while thinking of a title for this...

 i have been running my finger over a scar on my left middle finger. i have moments where i can remember every fucking scar on my body and just by touching them, recall exactly how i got them. usually involves knives or drunken follies. not sure what put me in this mindset this morning, now afternoon. i suppose getting hardly any sleep again would be the most likely explanation. joy.

Ohio State destroyed Minnesota yesterday, 37-3. next up is that team up north.

i did watch a few college football games yesterday:

the New York Rangers won at the Devils last night, 5-3.

i did catch some of the Formula 1 race last night as well.

Saturday Night Live was very funny last night.

Austin City Limits was excellent last night.

here are your NBA highlights from last night:

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Shining Vale, Last Week Tonight, Fellow Travelers and The Curse.

the Dayton Flyers play tonight in the finals of that tournament in Charleston against #6 Houston. Dayton is +12.5 for the game, so i took the points. hopefully, i will win a little money, hoping that Dayton doesn't get blown out.

i will probably be on here in the early afternoon tomorrow.

i hope everyone had a great Saturday. i hope your Sunday will be even better.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

rastreando mis cicatrices

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

d'Lakes - Pendulum of Appreciation

Siula - Ischia

boygenius & Ye Vagabonds - The Parting Glass

Kenya Grace - Strangers

The Last Dinner Party - Nothing Matters

"Censorship feeds the dirty mind more than the four-letter word itself." - Dick Cavett

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

my poem in HSTQ: Fall 2023

 my poem "nothing but pain" has been included in the Horror Sleaze Trash Quarterly: Fall 2023. to get a FREE copy of the issue, please go here:

https://horrorsleazetrash.com/2023/11/18/hstq-fall-2023/

welcome to the weekend

 i got up early this morning because mom wanted to be up so she could get ready to go to a funeral. i didn't go. i've got laundry to do, pills to pick up from Rite Aid, etc. 

i did go to Rite Aid yesterday. probably 45 minutes after i got home, they texted me saying i had prescriptions ready to pick up. god forbid have them all ready at one time for me.

the Dayton Flyers won yesterday against St. John's, 88-81. they will play Houston on Sunday night for the championship down in Charleston. Houston is rated number 6 in the country, so Dayton will have nothing to lose when they play on Sunday night. a win will give them a really good resume come tournament time. a loss will be fine since they aren't supposed to win this game anyway.

Smackdown and NXT Level Up were both pretty good last night.

AEW Collision and AEW Rampage were both pretty good last night as well.

Real Time with Bill Maher was pretty funny last night.

here are your NBA highlights from last night:

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Saturday Night Live and Austin City Limits.

Ohio State plays at home this afternoon against Minnesota.

the New York Rangers play tonight at New Jersey.

i'm sure i will watch plenty of college football today.

i should be on here tomorrow in the morning most likely.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

preparándose para el día del pavo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

H.E.R. - The Glass

Five Finger Death Punch w/Rob Zombie - Burn MF

Lusine w/Asy Saavedra - Dreaming

Shaina Hayes - New Favorite

Delta Rae - Give Her What She Wants

"If I waited for perfection... I would never write a word." - Margaret Atwood

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

and here comes the rain...

 so, i decided to get the poems out last night because i knew today would be a rainy mess. and typing while it is rainy is a fucking nightmare for me. doesn't make doing the blog any easier, but you get my drift.

the Dayton Flyers came back from down 15 points in the second half yesterday against LSU to winning 70-67. that win puts them against St. John's later this afternoon.

i did watch some of the NFL game last night. the Ravens beat the Bengals, 34-20.

the USMNT defeated Trinidad and Tobago 3-0 last night. they play again on Monday.

