a step forward and then of course...

 i always love how the muse likes to tell me of the men she's flying all over the world to meet. part of me believes this is to make me jealous. part of me thinks she's seeking the approval of a friend for her happiness. the conversation today just felt different. maybe that is my own feelings getting wrapped into this or maybe i'm picking up on something. but as i watch the amount of friends i have shrink into barely a handful anymore, i often wonder about my own loneliness. as much as i want to believe that there is someone out there that actually wants to love me that doesn't have suitcase after suitcase of baggage that comes with it, the more i believe that sadly, there isn't. and that's one of those truths that kicks you right in the dick and dares you to get back up, just so it can kick you again. and my days of being a glutton for punishment are running out.

i did write 2 poems today while mom was doing her physical therapy. i typed those up when we got back home. hopefully, i will get my ass in gear and get some poems out soon.

The Voice was really good last night.

Monday Night Raw was good last night.

i did watch some of the NFL game last night between Denver and Buffalo. talk about inventing new ways to lose.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NXT, Inside the NFL, the season finale of Welcome to Wrexham, Name That Tune and The Voice.

here are your NBA highlights from last night.

congrats to The King for going into the Hockey Hall of Fame last night.

i should be on here tomorrow after i get all the grocery shopping done.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

no quiero morir solo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Cowboy Junkies - Sun Comes up, It's Tuesday Morning

Actress - It's Me

Voxtrot - New World Romance

Gold Panda - Swimmer (Kaitlyn Aurelia Smith Remix)

Steve Earle - Copperhead Road

"My life has been nothing but a failure." - Claude Monet

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: