why am i up at this hour...

 i got up at 5:30 this morning for some fucking reason. 3 hours of fucking sleep. it feels like i have been in and out of a coma all damn day. joy. i did make it to the bank to make a deposit today. 

the New Orleans Saints lost yesterday at home to the Rams, 21-14. that pretty much eliminates them from making the playoffs this year.

Somebody Somewhere was really good last night. next week is the series finale.

both episodes of The Agency last night were excellent.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Voice, Monday Night Raw and What We Do in the Shadows.

the New York Rangers play tonight at home against the New Jersey Devils.

i might watch some of the NFL game tonight between Browns and Broncos.

i have no damn clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

i hope everyone had a great weekend.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

¿Por qué estoy despierto a esta hora?

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The White Stripes - Ball and Biscuit

Larkin Poe - Bleach Blonde Bottle Blues

Goose - Electric Avenue (Live)

David Bowie - Modern Love

Duran Duran - Come Undone

"I will either be famous or infamous." - Otto Dix

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welcome to the weekend...

 another day where the weather was really good around here. i was able to get mom to her appointment on time. she got all the shots she needed and found what she was looking for at Rite Aid. then, we went to the local grocery store around the corner. first time she had been in there in years. she wanted to get a few things for the weekend. she really appreciated me letting her get out and enjoy the sun a bit. i'm hoping it will help her sleep later tonight.

i did make it to the bank to make a deposit before mom had to go to Rite Aid. thankfully, i made it back with plenty of time to get her there. i once again didn't sleep worth a shit last night.

the Yankees split the doubleheader yesterday in Boston. they lost the first game, 5-0. they won the second game, 8-5. they start a series tonight in Pittsburgh.

i did watch a little of the NFL game last night. the Eagles beat the Vikings, 34-28.

i did check out that Kelce documentary last night on Amazon Prime. it was better than i was expecting.

Big Brother was good last night. unfortunately, Jared is the new HOH, which means this will be another week controlled by his mother.

NJPW was really good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown and AEW Rampage. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.

i will probably be on here tomorrow after Manchester United plays in the morning.

Ohio State plays Western Kentucky tomorrow. i should be on here before that game starts in the afternoon.

i just played a crazy soccer bet for tomorrow. i put $1 on a ten team parlay that if all 10 teams win, i'll get over $7,000. i could really use that crazy fucking bet hitting tomorrow.

a big thank you to everyone for checking out my latest published poems:

https://synchchaos.com/poetry-from-j-j-campbell-90/

i hope everyone has a great weekend.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

sueña en grande o no sueñes en absoluto

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

BRUTUS - Love Won't Hide the Ugliness

kenzie - anatomy

Temple of Angels - Waving to the Wind

Hakushi Hasegawa - Mouth Flash (Kuchinohanabi)

Larkin Poe - Bad Spell (Acoustic)

"The best time to plan a book is while you're doing the dishes." - Agatha Christie

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hello depression, it's me again...

 so, yeah... my left shoulder is killing me, i think it might be a pinched nerve. my left elbow is killing me, i have no fucking clue what that is. my right knee is killing me, i believe that is all arthritis. and given all that pain and a bad back, today was one of those days spent in the massage chair hoping the ice freezes my spinal cord so the central nervous system no longer works. somedays i get really lucky and the ice does the trick. and then there are the days where nothing fucking works, even alcohol, and depression enters the room and sets up shop. now, don't worry, i'm not suicidal. i doubt that creeps in my mind anytime before my mother leaves this earth. i don't think i want her to be the one to find me whenever that (if ever) happens. what concerns me is my lack of wanting to be creative anymore when the darkness comes. it seems like all the water has been squeezed from the rock now. and tends to let me try to think about an unknown future. and as much as that should excite my imagination, the depression doesn't allow such nonsense. so yeah, welcome to Tuesday...

The Voice was good last night. i believe tonight is the end of the blinds.

Perry Mason was very good last night.