NJPW was really good last night.

here are your NBA highlights from last night:

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, AEW Rampage, AEW Collision and Real Time with Bill Maher. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.

i might watch some college football tonight as well.

i need to go to Rite Aid this afternoon and pick up my prescription.

i should be on here in the morning tomorrow.

i hope everyone has a great weekend.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Aqui viene la lluvia

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Bombay Bicycle Club - Turn The World On

Gen and the Degenerates - Big Hit Single

Kenton Mackay - Royalty Free

The Cure - Friday I'm In Love

Catherine Wheel - Black Metallic

"I just think too much sometimes." - Jeff Buckley

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

poetry update

 i just sent out 23 poems; 3 to The Beatnik Cowboy and 5 each to Horror Sleaze Trash, Synchronized Chaos, Black Coffee Review and Lothlorien Poetry Journal. when i hear back from these places i will pass along the verdicts.

response from Cajun Mutt Press...

 i heard back from Cajun Mutt Press on my recent poetry submission. my poem "instead of bankrupt..." has been accepted for publication. it is scheduled to be published on December 6th.

up too early...

 when you get to bed sometime after 4 AM, i can't imagine being happy with being up at 8. and sure enough, there i was, waking up a little after 8 and unable to fall back asleep. here's why i hate getting 5 or 6 hours of sleep. the next night, it never fails, i'll get less than 4. consistent fucking sleep is all i really need right now. and i know there is little fucking chance of that happening. joy.

i did do some poetry work last night. i know where my next 23 poems will be going to. that will likely happen sometime tomorrow.

AEW Dynamite was really good last night.

The Masked Singer was crazy as usual last night.

here are your NBA highlights from last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NJPW.

the USMNT plays tonight against Trinidad & Tobago. 

the Dayton Flyers play LSU this afternoon. i will hopefully be home from Meijer in time to watch the game on ESPN2.

i will probably watch some of the Bengals at Ravens game tonight on Amazon Prime.

it is another sunny day here so far. i think a cold front is supposed to move through here tonight. oh joy.

i should be on here tomorrow after i get back from mom's physical therapy appointment. 

hope everyone has a great day. 

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Despierto demasiado temprano

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Melenas - Bang

Butcher Brown - Eye Never Knew

NOA w/CHRON!AC - Ba Li

The Southern River Band - Stan Qualen

Honey Made - FYC

"The imagination is the golden pathway to everywhere." - Terence McKenna

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

i actually got some sleep...

 if you call getting over 5 hours of sleep a miracle, then that is what i had overnight. i'm not sure if it was pure exhaustion or depression or the extremely visual dreams about death that lulled me into a deep sleep. but, holy shit, i felt like i was actually refreshed when i woke up. personally, i'm going with death. it tends to have a calming effect on me anymore. 

grocery shopping today went pretty well. there was this woman at Kroger that smelled fucking amazing. i didn't want to come off as the fucking creep, but i definitely passed her twice on purpose just to get to smell it again. i have no fucking clue what it was. it smelled like Hawaii and heaven i suppose. i got everything on the list and kept it under $200. and of course, when i got home, mom told me what she forgot. so, i guess i'll get that tomorrow. joy.

NXT was good last night.

Inside the NFL was pretty funny last night.

the season finale of Welcome to Wrexham was excellent last night.

Name That Tune was hilarious last night.

The Voice was excellent last night.

here are your NBA highlights from last night:

i made a little money last night on college basketball. nothing like putting $1 down on 10 teams and getting all 10 games correct. that paid out a little over $220. good times.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be AEW Dynamite and The Masked Singer.

i might watch some college football tonight. i did watch a little bit last night. made money on that as well.

i am going to try to be on here tomorrow before the Dayton Flyers play LSU in Charleston, South Carolina in the afternoon. i think the game is on ESPN2.

a big thank you to everyone for checking out my latest published poems:

https://synchchaos.com/poetry-from-j-j-campbell-93/

i need to get going and make dinner. i believe we're having some nachos again.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

dormí un poco

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Athlete Whippet - U Look at Me

Madi Diaz & Kacey Musgraves - Don't Do Me Good

Mannequin Pussy - Sometimes

Hurray for the Riff Raff - Alibi

Bonnie Montgomery - Half Drunk

"To create one's world in any of the arts takes courage." - Georgia O'Keeffe

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

my 5 poems at Synchronized Chaos...

 my poems "given the family history", "high school glory only goes so far", "release the evil", "all the way out here" and "a winter coat" have been published at Synchronized Chaos. you can read the poems by going here:

https://synchchaos.com/poetry-from-j-j-campbell-93/

a step forward and then of course...

 i always love how the muse likes to tell me of the men she's flying all over the world to meet. part of me believes this is to make me jealous. part of me thinks she's seeking the approval of a friend for her happiness. the conversation today just felt different. maybe that is my own feelings getting wrapped into this or maybe i'm picking up on something. but as i watch the amount of friends i have shrink into barely a handful anymore, i often wonder about my own loneliness. as much as i want to believe that there is someone out there that actually wants to love me that doesn't have suitcase after suitcase of baggage that comes with it, the more i believe that sadly, there isn't. and that's one of those truths that kicks you right in the dick and dares you to get back up, just so it can kick you again. and my days of being a glutton for punishment are running out.

i did write 2 poems today while mom was doing her physical therapy. i typed those up when we got back home. hopefully, i will get my ass in gear and get some poems out soon.

