was so apologetic this morning, which was a breath of fresh air to be honest. they told me i can just pay the balance when i come in to get the new glasses. all in all, i'm pretty happy i made the change.
so, today mom gave me a scroll for the grocery list. 2 stores, nearly 3 hours of shopping and a little over $250 later, i got everything on the list. i have never been so fucking tired after grocery shopping in my life. it was fucking humid as fuck today on top of it. i guess mom wanted to feel like she is in a restaurant and can have anything she wants at any time. joy.
the New York Yankees lost last night at the Angels, 5-1. hopefully, they will not get swept tonight, although it seems like they are determined to just be a last place team this season.
Wednesday, July 12, 2023
the beauty of always being in pain...
sometimes you get so fucking used to being in pain, that the aches and whatever just become normal. it is like background noise. i was doing the dishes last night and took a step and my knee gave out. oh well, i still had bowls and plates to clean. my back gave out today while grocery shopping. oh well, still got 3 things on the list. i know in the grand scheme of things, this all means i'll probably be dead in a few years. oh well, i feel like i am getting to the point where i have squeezed all the marrow out of this life. of course, knowing my luck, i still have a good 30 or 40 years to go before i get lucky enough to die. and if you think i'm saying lucky is wrong, you obviously have no fucking clue what i have gone through in 47 years of life.
the National League won the All Star game last night for the first time since 2012, 3-2. i didn't watch much of the game.
Tuesday, July 11, 2023
no good deed goes unpunished...
so, we had some weeds in our rock garden, it looked like a fucking forest to be honest. i got out there and pulled what i could. basically, until my back told me to fuck off. i got a trash bag full of weeds pulled though. and then i spent the next 3 hours in my massage chair with ice on my back in pain. joy.
Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night.
Wednesday, June 28, 2023
not the day i was hoping for...
i was really hoping to have the blog done hours before now. but, i never know just when my back is going to tell me to fuck off. this afternoon was one of those times. so, everything got pushed back a few hours. so yeah, now i get to be the asshole trying to make up for lost time. so, i should be watching the NHL Draft right now, but i'm doing this instead while streaming the draft on my phone. joy.
grocery shopping went well today, just took fucking forever. of course, when the air quality is god fucking awful...
the Yankees lost last night at the A's, 2-1. thank god i didn't watch much of that.
Tuesday, June 27, 2023
here comes the haze again...
not much sunshine today at all. the haze from the fires was back again. after mom's visit to the podiatrist, we went to Lowe's. she found some succulents that she liked. they finally had some snake plants, which mom loves, but she didn't want any of the ones they had. we also looked at dishwashers, microwaves, refrigerators, etc. for the potential kitchen remodel.
Monday Night Raw was pretty good last night.
Wednesday, June 21, 2023
first day of summer...
so, my doctor's appointment didn't go well yesterday. my A1C is still too fucking high. so, they are changing my Trulicity yet again. i'm hoping this time it will work as expected. also, my blood pressure was up. i tend to believe that my stress level is through the fucking roof anymore, so that is to blame for all of this. my weight was down, so that was probably the only positive. and, now i'm waiting for a doctor's office to call and schedule my colonoscopy. given that i have colon cancer on both sides of my family, i can't wait to get this done. i mean, i'm already 99% sure what is going to kill me one day. fuck, might as well make it 100%. so yeah, not exactly what i was hoping for.
the New York Yankees won last night over Seattle, 3-1. hopefully, they will do it again tonight.