on the eve of something i guess

as you might notice, i've begun changing the blog. i have no clue what the final product will end up looking like, i just know i want it to look different. it's sort of the reason why i shave every once in awhile; i just need a fucking change. so, be patient, i'll still post everyday. just think of it like a construction site. but i won't be handing out speeding tickets.

i got my new webcam in the mail today. the postal carrier and i might have a talk here soon. he stuffed the box into the mailbox. and i know if i had problems pulling it out, the asshole that put it in there had problems as well. but, the camera works, so... looks like i might be doing a YouTube video on my 40th birthday tomorrow.

i heard back from Nerve Cowboy yesterday on my submission from last September. they decided to pass. well, at least i have 5 poems now ready to send somewhere else. i'll most likely be doing that tomorrow as well.

the New York Rangers won last night 3-2 in OT over Vancouver. i was happy with the win and even more happy that they had over 40 shots on goal. maybe the screams of SHOOT THE FUCKING PUCK from the living room were actually heard for a change.

when the Dayton Flyers were up by 31 last night, i figured they were going to win. but, seeing i've been a fan for my entire life and know what happens when they have big leads, i didn't turn the game off. as usual, Dayton tried to give the game away to St. Bonaventure, but the lead ended up being too big. Dayton won 85-79. they next play Sunday at Fordham.

Total Divas last night was pretty damn funny.

i think the only reason i watch this show is to laugh my ass off.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

i'll be watching NXT tonight on WWE Network. other than that, i'll probably just be flipping through the channels.

we did get some snow this morning, maybe an inch or so. i think it depends on the track of the next storm to see how much we get tomorrow night into Friday morning. it may be nothing or it could be close to a foot. good times.

i did listen to Sam Roberts Wrestling Podcast today with Chris Hero. i highly recommend it.

not sure what is going to happen tomorrow. i'm really just going to treat it as just another day. i don't think we've done anything "special" for one of my birthdays in years, so i'm not expecting anything tomorrow.

i hope this finds everyone warm and a little drunk.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Jimi Hendrix - Machine Gun
Tom Waits - Chocolate Jesus
David Bowie - Modern Love

"Negativity is the enemy of creativity." - David Lynch

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day:

depression and easter candy...

today on the 5th day of National Poetry Month, i'd like to shine a little light on another zine i absolutely fucking love, Nerve Cowboy.

Nerve Cowboy is one of the zines i am most proud of to be published by. the quality of the work within each issue is on par with ANY zine in the world, small press, academic, snob poetry, etc. do yourself a favor and go the site, http://www.nervecowboy.com/, click on chapbooks or subscriptions and support this wonderful magazine. it will be well worth your time and money.

i went over to the farm this morning to get all the trash down to the end of the lane. there was a ton of it. i'm sure the garbage men are going to be thrilled. of course, since today is a holiday, my sister and i got into it. my sister likes to think she runs shit when she comes down here. mom allows her to think that way too much (my opinion) so, every once in a while, i try to bring my sister back to reality. but god forbid tell her to shut her mouth when it comes to shit i want to keep at the new house. as i warned my mother, allowing my sister to buy her this house was going to give her full reign in her mind to do whatever the fuck she wants with it. and sure enough, slowly this is becoming like her place. i don't think my sister knows i heard her this morning after our little argument when she asked my mother if she has her will done or not. i took that as yet another shot at me and my depression and whatnot. i would think my sister and my mother would both know by now i will kill myself before i would do anything to them. they have already showed what i mean to them over the years by making sure to celebrate each holiday with the cousin that molested me. i'm the one that gets to grapple with loneliness. good times.

so, on that lovely note, on with this shit...

the New York Rangers whipped the shit out of the Devils last night, 6-1. that gives them 50 wins for the 4th time in franchise history. here are some highlights from the win:

i did watch most of the Final Four last night. i wasn't shocked that Wisconsin beat Kentucky. i was a little shocked at how easily Duke won. the Kentucky loss killed my main bracket, so i have no interest in the title game on Monday night. thankfully, there will be plenty of other shit on to watch.

i'm trailing badly in my fantasy hockey championship match. hopefully in this final week, the worm will turn.

