whenever i feel down or depressed in public, it never fails...

i'll always run into some beautiful woman or every other woman in the grocery store is one where i just hate myself even more. of all the fucking days... today was no exception. i've got this pain in my side that has lingered for a few days now. i swear last night i could feel a knot or something. my pain tolerance is so fucking high that it doesn't bother me, but now my head is fucking with me with thoughts of a tumor or a mass of some kind, etc. my inner child has wanted to die since the age of 8. so i went to the local grocery store first today. of course, there was this stunning blonde there with her meathead boyfriend. they were behind me in line. i did laugh on my way into the store. i saw two older black women going in. that nearly doubles the black population in this town that i know of. yet another reason why i would like to move to a bigger city, to once again experience diversity, that long lost thought of my youth. at the big grocery store, there was probably four or five women that were drop dead gorgeous. and of course, the one flaunting her ass in front of me in the produce section just happened to be in front of me in the checkout line. she smiled and i wanted to die. i believe these are the moments where any smile i could produce is replaced with misery. between both stores, getting mom's pills and gas for the Highlander, i think i kept it under $170. that's not too bad.

Vice News Tonight had another great week of shows.

Big Brother was excellent last night. Haleigh got evicted first. Tyler won the next HOH and hatched a perfect plan. Angela won the VETO and took JC off the block. Tyler blindsided Brett and Brett was evicted. nothing like a good blindside on double eviction night. of course, Tyler and Angela better hope they go to the finals together, or they probably just handed Kaycee $500,000.  Angela is the new HOH.

Snowfall was heartbreaking last night. 2 deaths i didn't see coming and an ending that sets up a killer season finale.

i did watch a little of the Bengals vs. Ravens last night. the Ravens defensive coordinator was my economics teacher in high school. he still looks the same. and he still can't coach defense. the Bengals won 34-23.

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on the DVR tonight will be VICE, NJPW and Real Time with Bill Maher.

the New York Yankees start a series at home tonight against Toronto. they really need a victory tonight, maybe even more than i need a drink.

i will be on here tomorrow before Manchester United plays in the early afternoon. everything is timed out well for me tomorrow. United and when that is over the Yankees and when that is over, Ohio State vs. TCU. so, i should be able to get my laundry done while watching sports all day. at least that's the plan until mom decides she wants to do something.

i hope everyone has a good weekend. my thoughts are with everyone in the North and South Carolina. i know a few people in each state and really hope they are safe, dry and experiencing no damage at the moment.

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be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Nine Inch Nails - Physical (You're So)
Marc Ribot & Tom Waits - Bella Ciao
Morphine - Cure for Pain
Leonard Cohen - Famous Blue Raincoat

"Don't become a mere recorder of facts, but try to penetrate the mystery of their origin."                                                                                                                                  - Ivan Pavlov

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the sun will come back someday i guess

today was yet another cloudy, rainy, gloomy day. perfect for a poet, if that poet wasn't riddled with arthritis.

i did send out 27 poems today; 6 to ZYX, 5 each to Otoliths, Shot Glass Journal and Synchronized Chaos, 3 each to The Beatnik Cowboy and Bluepepper. when i hear back from these places (i've already heard back good news from Synchronized Chaos) i will post the verdicts.

the New York Yankees held on for a 3-2 victory yesterday over Tampa. the Yankees start a series tonight at home against Baltimore. they are 3 1/2 games behind Boston in the division.

Mr. Mercedes was excellent last night.

Big Brother went as i expected last night. Alex was evicted. Paul is the new HOH. i believe he also won the POV, so Christmas will evict the next house guest. that will probably be Kevin. Paul has already said he wants to take Josh to the final 2. hopefully that plan blows up in his face.

You're the Worst was great last night.

Total Bellas was pretty damn funny last night.

Lucha Underground was celebrating its 100th episode last night. i would say about 95 out of the 100 have been excellent.

NXT was really good last night.

