a rainy day...

 we got over an inch of rain last night. i did manage to get some sleep, but certainly not enough. i didn't get any poems written last night, although a few lines did come to me in my sleep. now the test will be if they remain in my brain and one day find the blank page. time will tell.

the Dayton Flyers won last night at home over Ball State, 77-69.

AEW Dynamite was pretty good last night.

The Masked Singer was crazy as usual.

Abbott Elementary was hilarious last night.

Inside the NFL was good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Georgie & Mandy's First Marriage and NJPW.

the New York Rangers play tonight at home against San Jose. hopefully, the Rangers will win.

the USMNT plays tonight against Jamaica in the CONCAF Nations League quarterfinal. the match is in Kingston, Jamaica. the second leg will be in St. Louis on Monday.

i will probably watch some of the NFL game tonight between the Eagles and Commanders.

i will probably be on here tomorrow when i get back from taking the Highlander in to get that work done on it.

i need to get going and get dinner started so that's all for me today kids.

until tomorrow...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Un día lluvioso

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Howling Slayer - I Was Born to Haunt You

Kokoroko w/Azekel - Three Piece Suit

Evan Nicole Bell - Catfish Blues

The Cactus Blossoms - Something's Got A Hold On Me

Maggie Rose - No One Gets Out Alive

"My wish is to stay always like this, living quietly in a corner of nature." - Claude Monet

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

a step forward and then of course...

 i always love how the muse likes to tell me of the men she's flying all over the world to meet. part of me believes this is to make me jealous. part of me thinks she's seeking the approval of a friend for her happiness. the conversation today just felt different. maybe that is my own feelings getting wrapped into this or maybe i'm picking up on something. but as i watch the amount of friends i have shrink into barely a handful anymore, i often wonder about my own loneliness. as much as i want to believe that there is someone out there that actually wants to love me that doesn't have suitcase after suitcase of baggage that comes with it, the more i believe that sadly, there isn't. and that's one of those truths that kicks you right in the dick and dares you to get back up, just so it can kick you again. and my days of being a glutton for punishment are running out.

i did write 2 poems today while mom was doing her physical therapy. i typed those up when we got back home. hopefully, i will get my ass in gear and get some poems out soon.

The Voice was really good last night.

Monday Night Raw was good last night.

i did watch some of the NFL game last night between Denver and Buffalo. talk about inventing new ways to lose.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NXT, Inside the NFL, the season finale of Welcome to Wrexham, Name That Tune and The Voice.

here are your NBA highlights from last night.

congrats to The King for going into the Hockey Hall of Fame last night.

i should be on here tomorrow after i get all the grocery shopping done.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

no quiero morir solo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Cowboy Junkies - Sun Comes up, It's Tuesday Morning

Actress - It's Me

Voxtrot - New World Romance

Gold Panda - Swimmer (Kaitlyn Aurelia Smith Remix)

Steve Earle - Copperhead Road

"My life has been nothing but a failure." - Claude Monet

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

didn't expect to see this this morning...

 i was beyond tired last night. i got the dishes done around 3:30 AM. my mother was still in the bathroom, where she had been since basically midnight. by 4 AM, i was dragging and knew i needed some NyQuil and sleep. so, i asked my mother if she needed anything since this was going to be her last chance to ask. she said no. i woke up at 9 AM. i went into her room and all the lights were still on. i went into the bathroom and she had stuffed her diaper and her pants into the toilet. i think i said WHAT THE FUCK loud enough to wake up the neighborhood. i went into the other bathroom to piss. i cleaned out the toilet and sure enough, i then had to shit. and by the time that was done, mom had peed in the bed. so, there was another load of laundry to do. i did eventually get her dressed and out to the living room. i made her breakfast and thought she was actually going to be ok. silly me. she spilled coffee on the floor. she somehow got cream cheese on her phone, pills and her hair. she asked for a diet coke and promised to use both hands. she spilled that all over the floor. and then the best part was when she was accused me of kidnapping, not allowing her to talk to people, etc. etc. all because she didn't realize her phone was upside down. i showed her how to open it and dial, etc. and then she accused me of not showing her what i just showed her. that was my 9 AM to 3 PM life today. i got some dry socks on her and some dry pants and i think she is actually sleeping now. i was able to go to Rite Aid and get my prescription and all the other shit i needed. thankfully, that only took 30 minutes today.

the USWNT won yesterday against Germany, 2-1. that ended their 3 game losing streak.

the New York Rangers won last night over Arizona, 4-1.