for those of you concerned, my ankle is still attached to my body. it feels a little better today. i'm guessing that's because there's no rain in the area. now, most of next week i will be a pissy mess as it's supposed to rain just about every single fucking day. good times.

that's all for today. hope the Saturday night hangover isn't fucking with you too bad today.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Muddy Waters - Mannish Boy
Joe Bonamassa - Midnight Blues (Live)
Michael Burks - Cross Eyed Woman
Brian Keith Wallen - Truth Is...
Tinsley Ellis - In From the Cold

"Poems in a way are spells against death. They are milestones, to see where you were then from where you are now. To perpetuate your feelings, to establish them. If you have in any way touched the central heart of mankind's feelings, you'll survive." - Richard Eberhart

your pro wrestling video of the day:

happy end of 2014

my home phone line is still fucked up. anytime anyone calls, the internet goes out. those assholes at Frontier Communications said it would be fixed yesterday. today of course, they said it would be fixed by 5 pm. i can't wait to hear what time it will be fixed tomorrow. just another reason to get off the fucking farm.

the Dayton Flyers played another great game last night, other than the last few minutes where they got tighter than a nun's asshole. Dayton beat Ole Miss 78-74 last night. that should be a win that helps them come March. they go into A10 play at 10-2. 20 wins should be a given this season now. here are some highlights from last night:

pro wrestler Chris Hero was at the Dayton game last night. second time in a week i've seen him there. i damn near wore the shirt of his i have to the game, but i figured there was no way he would be there again. mom tried to get a few pictures of him. of course, she said she was going to email them to me so i could post them on here. as you can see, that didn't happen.

we did go to Waffle House after the game. it was pretty uneventful other than the police officer who came in and was obviously trolling for pussy. that certainly made me laugh and i'll probably have a poem about that soon.

speaking of poems, i did send one poem out late last night. a guy contacted me on LinkedIn and wanted me to send him some work. he requested rhyming poems, which i laughed at, as i haven't written one of those in over 20 fucking years. he then told me to send him anything, which i did. i'll pass on the verdict when i hear back from him. i do like the concept he has for this site/zine. here is a link to it www.newpoetry.net.

it was another cold as fuck morning. the furnace blew at the house my mom is renting out in the next town over. if it isn't one thing, it's another. the one cat out here who refuses to shit in the litter box in the outside building we have it in, left me a huge gift on the plywood floor today. i always love frozen shit that you need a shovel for. good times.

i had another morning on iTunes. i'm trying to find a song they played at the game last night. of course, i wasn't able to find it. you'll see my random thoughts in the songs i got.

i'm looking forward to the USA vs. Canada game at the 2015 World Juniors today. it's for first place in the group. the winner of this game will have the best chance to play for the championship. it should be a good one.

tonight, the New York Rangers play down in Florida against the Panthers. i'd love to see them finish 2014 with a win.

i'll probably go easy with the drinking tonight as Manchester United plays at 7 in the morning here.

i do hope everyone has a great New Year's Eve. if you are drinking, be safe. if you are driving, look out for the drunks.

thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your time.

i'll be on here sometime tomorrow to welcome in 2015. maybe with a smile on my face or perhaps a shit eatin' grin.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Adina Howard - Freak Like Me
Marian Hill - Got It
Kendrick Lamar - i
Smashing Pumpkins - Rhinoceros
Ed Sheeran - Thinking Out Loud

"I've never played for a draw in my life." - Sir Alex Ferguson

the eve of something

my neck still hurts. i figure it is a combination of the pinched nerve and the fucking weather. i see the doctor in a few days, so we'll see.

it has been very dreary and gloomy here today. rain and then more rain. and now some wind and the temperatures are dropping. have i ever told you how my bad back loves a cold front?