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on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, Big Brother, The Chris Gethard Show, Better Things and Fuck, That's Delicious Classics.

i did listen to the latest Sam Roberts Wrestling Podcast today. you can find that by going here:
http://notsam.com/wrestlingpodcast/2017/9/14/wrestling-podcast-151-cfo

i made a little trip over to Meijer today after i went to the post office. i needed some picture frames (on sale) and a few odds and ends and mom was low on Diet Coke (on sale). so, i figure i would get that today while i was out. i know how the drug fiends get when they are going without.

i need to go to the grocery store tomorrow, so i will probably be on here after that.

i believe the fucking sun is supposed to come out tomorrow. it would be nice if the weekend was at least fucking bearable here.

until tomorrow my friends.

ir a tomar una copa al borde del mundo y sonreír

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Husker Du - Hardly Getting Over It
Widowspeak - When I Tried
Prophets of Rage - Unfuck the World
Ice Cube - It Was a Good Day (Remix)

"Don't become a mere recorder of facts, but try to penetrate the mystery of their origin." - Ivan Pavlov

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rain in the afternoon

thankfully, i had just got the trash can back in the garage by the time it started pouring this afternoon. the classic global warming inch in 10 minutes type of rain. good times. these are the days where my arthritis and i scramble to our battle positions and wait to see who is going to fire the first shot.

the New York Yankees got 3 solo home runs last night, 2 of which came from back to back pinch hitters (first time the Yankees had done that since 1957), to defeat the Dodgers last night 3-0. they face one of the best pitchers in baseball this afternoon, Clayton Kershaw. it will be a tall task for the Yankees to win this series.

Big Brother went as i expected it to go last night. Victor got evicted for the 3rd and final time. Paul is the new HOH. i fully expect Corey to get the boot tonight.

WWE Smackdown was really good last night. sadly, John Cena is back but i was so happy to watch Dean Ambrose beat the shit out of him to end the show. i'm really enjoying Smackdown so much more than Monday Night Raw these days.

Atlanta was fucking hilarious last night. easily, one of the better shows on television right now.

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on the DVR tonight will be Big Brother, Any Given Wednesday, Lucha Underground, You're The Worst and American Horror Story. on WWE Network i'll be watching NXT and the live finale of the CWC tournament.

if the weather stays rainy, i'll probably try to do some writing later today. a blank page seems to be a good outlet for my pain.

i'll be on here tomorrow sometime after Manchester United plays in the Europa League. i believe they are at Feyenoord.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Morphine - You Look Like Rain
Grant Lee Buffalo - Mockingbirds
Robyn - Dancing On My Own
Pink Floyd - Comfortably Numb (Live)

"Don't become a mere recorder of facts, but try to penetrate the mystery of their origin." - Ivan Pavlov

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the start of a (hopefully) good weekend

i was up at 6 this morning. amazingly it was 42 degrees outside. i didn't turn on the heat last night, so the house was a comfortable 67. i believe my sister is reading this and saying something along the lines of that being cold as fuck.

Manchester United won this morning 2-0. considering they played the entire second half up a man, i would have liked to seen 4 or 5 goals. but, i'll gladly take the win. RVP and Rooney with the goals. starts off a huge week with Champions League play coming and the huge stage of next weekend against Manchester City.

the Yankees dug themselves a big hole last night. they came out of it and then their depleted bullpen put them right back in it. 8-4 loss on a night where all the teams around them in the standings won. 2 games out now, needing to pass Cleveland and Tampa to make a playoff spot. i'll watch a little of the game this afternoon, probably with one eye closed.

a big day of sports ahead. soccer for the next few hours. a huge (at least the way it has been hyped) game between Texas A&M and Alabama, and Ohio State is on the west coast for a game this evening. all of that, some ROH late tonight and perhaps a little writing and beer drinking in between.

i now need to go feed the cats and see how the young ones survived the cold. i believe we are down to only 1 new kitten now. this is why i refuse to name them until they survive a winter out here.

hope everyone has a good day. i do hope to have some poetry news to pass along tomorrow.

music:

Bassnectar - Freestyle Mixtape

"Don't become a mere recorder of facts, but try to penetrate the mystery of their origin." - Ivan Pavlov