The Voice was really good last night.

Monday Night Raw was good last night.

i did watch some of the NFL game last night between Denver and Buffalo. talk about inventing new ways to lose.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be NXT, Inside the NFL, the season finale of Welcome to Wrexham, Name That Tune and The Voice.

here are your NBA highlights from last night.

congrats to The King for going into the Hockey Hall of Fame last night.

i should be on here tomorrow after i get all the grocery shopping done.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

no quiero morir solo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Cowboy Junkies - Sun Comes up, It's Tuesday Morning

Actress - It's Me

Voxtrot - New World Romance

Gold Panda - Swimmer (Kaitlyn Aurelia Smith Remix)

Steve Earle - Copperhead Road

"My life has been nothing but a failure." - Claude Monet

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

nothing like 3 1/2 hours of sleep...

 sometimes the pain gets to the point where i am simply in my massage chair hoping that it will subside for a bit so i can get some shit done. and eventually, either the ice works or my stubbornness gets to the point where i say fuck it, and i just go. the problem with that is it takes me forever to get things done. like last night, it took me forever just to do one day's worth of dishes. and then going through emails, paying some bills and next thing you know, it is 5:30 in the morning and the plumber will be here at 10. joy.

it looks everything is a go for the kitchen remodel. you have no clue how fucking happy i am going to be to actually have a fucking dishwasher again.

the New Orleans Saints played like shit yesterday and lost at Minnesota, 27-19. when you lose your QB, one of your top WR's and your top CB, it makes for a long, long game. thankfully, the bye week is now.

the New York Rangers won last night at home over Columbus in a shootout, 4-3. considering the Rangers tied the game with 11 seconds to go in the 3rd period, i'll gladly take those 2 points.

the Columbus Crew won last night at home over Atlanta, 4-2, to advance in the MLS playoffs.

the season finale of Power Book IV: Force was excellent last night.

Last Week Tonight was BRILLIANT, as usual.

Shining Vale was fucking hilarious last night.

Fellow Travelers was very good last night.

The Curse was fucking great last night.

here are your NBA highlights from last night:

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be The Voice and Monday Night Raw.

i have no clue what i am making for dinner tonight. might just be whatever in the freezer cooks at the same temperature.

i should be on here tomorrow after mom has physical therapy.

i hope everyone had a great weekend.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

necesito dormir más

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Zac Brown Band w/Marcus King - Whipping Post (Live)

Shooter Jennings & The Werewolves of Los Angeles - Carmelita (Live)

Sadie Fine - Friends with Benefits

Halestorm - Freak Like Me

Leisure - Back In Love

"Wine is bottled poetry." - Robert Louis Stevenson

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

i'm not sure if you can call it sleep...

 i was a busy boy yesterday. i was hoping that was going to exhaust me but of course it didn't. i'm at the age now where i might get a few hours here and a few hours there but there is just so much shit going on that actual rest is a fucking fairytale. i did make it to Rite Aid yesterday. by the time mom stopped putting shit on the list, even with this good ass coupon i had, i spent over $140 there. i did get the house vacuumed before the Ohio State game last night. that is always a good measure to see how much my bad back is fucking with me. and as usual, i needed ice afterwards. i eventually got to bed at 4:30 AM. i first saw the clock at 7. life is a cruel joke. and of course, mom wanted a big breakfast this morning. 

Ohio State whipped Michigan State last night, 38-3.

i did watch a few college football games yesterday.

here are your NBA highlights from last night.

AEW Collision was pretty good last night.

Austin City Limits was great last night.

Saturday Night Live was fucking hilarious last night.

