step into the darkness and suddenly feel at home

i fell into my usual Christmas trap yesterday. while my mother and sister were next door, i was here by myself pondering all my failures and my loneliness on a day where no one is supposed to feel lonely. i did use that depression to get some shit done though. i finished reading a book of poetry that was great and watched a few things on the DVR. i watched that U2 concert from Paris they did a few weeks back. the recording cut off before it was over. so i did something i should have done a long time ago. i got a HBO GO account. i was able to watch what i missed in about 3 minutes after signing up. not sure how much i will use it, but that certainly came in handy.

i do have some poems swimming up in my head. whenever they fucking decide to come out of the water and make it onto the page, i'm more than ready.

i avoided most of the NBA games yesterday. i did get a good laugh though at LeBron catching the woman in the crowd calling him a crybaby. it's always funny when you see a white person get caught doing some stupid shit by a large black male.
http://www.sbnation.com/lookit/2015/12/25/10665974/lebron-james-cavs-warriors-fan-crybaby-caught-christmas

so i got up this morning after more or less forcing myself to sleep on my right hip. i can't sleep comfortably on my left side for some fucking reason. so the 5 hours i got was more or less just block out the pain and sleep. Manchester United was playing at Stoke this morning. i knew it was going to be a tough game but LVG said it was a MUST win game. i figured he said that because he knows he's on the chopping block. so i was expecting United to come inspired and i was completely fucking wrong. they had the wind at their backs and couldn't do shit with it. 20 or so minutes in and they were down 2-0. they decided to put Rooney on at halftime and that might have worked in a different year. United more or less had one chance and of course, didn't do shit with it. this is the first time Manchester United has lost 4 games in a row in all competitions since 1961. a new manager can't get here soon enough.

enjoy some music kids:

and now some of this and that:

on the DVR tonight will be ROH.

the World Juniors Hockey Tournament started today over in Finland. team USA takes on Canada later today. that should be interesting. hopefully the boys can come away with a medal this year.

i got some pretty cool t-shirts from my sister yesterday and some Batman and Star Wars stuff from my mother. both of them really enjoyed what i got them, so that made me happy.

i added a contact form to the right hand side of the blog yesterday. so if you'd rather email me than leave a comment, feel free.

my uncle might be getting out of the nursing home soon. he's hoping for Monday. from what i've heard, he's getting stronger but he's still not doing everything he should be doing. as you might notice, i come from a long line of stubborn fucks.

i will hopefully get to take a shower today and maybe watch some football as well. i have no clue if my mother and sister have something planned to do today or not. i think they know by now i really don't get up for family events.

i hope everyone had a great Christmas.

be well. be creative. be cool. be quick to send me CASH, panties, hate mail, love letters, broken promises and dirty pennies from heaven.

peace and chicken grease...

music:

The Black Crowes - Seeing Things (Live)
Lucinda Williams - Change the Locks (Live)
Trent Reznor - Hurt (Live)
My Morning Jacket - I Love You All the Time (Live)

"Sin, guilt, neurosis; they are one and the same, the fruit of the tree of knowledge." - Henry Miller

and your whatever the fuck i wanted you to see video of the day: