so, my computer died today. i'm writing this from my mother's laptop. i have no clue when i will be getting a new computer, so the blog will be on hiatus until that happens. i'm hoping it won't be too long of a hiatus, but given what has gone on here today, don't be shocked if you don't see any posts for a few weeks. i believe mom's surgery has gone well. Orkin sent the wrong fucking guy to fix the hole the squirrels are going through. at least we won't be charged for any of this. add in the computer dying this morning and you can imagine my frustration. so, enjoy the links that are up. you have my email address if you need to get in touch. any of you that really need to contact me, you already have my cell number. a fond farewell for now. i will be back, hopefully before the end of the month.
Tuesday, October 15, 2024
my 5 poems at Synchronized Chaos...
my poems "scribbling down some poems", "better when drinking", "hello is a better choice", "the better of me" and "the simmering rage" have been published at Synchronized Chaos. you can read the poems by going here:
https://synchchaos.com/poetry-from-j-j-campbell-115/
subjective at best...
my poem "subjective at best" has been published in Yellow Mama #106. you can read the poem by going here:
https://blackpetalsks.tripod.com/yellowmama/id3327.html
murder and discomfort...
my poem "murder and discomfort" has been published in Yellow Mama #106. you can read the poem by going here:
https://blackpetalsks.tripod.com/yellowmama/id3326.html
Monday, October 14, 2024
now it feels like fall...
hell, i even had to put on sweatpants today. holy hell. it only got into the 50's today. it was rather blustery today when i had to go to Kroger to get my pills. i guess it is going to be like this for most of this week. joy.
well, yesterday didn't go how i wanted for the most part either. i need the worm to turn and quickly.
the Saints got beat yesterday at home by Tampa Bay, 51-27. amazingly, the Saints were winning at halftime. fuck me. they next play on Thursday at home against Denver.
Sunday, October 13, 2024
looking for you know who...
my poem "looking for you know who" has been published at Disturb the Universe Magazine. you can read the poem by going here:
https://www.disturbtheuniversemagazine.com/2024/10/looking-for-you-know-who-by-jj-campbell.html
what could have been...
last night sucked for the most part. i can handle losing. i hate it, but i can handle it. what i tend to lose my shit on, is when one (or more) of my teams, beat themselves. yeah, it was one of those nights.
Ohio State lost at Oregon last night, 32-31. injuries and mistakes. that pretty much sums up the game.
Saturday, October 12, 2024
so, this happened last night...
i was on the phone with the muse and i was by the back door of the house. i could hear the squirrels going nuts. i went outside to see if i could see what the fuck they were doing, since it sounded like they were on the roof. i got over to the side of the house and could really hear them. i looked up and there is a fucking hole in the siding underneath one of the roof lines. fuck me. it sounded like there was a fucking family up there, again. i told mom about it last night. i'm hoping i can get her out there so she can see it for herself. i can't tell if the hole came from storm damage or the squirrels just ripped the fucking hole themselves to get back inside. so yeah, not good.
Smackdown and NXT Level Up were both really good last night.
response from Disturb the Universe Magazine...
i heard back from Skaja at Disturb the Universe Magazine on my poetry submission from last month. my poems "a new set of suckers", "over a decade ago" and "looking for you know who" have been accepted for publication.
Friday, October 11, 2024
a day of pain, of course...
my life has this uncanny ability to always swing the positive to negative and negative to even more negative with fucking ease. i'm not sure if it is because my inner child has to always be in pain. or, does my ego enjoy the suffering and rising above it. or maybe this is all i really know. happiness is fleeting. pain is real. loss is real. the sad thing is, i really want to be happy. have fun. enjoy what little life i have left. and no matter what i do to try to make sure these fairytales are possible, nothing works. this is why i have such a laid back fuck it view of life, etc. there is no point in me fucking it up more than i already have. i suppose this is my reasoning for just accepting the pain and learning how to live with it. joy.
the Yankees won last night at the Royals, 3-1, to clinch the series. they will play either Detroit or Cleveland in the ALCS.
Thursday, October 10, 2024
some weird dreams last night...
it involved a dog, a serial killer, two beautiful women, a mindless fast food worker and a poet just trying to get by. i woke up at 7:45 thinking, what the fuck was that. i guess this is what happens when i get more than 5 hours of sleep.
the Yankees won last night at the Royals, 3-2. they only had 4 hits, and Stanton had 3 of those. but, they are 1 win away from the ALCS. Gerrit Cole will be pitching tonight. hopefully, he gets the job done.
response from Synchronized Chaos...
i heard back from Cristina at Synchronized Chaos on my recent poetry submission. my poems "scribbling down some poems", "better when drinking", "hello is a better choice", "the better of me" and "the simmering rage" have been accepted for publication.
Wednesday, October 9, 2024
i'm running on fumes...
i didn't get to sleep until 4:30 this morning. i was hoping i would wake up sometime around 9 and get my day going. but, in reality, i woke up at 7:45 and have been up since. this is clearly the recipe to make sure i will be dead in a few years. good times.
i did get everything on the grocery list. mom about shit when she saw i saved more than $50 at Kroger today.
The Voice was good last night.
poetry update...
i just sent 5 poems to Synchronized Chaos. when i hear back from Cristina, i will pass along the verdict.
Tuesday, October 8, 2024
a night to forget...
so, last night was one to forget...
the Yankees lost at home to the Royals, 4-2. the series is now 1-1. Game 3 will be at the Royals.
Monday, October 7, 2024
rinse and repeat...
sometimes life gets to that point where all the days just bleed together and you can end up in a bad movie that just bores you to death. these nights of 3 hours of sleep have me spinning my wheels. the rest of the day is just catching naps when i can and trying to play catch up with the news, sports, etc. joy.
i did watch plenty of football yesterday. i won a little money, but not nearly as much as i was hoping to.
Sunday, October 6, 2024
well, it could have been worse...
i didn't get to sleep until after 4 AM this morning. i got up a little after 9. that was a few minutes after the Manchester United game started. they were playing at Aston Villa. the game finished 0-0. honestly, it could have been much worse. but, at least they got a point out of the game. still, it is the worst start they have had in the Premier League. ETH will find out this week if he will still have the head coaching job at United. my best guess is if they have the next coach already lined up, he will get fired. if not, they will keep him, at least until the summer.
Ohio State defeated Iowa yesterday, 35-7.
Saturday, October 5, 2024
a busy day ahead...
so, i did get that poem that was swimming in my head written last night. honestly, might be one of the best ones i have written in years. of course, time will tell.
today is going to have a little bit of everything going on. playoffs, wrestling, college football, etc.
Smackdown and NXT Level Up were both really good last night.
Friday, October 4, 2024
welcome to the weekend...
i have done my best to try to do nothing today. not exactly possible, but a fucker can dream right. i did have a few funny lines pop in my head for a poem, but i haven't been able to fully flush it out yet. so, i am looking forward to that. i didn't sleep well at all. mom for some fucking reason was talking loud as fuck to herself at 5:46 AM. that woke me up. i was able to get back to sleep until i woke up at 7:10. i might have got a hour or two watching the hockey game this afternoon. needless to say, i know i will get my best sleep when i die.
Big Brother was good last night. Kimo got evicted. Chelsie is the new HOH, so she will be in the final 3.
Thursday, October 3, 2024
another pissed off afternoon...
so, Manchester United pissed away a 2-0 lead today at Porto in the Europa League. add to that, Bruno got another red card for a high boot that made no fucking contact with a player, even though the Porto player acted like Bruno made him bleed. but, United tied the game at 3 in the 91st minute. still, a 3-3 draw isn't fucking good enough.