Albert Brooks: Defending My Life was very good last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be the season finale of Power Book IV: Force, Last Week Tonight, Shining Vale, Fellow Travelers and The Curse.

the New Orleans Saints play today at the Vikings. hopefully, the boys can find a way to win today.

the New York Rangers play tonight at home against Columbus.

the Columbus Crew play at home tonight against Atlanta in the MLS playoffs.

i will probably be on here tomorrow in the afternoon. the plumber is coming tomorrow to look at the toilet and the company doing our kitchen remodel wants to have a phone meeting to go over everything one last time, get the final signoffs, etc. so yeah, i'll be on here after all that is over tomorrow.

i hope everyone had a great Saturday.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

No estoy seguro de que puedas llamarlo dormir

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

ill peach - HUSH

Scan Hopper - Ultrachorus

Swamp Wife - The Spit

Cindy Wilson - Midnight

Cat Power - Visions of Johanna (Live)

"True artists are almost the only men who do their work for pleasure." - Auguste Rodin

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

Happy Veterans Day...

 to everyone that served this country, even my piece of shit dead father, thank you...

the Dayton Flyers lost last night at Northwestern, 71-66. Dayton shot the ball well, but had way too many turnovers and not enough key rebounds.

Smackdown and NXT Level Up were both pretty good last night.

AEW Rampage was good last night.

Real Time with Bill Maher was pretty funny last night.

here are your NBA highlights from last night:

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Austin City Limits, Saturday Night Live, AEW Collision and Albert Brooks: Defending My Life.

Ohio State plays at home tonight against Michigan State.

i did get up in time to watch Manchester United this morning. they won 1-0. better than losing i guess.

i'm sure i will watch a few college football games today.

i know i need to go to Rite Aid today as well. and i need to vacuum the house.

i should be on here tomorrow before the New Orleans Saints play at the Vikings.

i hope everyone has a great Saturday.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Feliz dia de los veteranos

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Clutch - Fortunate Son

John Preston - Before I Am Gone

John Prine - Sam Stone

Alice In Chains - Rooster (Live)

Jason Isbell and the 400 Unit - Dress Blues (Live)

Jimi Hendrix - The Star Spangled Banner (Live)

"True terror is to wake up one morning and discover that your high school class is running the country."

                                                                    - Kurt Vonnegut

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

welcome to the weekend...

 mom's DEXA scan went well today. she said it was much easier than it was in the past. i did write 2 poems while i was in the waiting room. i typed those up when we got back home. 

i had a pretty amazing conversation with the muse last night. if i am lucky enough to live another ten years, then maybe i actually will have something to look forward to. and as much as that is appealing to me, i also know we are talking about my life. there is little to no fucking chance that what i would love to happen actually will. but, i do think it will make for some good poems along the way. and shit, who knows. maybe the gods actually allow me to win one for a change.

the New York Rangers won last night at home against Minnesota, 4-1. they are down to their 3rd string goalie, out 2 of their best players and are still humming right along. i have a good feeling about this team.

here are your NBA highlights from last night:

i didn't watch any of the NFL game last night.

NJPW was really good last night.

the season finale of Big Brother was excellent last night. Jag won part 3 of the HOH competition and decided to take Matt to the final 2. that shocked me a bit. but, Jag's argument was excellent as he basically told everyone about the role he played in evicting them. Jag won the jury vote 5-2 to win Big Brother. Matt got second place. Cameron was voted America's favorite player.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Smackdown, AEW Rampage and Real Time with Bill Maher. i'll watch NXT Level Up sometime tonight on Peacock.

the Dayton Flyers play tonight at Northwestern. they found out yesterday their starting point guard is out for the season with a torn meniscus. so, i'm hoping they can find a way to get a big win on the road tonight, but it won't be easy.

i will probably be on here tomorrow after Manchester United plays in the morning.

i hope everyone has a great weekend.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck war.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

stay off the fucking streets.

get the fucking shot.

Bienvenido al fin de semana

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Drop Nineteens - A Hitch

Mocean Worker - Sammy Davis Jr.'s

Dua Lipa - Houdini

The Wallflowers - 6th Avenue Heartache (Live)

Chris Stapleton - Weight Of Your World

"Bad news travels at the speed of light; good news travels like molasses." - Tracy Morgan

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

response from Synchronized Chaos...

 i heard back from Cristina at Synchronized Chaos on my poetry submission from yesterday. my poems "given the family history", "high school glory only goes so far", "release the evil", "all the way out here" and "a winter coat" have been accepted for publication.