so i woke up this morning to the news of Shane MacGowan's death. i knew he wasn't in great health, but that caught me off guard. those Pogues songs always bring me back to my youth and just discovering music. i believe the first song i heard from The Pogues was A Pair Of Brown Eyes. they were playing it outside of an old record store in downtown Dayton. i went in and asked what that was and they said The Pogues. i think i was like 15 at the time. i think it was the young poet in me that was really attracted to The Pogues. Shane's death has brought back all those memories. i am happy that he is no longer suffering. i am happy that i have these songs to listen to. but damn, the world has lost one of the good ones.
a delightful trip into the dark mind of an evil genius or simply the musings of an asshole
Thursday, November 30, 2023
we lost a good one today...
Wednesday, November 29, 2023
so happy i didn't watch Manchester United today...
i knew i wasn't going to be able to see the game today because i would be out grocery shopping. i'm even happier i didn't bet on them to win today, just who was going to score. and i got that right. i saw that United got up 2-0 and i was very happy. then it was 2-1. no big deal. then United scored to make 3-1. next thing i know, i was done finding everything on the list and looked at my phone and the score was now 3-3. in a game that they had to WIN and they gave up 3 fucking goals when they rarely ever can score 3 fucking goals. fuck me. so now, they don't control their own destiny in the Champions League. last place in the group with one match to go.
ghosts in these fields...
my poem "ghosts in these fields" has been published at Horror Sleaze Trash. you can read the poem by going here:
https://horrorsleazetrash.com/2023/11/29/j-j-campbell-82/
Tuesday, November 28, 2023
frustration once again...
so, mom called me from the kitchen around noon today and said we had no water. i looked online to see if there was a water main break or something. there was one in a town a few miles from us but that shouldn't be affecting us. i then asked her if she paid the bill. she was quiet. she couldn't find her password to get online to see her statement. so, i made her a new password for it and sure enough, the bill hadn't been paid. so, i immediately paid it and she called the water department. apparently, the bill was due November 8th. that was twenty fucking days ago. so, i told her this afternoon that i am taking over everything so this shit doesn't happen again. i have tried to do this before but she hasn't relented her control on shit. but, when she realized she hadn't paid the bill her response was well, another reason to leave the earth. so, yeah. i am trying to juggle her anxiety, depression, anger and her oncoming blindness all at the same time. i am hoping she will see that allowing me to control the finances will take a huge burden off of her and she can live without trying to remember shit while not being able to see clearly what she is trying to pay online. what happens most of the time is she doesn't realize that she has signed up for paperless billing and then doesn't think twice when a bill never comes in the mail. have i mentioned how i hate this time of year?
i did get my Christmas shopping done last night. i hope mom likes what i got her. if any of you want to be on my Christmas card list, be sure to send me your mailing address by or around December 1st.
the New York Rangers lost last night at home to Buffalo, 5-1.
Monday, November 27, 2023
well, no snow but plenty of cold...
i'm not sure if it actually made it above 32 degrees today. i only went out once to get the mail. we never got the phone call over the weekend like we were expecting, so the kitchen remodel didn't start today. now, mom's anxiety is through the roof since we have no clue when it will start. good times. once we get the call, we have to clean out the kitchen. and our house isn't exactly big enough to just move the stuff in the kitchen to another room. so, it is going to be a tricky thing to do. good times.
the New Orleans Saints lost yesterday at Atlanta, 24-15. they got over 400 yards of fucking offense and could only get 5 fucking field goals. fuck me.
Sunday, November 26, 2023
at least the anger didn't last forever...
well, let me begin with my disgust for Ohio State losing once again to that team up north. and mostly, i am pissed that Ryan Day coached scared. and a fucking fill in outcoached him by a fucking mile. Ohio State played like they didn't want to lose the game instead of going out there and imposing their will and win the fucking game. 3 years in a row now. how can you destroy every other team in the Big Ten but come up short against the only rival you have and in the biggest game of every fucking season? Ohio State lost 30-24.
Saturday, November 25, 2023
my 4 poems at The Asylum Floor...
my poems "the apartments behind us", "most of humanity", "watching from the corner" and "wallowing in the facts" have been published at The Asylum Floor. you can read the poems by going here:
https://www.theasylumfloor.com/2023/11/four-poems-by-jj-campbell.html
welcome to the weekend...
it is nice and cold here this morning. got into the 20's overnight. of course, for the time of year it is, it is supposed to be getting colder.
the New York Rangers won yesterday in Philadelphia, 3-1. they play today at home against Boston.
Friday, November 24, 2023
the day after...
i hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving. mom wanted to cook, so i let her. that made her happy. the food was good, that made her happy as well. she couldn't understand why she was tired later on though. i guess she thinks she should be able to do at 70 what she was able to do at 40. one day she'll figure out that isn't how life works. i cleaned out a good portion of the garage yesterday. i figured i better do it before it got any colder. i'm hoping they will have enough room for what they need to do for the kitchen in there now.
i did watch all 3 NFL games yesterday. i'm still kind of shocked that the Lions lost and looked so bad against Green Bay. the other two games were blowouts.
response from Horror Sleaze Trash...
i heard back from AG at Horror Sleaze Trash on my recent poetry submission. my poems "a cold wind" and "ghosts in these fields" have been accepted for publication.
Thursday, November 23, 2023
Happy Thanksgiving
i hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving. eat plenty of food, enjoy the football and enjoy the family arguments about shit no one should talk about on holidays; religion, politics, etc.
the New York Rangers won last night in Pittsburgh, 1-0.
poetry update
i just sent out 5 poems to The Asylum Floor. when i hear back from Brenton on them, i will pass along the verdict.
Wednesday, November 22, 2023
a date that will always be remembered...
i remember growing up and i think it was Don Henley that said when Kennedy got assassinated, that was the day the innocence of America died. and i suppose in the grand scheme of things, he probably is right. hard to think that was 60 years ago. and hard to believe the government hasn't released all the shit they still have confidential. and they wonder why people have conspiracy theories.
i didn't get to bed until 5:30 AM this morning. i swear, there aren't enough hours in the day for me to get done everything i need to do on certain days. by the time i got the poems typed up last night and got the dishes done, i barely had enough energy left to masturbate myself to sleep. thankfully, my shower this afternoon woke me the fuck up.
and i give Kroger credit. they had every checkout lane open and every lane had a bagger. even though it was crowded as fuck, it didn't take nearly as long as i was expecting.
NXT was very good last night.
response from Synchronized Chaos...
i heard back from Cristina on my recent poetry submission. my poems "over half your life", "look around", "like a pair of comfortable shoes", "hungry for love" and "squeeze a few poems out" have been accepted for publication in the December issue.
Tuesday, November 21, 2023
a rainy day...
it has been on and off raining all damn day. joy.
well, let me start off where the blog stopped yesterday.
the New York Rangers pissed away a 3-0 lead last night and lost at Dallas, 6-3. oh well, they were due a stinker soon anyway.