what happens when you no longer enjoy the pain???

my back has been really killing me the last few days. and when i get into these stages of constant pain, i tend to get a little irritable. not violent, not fuck the world mad, but a short enough fuse that i know the asshole inside of me wants to come out and play. that has been what i've been fighting for days now. amazingly, i was able to fight it off again today. and considering the zoo at the grocery store today, i'm a little shocked.

other than the beautiful black woman that asked me about the New Orleans Saints defense, most of the people at the grocery store were just in the fucking way. i'm very understanding with the elderly, considering i live with one. it's these fucking younger people, on their phones, with their earbuds in, basically, in some different world than the present, that are constantly just in the fucking way. and i swear, do any of these fucks understand anything about social distancing? last thing i want is someone breathing over my shoulder looking for canned peas. fuck me.

NXT last night was good. i really wish they would have crowned a new champion last night, but oh well. next Tuesday should be great.

Hard Knocks was excellent last night. i missed part of the show as a storm knocked out the satellite for a five minutes or so. i did enjoy the fact that the players completely understand that this moment in our country is too big to just sit out or say nothing.

Deadliest Catch was really good last night.

here are your highlights from the NBA last night:

here are your highlights from the NHL last night:

the Yankees beat Tampa last night, 5-3. Tampa got a little pissed that the Yankees did to them what they usually do to the Yankees; throw high and tight, back them off the plate, hit them if you have to. so when Chapman threw a 101 mph fastball at one of their heads last night, everyone got a little pissy. Tampa's manager basically said they have a whole pen of guys who throw 98 mph... so yeah, i am hoping for fireworks tonight. i doubt it will happen since the Yankees manager and Tampa's manager are both suspended for tonight. Chapman got 3 games. he is appealing the suspension. good times.

enjoy some music:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be Vice News Tonight, AEW, Big Brother and Cari & Jemele Stick to Sports.

i'm sure i'll probably watch some of the NBA and NHL playoffs tonight as well.

i should be on here tomorrow after i pick up my pills at the pharmacy. of course, they couldn't have them done when i was at the grocery store.

i need to do my laundry at some point. so, i will squeeze a blog in tomorrow between laundry, writing poems and going back to the store. joy.

i hope this finds everyone well. to all my friends in Minsk, keep up the good fight. to all my friends in the USA, fucking vote please. and to all my enemies, hope you enjoy the blog.

until tomorrow kids...

fight the power.

fuck racism.

fuck hatred.

fuck the police.

black lives matter.

stay healthy.

wash your fucking hands.

wear your mask.

libertad para todos

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Black Crowes - She Talks To Angels
The Lemonheads - My Drug Buddy
The Twilight Singers - Powder Burns
The Firm - Satisfaction Guaranteed

"Grief changes shape, but it never ends." - Keanu Reeves

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: