i wish my brain could just shut down for a few hours...

these endless cycles of falling asleep around 5 in the morning are eventually going to kill me. the question i ask myself always is will i actually get to truly fall in love before that happens or will i die like one of my sad poems? and the fact that that question is still being asked at the age 42 is not only sad, but fucking horrific. and as much as i want to believe that some woman is going to never believe her luck one day when she's with me, society has painted a completely different picture where my sad death alone seems like the only logical solution to any of this. and in between that gulf is where all the poems come from.

i wrote 3 poems today while mom was getting her x-rays done. we went out to Perkins for lunch. when i got home, i had a little scare. there was a tornado warning for the area where the muse lives. thankfully, she's okay. i did type the poems up. i do think they are pretty good. i should have another batch of poems ready to go in a few days.

the New York Yankees pissed away a lead yesterday and lost to Toronto, 3-2. thank fucking god they are off tonight. the loss means that all Boston has to do is beat the Yankees once in the next 3 games and Boston wins the division and gets to celebrate at Yankee Stadium. i figure that will take place tomorrow afternoon. joy.

the New Orleans Saints played like shit yesterday. but, thankfully, Cleveland's kicker decided he no longer wanted a job in the NFL anymore. he missed 2 extra points and 2 field goals yesterday as the Saints beat the Brows 21-18. the Saints easily should have lost the game. not good.

WWE Hell in a Cell was really good last night. most of the matches exceeded what i thought was going to happen. and there was a nice holy shit moment at the end of the night that certainly makes things a little more interesting.

Big Brother was pretty good last night.

The Deuce was really good last night.

Ballers was good last night.

Insecure was fucking hilarious last night.

America to Me was very good last night.

Shameless was great last night.

Kidding was excellent once again last night.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight. i'll spend most of the night watching Monday Night Raw.

the New York Rangers play their first pre-season game tonight at New Jersey. i will probably watch some of that.

i'll probably be on here in the morning tomorrow, before the Yankees game. at some point tomorrow afternoon mom wants me to take her down to Best Buy to finally get a new television for the living room. it's only been a little over a month now since it's gone out. we also have to look for a mount for the television in the kitchen as mom wants to put that up on the wall now.

i hope everyone had a great weekend.

the remnants of Florence are making their way up the east coast now. i have way too many friends, fans, enemies and a certain woman i love in that area to not be concerned. i hope all of you are safe.

un día la musa se dará cuenta de cuánto la amo

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

Orgy - Blue Monday
Placebo - Pure Morning
Everlast - What It's Like

"People don't want other people to get high, because if you get high, you might see the falsity of the fabric of the society we live in." - Ken Kesey

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