The White Lotus last night was hilarious.

Let The Right One In last night was excellent.

Last Week Tonight was BRILLIANT as usual.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Monday Night Raw, The Voice, Avenue 5 and The Vow.

i'll keep everyone updated on what is going on. i need to find mom's paperwork so i can get her back on her meds. so, that great hunt will begin when she wakes up as i don't want to wake her as i'm going through files and then get accused of something. she already threatened me once today. 

i hope everyone had a great weekend.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

solo está bien perder la cabeza cuando estás bien con eso

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Empress Of - Dance For You

Nadu - Good To Me

Amanda Palmer - Exit Music (For A Film)

Kings of Leon - Use Somebody

Sturgill Simpson - The Dead Don't Die

"My wish is to stay always like this, living quietly in a corner of nature." - Claude Monet

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

imagine if this country gave two shits about mental heath...

i was getting the poems together this morning when i heard the news about the latest school shooting. as someone who doesn't own a gun, i'm for as much gun control as possible. but i always imagine what if we gave two shits about mental health and actually took care of people before they got to the damn stage where they wanted a gun to do harm. now, the optimist buried deep within me believes it would help at the very least. the cynic that runs my damn life already knows nothing is going to fucking change and it never fucking will. and people wonder why i want to live somewhere else...

i sent out 33 poems today. 3 each to The Beatnik Cowboy and The Blake-Jones Review; 5 each to Live Nude Poems, Ink Pantry and The Scum Gentry; 6 each to The Stray Branch and Record Magazine. when i hear back from these places i will pass along the verdicts.

the season finale of American Horror Story was okay last night. i was hoping for a bit more violence.

NXT was excellent last night.

AEW was excellent last night as well.

Cake was really good last night.

The Masked Singer was good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Young Sheldon, The Unicorn, Perfect Harmony, Will & Grace, Mr Inbetween and Desus & Mero. i watched NXT UK earlier this afternoon, it was excellent.

the New York Rangers play down in Tampa tonight. i'd love to see the Rangers continue their good play and get a win on the road.

i might watch some of the NFL game tonight between the Browns and Steelers.

mom has an appointment with the eye doctor tomorrow morning. i'm hoping they can figure out what the fuck is going on with her eyes. i will probably do the grocery shopping after that is over. so, i should be on here in the afternoon tomorrow.

it warmed up a bit here today, so most of the snow is gone.

until tomorrow kids...

¿Cuántos tiroteos escolares tienen que suceder antes de que ocurra el cambio?

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Billie Eilish - everything i wanted
DOPE LEMON - Hey You
The Barr Brothers - You Would Have to Lose Your Mind
Leon Redbone - Lord, I Looked Down the Road

"Everyone discusses my art and pretends to understand, as if it were necessary to understand, when it is simply necessary to love." - Claude Monet

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

and sometimes the sunshine looks like blood

i first heard about the terrorist attack yesterday in Paris at halftime of the Dayton basketball game. a handful of teenagers were taking the oath to join the Air Force. growing up near the military my entire life, i tend to have a cynical eye regarding most things. as i explained to my mother on the way home, any logical person knows the way to end terrorism is to end poverty and educate the world. but so many people have made so much money on the way things are, that will never happen. so, instead we have chosen to have an endless war. i'm hoping the family and friends i have in Paris weren't harmed yesterday. the only good thing about a senseless world is i'm a writer. if i was anything else, i would have checked out by now.

the Dayton Flyers started off slow last night. thankfully, their opponent was even colder to start the night. Dayton was up 11-0 before the other team even scored. a 30 point halftime lead eventually got down to 21 at some point in the second half. but, the old blue hairs have a new favorite son, Ryan Mikesell. he exploded in the second half to end up with 21 points. not bad for your first ever collegiate game. and to think, he was the after thought of all the new recruits. Dayton won 84-53. they next play on Tuesday against Alabama.