Monday Night Raw was good last night. hard to believe WrestleMania is just over a week away.

the New York Knicks lost last night at home to Minnesota, 140-134.

here are your NBA highlights from last night:

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NXT, two episodes of MLW, The Voice and That's My Jam.

the New York Rangers have a huge game tonight at home against Carolina.

i just saw the news that Mustapha Amzil is transferring from Dayton. he will always be remembered for that shot against Kansas. hopefully, he lands in a good place and has plenty of success.

i need to get dinner going and get all the trash picked up tonight.

i should be on here tomorrow after i get the grocery shopping done.

until then kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

hay una cierta mujer que me puede hacer feliz

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Taylar Elizza Beth & WD4D - The Beast / Day 117

Alanis Morissette - Uninvited

Larkin Poe - Beach Blonde Bottle Blues

Miranda Lambert - Gunpowder & Lead

Ashley Monroe - Weed Instead of Roses

"My passion and energy get mistaken for anger." - Gary Oldman

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you ever notice your left hand trembling...

 i love when i get ready to start typing and don't know exactly what i'm going to put down and my left index finger starts to tremble a bit... i always wonder if that is just anxious energy or my little precursor to Parkinson's. good times.

the Yankees lost yesterday to Seattle, 2-0. they left a small village on base and lost Gleyber Torres to a sprained thumb. sure, why not add another fucking player to the injured list. they play tonight at the Royals. they need to start another winning streak as the Blue Jays are right behind them now. thank god Boston is choking their season away.

Big Brother was good last night.

The White Lotus was excellent last night. next week is the series finale.

Last Week Tonight was brilliant as usual.

Power Book III: Raising Kanan was good last night.

Desus & Mero was fucking hilarious last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight. i'll be watching Monday Night Raw for most of the evening.

i listened to episode 355 of Notsam Wrestling this morning. you can find that by going here:

https://www.stitcher.com/show/sam-roberts-wrestling-podcast/episode/x-pac-notsam-wrestling-355-85972995

i also checked out some of the NBA Summer League games today.

the New York Rangers gave a really nice extension to Igor Shesterkin today. hopefully, he will help bring them a cup in this deal.

https://www.thescore.com/nhl/news/2189148/rangers-re-sign-shesterkin-to-4-year-deal-with-reported-5-65-m-aav

i hope everyone had a great weekend.

mom has her physical therapist coming tomorrow morning and then we go to her new podiatrist in the afternoon. i know anytime she has two appointments in a day she will be worthless the rest of the night and the next day. plus, with the humidity being crazy this week, her Meniere's disease will truly be fucking with her. this is going to be one of those weeks from hell.

so, i should be on here in the afternoon tomorrow.

thanks to everyone for checking out my latest published poem:

https://madswirl.com/poetry/2021/08/trying-to-murder-my-shadow/

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay socially distant.

get the shot.

mi paciencia no está envejeciendo bien

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Cure - Just Like Heaven

Larkin Poe - Paste Studio NVL (Live)

Elizabeth Cook - El Camino

Steve Earle - The Cutting Room (Live)

Stephen Kellogg & The Sixers - Start the Day Early

"Life has a practice of living you, if you don't live it." - Philip Larkin

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a chance of snow in May...

so the world is going to hell and now the weather is following right along with it. if it really does snow here in the next day or so, i'm going to do my best to start the plans back up to move south. and by south, i mean closer to the equator.

apparently people around here have gone from hoarding toilet paper to now hoarding Lysol and Clorox wipes. my trip to Meijer wasn't that productive. i did find a few things mom needed and i got some cheap baseball cards (only 1 decent hit out of 3 packs), but more or less it was a waste of time.

it's one of those days i feel the depression closing in and i have literally no desire to try to write my way out of it. it's as though my inner child wants to feel the pain again. joy.

NXT was really good last night.

AEW was really good last night as well.

The Masked Singer was good last night. i had no clue who the Kitty was.

What We Do in the Shadows was hilarious last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Total Bellas, Shelter in Place with Shane Smith and No Mercy, No Malice with Professor Scott Galloway. i watched NXT UK this afternoon. it was another Best Of episode.

we had shrimp with cheesy grits last night for dinner. mom thought it was too spicy for her. i thought it was fine. i'm trying to sneak in some flavor every now and then, mostly just to keep my tastebuds alive.

i think mom is making lasagna tonight. i love how she forgets about Italian food and diabetics. i don't mind, as i'm not looking to live forever. but i know my blood sugar will be sky high in the morning.

i'm not sure when i will be on here tomorrow. it will be probably after the rain is over, hopefully. i know one thing, i'm not going anywhere tomorrow.