the Dayton Flyers took Georgia Tech behind the woodshed last night and beat the shit out of them. a 75-61 win that every fan will remember as a wonderful Christmas gift. the former coach of Dayton is still stuck in his ways that never got Dayton past superior mediocrity. i can't imagine he'll be at Georgia Tech for long. here are some highlights from last night:

after the game, i sat down in my chair to exhale and happened to look to the right. holy shit. the guy about 5 feet from me looks an awful like the pro wrestler Chris Hero. i tell my mom this because i bought one of his t-shirts for myself for Christmas. she looks at him and says that can't be him, too small. i take another look and say that's definitely him. sadly, he was busy talking to a guy and i'm not the type of asshole that will interrupt someone for a autograph or picture request. so, after we ate dinner at Waffle House, i got on the internet back at the farm. i went to his twitter account (@thechrishero) and sure enough, the last two tweets posted were about the Dayton basketball game. i showed my mother and she finally started to believe me.

i watched a little of the New York Rangers replay before i went to bed last night. i'm extremely happy with this 7 game winning streak. they are really starting to look like a team that can do some damage this season. here are some highlights from the 4-2 win over Washington:

those two victory beers went down very quickly. i think i may crack open the vodka my sister got me for Christmas to celebrate my fantasy football championship.

i've been a busy boy today on iTunes. you'll see what i'm talking about below.

i hope everyone is having a great Christmas Eve. whether you are with family or a hooker, i do hope you enjoy your time. thanks again for allowing me to waste a few minutes of your time.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Bruce Springsteen - Santa Claus Is Comin' to Town
Over the Rhine - Ohio
You+Me - No Ordinary Love
Caribou - Can't Do Without You
Ana Tijoux - Vengo

"Controversy is only dreaded by the advocates of error." - Benjamin Rush

one sleepy weekend

so i fell asleep last night right before the dunk contest started. i didn't mind that as i really don't care for the dunk contest. i've never been able to dunk. and i'm never going to be able to dunk. what really made me laugh is i fell asleep both times i tried to watch ROH last night. thankfully, i watched it this afternoon. it's always a good time when i get to see Chris Hero wrestle, mostly because he went to the high school 1 town away from me.

i was up early again this morning to watch team USA play men's hockey. i was really hoping they weren't going to be in a fog because of the amazing and draining victory over Russia yesterday. Phil Kessel decided they were going to be focused on Slovenia by scoring 64 seconds into the game. that was the start of a natural hat trick for him and a 5-1 win. that clinches the group and the second seed for the quarterfinals. so, that basically means they are most likely going to face Canada in the semis. i'll get to that mountain when it happens. right now i'm hoping they are focused on playing whoever wins between the Czech Republic and Slovakia. and hopefully they enjoy a couple days off. i like that this team still hasn't played its best game yet. and Ryan McDonagh is becoming the second coming of Brian Leetch. always good to see when the players from the New York Rangers are doing well.

i did watch a little NASCAR qualifying for Daytona today. just enough to satisfy my inner redneck. it's going to be a little crazy to see the #3 on the pole for the Daytona 500. toss in bizarre and emotional as well. it is going to be a circus. but that reminds me, i need to get my NASCAR fantasy team going again.

i took a nice long shower today. it would have been great if my back wouldn't have tightened up during it. that's always fun. i always get the feeling that one of these days my back is going to lock up in a painful position and i'll be home alone. now you know why i don't jerk off in the shower.

i'm looking forward to the Sunday night shows. True Detective has me hooked big time. Shameless is going strong as well this season. Girls is having a much better season than the last one. i would put House of Lies in that category as well. as for Episodes, it is simply so bad it is good in a laughing at them kind of way.

i might watch a little bit of the NBA All-Star game tonight. not a great deal though. it usually turns into a glorified AAU game.

the weather here has been a steady cold blah all day long. no sunshine at all. it is supposed to warm up here by about 30 degrees in a few days. that will turn all this snow into mud pretty damn quick. but, if that allows my pinched nerve and bad back to feel a little better, i'm all for it.

that's all for me today. i hope everyone had a great weekend. hopefully a few of you have decided to not stop the weekend. take it easy and if it's easy, take it again.

be well my friends and enemies. until tomorrow.

music:

Wu-Tang Clan - Enter The Wu-Tang (36 Chambers)
Portugal. The Man - Evil Friends

"A people without the knowledge of their past history, origin and culture is like a tree without roots." - Marcus Garvey