we got home after the game and was unaware that NBC changed the lineup for the evening. it did make sense though, given what happened in Paris. so, Undateable was a rerun. thankfully, they have never done an unfunny episode. NJPW was pretty good last night. The Knick was once again truly fucking brilliant.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

the USA men's team won 6-1 yesterday in their first World Cup Qualifying game. the fact that they gave up a goal is a little troubling. they were playing a team they should have killed. here's a few of the goals:

on the DVR tonight will be Saturday Night Live, ROH and the Marlon Brando special on Showtime. i was hoping to record the U2 concert tonight in Paris, but that has been cancelled.

Ohio State plays this afternoon at Illinois. hopefully this will be a game that is over by halftime.

the New York Rangers play tonight in Ottawa. hopefully they can keep the winning streak going.

my uncle found out yesterday that his cancer hasn't spread any further than they thought it did. but, he's now started the denial phase that he can't believe he has cancer and feels this good. thankfully, the doctor saw through that bullshit and wants to start chemo as soon as possible. my mother and i are the only ones in the family that have gone through this shit before, so we of course are the assholes of doom and gloom. as i told mom yesterday, i guess the family has to decide if they want him to see 2016 or die before Christmas. he keeps putting off treatment, there will be a funeral sooner than later.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday. take a moment to say i love you to all your loved ones.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Fort Minor - Remember the Name

Tribe Society - Kings

The String Cheese Incident - Betray the Dark

"My life has been nothing but a failure." - Claude Monet

and your pro wrestling video of the day:

just my luck

so i got to bed at my usual 2 AM or so last night. so, imagine my surprise when i'm wide awake and rushing to the toilet at 6:30 AM. 22 damn degrees outside and i'm rushing down the stairs hoping i won't have to clean shit off of the floor. i made it, but now, 4 some hours later, i've spent most of the morning on the toilet. i'm really hoping the pills i took start kicking in soon as i don't have any intention of missing the basketball game tonight. so, right now it's water and dry toast. good times.

the New York Rangers lost last night 4-3 in a shootout to a team that have no business losing to. i could tell early in the first period they were having the classic letdown game. they had a strong second period but pissed that away in the third. at least they got a point out of the game. they play tomorrow night in Pittsburgh. that should be a wild one.

The Big Bang Theory was really good last night.

i picked the NFL game right last night and my opponent's fantasy player didn't do much. that's hopefully a good sign for the games on Sunday.

i've got to go to the bank early this afternoon to make a deposit. i'm planning on doing that while i'm out getting the paper and mail. hopefully this sunshine we have right now continues. and hopefully the pills work so i don't have a whole new set of poems to have to write later tonight.

i'm hoping to get home from doing all that in time to watch the USA take on Colombia in a friendly over in London. that should be a great test for them. if they can actually win, i'll be pleasantly thrilled with the thought of them actually competing one day on the elite level of world soccer powers. as you might imagine, i don't think they have much of a chance.

i guess mom is planning to try to go to the basketball game tonight with me. that should be an interesting trip. the Dayton Flyers take on Alabama A&M tonight. hopefully they kick off this season with a win. i have no clue if this team will be as good as last year, but i do think they can make the NCAA Tournament once again. if they make it back to the Elite 8, i'll start to wonder if i'm actually dead and this is all a dream.

after we get home from that, i'm hoping to watch Sonic Highways on HBO. i believe the setting is in L.A. for this one.

i got some great music on NoiseTrade this morning. i was a little surprised to see that the band is from Toledo, Ohio. the link will be below for some great FREE music.

i'll probably be on here in the morning tomorrow. Ohio State plays at noon and i think my mother wants to try to drive again tomorrow. so, yeah, i'm going to be a wreck tomorrow. can't tell if the shits are from impending stress tomorrow or the stir fry from last night. but, i've gone enough that i'm starting to bleed. enjoy that visual as you start your weekend.

thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your precious time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

music:

Arcade Fire - Wake Up
Nathan Roberts & The New Birds - Nathan Roberts & The New Birds
St. Vincent - Digital Witness
Wolfmother - Woman

"Color is my day-long obsession, joy and torment." - Claude Monet