stay healthy kids.

wash your fucking hands...

until tomorrow...

en algún lugar junto a una playa de arena, con licor fuerte

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Tei Shi - Die 4 Ur Love
Lee Fields & The Expressions - Don't Give Up
Larkin Poe - Jailbreak (Live)
Big Thief - Branches (Live)
Son Little - Suffer (Live)

"Take away love and our earth is a tomb." - Robert Browning

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i didn't hear any sirens...

apparently, there was a tornado a few miles away from where i live last night. i didn't know anything about it until around 3 in the morning or so. the way the weather has been here lately, tornadoes around here aren't that surprising anymore.

the New York Yankees broke out the bats yesterday and defeated Tampa, 13-5 to go back into first place in the AL East. the Yankees start a series tonight at Baltimore. hopefully the offense can keep on rolling.

here are your highlights from the NHL playoffs yesterday:

here are your highlights from the NBA playoffs last night:

team USA did defeat Germany yesterday 3-1 at the Hockey World Championships. they play Canada tomorrow. the win over Germany did give team USA a spot in the quarterfinals.

the season finale of Barry was great last night.

Last Week Tonight was brilliant as usual.

Our Cartoon President was fucking hilarious last night.

WWE Money in the Bank was pretty good last night, right up until the last 5 minutes of the show. when Brock Lesnar's music hit, i wanted to puke. having him win the Money in the Bank contract is fucking stupid. and i do understand this is Vince's reaction to the ratings being down, etc. but god forbid you put in the time to create new stars for the fans to be excited about.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Voice, Carpool Karaoke and Desus & Mero. i'll be watching Monday Night Raw for most of the evening.

i do plan on watching some of Warriors vs. Trailblazers tonight as well.

the weather really cooled down today. it felt good to open up the house and let the breeze in again.

i have no clue when i will be on here tomorrow.

i hope everyone had a great weekend.

¿Cómo saber cuando una mujer tímida te ama?

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Titus Andronicus - Tumult Around The World
Moby - This Wild Darkness
Larkin Poe - Bleach Blonde Bottle Blues
Hot Water Music - Never Going Back

"Until you're ready to look foolish, you'll never have the possibility of being great." - Cher

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i will never try to figure out how my mind works...

i took my mother to have her MRI done today. we were there way longer than she was expecting, which basically meant i had dinner around 5 tonight. while she was having her MRI done, i wrote 10 poems. when i told that when she got out, she was a little amazed. she asked me how it was possible? i laughed and said i don't want to know. i told her my brain swims in innuendo. that makes it a little easier to see something, twist, adjust and then write away. i'll type those poems up sometime tonight, probably late.

i didn't watch anything of Manchester United's Champions League game today other than the highlights. considering that if United won today, they could have won the group, i hoped they would have come out with a little urgency. silly me. United lost to Valencia 2-1. oh well. they will advance out of the group stage. i doubt they will go far in the knockout rounds.

the 4 that advanced last night on The Voice were exactly the 4 i was expecting to. now, it went a little different than i was thinking, but i am happy that Kirk, Chris, Chevel and Kennedy will be in the finals.

Smackdown was fucking great last night. after watching that, i am pumped to see TLC this weekend, mostly because of the women's TLC match between Charlotte, Asuka and "The Man" Becky Lynch. it should be the last match of the event and it will blow everything else away, guaranteed.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight. i'll watch 205 Live, NXT and NXT UK sometime tonight on WWE Network.

my sister went a little nuts and has been sending all these packages to the house of gifts she has got for mom. so, i went and ordered mom a couple CDs that i think she will like. i want her to listen to more music, just so she can take her mind off of everything for at least a few hours each day.

i have no clue when i'll be on here tomorrow. i'm hoping it will be sometime in the afternoon where i can go on and on about some great player the New York Yankees have signed or traded for, but who the fuck knows.

hope everyone is well and the weather is decent where you are.

Cuando me siento aquí y espero una respuesta, espero que el amor gane al final.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Larkin Poe - Bleach Blonde Bottle Blues
Creedence Clearwater Revival - Born on the Bayou
Milo Greene - Move
Gov't Mule - Goin' Out West (Live)

"Alcohol may be man's worst enemy, but the bible says love your enemy." - Frank Sinatra

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